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Okay, flooding of the property has subsided as of today (Thursday), the ground is now just mostly soggy.
And, got started on the fence, and I'm already sweating so readily in the sun at 10:44 a.m. so I'm going to be focusing on the shaded areas upto whatever time this morning (1 p.m. prospectively).
Turns out I didn't really need a fancy tool to twist the t-post clips, a 4" screw does the trick (Which I already possessed). The threads on the screw readily grip the tie, and it's short enough to wrap around without getting stopped by the fence, so it works pretty effectively. I had this insight after finding a cheaper short solid tool designed to be used like this was sold out and I was thinking, "I bet I could fashion up an equivalent solution"; and a 4 inch screw is doing the trick. No need to purchase a $14 t-post clip bending tool like the youtubes were suggesting.
And, I'm rethinking the idea of putting another 4 ft fence ontop of the current fence in the front to cover the top 4 feet of the 8 foot posts. I'm rethinking it because rolling out the existing roll was hard enough, lol, so installing it 4 feet into the air looks like a challenge. I'll try to get it done, anyway.
I remember when leaving, she looked to me in saying her departing words, and you could tell she was trying hard to keep a straight face but she was kind of failing miserably, lol (Obviously trying to contain the excitement and happiness, previously was acting like an excited little girl in making random exclamations of excitement (I don't remember the specific exclamations because I wasn't really paying attention, but something like "ooh boy ooh boy ooh boy...", "yeah!", lol)). And then she was looking rather imbued with affection with that smug smile and warmth to her face as she started making an overt flirtation with the next customer, which I assume was calculated in trying to make me jealous as part of effort to secure my commitment... but at the time, I kind of thought she was a ho, lol, I still kind of wonder, lol... I also thought she was still shopping around after I left. And, I assume she still was in the following weeks... but I don't know if someone forced her to quit/fired her or if she gave up and found someone else and took off with them. I really just don't know what happened to her.
Anyway, I think I can safely say now she was looking for a boyfriend and, at least for that day, she found one. It was funny how quickly it changed from "You moved /here/, REJECT!" to "OMG, I'm so excited you're mine", lol. That girl was just so easy to change her mind [Likely because I was playing to her existing strong desire, not necessarily for me before that event, but definitely me afterwards and her strong desire for a beau].
Anyway, I'm reading that millenial households have a median savings of $31000. Woah boy, I need to catch up! I'm in a relatively good position to do that, too, so shouldn't be too hard. But, it's interesting that millenials started saving at 22 whereas boomers started at 35, not sure the implication... life was just so rosy for boomers, they didn't feel it necessary to save, unlike millenials who experienced the worst recession since the great depression. The article attributes it to auto-savings plans which weren't common with the boomers.
Anyway, I thought about that a little bit more closely... So, these "millenial households", are we mainly talking about millenial couples who own a house, the 30%? I almost think they are, in which case, I'm not feeling too far behind at the moment. I realize this particular year would be a nadir in my savings since I was making a huge investment in securing residence and infrastructure; and a nadir in my income, since I'm riding purely on my business which has been somewhat lackluster in the last 1.5 months, but that should quickly change once I seek and find employment in my sector after securing my property. I'm guessing a timeline of 3-4 months before I see significant progression, but that is assuming no significant recessions in the meantime. This "hurricane recession" particular to Houston is questionable as to its longterm local impacts, there's definitely been short-term impacts. [No question that shorter store hours = less retail employment]
And I thought about the peanut butter and banana method. I would eat two ripe bananas when I was hungry -> 5 minutes later -> left jaw irritation that was later erradicated by pico de gallo, herbs and green sauce.
Anyway, I've been paying attention to my ripe banana intake, and I've noticed I have not experienced any jaw irritation when consuming the peanut butter with the bananas (And, I've been eating like 4 at a time this morning, so I would've noticed I would think.), so I think the peanut butter is actually pretty effective at keeping the bacteria populations down. But, I still want to focus more on beans, since they are cheaper, provide complete protein and have an anti-carb affect reducing glucose loading AND they're all starch as opposed to ripe bananas, which are mostly sugar. Bananas also are trickier to time since the stores aren't very consistent in their ripeness when I pick them up, so I could be running low on bloodsugar somedays just because the bananas aren't ripe enough.
Looks like kidney beans are a good bet followed by lentils. I think I would prefer the green lentils, likely has special green goodness, like... maybe nitrates. Looks like green leafy produce and beets have that covered. The insulin response for rice is lower than I would've thought, much lower than potatos and bread, would explain the longevity of historic rice consuming cultures. Bread and potatos are worse than pure glucose, isn't that surprising? Especially surprising for potatos.
And, look at how awful oatmeal is! That readily explains why I couldn't tolerate oatmeal too well (I'd feel those characteristic shivers eating oatmeal, felt like bad business.), also, likely because the bacteria population probably follows the insulin curve closely.
Foods with nitrate: https://nutritionfacts.org/video/vegetables-rate-by-nitrate/
And, my tornado shelter (Trashcan submerged under ground about 3 feet down)... got expulsively pushed out of the ground by the high water table following the flooding, lol, so I don't have a tornado shelter at the moment, lol. I haven't really felt the need for one, seems like the tornados around here are pretty rare and aren't all that serious ("Ripped the roof off a house" is the worst I've heard locally).
Anyway, thought about the chickens. So I'd have them running around the front of the property during the day time and they'd be put in their protective chicken coop at night until the morning. This should keep out the raccoons for the most part since they don't seem to be active during the day. As to foxes, I don't know, but it doesn't seem like I see too many foxes here? Then again, I think I've seen him twice this year walking down the street during daylight hours. Think I might do this for the front half where I'm more likely to encounter the fox.
[youtube]OZ7hI2h4AtU[/youtube]
Might do a more limited version for the entire perimeter to keep the dog in (Seems like a dog could easily dig under the wire fence.)
And, I'm thinking I would install on the outside of the fence so it's not intruding on the perimeter I intend on walking.
Anyway, back to the chickens. Just thought to myself "How will I get these chicken back into the coop at night?", and I just suddenly realized I might just have to run and catch some chickens, lol. The thought humored me, thinking I was going to see my "Link running and picking up chickens" Zelda dreams coming to real life, lol.
Yeah, something like this might work. 18" x 150 feet chicken wire for $38. http://www.ebay.com/itm/Yard-Gard-308419B-18-x-150-ft-1-Galvanized-Poultry-Netting-Chicken-Wire-Fence-/361568127731?epid=1900340138&hash=item542f23caf3:g:3JUAAOSwHnFVidOT
Amazon is even cheaper, $26. https://www.amazon.com/Galvanized-Hexagonal-Poultry-Netting-Chicken/dp/B06XRTWP2C/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1504217711&sr=8-2&keywords=18%22+chicken+wire
I want egg laying chickens so I can feed the dog. I would also feed them fat, probably lard. I could probably skimp on the carbs with these two (Dog food or homegrown peas), I don't even believe dogs were designed to eat carbs.
https://www.dogfoodadvisor.com/canine-nutrition/dog-food-carbohydrates/
See, minimal carbs. Just a tiny bit of dog food, a bunch of eggs and some lard. Good to go.
I've been hearing of this cholesterol problem that dogs don't have unlike humans so lard isn't bad for their consumption. Intriguing, so I checked it out.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/6484283
Oh interesting, pig fat -> cholesterol and triglycerides.
Is this true of cow fat, cheese?
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4543447/
Wow, what's wrong with pig fat? Maybe I should rethink the lard, lol.
Petmd.com seems to think dogs don't have cholesterol problems like humans, so they say raw lard is safe to eat for them. Maybe it's cooked lard that's the issue - this does seem intuitive since dogs aren't eating the cooked fat off of animals in te wild and it's known that high temperature cooking of oils will have cardiotoxic effects, so high temperature cooking of lard might have similar affects. That is, raw lard might be safe to eat.
Cheese, notably, isn't cooked further supporting this suspicion.
Simply put, fat = good, cooked fat = bad. It's a reasonable suspicion that could benefit from some substantiating research. Then again, maybe eating anything from a pig is bad business. Seems like the old jewish scripture tells us as such, being a dirty animal, no part of a pig is kosher for consumption.
Update: Just got back from Krogers. Wow, all sold out of fuel and apparently they stopped getting deliveries, so they've been running out of food which is why they've been limiting hours, purportedly. Almost makes me think they have a distribution center near central Houston and they took the week off.
While there, this older lady was saying she had to go back to Sacramento to move in with a friend because she just got laid off of work. Oh, curious, that's what I thought might've happened to the previous boyfriend of that girl who was walking down the street shoulder-exposed on Monday. So, there's been hints that Houston has been having layoffs recently, meaning finding a job in Houston might be difficult in at least the short-term.
Luckily, I'm within commuting distance of College Station which has a pretty low unemployment rate, so not all hope it lost, assuming there's not a greater unemployment trend at play nationally. Of course, there's far more tech jobs in Houston than college station, so more than likely, a tech job offer would be coming from Houston if one were coming through. But, there's other good opportunities there I'm sure that I'm not fully aware of.
And, in installing the side fence, I realized I wasn't able to get it tight enough by hand, so I'm going to deploy the come-along and fence stretcher bar tomorrow. I realized it wasn't tight enough when I could easily reach under the fence to grab my loppers; ideally, you shouldn't be able to just "slide under" the fence, lol.
Anyway, yep, I have to say... I'm in a pretty sweet position. Unlike this girl who was likely renting and was forced to head back to Sacramento to live with a friend, I pretty much live here rent free and I have an income source independent of the local economy, so I'm doing just peachy regardless of what happens locally. I can easily weather out events like Hurricanes (Now, great recessions on the other hand... lol... MIGHT NOT BE SO EASY, lol.) which is nice. Anyway, I'm questioning the stability of Houston's economy longterm at the moment, but... at least historically, its economy has been a lot more stable than Spokane's, so I feel like I'm making a good longterm bet.
You know... if there's a lot of construction demand... I wonder if there's going to be a huge pickup in electrician demand? If so, might not be a bad window of opportunity to become an apprentice. I might go that route if securing tech employment is costly.
And... my shed seems to have an issue with water pooling on the floor during rainstorms so I drilled some drainholes where the water was standing and, yay, it's dry!
And, birds seem to love this time of the year, the temperatures are more likable all day long so I'm seeing them throughout the day (They were largely gone midday during the height of summer). Red cardinals, Red headed woodpeckers and peregrine falcons circling about 200 feet up were seen today along with a small blackbird which I originally thought was a hummingbird, but it probably was just a juvenile black bird of some sort (Appears to be a starling).
Now 4:20 a.m. (Woke at 2:20 a.m., fell asleep around 11;20), and I'm at the labile state at the moment (dark, lonely, didn't quite get some full sleep yet), I'm thinking, I miss you! lol.
Hitting on random local employees, not quite fitting my ideals (in terms of, let's say, spark/connection but even more than that.), but hey... better than nothing right... lol... I can tell from the fact they're texting for a ride they likely have someone picking them up, not unlikely a bf. I'm just like where is that girl at? It felt like we had something special and not exclusively because of her youth. It was one of those things where I didn't even realize I was missing 'it', until I realized it even existed, and now that's it ostensibly gone, it's heart-rending beyond f, at least during moments like these. What is it... it felt like an immediate deep connection like we were designed for each other, I'm not going to claim she's the only one in all the world, but definitely one of the few.
I'm almost feel like there's an emotional obligation to build this fence, beyond the practical reasons of job hunting, for if I find someone like her again [Not necessarily like /her/, but someone who plays the same role as 'the other half'], a thief isn't going to stop me from the pursuit. I'm pretty sure the job hunt is the real reason why I started the fence, but at least at this particular moment, it feels there's that strong emotional obligation which is the real reason behind the urgency it's getting built. For my income is doing fine right now as I segue into the busy season, but I'm still feeling adamant into getting that fence finished for reasons likely beyond job hunting, as that doesn't really feel quite as urgent as the urgency I'm feeling.
I'm probably just getting myself worked up now in this labile state, lol.
Anyway, saw that guys were claiming this girl who was getting fit on the news her married partner had a terminal illness did it because she was getting ready for dating again (Not simply to make herself attractive again for the remaining months of her husband's life like the article claimed), I wondered...
Why do married women gain weight in the first place? Seems like a common trend.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-2580938/Marriage-makes-FAT-Brides-gain-10lbs-six-months-marriage.html
Sounds plausible in light of that girl losing weight to become marketable dating material again.
And, I saw that beans had a cooking time of 1 hour versus 15 minute for lentils, so I'm thinking "Screw beans, let's do lentils", lol. For someone who has whatever power they want on tap (Hooked to the grid), turning on the electric stove isn't a big deal, but for me, turning on the stove for an hour means I can't be running anything else for that entire hour = lots of gas wasted in idling the generator during the off cycle and lost productive daylight hours (Generator needs to be off by roughly 10 p.m).
And, got started on the fence, and I'm already sweating so readily in the sun at 10:44 a.m. so I'm going to be focusing on the shaded areas upto whatever time this morning (1 p.m. prospectively).
Turns out I didn't really need a fancy tool to twist the t-post clips, a 4" screw does the trick (Which I already possessed). The threads on the screw readily grip the tie, and it's short enough to wrap around without getting stopped by the fence, so it works pretty effectively. I had this insight after finding a cheaper short solid tool designed to be used like this was sold out and I was thinking, "I bet I could fashion up an equivalent solution"; and a 4 inch screw is doing the trick. No need to purchase a $14 t-post clip bending tool like the youtubes were suggesting.
And, I'm rethinking the idea of putting another 4 ft fence ontop of the current fence in the front to cover the top 4 feet of the 8 foot posts. I'm rethinking it because rolling out the existing roll was hard enough, lol, so installing it 4 feet into the air looks like a challenge. I'll try to get it done, anyway.
I remember when leaving, she looked to me in saying her departing words, and you could tell she was trying hard to keep a straight face but she was kind of failing miserably, lol (Obviously trying to contain the excitement and happiness, previously was acting like an excited little girl in making random exclamations of excitement (I don't remember the specific exclamations because I wasn't really paying attention, but something like "ooh boy ooh boy ooh boy...", "yeah!", lol)). And then she was looking rather imbued with affection with that smug smile and warmth to her face as she started making an overt flirtation with the next customer, which I assume was calculated in trying to make me jealous as part of effort to secure my commitment... but at the time, I kind of thought she was a ho, lol, I still kind of wonder, lol... I also thought she was still shopping around after I left. And, I assume she still was in the following weeks... but I don't know if someone forced her to quit/fired her or if she gave up and found someone else and took off with them. I really just don't know what happened to her.
Anyway, I think I can safely say now she was looking for a boyfriend and, at least for that day, she found one. It was funny how quickly it changed from "You moved /here/, REJECT!" to "OMG, I'm so excited you're mine", lol. That girl was just so easy to change her mind [Likely because I was playing to her existing strong desire, not necessarily for me before that event, but definitely me afterwards and her strong desire for a beau].
Anyway, I'm reading that millenial households have a median savings of $31000. Woah boy, I need to catch up! I'm in a relatively good position to do that, too, so shouldn't be too hard. But, it's interesting that millenials started saving at 22 whereas boomers started at 35, not sure the implication... life was just so rosy for boomers, they didn't feel it necessary to save, unlike millenials who experienced the worst recession since the great depression. The article attributes it to auto-savings plans which weren't common with the boomers.
Anyway, I thought about that a little bit more closely... So, these "millenial households", are we mainly talking about millenial couples who own a house, the 30%? I almost think they are, in which case, I'm not feeling too far behind at the moment. I realize this particular year would be a nadir in my savings since I was making a huge investment in securing residence and infrastructure; and a nadir in my income, since I'm riding purely on my business which has been somewhat lackluster in the last 1.5 months, but that should quickly change once I seek and find employment in my sector after securing my property. I'm guessing a timeline of 3-4 months before I see significant progression, but that is assuming no significant recessions in the meantime. This "hurricane recession" particular to Houston is questionable as to its longterm local impacts, there's definitely been short-term impacts. [No question that shorter store hours = less retail employment]
And I thought about the peanut butter and banana method. I would eat two ripe bananas when I was hungry -> 5 minutes later -> left jaw irritation that was later erradicated by pico de gallo, herbs and green sauce.
Anyway, I've been paying attention to my ripe banana intake, and I've noticed I have not experienced any jaw irritation when consuming the peanut butter with the bananas (And, I've been eating like 4 at a time this morning, so I would've noticed I would think.), so I think the peanut butter is actually pretty effective at keeping the bacteria populations down. But, I still want to focus more on beans, since they are cheaper, provide complete protein and have an anti-carb affect reducing glucose loading AND they're all starch as opposed to ripe bananas, which are mostly sugar. Bananas also are trickier to time since the stores aren't very consistent in their ripeness when I pick them up, so I could be running low on bloodsugar somedays just because the bananas aren't ripe enough.
