She might've been more than that, I just don't have the benefit of knowing since I only met her once. But 2 months of detectable infatuation, and many months more of talking about her, mhmmm. And that pairbonding sensation in the hippocampus was still going strong about 5 days ago. So those really are my only clues. I definitely thought elements of her personality (extraversion, playful, intelligent, not-holding-herself-back, that seductive voice and behavior, affectionate) were exceedingly attractive.
I honestly seem to be more like the chick who yearns to be part of her one night stand's world, so it's obviously not a one-night-stand kind of infatuation.
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It's funny to think I'm one of those "Marries for life" kind of people and I just married myself to a person I will never see again, lol, pretty much doomed a life of loneliness at this point, lol. I see those advertisements every so often on the local craiglist w4m missed connections, how a girl yearns for someone they met years or even decades earlier and they cannot get over them.
To be sure... the ambiance of the end of the situation seemed to be like someone who just chose their bride, lol.
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I find it interesting someone would claim "Men want sex, women want money".... because... it looks to me like men want money more than women do and looking at income stats, it seems like they often have more of it. So, I think it might be more accurate to say, "everyone wants money, men want sex", lol. And, can't ignore the reality that lots of girls want sex with sexy men. And there is much indication that girls want love, and at least some guys do too (I think I'm one of them).
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It's interesting to see what kind of insights we can get into sexiness by using google images.
sexy men
https://www.google.com/search?q=%22sexy+men%22&tbm=isch&tbo=u&source=univ&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjO4sDApPDWAhUh94MKHXy-DHMQsAQIJw&biw=1440&bih=807
I'm seeing a lot of muscular guys here.
sexy women
https://www.google.com/search?biw=1440&bih=807&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=sexy+women&oq=sexy+women&gs_l=psy-ab.3..0.84198.85415.0.85958.10.8.0.0.0.0.282.1120.0j1j4.5.0....0...1.1.64.psy-ab..5.5.1119....0.0l_9Nbsf3lI
Seeing a lot of cleavage, hour glass figures and booty.
Among both genders, I'm seeing little abdominal fat, possibly indicating low-stress lives.
If I were to surmise from these results, it'd suggest that protective ability is sexy in males (strength, aggression, dominance), and fertility is sexy in females.
Seeing as to how competing male chimpanzees will eat the young of females, it's not hard to see the role of both of these attributes: the guy's ability to protect the offspring from his competitors, the girl's ability to have healthy offspring.
More comprehensively, likely the guy's ability to feed and protect the offspring.
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Got the fence finished, need to design the driveway gate. I'm thinking 4x4s, some hinges with a good amount of verticle play(For the uneven driveway) and a swivel wheel, then a solid hasp for the lock.
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You know, that girl who yelled at me the door was closed and I looked back at her and she then had a wild eyed desire look on her much like the HEB chick. I think I realized something...
She yelled at me, disrespecting me. I looked back at her with stern disapproving eyes.
Yep, I'm thinking that might've been it.
Those hoes will disrespect you and its your job to keep them in check.
Ways that they disrespect you.
YELL AT YOU - (Precisely what the HEB chick when she got angry at my having moved to her town, I then yelled back and forcefully subjected her to some rape eyes. She then instantly fell in lust, and wanted to rape my bones.)
NAME CALLING - (Things like "LOSER, COMPLETE STRANGER, etc.")
There has to be others. Like, I've seen in another example online, the girl planning on excluding you and leaving you out, disrespecting you. The best response is to forcefully suggest an acceptable alternative.
I've been seeing the trends and I'm getting better at catching them.
I almost think the best response is to do exactly what they're doing... yelling and name calling, in turn disrespecting them.
i.e., "Shut the frock up, you frocking cunt!"
That almost seems like what I saw quite a bit back in highschool with the players.
And, it almost seems like the more creative and energetic the disrespect is, the better is. i.e., "Shut the frock up, cunt" is not very creative, but it'll probably work on lots of unruly hoes.
Here's an example of some random energetic, creative disrepecting text I found somewhere online that has nothing to do with me at all, just found it randomly. :wink: Note the YELLING and NAME CALLING, and see how she laughs immediately after each item of disrespect. (Notice, a girl wouldn't have put this much time and energy into typing if she didn't find what she read highly arousing, keep that in mind)
Hey loser, I am here to control you! Good fkn luck finding a woman that you can control without duct tape and a locked door! Oh, forget the duct tape, we now the moves to get out of duct tape, learned that on U-Tube! What an anal sphincter you are! Hahahaha! Better than that, just control your penis with your right hand and a box of tissues and scream at the Vaseline when it won't work, because you can't get off without CONTROLLING A WOMAN!!! HAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAH! HEY frocker, YOU ARE SUCH A LOSER!
You know, the HEB chick was getting hysterical and creatively excited when I was leaving... kind of in the same way as this girl...without the verbal elaboration. (Mostly nonverbal)
Seems that when women get hysterically creative about/with you (going crazy, driving a girl crazy), that's a pretty good sign.
[She was actually using my name thruout,but I replaced it with other words.he The fact she's using my name tells me she has an eye on me, lol]
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The chat with the suspected vegetarian tonight was rather pleasant. She was taking on some affectionate tones, yes she was. No sense of lust at all. The HEB chick was most definitely a combination of affection and lust, with definite emphasis on the lust.
There was a girl back at nuke school, the class leader, whom maintained affectionate relations with my person. No sense of lust with her either.
Anyway, I kind of think maybe I'm over the HEB chick. I think the mischievious smiling girl one night might've been what the doctor ordered, one short lived addiction to replace another really long one. And, now I'm completely over all addictions.
Those addictions really have a noticeable affect on the kind of pleasure, like another class of pleasure. I would say that I've never experienced the affect before, but it's not true, I've just never experienced with such frequency, intensity and longevity. Especially the HEB chick, oh lawd.
It didn't really seem like it at the time, but I suspect that was the relationship between a really pretty girl and a muscular guy. The kind of girl you instantly fall for walking by, it was just hard to tell off the bat with her fake and/or trying-too-hard smiles I initially saw her with. So, yes... kind of seemed like an accomplishment. I was /that/ guy that got the pretty girl, lol. It seemed strange because I was anything but back in highschool as far as I could tell.
Anyway, apparently the brokerage trying to resell the properties around here is selling them for $12,000 each and apparently some guy just paid $20,000 for one in this neighborhood. Dang, I must've got a f'ing steal at $4000, lol. What the hell is the sudden mania with these particular properties? lol
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Anyway, I don't know, just a suspicion.
forbidden love
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=forbidden%20love
2)Society won't let you be together. This hasn't happened since Romeo and Juliette, so I'm not gonna explain it.
I suspect maybe the HEB chick was one such creature. Eviction/moving (older) or parents-yanking (younger), I can't really tell. Her beyond normal risque flirting and desperation and abrupt cutting off when I had no intention of taking her with me seemed to hint of eviction in the context of it being the first of the month, but her youthfulness and jejune personality suggested she might've been quite young. And, I suspect her desperation and above normal risque flirting might've been rooted in being an attention seeking hoe, desperate for that attention. But that seemed like a bit too much desperation for purely attention... especially the desperation that came across when I was leaving like she was really trying to figure out how to make it work... and then when it seemed she couldn't... she cut me off.