July 13
Last night, trying to sleep. Could tell anxiety was running way too high for that, but was hopeful anyway for "no problems". Yep, 1 hour later, left arm going numb and waking up all sweating. Left arm going numb happened again when I was holding a 3 pound bottle, and that kind of spooked me with it "sticking around" (Not a normal thing), so called them. Basically got told this time, for my person, only call if I'm definitely going to the hospital. Told to wait it out upwards of 30 minutes, and only call if getting worse, do what you have to, to chill.
Then this morning, started feeling a little hopeless, fleeting racing and suicidal thoughts. Hard to decide if it's "me" or the drug, that's normally out of the norm for my person, but then again... yesterday had a distinct collection of stressors along that vein. A bit of "loneliness" at the DMV, a bit of "don't call us anymore" from the EMTs, then the cardiac episode last night, seemingly relentless them, and this thought I can't realistically work before 11 a.m., which eliminates the bulk of opportunities. At the same time, what fragments of my business exist aren't enough to support me, and there's no "winter extravaganza" to look forward to this year. At least last year, my business could support me thru the summer. I'm not saying there's no hope, I'm pretty sure there's opportunities out there, but with this nocturnal monster that apparently feeds off hopelessness, makes me even more hopeless, lol.
Told myself, "la noche es un terrorista". The night is a terrorist.
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1:39 p.m., just took the fluoxetine dose about 20 minutes ago, 2nd day. Yeah, definitely noticed a subtle shift from "agitation"/anxiety to "calm". Seems to be doing what the doctor intended, here's hoping this improves sleep. Think I'll try to time the dose to my running (precede by 2 hours), so I might get that "runner's love high" again, lol.
Seem to be getting a subtle headache, migraine, at 1:43 p.m.; is fluoxetine associated with migraine...
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/11279947
Looks like it's used to treat it, with efficacy. Guess I should ignore. And feeling a little better now.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC341407/
Hmm, what is that.
Sounds fine with me! I'm assuming that's most relevant to the root problem, though I don't truly know. Could be completely irrelevant, remains to be seen.
Last night, trying to sleep. Could tell anxiety was running way too high for that, but was hopeful anyway for "no problems". Yep, 1 hour later, left arm going numb and waking up all sweating. Left arm going numb happened again when I was holding a 3 pound bottle, and that kind of spooked me with it "sticking around" (Not a normal thing), so called them. Basically got told this time, for my person, only call if I'm definitely going to the hospital. Told to wait it out upwards of 30 minutes, and only call if getting worse, do what you have to, to chill.
Then this morning, started feeling a little hopeless, fleeting racing and suicidal thoughts. Hard to decide if it's "me" or the drug, that's normally out of the norm for my person, but then again... yesterday had a distinct collection of stressors along that vein. A bit of "loneliness" at the DMV, a bit of "don't call us anymore" from the EMTs, then the cardiac episode last night, seemingly relentless them, and this thought I can't realistically work before 11 a.m., which eliminates the bulk of opportunities. At the same time, what fragments of my business exist aren't enough to support me, and there's no "winter extravaganza" to look forward to this year. At least last year, my business could support me thru the summer. I'm not saying there's no hope, I'm pretty sure there's opportunities out there, but with this nocturnal monster that apparently feeds off hopelessness, makes me even more hopeless, lol.
Told myself, "la noche es un terrorista". The night is a terrorist.
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1:39 p.m., just took the fluoxetine dose about 20 minutes ago, 2nd day. Yeah, definitely noticed a subtle shift from "agitation"/anxiety to "calm". Seems to be doing what the doctor intended, here's hoping this improves sleep. Think I'll try to time the dose to my running (precede by 2 hours), so I might get that "runner's love high" again, lol.
Seem to be getting a subtle headache, migraine, at 1:43 p.m.; is fluoxetine associated with migraine...
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/11279947
RESULTS:
A comparison of the total pain index between basal values (calculated during the period of wash out) and monthly follow-up (calculated monthly during the period of 6 months of the therapy) showed significant reduction (P < .05) beginning from the third month of treatment in the fluoxetine group and no significant reduction in the placebo group.
Looks like it's used to treat it, with efficacy. Guess I should ignore. And feeling a little better now.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC341407/
and that manufacturers marketed the early SSRIs (for example, Prozac) as antidepressants (rather than as anxiolytics)
Hmm, what is that.
An anxiolytic (also antipanic or antianxiety agent) is a medication or other intervention that inhibits anxiety
Sounds fine with me! I'm assuming that's most relevant to the root problem, though I don't truly know. Could be completely irrelevant, remains to be seen.