Looks like kidney beans are a good bet followed by lentils. I think I would prefer the green lentils, likely has special green goodness, like... maybe nitrates. Looks like green leafy produce and beets have that covered. The insulin response for rice is lower than I would've thought, much lower than potatos and bread, would explain the longevity of historic rice consuming cultures. Bread and potatos are worse than pure glucose, isn't that surprising? Especially surprising for potatos.
And, look at how awful oatmeal is! That readily explains why I couldn't tolerate oatmeal too well (I'd feel those characteristic shivers eating oatmeal, felt like bad business.), also, likely because the bacteria population probably follows the insulin curve closely.
Foods with nitrate: https://nutritionfacts.org/video/vegetables-rate-by-nitrate/
And, my tornado shelter (Trashcan submerged under ground about 3 feet down)... got expulsively pushed out of the ground by the high water table following the flooding, lol, so I don't have a tornado shelter at the moment, lol. I haven't really felt the need for one, seems like the tornados around here are pretty rare and aren't all that serious ("Ripped the roof off a house" is the worst I've heard locally).
Anyway, thought about the chickens. So I'd have them running around the front of the property during the day time and they'd be put in their protective chicken coop at night until the morning. This should keep out the raccoons for the most part since they don't seem to be active during the day. As to foxes, I don't know, but it doesn't seem like I see too many foxes here? Then again, I think I've seen him twice this year walking down the street during daylight hours. Think I might do this for the front half where I'm more likely to encounter the fox.
[youtube]OZ7hI2h4AtU[/youtube]
Might do a more limited version for the entire perimeter to keep the dog in (Seems like a dog could easily dig under the wire fence.)
And, I'm thinking I would install on the outside of the fence so it's not intruding on the perimeter I intend on walking.
Anyway, back to the chickens. Just thought to myself "How will I get these chicken back into the coop at night?", and I just suddenly realized I might just have to run and catch some chickens, lol. The thought humored me, thinking I was going to see my "Link running and picking up chickens" Zelda dreams coming to real life, lol.
Yeah, something like this might work. 18" x 150 feet chicken wire for $38. http://www.ebay.com/itm/Yard-Gard-308419B-18-x-150-ft-1-Galvanized-Poultry-Netting-Chicken-Wire-Fence-/361568127731?epid=1900340138&hash=item542f23caf3:g:3JUAAOSwHnFVidOT
Amazon is even cheaper, $26. https://www.amazon.com/Galvanized-Hexagonal-Poultry-Netting-Chicken/dp/B06XRTWP2C/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1504217711&sr=8-2&keywords=18%22+chicken+wire
I want egg laying chickens so I can feed the dog. I would also feed them fat, probably lard. I could probably skimp on the carbs with these two (Dog food or homegrown peas), I don't even believe dogs were designed to eat carbs.
https://www.dogfoodadvisor.com/canine-nutrition/dog-food-carbohydrates/
See, minimal carbs. Just a tiny bit of dog food, a bunch of eggs and some lard. Good to go.
I've been hearing of this cholesterol problem that dogs don't have unlike humans so lard isn't bad for their consumption. Intriguing, so I checked it out.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/6484283
Oh interesting, pig fat -> cholesterol and triglycerides.
Is this true of cow fat, cheese?
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4543447/
Wow, what's wrong with pig fat? Maybe I should rethink the lard, lol.
Petmd.com seems to think dogs don't have cholesterol problems like humans, so they say raw lard is safe to eat for them. Maybe it's cooked lard that's the issue - this does seem intuitive since dogs aren't eating the cooked fat off of animals in te wild and it's known that high temperature cooking of oils will have cardiotoxic effects, so high temperature cooking of lard might have similar affects. That is, raw lard might be safe to eat.
Cheese, notably, isn't cooked further supporting this suspicion.
Simply put, fat = good, cooked fat = bad. It's a reasonable suspicion that could benefit from some substantiating research. Then again, maybe eating anything from a pig is bad business. Seems like the old jewish scripture tells us as such, being a dirty animal, no part of a pig is kosher for consumption.
Update: Just got back from Krogers. Wow, all sold out of fuel and apparently they stopped getting deliveries, so they've been running out of food which is why they've been limiting hours, purportedly. Almost makes me think they have a distribution center near central Houston and they took the week off.
While there, this older lady was saying she had to go back to Sacramento to move in with a friend because she just got laid off of work. Oh, curious, that's what I thought might've happened to the previous boyfriend of that girl who was walking down the street shoulder-exposed on Monday. So, there's been hints that Houston has been having layoffs recently, meaning finding a job in Houston might be difficult in at least the short-term.
Luckily, I'm within commuting distance of College Station which has a pretty low unemployment rate, so not all hope it lost, assuming there's not a greater unemployment trend at play nationally. Of course, there's far more tech jobs in Houston than college station, so more than likely, a tech job offer would be coming from Houston if one were coming through. But, there's other good opportunities there I'm sure that I'm not fully aware of.
And, in installing the side fence, I realized I wasn't able to get it tight enough by hand, so I'm going to deploy the come-along and fence stretcher bar tomorrow. I realized it wasn't tight enough when I could easily reach under the fence to grab my loppers; ideally, you shouldn't be able to just "slide under" the fence, lol.
Anyway, yep, I have to say... I'm in a pretty sweet position. Unlike this girl who was likely renting and was forced to head back to Sacramento to live with a friend, I pretty much live here rent free and I have an income source independent of the local economy, so I'm doing just peachy regardless of what happens locally. I can easily weather out events like Hurricanes (Now, great recessions on the other hand... lol... MIGHT NOT BE SO EASY, lol.) which is nice. Anyway, I'm questioning the stability of Houston's economy longterm at the moment, but... at least historically, its economy has been a lot more stable than Spokane's, so I feel like I'm making a good longterm bet.
You know... if there's a lot of construction demand... I wonder if there's going to be a huge pickup in electrician demand? If so, might not be a bad window of opportunity to become an apprentice. I might go that route if securing tech employment is costly.
And... my shed seems to have an issue with water pooling on the floor during rainstorms so I drilled some drainholes where the water was standing and, yay, it's dry!
And, birds seem to love this time of the year, the temperatures are more likable all day long so I'm seeing them throughout the day (They were largely gone midday during the height of summer). Red cardinals, Red headed woodpeckers and peregrine falcons circling about 200 feet up were seen today along with a small blackbird which I originally thought was a hummingbird, but it probably was just a juvenile black bird of some sort (Appears to be a starling).
Now 4:20 a.m. (Woke at 2:20 a.m., fell asleep around 11;20), and I'm at the labile state at the moment (dark, lonely, didn't quite get some full sleep yet), I'm thinking, I miss you! lol.
Hitting on random local employees, not quite fitting my ideals (in terms of, let's say, spark/connection but even more than that.), but hey... better than nothing right... lol... I can tell from the fact they're texting for a ride they likely have someone picking them up, not unlikely a bf. I'm just like where is that girl at? It felt like we had something special and not exclusively because of her youth. It was one of those things where I didn't even realize I was missing 'it', until I realized it even existed, and now that's it ostensibly gone, it's heart-rending beyond f, at least during moments like these. What is it... it felt like an immediate deep connection like we were designed for each other, I'm not going to claim she's the only one in all the world, but definitely one of the few.
I'm almost feel like there's an emotional obligation to build this fence, beyond the practical reasons of job hunting, for if I find someone like her again [Not necessarily like /her/, but someone who plays the same role as 'the other half'], a thief isn't going to stop me from the pursuit. I'm pretty sure the job hunt is the real reason why I started the fence, but at least at this particular moment, it feels there's that strong emotional obligation which is the real reason behind the urgency it's getting built. For my income is doing fine right now as I segue into the busy season, but I'm still feeling adamant into getting that fence finished for reasons likely beyond job hunting, as that doesn't really feel quite as urgent as the urgency I'm feeling.
I'm probably just getting myself worked up now in this labile state, lol.
Anyway, saw that guys were claiming this girl who was getting fit on the news her married partner had a terminal illness did it because she was getting ready for dating again (Not simply to make herself attractive again for the remaining months of her husband's life like the article claimed), I wondered...
Why do married women gain weight in the first place? Seems like a common trend.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-2580938/Marriage-makes-FAT-Brides-gain-10lbs-six-months-marriage.html
Sounds plausible in light of that girl losing weight to become marketable dating material again.
And, I saw that beans had a cooking time of 1 hour versus 15 minute for lentils, so I'm thinking "Screw beans, let's do lentils", lol. For someone who has whatever power they want on tap (Hooked to the grid), turning on the electric stove isn't a big deal, but for me, turning on the stove for an hour means I can't be running anything else for that entire hour = lots of gas wasted in idling the generator during the off cycle and lost productive daylight hours (Generator needs to be off by roughly 10 p.m).
For shits and giggles, let's post some horoscopes I like or identify with my zodiac.
Of course, there was about 80% of the available horoscopes I didn't necessarily readily identify with or particularly like, lol. Cherry picking my horoscopes, I guess, lol.
Yes, that's why I like this business. This week is turning into a jackpot! However, I need to secure gasoline, which has been somewhat hampered by local fuel shortages due to refineries being shutdown for upto 2 weeks. I'm getting really tempted to work up a plan with my neighbor for routing wiring through the forest and hooking up to his electricity, lol. Just need to dig a really thin trench through the road, lay the wire, and cover it back up and good to go.
And the reason I'm concerned about gum recession is because the root of my bottom middle tooth seems somewhat exposed and research suggests left untreated, I will most assuredly lose the tooth and become one of those toothless hillbilly archetypes. I'm doing what I'm can to help stave that off, but it seems there's only so much I can do at this point. I feel like I need to secure a high-paying job in my field to simply get adequate dental care! [I suspect the high sugar intake from bananas has been a contributing factor]
And this girl... I wonder... if she eventually assumed I was leading her on... because that would be a bad assumption but given her palpable distrust... wouldn't be surprising. Yeah, anyway, just don't know what happened. Kind of think she might've ended the job in despair, or she might've ended it in bliss with another guy who picked her up. There's more "despair" possibilities than 'bliss" possibilities (Forced to quit / fired / quit because of despair), but I don't really know the likelihood of each possibility so I can't really infer a probable outcome. If she didn't find someone else, I think there's a really good chance she eventually despaired. But if she did... that is questionable, lol.
Anyway, just been touring the "pussy so good" images on google images. Lots of references to black men, mhmmm, but... I'd say that pussy was pretty damn good even if it were confined to my imagination, lol [Considering this goodness was more related to the 'feelings running high' than anything else... it probably wouldn't have been much different from the real thing.]. Anyway, in comparing the behavior between different porn actors, I'd say my role would've been definitely the "frock her like an animal" type vs the "treat her gently" type that's commonly seen among emasculated white men that coincidentally it seems like a lot of girls are crying about. ("I always attract the nice guys... I want to be ABUSED WHIPPED FEROCIOUSLY BITTEN ARGGG"... essentially... "I WANT TO BE frocked LIKE AN ANIMAL!"... lol)
And, I'll admit, one of the side-goals in 'fing her sooner rather than later was to get her addicted. But, I feel like she was already addicted, so it probably didn't matter much. Some guys like to use marriage to bond their partners, I like to use the natural methods of bonding because it works. But, the strong oxytocin connection following the prolonged reciprocated gaze already created a significant bonding effect, as if we were unspoken gf/bf (for at least that day, lol), so probably would've been superfluous but it probably would've made the bond significantly stronger. [The fact she was already convulsively shaking after I rejected her, which calmed immediately after I accepted her, tells me she was already strongly addicted as if I were her opiate/morphine. Addicting a girl like her... yeah... I can say that added a feather to my cap, lol.]
At the time, I was lifting heavy trees, so my muscles definitely had that "feeling of a power" like a powerful animal taking control of their prey. Well, under Hawaiian beliefs, my feelings of 'mana' was probably running high after fearlessly telling off the gunman shooting near my property in intimidation. And I had significant savings from recent strong sales. So yeah, at the time, I was "kicking butt"(winning) and feeling proud and arrogant.
http://www.manthesis.com/why-women-love-prideful-arrogant-men-and-how-you-can-become-one/
[Putting this into context of my situation, that'd make the sentence...
"[Winning] men attract a LOT more women than the average man does and most of the time without really even trying."
That's kind of self-explanatory, huh, women are attracted to winners.]
And, I find this idea of "the more correct and moral thing to do" laughable. It's the more desired behavior by your rulers/authority-figures in their various forms, that's for sure! [police,government,employers,etc.] I have a very strong suspicion that's why the police were tracking me, because they didn't appreciate my sense of importance.
I highly question this "more correct" statement, since arrogant women are sexy beyond hell, and I don't think being sexy is incorrect.
I'm not the only that thinks this: https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20110908091606AAo9gO9
I like the answer "Let's tame that bitch" because that's sort of on the mark.
I do personally like thinking, "let's see if I can conquer her", kind of proving I'm at least as important if not more than she is, so an ego-boost I guess, or probably more like climbing up the social ladder. There's probably also the "being attracted to winners or HIGH-VALUE-MATES" thing going on, too, don't get me wrong. [Those are probably two commonly overlapping goals, yes.]
(And you know what, I wonder if the motivation is pretty much identical for women attracted to arrogant men. "Let's see if I can conquer him"... it almost seems like it.)
I wonder if that's why my conquering her was important, just had to climb up that social ladder [redeem myself] after she tried casting me down it. ("You moved /HERE/, REJECT.")
Lol.
Update: My neighbor was telling me everyone was running out of gasoline, so I got to it and hunted down some gas because I needed to keep gas for my generator and I picked up some beer for him.
Turns out he was right! Went 15 miles in that one direction and EVERYBODY was out of gas. Many had their price signs blanked out (Turned off the displays or removed the number placards), and everyone had bags over the pump dispensers. The first person I saw with gasoline was 15 miles away, it was $2.31 per gallon (I was paying like $1.99 a week ago), and it was the 9th gas station I passed on my way there. So, I filled up my gas tanks completely, which should be about an 8 day full output supply. I was able to purchase gasoline at this station because they took delivery today that was supposed to come yesterday; if they had taken it yesterday, they would've out today like everyone else.
(No gasoline for 30+ miles!!! )
The struggle is real.
I'm hoping some refineries will be online within a week, when I should need to refill.
if they are out for 2 weeks like someone suggested, traffic is going to come grinding to a halt sometime soon, probably within a week.
http://everydayfeminism.com/2013/05/how-to-compliment-a-woman-without-objectifying-them/
Wow, this is bad advice. This is a surefire to get into a girl's friendzone, that's for damn sure, which might very well be the intention of this "everyday feminist". I love it how she says, "Being sexual is wrong and objectifies her", holy shit lady, you think maybe for a second we're sexual beings and that's totally natural? I think being a "feminist" in at least her case, equates to the secular version of a nun. Granted, I don't necessarily recommend the kind of pickup lines/approaches some guys might use that she mentions, but her recommended approach sure as hell isn't going anywhere either. I guess it might be OK to start up a conversation, but an advance will ideally be made sooner rather later if 'the spark' is there, so there's no cowardly hiding your intentions. Girls don't fall for cowards.
I guess maybe her recommendations aren't unsurprising in the sense that 'feminism' is fundamentally emasculation at its core. Which, I think makes it evil.
Update: Oh, isn't that nice. Someone random just called me a pimp.
I'll accept the word player, but even then, I don't think I'm like 90% of the urbandictionary.com defintions, lol. But this one might be true in certain cases (with certain people).
And by certain people, I mean people I fall for, so the symmetry is fitting, lol.
Just 1 in 100, lol. That pretty much is the "only girl in your life" when you've met less than 50 different girls in the last 6 months, lol.
And considering historical 'natural' tribe sizes tended to be 150 or less due to limits of memory, I would hope the rate would be even less than 1 out of 100.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mana#In_Hawaiian_and_Tahitian_culture
Like I suspected, sex -> social climbing motives (If one could infer it from this example). And, the other way to gain mana is in battle, in achieving victories. [It's interesting that this seems to provide a path for mana for both sexes; men through winning battles, women through sleeping with high mana men (chiefs and successful warriors).]
Though, in this particular example... I wonder if that was a belief started by and promoted by the chief with his own obvious interests in mind, lol. [I suspect it existed independently of the chief's likely historical endorsement, because this dynamic is seen commonly outside of hawaiian culture, girls sleeping with the local authority figures, especially sluts.]
http://www.cosmopolitan.com/uk/love-sex/sex/tips/g1272/what-your-sex-fantasies-say-about-you/
http://www.girlschase.com/content/male-authority-and-female-lust
Why, yes, possessing an air of power and making demands of a girl can tend to have her complying with strict obedience, especially if she /wants/ to submit, which many do.
Of course, there was about 80% of the available horoscopes I didn't necessarily readily identify with or particularly like, lol. Cherry picking my horoscopes, I guess, lol.
Yes, that's why I like this business. This week is turning into a jackpot! However, I need to secure gasoline, which has been somewhat hampered by local fuel shortages due to refineries being shutdown for upto 2 weeks. I'm getting really tempted to work up a plan with my neighbor for routing wiring through the forest and hooking up to his electricity, lol. Just need to dig a really thin trench through the road, lay the wire, and cover it back up and good to go.
And the reason I'm concerned about gum recession is because the root of my bottom middle tooth seems somewhat exposed and research suggests left untreated, I will most assuredly lose the tooth and become one of those toothless hillbilly archetypes. I'm doing what I'm can to help stave that off, but it seems there's only so much I can do at this point. I feel like I need to secure a high-paying job in my field to simply get adequate dental care! [I suspect the high sugar intake from bananas has been a contributing factor]
And this girl... I wonder... if she eventually assumed I was leading her on... because that would be a bad assumption but given her palpable distrust... wouldn't be surprising. Yeah, anyway, just don't know what happened. Kind of think she might've ended the job in despair, or she might've ended it in bliss with another guy who picked her up. There's more "despair" possibilities than 'bliss" possibilities (Forced to quit / fired / quit because of despair), but I don't really know the likelihood of each possibility so I can't really infer a probable outcome. If she didn't find someone else, I think there's a really good chance she eventually despaired. But if she did... that is questionable, lol.
Anyway, just been touring the "pussy so good" images on google images. Lots of references to black men, mhmmm, but... I'd say that pussy was pretty damn good even if it were confined to my imagination, lol [Considering this goodness was more related to the 'feelings running high' than anything else... it probably wouldn't have been much different from the real thing.]. Anyway, in comparing the behavior between different porn actors, I'd say my role would've been definitely the "frock her like an animal" type vs the "treat her gently" type that's commonly seen among emasculated white men that coincidentally it seems like a lot of girls are crying about. ("I always attract the nice guys... I want to be ABUSED WHIPPED FEROCIOUSLY BITTEN ARGGG"... essentially... "I WANT TO BE frocked LIKE AN ANIMAL!"... lol)
And, I'll admit, one of the side-goals in 'fing her sooner rather than later was to get her addicted. But, I feel like she was already addicted, so it probably didn't matter much. Some guys like to use marriage to bond their partners, I like to use the natural methods of bonding because it works. But, the strong oxytocin connection following the prolonged reciprocated gaze already created a significant bonding effect, as if we were unspoken gf/bf (for at least that day, lol), so probably would've been superfluous but it probably would've made the bond significantly stronger. [The fact she was already convulsively shaking after I rejected her, which calmed immediately after I accepted her, tells me she was already strongly addicted as if I were her opiate/morphine. Addicting a girl like her... yeah... I can say that added a feather to my cap, lol.]
At the time, I was lifting heavy trees, so my muscles definitely had that "feeling of a power" like a powerful animal taking control of their prey. Well, under Hawaiian beliefs, my feelings of 'mana' was probably running high after fearlessly telling off the gunman shooting near my property in intimidation. And I had significant savings from recent strong sales. So yeah, at the time, I was "kicking butt"(winning) and feeling proud and arrogant.
http://www.manthesis.com/why-women-love-prideful-arrogant-men-and-how-you-can-become-one/
[Putting this into context of my situation, that'd make the sentence...
"[Winning] men attract a LOT more women than the average man does and most of the time without really even trying."
That's kind of self-explanatory, huh, women are attracted to winners.]
And, I find this idea of "the more correct and moral thing to do" laughable. It's the more desired behavior by your rulers/authority-figures in their various forms, that's for sure! [police,government,employers,etc.] I have a very strong suspicion that's why the police were tracking me, because they didn't appreciate my sense of importance.
I highly question this "more correct" statement, since arrogant women are sexy beyond hell, and I don't think being sexy is incorrect.
I'm not the only that thinks this: https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20110908091606AAo9gO9
I like the answer "Let's tame that bitch" because that's sort of on the mark.
I do personally like thinking, "let's see if I can conquer her", kind of proving I'm at least as important if not more than she is, so an ego-boost I guess, or probably more like climbing up the social ladder. There's probably also the "being attracted to winners or HIGH-VALUE-MATES" thing going on, too, don't get me wrong. [Those are probably two commonly overlapping goals, yes.]
(And you know what, I wonder if the motivation is pretty much identical for women attracted to arrogant men. "Let's see if I can conquer him"... it almost seems like it.)
I wonder if that's why my conquering her was important, just had to climb up that social ladder [redeem myself] after she tried casting me down it. ("You moved /HERE/, REJECT.")
Lol.
Update: My neighbor was telling me everyone was running out of gasoline, so I got to it and hunted down some gas because I needed to keep gas for my generator and I picked up some beer for him.
Turns out he was right! Went 15 miles in that one direction and EVERYBODY was out of gas. Many had their price signs blanked out (Turned off the displays or removed the number placards), and everyone had bags over the pump dispensers. The first person I saw with gasoline was 15 miles away, it was $2.31 per gallon (I was paying like $1.99 a week ago), and it was the 9th gas station I passed on my way there. So, I filled up my gas tanks completely, which should be about an 8 day full output supply. I was able to purchase gasoline at this station because they took delivery today that was supposed to come yesterday; if they had taken it yesterday, they would've out today like everyone else.
(No gasoline for 30+ miles!!! )The struggle is real.
I'm hoping some refineries will be online within a week, when I should need to refill.
if they are out for 2 weeks like someone suggested, traffic is going to come grinding to a halt sometime soon, probably within a week.
http://everydayfeminism.com/2013/05/how-to-compliment-a-woman-without-objectifying-them/
Wow, this is bad advice. This is a surefire to get into a girl's friendzone, that's for damn sure, which might very well be the intention of this "everyday feminist". I love it how she says, "Being sexual is wrong and objectifies her", holy shit lady, you think maybe for a second we're sexual beings and that's totally natural? I think being a "feminist" in at least her case, equates to the secular version of a nun. Granted, I don't necessarily recommend the kind of pickup lines/approaches some guys might use that she mentions, but her recommended approach sure as hell isn't going anywhere either. I guess it might be OK to start up a conversation, but an advance will ideally be made sooner rather later if 'the spark' is there, so there's no cowardly hiding your intentions. Girls don't fall for cowards.
I guess maybe her recommendations aren't unsurprising in the sense that 'feminism' is fundamentally emasculation at its core. Which, I think makes it evil.
Update: Oh, isn't that nice. Someone random just called me a pimp.
I'll accept the word player, but even then, I don't think I'm like 90% of the urbandictionary.com defintions, lol. But this one might be true in certain cases (with certain people).And by certain people, I mean people I fall for, so the symmetry is fitting, lol.
Just 1 in 100, lol. That pretty much is the "only girl in your life" when you've met less than 50 different girls in the last 6 months, lol.
And considering historical 'natural' tribe sizes tended to be 150 or less due to limits of memory, I would hope the rate would be even less than 1 out of 100.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mana#In_Hawaiian_and_Tahitian_culture
Like I suspected, sex -> social climbing motives (If one could infer it from this example). And, the other way to gain mana is in battle, in achieving victories. [It's interesting that this seems to provide a path for mana for both sexes; men through winning battles, women through sleeping with high mana men (chiefs and successful warriors).]
Though, in this particular example... I wonder if that was a belief started by and promoted by the chief with his own obvious interests in mind, lol. [I suspect it existed independently of the chief's likely historical endorsement, because this dynamic is seen commonly outside of hawaiian culture, girls sleeping with the local authority figures, especially sluts.]
http://www.cosmopolitan.com/uk/love-sex/sex/tips/g1272/what-your-sex-fantasies-say-about-you/
http://www.girlschase.com/content/male-authority-and-female-lust
Why, yes, possessing an air of power and making demands of a girl can tend to have her complying with strict obedience, especially if she /wants/ to submit, which many do.
Anyway, here's my protection plan from chicken predators.
Peregrine falcons and other birds of prey - with dive speeds of upto 240 mph, these definitely need a deterrent, and that's exactly what the thick forest provides. A chickens' natural habitat are thick forests to protect them from these large birds.
Racoons - Keep them locked up in the coop at night.
Foxes - use the chicken wire to line the ground around the fence.
Snakes - I don't know yet, maybe I should be looking into hardware cloth versus the poultry netting? Or maybe a tighter meshing? Like, a 1/2 inch 2' high poultry netting like here, $47 for 82' long. Don't know if that'd keep out the more threatening snakes, maybe I'd need 1/4 inch and I'd be looking at hardware cloth? 1/4' hardware cloth is expensive, about $.9/foot in larger quantities. (So my 300' perimeter would be $270)
...........
And this morning had me feeling my energy zapped and the chest pressure imminent. Drinking the cocoa instantly brought my energy levels up and the feeling of imminent chest pressure vanished. Got like 6 solid hours of sleep which seems like an improvement over 3.5 hours of sleep and then another 2 hours a couple hours later and some possible napping later in the day.
Still felt like I needed 2 hours sleep, tried it getting it while everything was running (Ideally, production would be separated from my bedroom), and falling coffee pot woke me up. Arggg... lol.
.............
Anyway, went to go make deliveries, and came across a younger caucasian couple that seemed pretty happy with their lives (I'd guess somewhere in their later 20s). Immediately thinking "Hey, these are my peers"[I.e., my neighbors really aren't my peers... mostly illegal mexicans, retirees or people down on their luck such as disabled children or some homeless person who apparently inherited a property. I chose this property not knowing who exactly inhabited these parts and solely basing on it was the best location for business operations given the close distance to the post office and it was reasonably close to Houston. All other locations were 15+ miles away from the PO which would've significantly increased fuel expenditures.], I checked them out and saw that he was driving a newer civic. If I were to make a surmising, I'd guess he probably has a $15-$20/hr full time job, probably has takehome pay somewhere between 24-30k per year, and spends $6000/yr on the vehicle and another $7000/yr-$12000/yr on the mortgage ($15,000 land + 30k mobile to 100k house) and don't know if the female works, but it's not unlikely, so their possible likely discretionary income might be anywhere from $6000/yr to $30,000/yr which isn't too bad for 20-somethings.
So, yes, maybe there was an ounce of jealousy, but I didn't feel so much jealous as to more hopeful because they are an indicator of the kind of lifestyle for someone of my generation in these parts. The equivalent lifestyle for 20-somethings back on the west coast... lol... no comparison. Land, real estate and rental prices are signficantly more expensive, and pay is often pretty low, so the effective discretionary income is notably lower in many west coast places, and especially Spokane.
As to my particular position right now, it's temporary, I effectively just moved here and I'm still in the process of securing the property so I can start entering the local economy (The temps here have actually been pretty high recently with it being sunny all day, so the old "Evening hours are work hours in the beesuit" rules still apply, limiting my effective applicable time to work outside at 2-3 hours and that's if I don't sleep through it (I slept through the evening yesterday, so didn't get the fence stretching done like I intended.). If mosquitos didn't exist here, I could work without my beesuit, and I would be able to significantly increase my available work hours outside to probably 6-7hours/day. And with the sweating (Work outside for 15 mins, sweat like a dog, take a break for 15 minutes), I'm actually effectively working outside at a rate of 1-1.5 hours/day during the warm sunny days, which typified 90% of the summer.
As to why I moved here...
1) Climate is excellent for gardening in terms of sun, rain and temeratures
2) Houston economy has been historically stable and flush with wealth (High paying jobs are more plentiful)
3) It's relatively accessible for someone of my generation to buy land with cash with a less than hour's commute from the highpaying jobs. The equivalent land purchasing opportunities on the west coast is something at least 100 miles away from any major population center with a probable 3+ hours commute including congested traffic. Which, actually, a number of younger people do end up doing this but in the process, they end up limiting themselves to the lower paying local work. But, in certain fields, I could see opportunities for transferring to higher paying locations with experience but I don't think these kinds of fields are particularly abundant 100+ miles from the major population centers.
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Fish consumption and cancer. So, I'm providing my recommendation for cancer prevention and I started to wonder about fish.
Here's my current recommendations, anyway:
As to the fish, I wondered if there was a net positive affect especially with the modern mercury content [Thanks largely to coal plants].
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/10393143
So, looks like fish consumption is double plus good in the cancer department, just like dark leafy greens. Imagine if these were consumed throughout the day like in south america's tribal societies? People might be largely cancer free just like them.
Dang it, always one little thing to stop you in your tracks. The lock securing the chain has become unremovable, so I need to cut the lock off. I need the chain to wrap around the tree to anchor the come-along to use with the fence stretcher bar which I was definitely getting done tonight. Will have to complete tomorrow morning and will just need to work thru the humidity. [Need the genny which is in use to power the angle grinder to cut it off]
And, I get the impression that harbor freight locks don't really weather well. They soon become inoperable with enough rain/humidity.
And found out that jumping jacks are about half as effective as running in improving certain experiences. Did about 150 this morning.
Anyway, I'm noticing compared to my neighbors... my fence looks rather prestigious. Really, I just wanted to reduce the risk of unlawful trespass, but it has the side effect of looking pretty impressive actually. Seems like something pathetic to take pride in, but... I get a sense of it just looking at it, lol.
And for the 8x12 bedroom, think I might go with with a 12x12 foot flooring for a 4 foot porch.
Still not really sure how I'll make the structure waterproof.
There's...
cheap sheathing + weather-lining + vinyl siding
And then there's...
smart panels.
I'm not sure how smart panels are going to keep out the rain from leaking in through the edges.
It's an important consideration here. I don't want rain water pooling inside my bedroom like it does inside my shed, lol.
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Man, I really have to thank that HEB girl for the experience she gave me, wow. Being so forward and unfiltered with my intentions just really has those girls on edge to somewhat intriguing effect, they really seem taken aback by it in a kind of..."I'm feeling hot" kind of way, lol. Anyway, she kept trying to dissuade me, "I dunno man, she's weird", "She's really weird"... and I'm like... yeah, and? I'm not going to claim I'm all for a certain kind of gal, but I have nothing against the weird ones, and I have suspicion that they tend to be more my type.
And, saw sweet grammy country girl turned shy girl gal. She predictably averted her path, which I don't have anything against honestly. I don't really care about her so it doesn't affect me what she thinks [If I think anything of her, it's something lowly of unidentifiable origin. I would say she's stupid... but not enough evidence... maybe she lacks confidence in social settings... very possible... That's one thing the HEB gal didn't lack was social confidence; she was not inhibited at all from stating/expressing what she was thinking/feeling.]. She intrigues me for some reason, but I find her personality so grating and I'm not saying that she necessarily has a "grating personality", but it seems to grate with mine. I suspect maybe I had hypoglycemia during our past encounters and that might explain it... but does it really? Not the first encounter, no. Second one, maybe. I just don't know how much it grates because of "incompatible personalities" or because whatever particular temporary state I was in the recent past, whether that be hunger or 'penny pinching mode'.
She definitely noticed me munching away on my apple, lol. Looked more than once. And that was getting a little awkward trying to not look at her, lol. I don't want to give her the wrong idea, so I'm not going to risk locking eyes with her.
And,the one gas station with gas was charging $2.54/gallon, a 25% increase from a week ago.
Peregrine falcons and other birds of prey - with dive speeds of upto 240 mph, these definitely need a deterrent, and that's exactly what the thick forest provides. A chickens' natural habitat are thick forests to protect them from these large birds.
Racoons - Keep them locked up in the coop at night.
Foxes - use the chicken wire to line the ground around the fence.
Snakes - I don't know yet, maybe I should be looking into hardware cloth versus the poultry netting? Or maybe a tighter meshing? Like, a 1/2 inch 2' high poultry netting like here, $47 for 82' long. Don't know if that'd keep out the more threatening snakes, maybe I'd need 1/4 inch and I'd be looking at hardware cloth? 1/4' hardware cloth is expensive, about $.9/foot in larger quantities. (So my 300' perimeter would be $270)
...........
And this morning had me feeling my energy zapped and the chest pressure imminent. Drinking the cocoa instantly brought my energy levels up and the feeling of imminent chest pressure vanished. Got like 6 solid hours of sleep which seems like an improvement over 3.5 hours of sleep and then another 2 hours a couple hours later and some possible napping later in the day.
Still felt like I needed 2 hours sleep, tried it getting it while everything was running (Ideally, production would be separated from my bedroom), and falling coffee pot woke me up. Arggg... lol.
.............
Anyway, went to go make deliveries, and came across a younger caucasian couple that seemed pretty happy with their lives (I'd guess somewhere in their later 20s). Immediately thinking "Hey, these are my peers"[I.e., my neighbors really aren't my peers... mostly illegal mexicans, retirees or people down on their luck such as disabled children or some homeless person who apparently inherited a property. I chose this property not knowing who exactly inhabited these parts and solely basing on it was the best location for business operations given the close distance to the post office and it was reasonably close to Houston. All other locations were 15+ miles away from the PO which would've significantly increased fuel expenditures.], I checked them out and saw that he was driving a newer civic. If I were to make a surmising, I'd guess he probably has a $15-$20/hr full time job, probably has takehome pay somewhere between 24-30k per year, and spends $6000/yr on the vehicle and another $7000/yr-$12000/yr on the mortgage ($15,000 land + 30k mobile to 100k house) and don't know if the female works, but it's not unlikely, so their possible likely discretionary income might be anywhere from $6000/yr to $30,000/yr which isn't too bad for 20-somethings.
So, yes, maybe there was an ounce of jealousy, but I didn't feel so much jealous as to more hopeful because they are an indicator of the kind of lifestyle for someone of my generation in these parts. The equivalent lifestyle for 20-somethings back on the west coast... lol... no comparison. Land, real estate and rental prices are signficantly more expensive, and pay is often pretty low, so the effective discretionary income is notably lower in many west coast places, and especially Spokane.
As to my particular position right now, it's temporary, I effectively just moved here and I'm still in the process of securing the property so I can start entering the local economy (The temps here have actually been pretty high recently with it being sunny all day, so the old "Evening hours are work hours in the beesuit" rules still apply, limiting my effective applicable time to work outside at 2-3 hours and that's if I don't sleep through it (I slept through the evening yesterday, so didn't get the fence stretching done like I intended.). If mosquitos didn't exist here, I could work without my beesuit, and I would be able to significantly increase my available work hours outside to probably 6-7hours/day. And with the sweating (Work outside for 15 mins, sweat like a dog, take a break for 15 minutes), I'm actually effectively working outside at a rate of 1-1.5 hours/day during the warm sunny days, which typified 90% of the summer.
As to why I moved here...
1) Climate is excellent for gardening in terms of sun, rain and temeratures
2) Houston economy has been historically stable and flush with wealth (High paying jobs are more plentiful)
3) It's relatively accessible for someone of my generation to buy land with cash with a less than hour's commute from the highpaying jobs. The equivalent land purchasing opportunities on the west coast is something at least 100 miles away from any major population center with a probable 3+ hours commute including congested traffic. Which, actually, a number of younger people do end up doing this but in the process, they end up limiting themselves to the lower paying local work. But, in certain fields, I could see opportunities for transferring to higher paying locations with experience but I don't think these kinds of fields are particularly abundant 100+ miles from the major population centers.
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Fish consumption and cancer. So, I'm providing my recommendation for cancer prevention and I started to wonder about fish.
Here's my current recommendations, anyway:
As to the fish, I wondered if there was a net positive affect especially with the modern mercury content [Thanks largely to coal plants].
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/10393143
So, looks like fish consumption is double plus good in the cancer department, just like dark leafy greens. Imagine if these were consumed throughout the day like in south america's tribal societies? People might be largely cancer free just like them.
Dang it, always one little thing to stop you in your tracks. The lock securing the chain has become unremovable, so I need to cut the lock off. I need the chain to wrap around the tree to anchor the come-along to use with the fence stretcher bar which I was definitely getting done tonight. Will have to complete tomorrow morning and will just need to work thru the humidity. [Need the genny which is in use to power the angle grinder to cut it off]
And, I get the impression that harbor freight locks don't really weather well. They soon become inoperable with enough rain/humidity.
And found out that jumping jacks are about half as effective as running in improving certain experiences. Did about 150 this morning.
Anyway, I'm noticing compared to my neighbors... my fence looks rather prestigious. Really, I just wanted to reduce the risk of unlawful trespass, but it has the side effect of looking pretty impressive actually. Seems like something pathetic to take pride in, but... I get a sense of it just looking at it, lol.
And for the 8x12 bedroom, think I might go with with a 12x12 foot flooring for a 4 foot porch.
Still not really sure how I'll make the structure waterproof.
There's...
cheap sheathing + weather-lining + vinyl siding
And then there's...
smart panels.
I'm not sure how smart panels are going to keep out the rain from leaking in through the edges.
It's an important consideration here. I don't want rain water pooling inside my bedroom like it does inside my shed, lol.
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Man, I really have to thank that HEB girl for the experience she gave me, wow. Being so forward and unfiltered with my intentions just really has those girls on edge to somewhat intriguing effect, they really seem taken aback by it in a kind of..."I'm feeling hot" kind of way, lol. Anyway, she kept trying to dissuade me, "I dunno man, she's weird", "She's really weird"... and I'm like... yeah, and? I'm not going to claim I'm all for a certain kind of gal, but I have nothing against the weird ones, and I have suspicion that they tend to be more my type.
And, saw sweet grammy country girl turned shy girl gal. She predictably averted her path, which I don't have anything against honestly. I don't really care about her so it doesn't affect me what she thinks [If I think anything of her, it's something lowly of unidentifiable origin. I would say she's stupid... but not enough evidence... maybe she lacks confidence in social settings... very possible... That's one thing the HEB gal didn't lack was social confidence; she was not inhibited at all from stating/expressing what she was thinking/feeling.]. She intrigues me for some reason, but I find her personality so grating and I'm not saying that she necessarily has a "grating personality", but it seems to grate with mine. I suspect maybe I had hypoglycemia during our past encounters and that might explain it... but does it really? Not the first encounter, no. Second one, maybe. I just don't know how much it grates because of "incompatible personalities" or because whatever particular temporary state I was in the recent past, whether that be hunger or 'penny pinching mode'.
She definitely noticed me munching away on my apple, lol. Looked more than once. And that was getting a little awkward trying to not look at her, lol. I don't want to give her the wrong idea, so I'm not going to risk locking eyes with her.
And,the one gas station with gas was charging $2.54/gallon, a 25% increase from a week ago.
Eyes locked
This seems like a strange phenomenon because I get the sense that I personally don't get affected one iota in any sort of "overpowering"/"overwhelming" way, but based on the HEB chick's unpredictable outlandish reaction and this girl... http://www.loveshack.org/forums/romantic/dating/503692-he-locked-eyes-me-very-strange-feeling-what
They really seem like they're immediately taken to an alternative dimension by it and any sense of normalcy they had seemingly previously possessed immediately disappears. 3-5 seconds, I had the HEB chick at 20 seconds, lol. It didn't really matter the length, honestly, the first 5-10 seconds was definitely the crux and in her case, the first 2-3 seconds was definitely the most dramatic, and I don't mean in an incremental way, but in a several orders of magnitude kind of way.
It seems like a good percentage of the W4M ads on craigslist start off on "Our eyes locked for a few seconds", I'd estimate a good 20-30%.
Another 20% seems to be "You snooze, you lose, not my fault".
Another 15% seems to be "I remember you from 20 years ago and your memory will never escape me!".
Then a good 40% seems to be "I saw you at this [location] and you were standing by the counter. Tell me what you were wearing so I know it's you."
Then a most recent one was "You're being set up guys, don't fall for it!", lol.
I'm just like "How many people in Houston actually check out the missed connections section? It has to be less than 1%.", so for me, the section is basically some random sound off board to air out my current thoughts. I definitely don't think she's reading it, lol.
For almost all the guys there, it's mostly guys who didn't make a move or didn't introduce themselves, and they're pining about that one hottie they saw.
What happened with this guy?
[strike]I was so kind of shocked by it,it had never happened In my life,thAt I didn't really say much to him.I told him to go home a few hours later and then he sent me a really beautiful song when he got home.he asked me on a few dates but I never went and never saw him again.
To me it wasn't a "love connection" just a spiritual connection.
Oh, sounds like someone liked her. As to it not morphing into a love connection, it's quite possible he didn't have an attractive frame of mind during that time or she might not have been receptive due to "other reasons".[/strike] (Wrong user)
She seems oblivious to his desires at that time. And, his desire might have changed. But, is she really oblivious? The fact she's a new user who only posted to this particular thread on this particular website(loveshack.org), tells me she's not completely clueless.
Looking again at the original post, it appears this was an encounter with a new colleague. It's possible his desire might've changed, but I'd think there's a pretty good chance he's hiding it, he might not feel a compulsion to make an advance seeing to how she's there at work everyday and he might have other political reasons for not pursuing it further.
The HEB chick, I believe, was pretty receptive and that immediately segued into what /felt like/ a relationship of some kind, I'd guess maybe she was looking for one.
Wore her heart on her sleeve. I hear people saying this is a undesirable quality since they can be more easily manipulated by the manipulators (Especially guys just looking for sex), but I think the kind of person who particularly benefits from this trait (Those who'd have difficulty reading her otherwise), I think are pretty much a natural paring with this kind of gal and they likely too aren't the type hiding their intentions/feelings.
Anyway, I thought girls tended to not have materialistic reasons at their core, and that most of the detractors are merely bitter, but I seem to be confirming the detractors more often then the idealistic notions. It maybe just seemed to matter less in Nuke school because the girls there already knew you had a hefty paycheck, lol.
It seems more often than not... this is inferred from...
-Sense of generosity/spendiness.
-Status symbols (Car/phone/etc.)
-Ones attitude
Ones attitude seems like the lead-in, and status symbols are often 'the proof".
Does this mean I'm itching to go get an i-phone? Like hell I care, lol. I really just don't care, I would rather keep my money in my bank account instead of wasting it on depreciating assets. Further, I'd prefer to focus more money on asset classes that don't depreciate as much (houses vs. cars) and housing might actually have a tendency to multiply or appreciate.
(A house with $40,000 materials might actually sell for $120,000, thus multiplying. I don't really know the average real numbers, but it seems the price of housing often exceeds the price of materials. There might be qualifiers here: 1) sell during an up market 2) Housing that's qualified by banks for a mortgage. No doubt that mortgages are instrumental in inflating prices, and housing that doesn't qualify for one might have its sales price affected by it.)
Then again... let me think about that "not affected in one iota kind of way" claim... a girl has never done that before to me so I wouldn't really know. And, I don't think I'm the exception in that regard, I don't get the impression girls are the ones who are doing that. They might be hinting heavily ("Throwing themselves at you"), but they definitely aren't hunting you down like guys might. However, I've seen third party reports about this, and there are girls who have stared me down but it wasn't dramatic like it was with her, likely because there was no established rapport(We never talked). It was likely dramatic with the HEB chick I wouldn't necessarily say because she "was looking", but probably to some degree because she was already attracted to me. Kind of like with this girl quoted above, she thought the guy was cute so was already attracted to him to some degree. I've seen plenty online about guys doing this to girls "on the street", and they definitely don't seem to be having the same kind of reaction, usually more often, "You're making me uncomfortable, stop staring you creep", lol. But, I've definitely seen W4M girls who's eyes lock with random guys they've never spoken to, and she can immediately tell he's "hot" from his body language and they have that swoon reaction and thus they post to W4M on craigslist, lol.
Anyway, that brunette with her reaction at :57, that actually does explicitly remind me of that gal I was passing by 5 months ago. She didn't touch her hair, but she was definitely acting like she was ... how to describe... enjoying the warmth of my attention by rubbing her head against the invisible sofa next to her like a cat would (Swoon for a lack of better word). I'm not sure if that really captures the essence of her reaction, but it's what I got for now, lol. I never talked to her, just walked by her at a time when I had a voracious appetite.
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Just woke up at 8:30 a.m.
Looking back at...
Isn't that interesting? How did I describe at that precise moment for the first 3 seconds? Overwhelmed by beauty, tinged by sadness, intense longing.
She probably was seeing herself in this "dream" and literally saw the most beautiful scene in her mind with us in it. Maybe not in a place sunlit, it could've been whatever her imagination conjures when she thinks of nirvana, but it would definitely explain that "overwhelmed by beauty, tinged by sadness" look she had. The palpable sentimentality was strong in those moments.
Then her departing words were said with a dreamy sigh kind of intonation, suggesting I was the "man of her dreams", which precisely fits with the imagery she presumably was imagining in those first few moments (Literally the man of her dreams).
Wow, it almost feels like I reached the ultimate level of understanding of what she was thinking at the time, isn't that crazy? It only took like 2 months of perseverance and internet research.
And seeing how many girls were affected by this and at what age inferring from the loveshack thread, that was probably the first time she's experienced that. But, the last? Probably not.
Then again, this ladylady girl didn't experience it until she was 30, and I wouldn't assume she's never been on a date or never had a boyfriend.
Isn't it interesting... both of these cases in the loveshack thread here led to "dead ends"(As far as we know)... but it most assuredly wasn't a dead-end with the HEB chick, as in, it definitely had a conclusion. I wonder in what ways our experiences differed? With the ladylady girl, that guy appeared to lack followthrough, and with the other girl, it appears she didn't find him attractive. Arguably, I didn't lack followthrough and she found me attractive.
Our experiences appeared to be different, too, because... the HEB chick didn't immediately go into dreamland like with these girls... when she first noticed, she leaned back a little with a surprised look with mouth wide open (as in 'omg, hott!'), immediately veered to the left, then veered right, and then she casually looked back up and, in an instant, eyes locked and she was immediately whisked away seeing the dream flash before her, and then afterwards, it initially looked like she was orgasming and moaning but... I kind of think she was just trying to catch her breath (It was just odd how sensual this "catching her breath" initially came off if she indeed was just trying to catch her breath.), because that's what it eventually looked like.
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Anyway, saw the neighboring big burly mexican man walking with his presumed wife and 3 year old child. He wasn't swinging a machete or touting his hunting rifle this time, isn't that amazing? I'm pretty sure this is the guy who had the AR-15 who was intimidating me that one evening and then challenging me to a duel at 11:30 p.m. the same day(or night), and methinking, "What the frock is this guy's problem? I need to call the cops now, lol."
Anyway, with my now inferring he's a father, that gives some context. He might've presumed I was a danger/threat to the area, and he was protecting his family or something along those lines, I guess. Actually, hell if I know. I wasn't carrying my weaponry outside like this guy was, so his presumption of danger seems a bit unfounded. The only thing I might've been doing that might've been threatening was hurling insults at my neighbor which he might have overheard (He's a good quarter mile away, so I have my doubts he overheard me, but he might have a few evenings when he was out hunting...), but I've pretty much stopped that now. (I would be saying things in spanish like, "My mexican neighbors are frocking pieces of shiitake mushrooms.", but I've stopped that ever since he started threatening my life and I called the cops on him the next day, lol.)
Anyway, got the fence stretched and it's now in place. Just need to get the back going later today or maybe I'll focus on work today because I have a lot of it.
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Anyway, just kind of noticing the difference between my behavior this week versus 4 weeks ago. I definitely seem to be more jovial, and it seems like the key reason is probably... savings. Seems like when savings were low after the $400 fence purchases, I was feeling poor and acting bitter (coincidentally, this is the first time I interacted with the kroger girl so might've been bad timing...). So, this is telling, I should be constantly focusing on building savings and never go below $500 just to keep my spirits up, for mostly my own psychological benefit. The probable effect on my having behavior that is appealing to females might be nice, too, but... I really shouldn't be focusing on that now (hypothetically there's more upside in focusing on the savings side and there's a lot of upcoming flux.).
interesting note in this thread; http://www.ign.com/boards/threads/why-do-poor-people-always-have-to-be-bitter.454077969/
Why do poor people always have to be bitter?
Poverty causing bitterness is a good guess.
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I love how these girls conclude "you have some spiritual connection to him".
Lord oh lord, smh. Guys don't initiate the eyes lock because they are 'spiritually connected' to you, lol. Granted, don't get me wrong... at least in my experience... there did seem to be that "we're on the same wavelength" feeling to it... but I don't gaze at a girl like that just because I found a kindred spirit; I did it because I f'ing liked her and I wanted her to receive the message loud and clear and, oh yes, she definitely got the message and fell under my spell. For some reason, the loveshack bimbos seem kind of not-all-that-with-it.
[youtube]5Dtre2Yiw78[/youtube]
(It's interesting seeing I had the same affect on her as a kiss. i wonder if her emphasis on "complete stranger" in departing was her rational thought processes coming back into play and her way of implying, "That sure was inappropriate of you!", lol, but she didn't really care, she obviously f'cking loved it.)
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Anyway, interesting that Houston still has $1.99 stations, but the only stations with gas within 15 miles from here are at $2.54/gal. The stations out here are really ripping people off knowing they don't have much local competition with the widespread fuel shortage.
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[youtube]9e9NSMY8QiQ[/youtube]
Just catching the part where she says, "Here comes the dreams of you and me". Does this have any overlap with the "eyes locked dream flashing before you" phenomenon? Probably not directly.
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Anyway, I think the real reason why I don't like the kroger chick is because she made my dick shrink, lol. That's one thing that HEB chick did not do, lol. A girl who makes my dick shrink is just not worthwhile in any dimension, I don't care what state of mind I might have been in earlier. Granted, it is questionable if an earlier state of mind might've led to that effect.
Kroger chick comes across like a cat, whereas the HEB chick was more like a dog. There's one thing I really hate and its cats. You showed interest in the HEB chick and she loved it like a dog would, this kroger chick, she pulls away and runs like a cat does. And, it's like, yeah frock that, lol. I love my dogs.
And, like a dog, the HEB chick was just so sociable. The kroger chick? Yeah right, lol.
So I think I'm getting a pretty good idea of why I don't like this girl, she's the human version of a cat, lol. [She doesn't appear merely shy like I first suspected, but unsociable and lacking warmth.]
It's just a shame that it's pretty reliable seeing this kroger girl, whereas the heb girl was apparently "once in a lifetime", lol. It should be like completely the opposite, lol.
Anyway, cruisng the local craigslist ads and noticing that there's about ten times as male ads as female ads. Might seem insignificant by itself, except when a section has like 3 pages of male ads, and 3 listings of female ads, and you can just bet at least 1 or 2 of those are scammers if not all 3-[One of the listings explictly sounds like a scam, sounds like something a guy would want a girl to say as opposed to what a girl would say.], probably email harvesters.
Anyway, craigslist is obviously not the place to pick up chicks, lol. I get the sense that 1) Bars, Barnes&Noble, Coffee shops, Poetry readings,Clubs, other local venues,etc. 2) Tinder 3) Dating sites are more productive.
While cruising, came across a 30yr old male with a 5 bedroom house looking for someone to make babies with. Now, I wonder, why does this guy have a 5 bedroom house if he's the only one living in it? I assume there's a reason and I'm betting he wasn't banking on "If you build it, they will come", lol, but then again, maybe he was. Anyway, his plea sounded like desperation which by itself would normally be repulsive, and I wonder if he's trying approaches other than craigslist?
This seems like a strange phenomenon because I get the sense that I personally don't get affected one iota in any sort of "overpowering"/"overwhelming" way, but based on the HEB chick's unpredictable outlandish reaction and this girl... http://www.loveshack.org/forums/romantic/dating/503692-he-locked-eyes-me-very-strange-feeling-what
They really seem like they're immediately taken to an alternative dimension by it and any sense of normalcy they had seemingly previously possessed immediately disappears. 3-5 seconds, I had the HEB chick at 20 seconds, lol. It didn't really matter the length, honestly, the first 5-10 seconds was definitely the crux and in her case, the first 2-3 seconds was definitely the most dramatic, and I don't mean in an incremental way, but in a several orders of magnitude kind of way.
It seems like a good percentage of the W4M ads on craigslist start off on "Our eyes locked for a few seconds", I'd estimate a good 20-30%.
Another 20% seems to be "You snooze, you lose, not my fault".
Another 15% seems to be "I remember you from 20 years ago and your memory will never escape me!".
Then a good 40% seems to be "I saw you at this [location] and you were standing by the counter. Tell me what you were wearing so I know it's you."
Then a most recent one was "You're being set up guys, don't fall for it!", lol.
I'm just like "How many people in Houston actually check out the missed connections section? It has to be less than 1%.", so for me, the section is basically some random sound off board to air out my current thoughts. I definitely don't think she's reading it, lol.
For almost all the guys there, it's mostly guys who didn't make a move or didn't introduce themselves, and they're pining about that one hottie they saw.
What happened with this guy?
[strike]I was so kind of shocked by it,it had never happened In my life,thAt I didn't really say much to him.I told him to go home a few hours later and then he sent me a really beautiful song when he got home.he asked me on a few dates but I never went and never saw him again.
To me it wasn't a "love connection" just a spiritual connection.
Oh, sounds like someone liked her. As to it not morphing into a love connection, it's quite possible he didn't have an attractive frame of mind during that time or she might not have been receptive due to "other reasons".[/strike] (Wrong user)
She seems oblivious to his desires at that time. And, his desire might have changed. But, is she really oblivious? The fact she's a new user who only posted to this particular thread on this particular website(loveshack.org), tells me she's not completely clueless.
Looking again at the original post, it appears this was an encounter with a new colleague. It's possible his desire might've changed, but I'd think there's a pretty good chance he's hiding it, he might not feel a compulsion to make an advance seeing to how she's there at work everyday and he might have other political reasons for not pursuing it further.
The HEB chick, I believe, was pretty receptive and that immediately segued into what /felt like/ a relationship of some kind, I'd guess maybe she was looking for one.
Wore her heart on her sleeve. I hear people saying this is a undesirable quality since they can be more easily manipulated by the manipulators (Especially guys just looking for sex), but I think the kind of person who particularly benefits from this trait (Those who'd have difficulty reading her otherwise), I think are pretty much a natural paring with this kind of gal and they likely too aren't the type hiding their intentions/feelings.
Anyway, I thought girls tended to not have materialistic reasons at their core, and that most of the detractors are merely bitter, but I seem to be confirming the detractors more often then the idealistic notions. It maybe just seemed to matter less in Nuke school because the girls there already knew you had a hefty paycheck, lol.
It seems more often than not... this is inferred from...
-Sense of generosity/spendiness.
-Status symbols (Car/phone/etc.)
-Ones attitude
Ones attitude seems like the lead-in, and status symbols are often 'the proof".
Does this mean I'm itching to go get an i-phone? Like hell I care, lol. I really just don't care, I would rather keep my money in my bank account instead of wasting it on depreciating assets. Further, I'd prefer to focus more money on asset classes that don't depreciate as much (houses vs. cars) and housing might actually have a tendency to multiply or appreciate.
(A house with $40,000 materials might actually sell for $120,000, thus multiplying. I don't really know the average real numbers, but it seems the price of housing often exceeds the price of materials. There might be qualifiers here: 1) sell during an up market 2) Housing that's qualified by banks for a mortgage. No doubt that mortgages are instrumental in inflating prices, and housing that doesn't qualify for one might have its sales price affected by it.)
Then again... let me think about that "not affected in one iota kind of way" claim... a girl has never done that before to me so I wouldn't really know. And, I don't think I'm the exception in that regard, I don't get the impression girls are the ones who are doing that. They might be hinting heavily ("Throwing themselves at you"), but they definitely aren't hunting you down like guys might. However, I've seen third party reports about this, and there are girls who have stared me down but it wasn't dramatic like it was with her, likely because there was no established rapport(We never talked). It was likely dramatic with the HEB chick I wouldn't necessarily say because she "was looking", but probably to some degree because she was already attracted to me. Kind of like with this girl quoted above, she thought the guy was cute so was already attracted to him to some degree. I've seen plenty online about guys doing this to girls "on the street", and they definitely don't seem to be having the same kind of reaction, usually more often, "You're making me uncomfortable, stop staring you creep", lol. But, I've definitely seen W4M girls who's eyes lock with random guys they've never spoken to, and she can immediately tell he's "hot" from his body language and they have that swoon reaction and thus they post to W4M on craigslist, lol.
Anyway, that brunette with her reaction at :57, that actually does explicitly remind me of that gal I was passing by 5 months ago. She didn't touch her hair, but she was definitely acting like she was ... how to describe... enjoying the warmth of my attention by rubbing her head against the invisible sofa next to her like a cat would (Swoon for a lack of better word). I'm not sure if that really captures the essence of her reaction, but it's what I got for now, lol. I never talked to her, just walked by her at a time when I had a voracious appetite.
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Just woke up at 8:30 a.m.
Looking back at...
Isn't that interesting? How did I describe at that precise moment for the first 3 seconds? Overwhelmed by beauty, tinged by sadness, intense longing.
She probably was seeing herself in this "dream" and literally saw the most beautiful scene in her mind with us in it. Maybe not in a place sunlit, it could've been whatever her imagination conjures when she thinks of nirvana, but it would definitely explain that "overwhelmed by beauty, tinged by sadness" look she had. The palpable sentimentality was strong in those moments.
Then her departing words were said with a dreamy sigh kind of intonation, suggesting I was the "man of her dreams", which precisely fits with the imagery she presumably was imagining in those first few moments (Literally the man of her dreams).
Wow, it almost feels like I reached the ultimate level of understanding of what she was thinking at the time, isn't that crazy? It only took like 2 months of perseverance and internet research.
And seeing how many girls were affected by this and at what age inferring from the loveshack thread, that was probably the first time she's experienced that. But, the last? Probably not.
Then again, this ladylady girl didn't experience it until she was 30, and I wouldn't assume she's never been on a date or never had a boyfriend.
Isn't it interesting... both of these cases in the loveshack thread here led to "dead ends"(As far as we know)... but it most assuredly wasn't a dead-end with the HEB chick, as in, it definitely had a conclusion. I wonder in what ways our experiences differed? With the ladylady girl, that guy appeared to lack followthrough, and with the other girl, it appears she didn't find him attractive. Arguably, I didn't lack followthrough and she found me attractive.
Our experiences appeared to be different, too, because... the HEB chick didn't immediately go into dreamland like with these girls... when she first noticed, she leaned back a little with a surprised look with mouth wide open (as in 'omg, hott!'), immediately veered to the left, then veered right, and then she casually looked back up and, in an instant, eyes locked and she was immediately whisked away seeing the dream flash before her, and then afterwards, it initially looked like she was orgasming and moaning but... I kind of think she was just trying to catch her breath (It was just odd how sensual this "catching her breath" initially came off if she indeed was just trying to catch her breath.), because that's what it eventually looked like.
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Anyway, saw the neighboring big burly mexican man walking with his presumed wife and 3 year old child. He wasn't swinging a machete or touting his hunting rifle this time, isn't that amazing? I'm pretty sure this is the guy who had the AR-15 who was intimidating me that one evening and then challenging me to a duel at 11:30 p.m. the same day(or night), and methinking, "What the frock is this guy's problem? I need to call the cops now, lol."
Anyway, with my now inferring he's a father, that gives some context. He might've presumed I was a danger/threat to the area, and he was protecting his family or something along those lines, I guess. Actually, hell if I know. I wasn't carrying my weaponry outside like this guy was, so his presumption of danger seems a bit unfounded. The only thing I might've been doing that might've been threatening was hurling insults at my neighbor which he might have overheard (He's a good quarter mile away, so I have my doubts he overheard me, but he might have a few evenings when he was out hunting...), but I've pretty much stopped that now. (I would be saying things in spanish like, "My mexican neighbors are frocking pieces of shiitake mushrooms.", but I've stopped that ever since he started threatening my life and I called the cops on him the next day, lol.)
Anyway, got the fence stretched and it's now in place. Just need to get the back going later today or maybe I'll focus on work today because I have a lot of it.
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Anyway, just kind of noticing the difference between my behavior this week versus 4 weeks ago. I definitely seem to be more jovial, and it seems like the key reason is probably... savings. Seems like when savings were low after the $400 fence purchases, I was feeling poor and acting bitter (coincidentally, this is the first time I interacted with the kroger girl so might've been bad timing...). So, this is telling, I should be constantly focusing on building savings and never go below $500 just to keep my spirits up, for mostly my own psychological benefit. The probable effect on my having behavior that is appealing to females might be nice, too, but... I really shouldn't be focusing on that now (hypothetically there's more upside in focusing on the savings side and there's a lot of upcoming flux.).
interesting note in this thread; http://www.ign.com/boards/threads/why-do-poor-people-always-have-to-be-bitter.454077969/
Why do poor people always have to be bitter?
Poverty causing bitterness is a good guess.
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I love how these girls conclude "you have some spiritual connection to him".
Lord oh lord, smh. Guys don't initiate the eyes lock because they are 'spiritually connected' to you, lol. Granted, don't get me wrong... at least in my experience... there did seem to be that "we're on the same wavelength" feeling to it... but I don't gaze at a girl like that just because I found a kindred spirit; I did it because I f'ing liked her and I wanted her to receive the message loud and clear and, oh yes, she definitely got the message and fell under my spell. For some reason, the loveshack bimbos seem kind of not-all-that-with-it.
[youtube]5Dtre2Yiw78[/youtube]
(It's interesting seeing I had the same affect on her as a kiss. i wonder if her emphasis on "complete stranger" in departing was her rational thought processes coming back into play and her way of implying, "That sure was inappropriate of you!", lol, but she didn't really care, she obviously f'cking loved it.)
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Anyway, interesting that Houston still has $1.99 stations, but the only stations with gas within 15 miles from here are at $2.54/gal. The stations out here are really ripping people off knowing they don't have much local competition with the widespread fuel shortage.
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[youtube]9e9NSMY8QiQ[/youtube]
Just catching the part where she says, "Here comes the dreams of you and me". Does this have any overlap with the "eyes locked dream flashing before you" phenomenon? Probably not directly.
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Anyway, I think the real reason why I don't like the kroger chick is because she made my dick shrink, lol. That's one thing that HEB chick did not do, lol. A girl who makes my dick shrink is just not worthwhile in any dimension, I don't care what state of mind I might have been in earlier. Granted, it is questionable if an earlier state of mind might've led to that effect.
Kroger chick comes across like a cat, whereas the HEB chick was more like a dog. There's one thing I really hate and its cats. You showed interest in the HEB chick and she loved it like a dog would, this kroger chick, she pulls away and runs like a cat does. And, it's like, yeah frock that, lol. I love my dogs.
And, like a dog, the HEB chick was just so sociable. The kroger chick? Yeah right, lol.
So I think I'm getting a pretty good idea of why I don't like this girl, she's the human version of a cat, lol. [She doesn't appear merely shy like I first suspected, but unsociable and lacking warmth.]
It's just a shame that it's pretty reliable seeing this kroger girl, whereas the heb girl was apparently "once in a lifetime", lol. It should be like completely the opposite, lol.
Anyway, cruisng the local craigslist ads and noticing that there's about ten times as male ads as female ads. Might seem insignificant by itself, except when a section has like 3 pages of male ads, and 3 listings of female ads, and you can just bet at least 1 or 2 of those are scammers if not all 3-[One of the listings explictly sounds like a scam, sounds like something a guy would want a girl to say as opposed to what a girl would say.], probably email harvesters.
Anyway, craigslist is obviously not the place to pick up chicks, lol. I get the sense that 1) Bars, Barnes&Noble, Coffee shops, Poetry readings,Clubs, other local venues,etc. 2) Tinder 3) Dating sites are more productive.
While cruising, came across a 30yr old male with a 5 bedroom house looking for someone to make babies with. Now, I wonder, why does this guy have a 5 bedroom house if he's the only one living in it? I assume there's a reason and I'm betting he wasn't banking on "If you build it, they will come", lol, but then again, maybe he was. Anyway, his plea sounded like desperation which by itself would normally be repulsive, and I wonder if he's trying approaches other than craigslist?
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[youtube]OQ2fREo3Tjc[/youtube]
Some random person claimed I wasn't a "bad boy" and made some fairly illogical assumption based on that. So, I'm curious what does this "bad boy" look like?
Yeah, that looks pretty much identical to the gaze I used on the HEB chick. I'm not trying to claim to be any stereotype, but in terms of impulsive "risk taking" and this gaze, I'd think maybe I was a little on the "bad boy" side July 1. Seems kind of silly calling it "bad boy" behavior since there's nothing bad about it, lol. More like, holding nothing back behavior.
Anyway, I see so many rockstars that look like they're trying to buy a girl's love in their songs by offering them riches and luxury. I have mixed feelings about that. On one hand, you'll definitely attract a certain kind of girl and rockstars will generally have no problems attracting a girl for reasons other than buying them off, but for everyone else, unless you're pursuing gold diggers, I wouldn't necessarily advise that. I don't want to act like I'm an authority in this area, because every girl is different I guess and there's multiple shades between every trait among girls, but it has a way of screaming I'M DESPERATE AND I'M TRYING TO MANIPULATE YOU WITH GIFTS. There's one thing you don't want to advertise to a girl and that's desperation and generally no one likes feeling like they're getting manipulated. Anyway, that's my thoughts on the subject.
Latest song along these lines.
[youtube]PMivT7MJ41M[/youtube]
Anyway, as to "minimum living standards" to bringing a modern american girl with expectations home in this area... I'd surmise...
At least 700 sq. ft.
Complies with visual norms for a house (I.e., shouldn't look like a wooden box in other words, lol)
Established electric service
Coincidentally, standard single wide trailers are 15x50 typically, which meets that 700 sq. ft. minimum. I'm not really so solid on that number, maybe 300 ft. minimum would be suitable (Cabin size), since apartments generally don't get much larger than that. Well, let me fact check that... it looks like a standard 1 bedroom apartment is around 700-760 sq ft.
Seems like reasonable expectations to me, anyways. The established electric service comes from the sense there's general disapproval of running a generator in a neighborhood for power, lol.
I'm obviously not suggesting that it's necessary to have this to attract a girl (Indeed, one night stands at the motel certainly aren't impractical), and I'm not suggesting that one would use this to attract females in general (Though casually implying it or suggesting it won't hurt if the girl is looking for a place...), but I'd think it's a reasonable expectation for bringing a girl home.
That HEB chick, I don't really know if meeting her screwed me over or what, but girls were so not on the radar until I met her, then like a wolf tasting blood for the first time... lol... hungry like the wolf.
[youtube]oOg5VxrRTi0[/youtube]
Anyway, man... I just don't know how to say this. But, it's telling when i get weak in the knees walking past some 14 year olds, lol. Ideally, I would be attracted to people above the legal age, lol, but as a famous singer once sang...
[youtube]ij_0p_6qTss[/youtube]
I know, the secret is to not knowingly break laws, in which case I haven't done that (Knowingly anyway...) so I think I'm good so far.
Yeah, that looks pretty much identical to the gaze I used on the HEB chick. I'm not trying to claim to be any stereotype, but in terms of impulsive "risk taking" and this gaze, I'd think maybe I was a little on the "bad boy" side July 1. Seems kind of silly calling it "bad boy" behavior since there's nothing bad about it, lol. More like, holding nothing back behavior.
Anyway, I see so many rockstars that look like they're trying to buy a girl's love in their songs by offering them riches and luxury. I have mixed feelings about that. On one hand, you'll definitely attract a certain kind of girl and rockstars will generally have no problems attracting a girl for reasons other than buying them off, but for everyone else, unless you're pursuing gold diggers, I wouldn't necessarily advise that. I don't want to act like I'm an authority in this area, because every girl is different I guess and there's multiple shades between every trait among girls, but it has a way of screaming I'M DESPERATE AND I'M TRYING TO MANIPULATE YOU WITH GIFTS. There's one thing you don't want to advertise to a girl and that's desperation and generally no one likes feeling like they're getting manipulated. Anyway, that's my thoughts on the subject.
Latest song along these lines.
[youtube]PMivT7MJ41M[/youtube]
Anyway, as to "minimum living standards" to bringing a modern american girl with expectations home in this area... I'd surmise...
At least 700 sq. ft.
Complies with visual norms for a house (I.e., shouldn't look like a wooden box in other words, lol)
Established electric service
Coincidentally, standard single wide trailers are 15x50 typically, which meets that 700 sq. ft. minimum. I'm not really so solid on that number, maybe 300 ft. minimum would be suitable (Cabin size), since apartments generally don't get much larger than that. Well, let me fact check that... it looks like a standard 1 bedroom apartment is around 700-760 sq ft.
Seems like reasonable expectations to me, anyways. The established electric service comes from the sense there's general disapproval of running a generator in a neighborhood for power, lol.
I'm obviously not suggesting that it's necessary to have this to attract a girl (Indeed, one night stands at the motel certainly aren't impractical), and I'm not suggesting that one would use this to attract females in general (Though casually implying it or suggesting it won't hurt if the girl is looking for a place...), but I'd think it's a reasonable expectation for bringing a girl home.
That HEB chick, I don't really know if meeting her screwed me over or what, but girls were so not on the radar until I met her, then like a wolf tasting blood for the first time... lol... hungry like the wolf.
[youtube]oOg5VxrRTi0[/youtube]
Anyway, man... I just don't know how to say this. But, it's telling when i get weak in the knees walking past some 14 year olds, lol. Ideally, I would be attracted to people above the legal age, lol, but as a famous singer once sang...
[youtube]ij_0p_6qTss[/youtube]
I know, the secret is to not knowingly break laws, in which case I haven't done that (Knowingly anyway...) so I think I'm good so far.
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swbluto said:
Made you feel married, eh?
swbluto said:
Well, as a male with a 5 bedroom house that has looked for "Someone to make babies with," I can tell you from personal experience is that the extra bedrooms is for those babies to go in. If you start with something smaller you just get stuck moving later, afterall.
swbluto said:
And what would that illogical assumption BE, Sheldon? That you're somehow not superior?
You're just having trouble telling the difference between BAD and && . Baaaaaaaadddd . &&&. Of course you're BAD, but how could that ever compare to being && . Baaaaaaaadddd . &&& like me? (Can't you just feel the tickle.) When you're BAD, you just can't understand. But when I'm && . Baaaaaaaadddd . &&& they just can't let it go.
Dauntless said:
I hope this is not a widespread phenomenon, lol. (I sure as hell know I wouldn't marry her, lol, now the HEB chick was definitely a possibility)
Let's see...
https://pairedlife.com/physical-intimacy/Reasons-Why-Sex-Decreases-After-Marriage
Oh, I see what's at play here. He chose to marry a 'one night stand' kind of gal (Did he do so knowingly?), so it appears. That does beget the question if he had chosen another girl, it might have turned out differently?
Anyway, that's a pretty strong argument for having sex before marriage, try it before you buy it.
Of course, I'm willing to entertain opposing views, like
http://www.salvomag.com/new/articles/salvo17/17koukl.php
The theory sounds great but what kind of biases does this platform have?
Oh ho, christian idealism. Well, I'm not going to take their view with a grain of salt, christian couples generally have more in the way of social resources, support (Through the church) and ideals that lead their lives so it /can/ be more practical for them to some extent... in at least some cases... maybe not all...
I'm not exactly sure what's at play here exactly... what is pure lust that drove him to marriage but he didn't love her, and the lust immediately wore off the first time? Or does he love her but has something of a madonna-whore complex (Can't be sexually aroused within a committed loving relationship.)?
A one night stand kind of situation suggests pure lust without associated love.
Anyway, I was reading that 78% of fulltime workers are living paycheck to paycheck. So, I would say I do feel a little superior, lol. (Of course, I know my current living standards aren't nearly as costly as the average fulltime worker, which I'm sure has a lot to do with it, so maybe I /shouldn't/ feel superior, lol.)
Dauntless said:
Well, generally, I don't think I'm superior.... lolololol... wow, the narcissism is undeniable. Whatever, I humbly accept that my perfection is one of my many flaws, lol.
Tickle, you mean the one that girls are supposed to experience in certain parts? I was just reading about that, isn't that interesting. I had no idea that area could tickle.
I guess Baaaaaaad is like my neighbor, doing a bunch of illegal crap because he /wants/ to break laws, just like the Baaaad restriction slut was purposely breaking rules just because she wanted to break rules. I may be breaking certain laws, but only because there's a financial incentive, so I guess you /could/ call me a misdemeanor white collar criminal, though that is stretching it.
I was reading that some girls will twirl their hair when around a guy she likes. What does it mean if I'm twirling my hair? I think I'm just bored, lol. Well, I guess I was just looking at some match photos in my email, lol.
Anyhow, this guy talking about how psychopaths are incapable of love. i'm just wary of using absolutes when it comes to psychology and "incapable" is definitely an absolute. Sure, I could accept the faculty possibly being diminished or altered from the norms in some fashion, but altogether absent is hard to believe.
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wow, today's been feeling emotionally fulfilling this evening. Was it my record sales this week? Getting noticed by a random employee who cheerfully greeted me as I passed (presumably she noticed the ... something... in the way I carried myself.)? Or the fact I did a lot of prep work for the fence?
http://www.ign.com/boards/threads/there-might-be-a-more-perfect-girl-out-there-but-i-havent-seen-her.452654961/page-2
Dang, sounds like my kind of woman, lol. Emotionally immature, wants to be her dictator. Yeah, no problems there, being a dictator is some fun shit, lol.
For some reason, I get the sense the HEB chick was definitely open to being controlled with how submissive she seemed. The fact she was so easily overpowered by my demands lends to that notion.
I don't think anything turns me on more than a slavish girl doing anything to please her master.
Kind of like a dog, huh, lol.
This whole HEB chick = dog, kroger girl = cat is just getting ever more real, lol. Sociable, affectionate, obedient, submissive...mmmm.... lol.
http://sibg.com/control-domination/
If your girlfriend is already taking control and assuming dominance over you, it’s already the beginning of the end of the relationship.
Hey, that's what the guy on Houston's craigslist was complaining of. Jumping through hoops and then not getting a treat at the end like at least circus animals do, lol. Jeez, I could smell that kind of test a mile away, lol. That doesn't seem to be an issue I've encountered with girls, them trying to control me and I'm not exactly sure why.
https://www.themodernman.com/blog/do-women-like-to-be-controlled.html+&cd=1&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=us
What the hell is he talking about? I'd be doing it because it'd be satisifying, not because I was scared of losing her, lol. If anything, I'd normally think I'd risk losing her by controlling her, lol, but it'd be very obvious how receptive she would be to it, and in practice, I'd probably adjust my behavior to suit. If she was receptive to it in the "That turns me on" kind of way which I would suspect, you bet to hell I'd continue.
If the kroger girl was approaching me, i'm pretty sure I'd say something like "Get the f away from me".
(I don't think she has my heart, but the other two seem to be there.)
[youtube]lwZqbQL4H4Q[/youtube]
Wow, captures the essence of the HEB chick encounter. Never knew if I was going to see her again if I just simply left, so I didn't hold back.
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swbluto said:
I suppose it means you're around a guy you like, too.
swbluto said:
Well, you're right, there's no such thing as psychopaths being incapable of love. Mainly because there's no such thing as psychopaths. Oops, have we stumbled into another urban legend. There's all sorts problems with people who have difficulty with empathy. But get over words like psychopath and sociopath. even I find myself stuck using them to tray to talk to people about certain things. But seriously now, who decides what a "Psychopath" or a "Sociopath" really is? Don't say psychologists do, because they SPECIFICALLY don't. Nor do they deal with "Sane" or "Insane," which are courtroom concepts.
swbluto said:
But are those Eastern European "Slavish" women really like that? What about European women who aren't slavic?
swbluto said:
I'm pretty sure the guy on craigslist is going out with the 'H.E.B. chick.'
swbluto said:
You sound like you've adjusted well to it. The problem with all these self actualization seminars is that a self actualized person is really good at being a jerk.
[youtube]OG3Kyk3Xc5A[/youtube]
Dauntless said:
I was feeling confident she was shopping around for a man because she seemed to be asking about work and was obviously interested in where you lived, so I have a somewhat strong feeling she eventually found someone who took her home /assuming/ she was out of highschool.
And, as to this strong possibility, I'm like "that's cool". I think I got over her after about 2 weeks after I confidently determined I wasn't going to see her again, but she is the yardstick I use for every other chick now, for better or worse, lol. [in terms of 'spark'/'sexual chemistry'/kindredness, and I don't mean in a "rate each factor on a spreadsheet" kind of way, lol, just a gut feeling.]
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swbluto said:
Two weeks? It's been months and she's still EVERYTHNG to you. Imagine if you hada REASON to talk about her.
Dauntless said:
Well, yeah, she's like the person I have the strongest bond with in this area so she's not getting easily forgotten[And, I don't mean that in a "slightly stronger" kind of way as compared to others I know of here, but an order of magnitude of difference.]. But, I'm not hanging myself up on her, I already shed those tears and have no more to shed.
And if being the dominant person making the demands["being a dictator"] that turns a girl on is the same thing as "Being a jerk", I guess I can now see why "Girls fall for jerks/assholes". One of the primary duties of a boyfriend is to turn her on and I guess "jerks" know exactly how to do that. :lol:
She became my girlfriend precisely because I massively turned her on, there's really no secret there.
Anyway, that's one of the techniques this player back in highschool used. He would purposely drop his pencil on the floor and then command a girl to pick his pencil up, and she had that look of 'ohmygod,you'reso hot, Iloveyou", lol. Coincidentally nottoo different in effect from the look theHEB chick had when I rejected her... except a little more desperate....
Seeing that affect on her... desperate formy love... yeah,pretty satisfying. Like I had her wrapped around my finger.
And that nagging affect,normally thatwould otherwisebring my spirits down eventually, but really I would'vejusttoldhertoshutthefuckup which undoubtedly would turn her on. Not takingher crap is key with these women,I guess itshows you have a backbone.
She wasn't really nagging me, though, as far as I know though there seemed to be a hint of it in her departing words. But, I've definitely experienced it before,so I know the dynamic and i definitely know what NOT TO DO, lol. "Please stop it, please leave me alone, you're being mean", lol. That's definitely the way of the wuss.
http://www.wivestownhallconnection.com/2012/09/5-characteristics-of-nagging-woman.html
Oh, that's really the source of nagging? Not beating the joneses?
*scratcheshead*
:?
I do have to admit, that was a historical goal of mine, "beating my peers" (i.e., the joneses), so this desire among women shouldn't be too unsurprising, and dissatisfaction and subsequently nagging could predictably arise when it's not being achieved.
Yeah, that actually seems to make a lot of sense now.
I don't think it's the only wellspring for nagging, though.
The key to life satisfaction is beating your peers, hmmm...I wonder how truethat is... I don't think it'sthe only element, "A life shared is happiness".
https://greatergood.berkeley.edu/article/item/materialism_gratitude_happiness
How Gratitude Beats Materialism
Gratitude looks like a meaningful indice on satisfaction. So,nagging wives tend to have less gratitude?
I do suppose it's one thing I'm not lacking, and it's gratitude. I know what it's like having pretty much nothing, so I'm pretty damn thankful when I have morethan that, lol.
And,now my generator is actinglikeit's dying. Just like my 2000w generator did right before it died. Let's hope that the load is just simply too high.
After turning offthebattery charger, it's now at 124V vs. 120V earlier. I guess maybethe load was too high. never been a problem before suggesting the max power output has decreased... might need to clean the airfilter. If the "acts likeit's dying" problem persists, it mightbe morethan theair filter, in which caseI'm SOL, lol.
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http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Wrapped%20around%20the%20finger
wrapped around the finger
Why do I keep finding "when a girl has x affect on guy" for terms i use on this girl? I'm a guy, so... what's the implication? I had the manipulative skill of a girl on this particular girl? (And that's because she was 16? Because she was my spirit animal?)
The other one was Spellcasting: http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Spellcasting
This girl did wear her heart on her sleeve, suggesting she might've been a little more manipulable than the typical female.
I wasn't really trying to "manipulate her" though... so .... that's not a good description of how things unfolded.
[youtube]lwZqbQL4H4Q[/youtube]
There's a lot of parallels in this video with my person, I've noticed.
I bolded all the possible parallels.
At :53, what a tear jerker.
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https://www.quora.com/What-do-people-mean-when-they-say-he-she-is-my-spirit-animal
Wow, the sole answerer has a stick up her butt. And to answer the girl, it means he/she is your kindred spirit, the psychological mirror of he/she. You share deep psychological traits that enables a deep level of understanding/relatability rarely achieved in most.
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I was thinking your parallels might be found in some of Ross Bagdasarian's pre 'Chipmunks' work.
It wouldn't hurt to stop blaming women because they don't respond to you.
[youtube]4H6qbQLTJVA[/youtube]
It wouldn't hurt to stop blaming women because they don't respond to you.
[youtube]4H6qbQLTJVA[/youtube]
Talked to neighbor walking down the street, the one from the families down the way. He seemed like he was being affable, but I got very uneasy feeling talking to him, I have this eerie suspicion they're plotting my death and they have certainly demonstrated they have the instruments necessary to make it happen. They seem to have become more relaxed about walking up and down this road after the cops showed up to talk to grandpa about all the shooting, and I encountered him walking with his dogs as I was refueling the genny.
Purportedly was looking for a small black girl, which is strange since I'm pretty sure one doesn't live with them and I've never seen any kids walking down this road, EVER. I suspect ulterior motives for the question.[I think he mayhave been trying to suggest his reason for walking around, suggesting he was walking for some other reason he was trying to conceal. surveillance of my property, surveillanceof me, whoknows.]
He was walking back before I entered the RV,though, so he probably did have the question before I entered.Anyway, need to find the fog horn, if I can't find one by tonight, I'll go out and buy one tonight.
Purportedly was looking for a small black girl, which is strange since I'm pretty sure one doesn't live with them and I've never seen any kids walking down this road, EVER. I suspect ulterior motives for the question.[I think he mayhave been trying to suggest his reason for walking around, suggesting he was walking for some other reason he was trying to conceal. surveillance of my property, surveillanceof me, whoknows.]
He was walking back before I entered the RV,though, so he probably did have the question before I entered.Anyway, need to find the fog horn, if I can't find one by tonight, I'll go out and buy one tonight.
Dauntless said:
Hmmm... when did I blame anyone? I'm not seeking a response from anyone, so this is kind of baseless. As to the Kroger girl, I'm pretty sure I just don't like her personality, she acts really really immature and childish. I'd suspect she's a bit stupid, too, but that's only a suspicion as it's very possible she's simply unsociable. And when I say this, I don't mean "She won't talk to me", I've never really seen her talk to anyone which isn't to say I've been studying her all day, but I haven't witnessed her talking to coworkers or anything during the times I've seen her and, oh believe me, if she were anything like the HEB chick, she'd be talking to SOMEONE, lol.
She intrigues me probably because she walks with an erect posture(Likely communicates "high status"), but that alone isn't enough.
In terms of qualifying her worthiness, she so far fails, and this is OK. It's good to hold women to a standard to be worthy of your time.
AND THE FIRST 4 FEET OF THE FENCE IS FINISHED. Now just need to get the top 2 feet, top 4feet for the front, and apply the barbed wire. Then build the gates.
I like finding these random humorous phrases I can immediatelyrelate to, lol.
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=stiffer+than+a+honeymoon+dick
stiffer than a honeymoon dick
Lol, yes, that honeymoon dick is very stiff,lol.
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swbluto said:
You're asking how many times in this thread alone?
swbluto said:
So there's five times in the same paragraph as the denial, followed immediately by. . . .
swbluto said:
So I'm not sure how the statistics class covered creating an average for your blaming women for their not responding to you, or for estimating the total across the entire thread. But you're well on your way to some serious numbers.
swbluto said:
Which only proves that if he WANTS one, he has to get looking.
It's more than that. She appears vindictive (Even though I'm not sure what grudge she could be harboring) and that's one thing the HEB chick wasn't, nothing could get her down. Not that I tested it, but everything possibly bad just rolled right off as she brushed it off. I guess she had a firmly anchored positive sense of self, might've been highly valued in her community. ("She loved life and it loved her back")
This girl just has lack of sufficient social integration to keep her spirits buoyant and stabilized and too much negativity about her. On the fringe, unstable.
This girl just has lack of sufficient social integration to keep her spirits buoyant and stabilized and too much negativity about her. On the fringe, unstable.
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Okay, I'm having trouble scoring that last post for your blame game. It just came so rapid fire.
Exactly what I was thinking, she's toxic, so not worth my time. I've met these people before and there's usually something they're dissatisfied about in their own lives. At time I met this one person, it was college that was depressing them, but that changed after they got out and they, like me, had no time to waste on toxic people (Like their former selves).
Anyway, I really want to stop talking about it. I'm not "blaming anyone", if anything, i'm verbally bullying them. That's one thing the HEB did, she had a little bit of "bully" and toughness in her (Resilience in spades), just like my favorite pug did, and the best response is to fight back. If you're like this gal, and just shirk away, that means you're weak and deserve to be bullied until you prove otherwise. If you're like my dog, and stand your ground and fight back, than welcome to my exclusive circle. [Coincidentally, that's exactly what I did with the HEB chick when she tried bullying me and she madly fell in love. It showed a backbone and an inclination to fight when needed, to protect.]
As to "Does this behavior attract her", that's not the point, she needs to qualify before being worthy of my consideration.
Anyway, the "wealthy arrogance" is back for the time being and those unintended staring contests coming from the girls is getting uncomfortable, lol. I looked away, not because I lack confidence, but because I wasn't really attracted to her. [If I were... oh... you bet I'd be initiating it, lol, have a track record there, lol]
And... I put my generator inside the fence line. Should there be a future passerby during refueling, hopefully I'll be on the OTHERSIDE of the fence,lol.[I really feel like I could use a pistol in the current situation, lol. Once I get on the fenced in property, a shotgun should be the most I might desire though I'm hoping with the proper design, I could 'keep the bad guys out' long enough to SOUND THE ALARM so the whole neighborhood knows and call the police.]
Anyway, if I were to classify girls...
HEB girl = gf/wife material
Krogers girl = one night stand at best (sexy but you can't stand their personality.)
I have a feeling that's what the issue of that one guy was. He married a one night stand girl, because she had sexual allure at one time, but not the personality that would keep him coming back for more. That is, likely, he didn't marry a "bestfriend", a self-same person.
There are, of course, the classic infatuation relationships that typically last 4 months according to mexican belief. Infatuation but no enduring mutual love.
I can't readily distinguish if the HEB girl was of this type. I'm just betting not. I don't really want to substantiate it, but she seemed to behave very much like I did when I was younger and her smile looked so much like mine (That characteristic "Creepy smile"... it's not really creepy to me... but... it's definitely characteristic and very few females possess it.), and... that's rare, I've never witnessed it before on any girl. And the kind of sexual attraction was unique, though I can't tell if that's because "She was so hot" or because the desire was reciprocated. Could've been both.
That creepy smile... I can't really tell if that was a troll face, lol, but I'm just strongly betting not.
And,I've noticed I've been advocating divorce lately. Not sure why... if those appropriate situations keep popping up in my newsfeed or if my tunes have changed for the worse (or better?).["You don't like it or too problematic or unacceptable, just quit."; that's a common critique of military brats, if the going gets tough, they'll just "give up and ignore" as someone is going to move away within year or two. But according to wikipedia...
And,wow, asof Sep 6, the mornings have become quite cool. 58F whereas just a month ago, the low was typically 78F.And I REALLY REALLY LIKE IT, lol. 78F mornings were horrible, it always felt warm/hot day after day after day,no refreshers anywhere.
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=military%20brat
I guess I outgrew being a military brat, lol.
Anyway, made breakthrough in the passionate love gaze. Yes, the stare is entirely sexual. And the reason why is because staring is entirely part and parcel of the missionary position, and this is also why guys typically cum oh so easily in the missionary position compared to other positions; the stare itself is highly arousing, and I suspect the feeling of dominance of looking down on the girl as she lays there in surrender might play a significant role.
Yes, that would explain a lot. I got angry at that girl after she made those baby noises and rejected her, and she acted like "OMG you're so hot, please take me back", lol. And mean girls are horny girls, yep, this segues nicely into this answer. It's their way of making a dominant male horny, the submissives will tend to shy away, thus separating the wheat from the chaff. So, it is curious if her angry meanness was motivated by her horniness... I'm not entirely sure if she expected me or wanted me to "dominate her", though she clearly enjoyed it.
Anyway, I really want to stop talking about it. I'm not "blaming anyone", if anything, i'm verbally bullying them. That's one thing the HEB did, she had a little bit of "bully" and toughness in her (Resilience in spades), just like my favorite pug did, and the best response is to fight back. If you're like this gal, and just shirk away, that means you're weak and deserve to be bullied until you prove otherwise. If you're like my dog, and stand your ground and fight back, than welcome to my exclusive circle. [Coincidentally, that's exactly what I did with the HEB chick when she tried bullying me and she madly fell in love. It showed a backbone and an inclination to fight when needed, to protect.]
As to "Does this behavior attract her", that's not the point, she needs to qualify before being worthy of my consideration.
Anyway, the "wealthy arrogance" is back for the time being and those unintended staring contests coming from the girls is getting uncomfortable, lol. I looked away, not because I lack confidence, but because I wasn't really attracted to her. [If I were... oh... you bet I'd be initiating it, lol, have a track record there, lol]
And... I put my generator inside the fence line. Should there be a future passerby during refueling, hopefully I'll be on the OTHERSIDE of the fence,lol.[I really feel like I could use a pistol in the current situation, lol. Once I get on the fenced in property, a shotgun should be the most I might desire though I'm hoping with the proper design, I could 'keep the bad guys out' long enough to SOUND THE ALARM so the whole neighborhood knows and call the police.]
Anyway, if I were to classify girls...
HEB girl = gf/wife material
Krogers girl = one night stand at best (sexy but you can't stand their personality.)
I have a feeling that's what the issue of that one guy was. He married a one night stand girl, because she had sexual allure at one time, but not the personality that would keep him coming back for more. That is, likely, he didn't marry a "bestfriend", a self-same person.
There are, of course, the classic infatuation relationships that typically last 4 months according to mexican belief. Infatuation but no enduring mutual love.
I can't readily distinguish if the HEB girl was of this type. I'm just betting not. I don't really want to substantiate it, but she seemed to behave very much like I did when I was younger and her smile looked so much like mine (That characteristic "Creepy smile"... it's not really creepy to me... but... it's definitely characteristic and very few females possess it.), and... that's rare, I've never witnessed it before on any girl. And the kind of sexual attraction was unique, though I can't tell if that's because "She was so hot" or because the desire was reciprocated. Could've been both.
That creepy smile... I can't really tell if that was a troll face, lol, but I'm just strongly betting not.
And,I've noticed I've been advocating divorce lately. Not sure why... if those appropriate situations keep popping up in my newsfeed or if my tunes have changed for the worse (or better?).["You don't like it or too problematic or unacceptable, just quit."; that's a common critique of military brats, if the going gets tough, they'll just "give up and ignore" as someone is going to move away within year or two. But according to wikipedia...
)
And,wow, asof Sep 6, the mornings have become quite cool. 58F whereas just a month ago, the low was typically 78F.And I REALLY REALLY LIKE IT, lol. 78F mornings were horrible, it always felt warm/hot day after day after day,no refreshers anywhere.
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=military%20brat
I guess I outgrew being a military brat, lol.
Anyway, made breakthrough in the passionate love gaze. Yes, the stare is entirely sexual. And the reason why is because staring is entirely part and parcel of the missionary position, and this is also why guys typically cum oh so easily in the missionary position compared to other positions; the stare itself is highly arousing, and I suspect the feeling of dominance of looking down on the girl as she lays there in surrender might play a significant role.
Yes, that would explain a lot. I got angry at that girl after she made those baby noises and rejected her, and she acted like "OMG you're so hot, please take me back", lol. And mean girls are horny girls, yep, this segues nicely into this answer. It's their way of making a dominant male horny, the submissives will tend to shy away, thus separating the wheat from the chaff. So, it is curious if her angry meanness was motivated by her horniness... I'm not entirely sure if she expected me or wanted me to "dominate her", though she clearly enjoyed it.
Yes, anyway, I wonder what happened to that one girl? She had the habit of a static perma-smile, which never really disappeared or changed much. Like, I can tell my own facial expressions changes a bit throughout the day (Specific to the context at the moment, and rest assured, amusement and happiness is among them, lol.), and hers never really seemed to, lol. I saw her working at HEB once, then I saw her working at krogers for the few days during the opening, then I never saw her again. I just wonder if she got canned or some such? Like, maybe she was fired for being a little too abnormal. I just don't see these girls just up and voluntarily quitting after working a few days, especially when it seems like they apparently like working there, so I'm wondering if they're getting fired at an alarming frequency?
I've never been fired in the civilian world, so it puzzles me as to what's happening to these girls, including the HEB chick. Granted, there are other strong possibilities with the HEB chick (Someone else took her home, especially after her desirability likely skyrocketed after I made my move, she was no longer this restless, somewhat agitated and slightly anxious girl, but she was more contented, calm and affectionate.), but getting canned does seem like a possibility from I've seen.
As to the 5 bedroom house, oh, that's cool. I guess I'm the type that'd rather build additions as I'd go along, instead of investing all my resources upfront (Especially if it had a wealth-sapping mortgage) in some distant future possibility. Seems like it'd be more financially savvy, but I guess there are those who might not have enough time to construct additions or the particular design they're using doesn't lend itself out well to additions.
According to google,
https://www.google.com/search?q=building+additions&oq=building+additions&gs_l=psy-ab.3..0l4.127470.129425.0.129968.18.10.0.0.0.0.456.1529.2-3j1j1.5.0....0...1.1.64.psy-ab..13.5.1528...35i39k1j0i67k1j0i131k1.l56CaN9Z7QE
Woah nelly! What kind of bedroom are we adding? lol. Jeez, I calculated the cost of my standard sized bed room to be less than $900, and definitely less than $2000 if brought upto standard (After adding roof, siding, insulation, stucco and the such)
I'm guessing these additions are "hard to add", thus costly, since the design of the house isn't easy to extend. With my intended courtyard house design, it should be relatively easy to add to it and not very costly. Just have to make one side of the house (The extendable side) using temporary techniques (Not using nails for example) to make extensions easy.
Anyway... I don't know if I can confidentially make this assessment... but the HEB chick came off as a charming, adorable oddball. [I'm not confident with the 'oddball' assessment, but it seems like she was at times. Granted, I've never driven a girl like that, so some behavior would understandably seem uncommon to me.]
I wonder if this neighborhood has a trailer trash slut?
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=trailer%20trash%20slut
Saw the term today in describing one of the Kardashians.
And do I like these cold mornings. There was no mosquitos out today at 7:30 a.m. (Likely 60F) and that was kind of awesome, starting off the day with no mosquitos. Makes me think with the colder mornings becoming more common, I should get more physical tasks done then. But, I don't really think that's wise, as tempting as it is... seems like symptoms are more prevalent and serious with high physical activity at that time of day. Left my mosquito suit out to dry because I sweated like a pig rushing the completion of the fence, and the suit felt like and smelled like a sewer the next day, nauseating wearing it, so I'm hoping it should dry out today and hopefully smell better, lol [or, more accurately, less worse, lol.]
As to the affable neighbor that was trying hard but kind of failing to hide his "I'm going to kill you" face, I'm guessing that maybe due to a loss of meth income, he had his car repossessed and he was blaming me for it. There might've been other fall out, too, maybe he lost a girlfriend or something. They seemed to stop making meth in the woods AFAIK sometime after I stationed myself at my property and they apparently realized I wasn't going away, so there might have been a loss of income. Anyway, it seems silly to blame me in particular, since there's a wave of new people coming to live here, I just happened to be the first in this particular part of the woods. It seems especially silly since I'm not exactly reporting to the DEA or anything, but my guess is they don't know that and they fear the worst, especially since they've already had DEA visits.
He came across to me like a crackhead, so I have a suspicion he might use his own drugs. Mr.Rossitto, the local millionaire with his hidden country club estate, was warning me of the crackheads here, lol. And, it looks like I found his company. I was told he made a lot of metal products and I just found the website. Apparently formed 20 years ago when he was in his late 40/50s? Looks like he makes a lot of the metal structures for metal bridges and offshore refineries judging from the pics.
And, due to the cooler less humid mornings (In this area, the warmer it is throughout the day, the more humid it'll be the next morning), I just went for a 15 minute run at 10:50 a.m. and it was nice. I'm planning on doing 20-25 minutes 2 days from now, and then eventually doing 30 minutes every other day.
I'm not sure if there's a good part of the day during the summer to go jogging, maybe 7 a.m., even then, I think it'll be somewhat humid but it'll likely feel less humid with the lack of sun.
Just recently saw the phrase "Heat of the moment" (As in, "don't let it be an excuse"), and oh wow, yeah, the HEB chick encounter was definitely one big "heat of the moment", lol... except... the moment lasted a bit longer than a moment, lol. So lemme get this straight... talking to a bitch in heat would lead to one long "heat of the moment", lol, that seems pretty fitting.
https://www.girlsaskguys.com/sexual-health/q784119-why-do-get-horny-when-guy-gets-angry
Why do I get horny when a guy gets angry?
Mean girls are horny girls, segues nicely into this theory. They're trying to make you angry, thus fueling the desire to "dominate that bitch" and f her up good and teach her a lesson, lol. Anyway, yeah, I think when I got angry and rejected the girl for her baby noises which I assumed were manipulative, she was like "omg, you're so hot, please take me back"... lol. And her meanness/bullying earlier... I wonder if she said that out of horniness? I'm not really sure and I'm not sure if she expected or wanted me to "dominate her" as I did, because she initially acted a bit surprised when I did, but she clearly enjoyed where that went, so it's questionable.
So girl acting out of line, being mean or otherwise pissing you off -> getting angry at her is the best response. Something along the lines of "You better shut the f up, bitch" could work if it's something she said.
Anyway, this whole "Angry man turns on women" works vice versa too "Angry woman turns on men", her anger/meanness definitely turned me on. It's somewhat amazing how symmetrical we are, so many cultural mythos try to convince otherwise.
https://www.usatoday.com/story/money/business/2017/09/07/hurricane-harvey-spikes-u-s-jobless-aid-applications-298-k/642146001/
That explains the rounds of local layoffs I've been inferring in the aftermath of Harvey.
Okay, thinking I want to get this bedroom done sooner than later (After getting the fence finished) because it appears there's an active gunman specifically targeting me after walking outside at night (After walking outside, there he is about 5 minutes later), and I have a feeling it's that crackhead. And, to this aim, I'm thinking I'm OK with shortcuts.
floor frame:
two 12 ft.
six 8 ft.
floor
three 4x8 osb
frame
four 12 ft.
four 8 ft.
(6 + 6 + 2 + 2)-> sixteen 8 ft.
roof frame
three 8 ft
wall sheathing
ten 4x8s
roof sheathing
three 4x8s
totals
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8 ft -> 31 total
12 ft -> 6 total
4x8s ->16 total
homedepot prices as of today'
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4x8 7/16 osb = $13.75
8 ft = $3.25
12 ft = $4.45
housewrap = $60
door = $60
pretax total = 31*3.47 + 6*3.25+16*13.75+60+60 = $467
posttax total = $504
Looks like vinyl siding typically comes in at 4.1 sq. ft. per piece, and there's 24 pieces per carton (So about 100 sq ft.), so vinyl siding would be 4 cartons to cover the 320 sq. ft. walls which would be $636 pretax.
Lol, the vinyl siding is more expensive than the basic full structure. Looks like wood siding is probably more costly. Vinyl is the most affordable option for siding according to http://www.homeadvisor.com/r/comparing-siding-materials/#.WbIdhrKGNQI .
I don't get the sense that vinyl siding can be made especially temporary (to make future extension easy), so thinking of other possibilities. Apparently the housewrap mainly needs UV protection from the sun.
I've never been fired in the civilian world, so it puzzles me as to what's happening to these girls, including the HEB chick. Granted, there are other strong possibilities with the HEB chick (Someone else took her home, especially after her desirability likely skyrocketed after I made my move, she was no longer this restless, somewhat agitated and slightly anxious girl, but she was more contented, calm and affectionate.), but getting canned does seem like a possibility from I've seen.
As to the 5 bedroom house, oh, that's cool. I guess I'm the type that'd rather build additions as I'd go along, instead of investing all my resources upfront (Especially if it had a wealth-sapping mortgage) in some distant future possibility. Seems like it'd be more financially savvy, but I guess there are those who might not have enough time to construct additions or the particular design they're using doesn't lend itself out well to additions.
According to google,
https://www.google.com/search?q=building+additions&oq=building+additions&gs_l=psy-ab.3..0l4.127470.129425.0.129968.18.10.0.0.0.0.456.1529.2-3j1j1.5.0....0...1.1.64.psy-ab..13.5.1528...35i39k1j0i67k1j0i131k1.l56CaN9Z7QE
Woah nelly! What kind of bedroom are we adding? lol. Jeez, I calculated the cost of my standard sized bed room to be less than $900, and definitely less than $2000 if brought upto standard (After adding roof, siding, insulation, stucco and the such)
I'm guessing these additions are "hard to add", thus costly, since the design of the house isn't easy to extend. With my intended courtyard house design, it should be relatively easy to add to it and not very costly. Just have to make one side of the house (The extendable side) using temporary techniques (Not using nails for example) to make extensions easy.
Anyway... I don't know if I can confidentially make this assessment... but the HEB chick came off as a charming, adorable oddball. [I'm not confident with the 'oddball' assessment, but it seems like she was at times. Granted, I've never driven a girl like that, so some behavior would understandably seem uncommon to me.]
I wonder if this neighborhood has a trailer trash slut?
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=trailer%20trash%20slut
Saw the term today in describing one of the Kardashians.
And do I like these cold mornings. There was no mosquitos out today at 7:30 a.m. (Likely 60F) and that was kind of awesome, starting off the day with no mosquitos. Makes me think with the colder mornings becoming more common, I should get more physical tasks done then. But, I don't really think that's wise, as tempting as it is... seems like symptoms are more prevalent and serious with high physical activity at that time of day. Left my mosquito suit out to dry because I sweated like a pig rushing the completion of the fence, and the suit felt like and smelled like a sewer the next day, nauseating wearing it, so I'm hoping it should dry out today and hopefully smell better, lol [or, more accurately, less worse, lol.]
As to the affable neighbor that was trying hard but kind of failing to hide his "I'm going to kill you" face, I'm guessing that maybe due to a loss of meth income, he had his car repossessed and he was blaming me for it. There might've been other fall out, too, maybe he lost a girlfriend or something. They seemed to stop making meth in the woods AFAIK sometime after I stationed myself at my property and they apparently realized I wasn't going away, so there might have been a loss of income. Anyway, it seems silly to blame me in particular, since there's a wave of new people coming to live here, I just happened to be the first in this particular part of the woods. It seems especially silly since I'm not exactly reporting to the DEA or anything, but my guess is they don't know that and they fear the worst, especially since they've already had DEA visits.
He came across to me like a crackhead, so I have a suspicion he might use his own drugs. Mr.Rossitto, the local millionaire with his hidden country club estate, was warning me of the crackheads here, lol. And, it looks like I found his company. I was told he made a lot of metal products and I just found the website. Apparently formed 20 years ago when he was in his late 40/50s? Looks like he makes a lot of the metal structures for metal bridges and offshore refineries judging from the pics.
And, due to the cooler less humid mornings (In this area, the warmer it is throughout the day, the more humid it'll be the next morning), I just went for a 15 minute run at 10:50 a.m. and it was nice. I'm planning on doing 20-25 minutes 2 days from now, and then eventually doing 30 minutes every other day.
I'm not sure if there's a good part of the day during the summer to go jogging, maybe 7 a.m., even then, I think it'll be somewhat humid but it'll likely feel less humid with the lack of sun.
Just recently saw the phrase "Heat of the moment" (As in, "don't let it be an excuse"), and oh wow, yeah, the HEB chick encounter was definitely one big "heat of the moment", lol... except... the moment lasted a bit longer than a moment, lol. So lemme get this straight... talking to a bitch in heat would lead to one long "heat of the moment", lol, that seems pretty fitting.
https://www.girlsaskguys.com/sexual-health/q784119-why-do-get-horny-when-guy-gets-angry
Why do I get horny when a guy gets angry?
Mean girls are horny girls, segues nicely into this theory. They're trying to make you angry, thus fueling the desire to "dominate that bitch" and f her up good and teach her a lesson, lol. Anyway, yeah, I think when I got angry and rejected the girl for her baby noises which I assumed were manipulative, she was like "omg, you're so hot, please take me back"... lol. And her meanness/bullying earlier... I wonder if she said that out of horniness? I'm not really sure and I'm not sure if she expected or wanted me to "dominate her" as I did, because she initially acted a bit surprised when I did, but she clearly enjoyed where that went, so it's questionable.
So girl acting out of line, being mean or otherwise pissing you off -> getting angry at her is the best response. Something along the lines of "You better shut the f up, bitch" could work if it's something she said.
Anyway, this whole "Angry man turns on women" works vice versa too "Angry woman turns on men", her anger/meanness definitely turned me on. It's somewhat amazing how symmetrical we are, so many cultural mythos try to convince otherwise.
https://www.usatoday.com/story/money/business/2017/09/07/hurricane-harvey-spikes-u-s-jobless-aid-applications-298-k/642146001/
That explains the rounds of local layoffs I've been inferring in the aftermath of Harvey.
Okay, thinking I want to get this bedroom done sooner than later (After getting the fence finished) because it appears there's an active gunman specifically targeting me after walking outside at night (After walking outside, there he is about 5 minutes later), and I have a feeling it's that crackhead. And, to this aim, I'm thinking I'm OK with shortcuts.
floor frame:
two 12 ft.
six 8 ft.
floor
three 4x8 osb
frame
four 12 ft.
four 8 ft.
(6 + 6 + 2 + 2)-> sixteen 8 ft.
roof frame
three 8 ft
wall sheathing
ten 4x8s
roof sheathing
three 4x8s
totals
-------
8 ft -> 31 total
12 ft -> 6 total
4x8s ->16 total
homedepot prices as of today'
------------------------------------
4x8 7/16 osb = $13.75
8 ft = $3.25
12 ft = $4.45
housewrap = $60
door = $60
pretax total = 31*3.47 + 6*3.25+16*13.75+60+60 = $467
posttax total = $504
Looks like vinyl siding typically comes in at 4.1 sq. ft. per piece, and there's 24 pieces per carton (So about 100 sq ft.), so vinyl siding would be 4 cartons to cover the 320 sq. ft. walls which would be $636 pretax.
Lol, the vinyl siding is more expensive than the basic full structure. Looks like wood siding is probably more costly. Vinyl is the most affordable option for siding according to http://www.homeadvisor.com/r/comparing-siding-materials/#.WbIdhrKGNQI .
I don't get the sense that vinyl siding can be made especially temporary (to make future extension easy), so thinking of other possibilities. Apparently the housewrap mainly needs UV protection from the sun.
So let's see if I can combine the multiple popular female fantasies I've discovered so far.
Fantasy for authority figures
Fantasy of being forcibly taken and loved against their (initial) will, surrendering.
From this, I have an authority figure who forcibly takes and loves a girl against her initial wishes. Since authorities are the one making the rules and making the commands, this seems like it's kind of naturally "in their domain" in a way, so it fits nicely.
Classic examples might be dictators, monarchs and the such. King solomon purportedly had a 1000+ wives, fitting nicely with this hypothesis.
Modern examples in the context of America might include CEOs. The leading protagonist of the popular 50 shades of gray, Grey Christensen, was a wealthy CEO of a successful corporation in Seattle.
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60F outside and there's definitely mosquitos out there. God I hate those things, no easy convenient nontoxic way of dealing with them. Waiting for my mosquito suit to warm up before putting it on.
And, I've confidently determined I'm not pursuing anyone I don't see myself potentially committing to (Because, hey, I might have to...). So, "one night stand girls" are out of the picture.
And, really, I'm not really looking right now. It's funny how they just seem to gravitate to me when "I'm not really looking", lol, I only started looking after I met her and I hadn't seen for 1.5 months, and that search lasted for about 2 weeks, now I'm back to 'Not really looking" mode, lol.
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Thinking of alternatives to vinyl siding.
-Large thin black ethylene sheeting, 6mil. $60
-large solid vinyl or other plastic sheets (I think they're typically in a 4x8 pattern from lowes?). At $10 each and estimating 10 necessary, I'm surmising $110-$130. I'm not really sure what kind of siding I'd want this particular structure to eventually have, not entirely convinced I'd want to put my palace here with the violent crackheads. (Looking online, maybe he should be called a meth head. My neighbor confirms they make meth in the woods.)
https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/31na73/what_are_the_differences_between_a_crack_head_and/
"Violent killer" behavior definitely seems to be there.
Oh jeez, that does make me suspect those oh so happy girls tend to get some dick, lol. [Like the HEB chick. In light of "feeling like I was talking to a bitch in heat", that's +1 for the hoe category. Or, lots of experience with former boyfriends. I'm not going to say she was a whore, but if she had to be one or the other in the madonna-whore complex, she's definitely not madonna, lol.]
Apparently this "falling for a ho" is a widespread trend, and as much I don't want to believe I'm the exception, I think it's rather predictable I wouldn't be in this matter for understandable reasons, lol.
http://thyblackman.com/2012/06/01/how-to-tell-if-your-girl-is-possibly-a-ho/comment-page-1/
I don't really care if she was a ho, though, just as long as my expectations aren't too high.
Lots of good practical advice here for spotting such creatures. Here's the ones that seemed to apply in her case.
Funny, someone random called me a pimp...
I had suspicions she might've been abused earlier in her years.
I kind of got the sense she might've been a party animal, has the personality potential.
Lol, happened within like 10 minutes, lol.
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I'd probably go with the solid vinyl sheet method, seems more durable. And, that would up the construction costs upto $150.
Anyway, want to figure out a design that won't require me to cut the 4x8 boards, seems like it should be possible with all edge lengthse i being multiples of 4. Likely would need to shorten studs somewhere. The doorway frame might require cutting somewhere... if I have confident measurements, I'm sure I could get home depot to do it.
Fantasy for authority figures
Fantasy of being forcibly taken and loved against their (initial) will, surrendering.
From this, I have an authority figure who forcibly takes and loves a girl against her initial wishes. Since authorities are the one making the rules and making the commands, this seems like it's kind of naturally "in their domain" in a way, so it fits nicely.
Classic examples might be dictators, monarchs and the such. King solomon purportedly had a 1000+ wives, fitting nicely with this hypothesis.
Modern examples in the context of America might include CEOs. The leading protagonist of the popular 50 shades of gray, Grey Christensen, was a wealthy CEO of a successful corporation in Seattle.
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60F outside and there's definitely mosquitos out there. God I hate those things, no easy convenient nontoxic way of dealing with them. Waiting for my mosquito suit to warm up before putting it on.
And, I've confidently determined I'm not pursuing anyone I don't see myself potentially committing to (Because, hey, I might have to...). So, "one night stand girls" are out of the picture.
And, really, I'm not really looking right now. It's funny how they just seem to gravitate to me when "I'm not really looking", lol, I only started looking after I met her and I hadn't seen for 1.5 months, and that search lasted for about 2 weeks, now I'm back to 'Not really looking" mode, lol.
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Thinking of alternatives to vinyl siding.
-Large thin black ethylene sheeting, 6mil. $60
-large solid vinyl or other plastic sheets (I think they're typically in a 4x8 pattern from lowes?). At $10 each and estimating 10 necessary, I'm surmising $110-$130. I'm not really sure what kind of siding I'd want this particular structure to eventually have, not entirely convinced I'd want to put my palace here with the violent crackheads. (Looking online, maybe he should be called a meth head. My neighbor confirms they make meth in the woods.)
https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/31na73/what_are_the_differences_between_a_crack_head_and/
"Violent killer" behavior definitely seems to be there.
Oh jeez, that does make me suspect those oh so happy girls tend to get some dick, lol. [Like the HEB chick. In light of "feeling like I was talking to a bitch in heat", that's +1 for the hoe category. Or, lots of experience with former boyfriends. I'm not going to say she was a whore, but if she had to be one or the other in the madonna-whore complex, she's definitely not madonna, lol.]
Apparently this "falling for a ho" is a widespread trend, and as much I don't want to believe I'm the exception, I think it's rather predictable I wouldn't be in this matter for understandable reasons, lol.
http://thyblackman.com/2012/06/01/how-to-tell-if-your-girl-is-possibly-a-ho/comment-page-1/
I don't really care if she was a ho, though, just as long as my expectations aren't too high.
Lots of good practical advice here for spotting such creatures. Here's the ones that seemed to apply in her case.
Funny, someone random called me a pimp...
I had suspicions she might've been abused earlier in her years.
I kind of got the sense she might've been a party animal, has the personality potential.
Lol, happened within like 10 minutes, lol.
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I'd probably go with the solid vinyl sheet method, seems more durable. And, that would up the construction costs upto $150.
Anyway, want to figure out a design that won't require me to cut the 4x8 boards, seems like it should be possible with all edge lengthse i being multiples of 4. Likely would need to shorten studs somewhere. The doorway frame might require cutting somewhere... if I have confident measurements, I'm sure I could get home depot to do it.
Gee, what was happening 5 days ago? My anger levels were detectably elevated far beyond normal, lol, at least compared to the most recent days. It does feel like my mood has become significantly more buoyant since taking up running, though 15 minutes seems like a bit much at the moment. Thinking I'll cap it at 10 minutes later this evening. Last time, felt like my eyeballs were feeling tired and energetically sapped until I ate a single chicken corntortilla cheese beans pico de gallo taco with green sauce, which apparently brought me back to normal. That seemed odd and I don't really have a solid explanation since I swore my salt intake was absolutely fine that day since i consumed an entire can of salmon and I definitely had no limitations on banana consumption if it were carbs and I wouldn't think bacteria would be the problem with all the peanut butter. All i know is that at the moment, tacos seem special and got me out of the funk, lol.
5 days ago, my paycheck hadn't yet deposited until the following day and my savings were running down. So maybe that was it. Maybe it was the kroger chick, whose exited from my thoughts for about 3 days now. A largely forgotten person now whom I feel no strong feeling towards/against today. I mean, I still recognize her weak personality and childishness was repulsive to the extreme (I suspect it means "Bad mother" or some such), but I don't really care now. I suspect she might have quit but I don't really know and I'm definitely not going through the process of confirming it, lol. But if she did, well, that's kind of awesome. I don't want to take credit for being instrumental from her leaving the workforce, but if that's what happened, that's kind of cool. Bullying serves a good purpose, it keeps the worthwhile people around and pushing the fringe elements where they belong, the fringe. I don't actually say that with sincerity, lol, but just for my own amusement at my hypothetical power and influence. I'm thinking there's probably a good chance that didn't happen, lol. If she left, there's likely other reasons she left.
In light of the HEB chick acting like a little girl, I found this term interesting.
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=ddlg
Daddy dominant / Little Girl
I found it especially amusing when the lower ranked entries called it "legal pedophilia", because I'll have to admit, I strongly suspect the juvenile tones appealed to the instinctive attraction for "really young post-puberty females". I didn't really notice this attraction to young girls until like in the last month or so, lol, and I really wonder why now and not before AFAIK?
It's weird, I think she was intstrumental in making young girls attractive by herself being attractive and acting like a little girl. Does this girl have magic powers in turning guys into pedophiles? lol.
Anyway, I really no idea what the relationship is. It could be that before I was largely unaware of what little girls sounded like, but she might've reminded me and made them seem that much more attractive, lol. I'm sure if I heard an actual little girl talk, I'd be like "Yeah, f that", lol, "Stupid little girl", lol.
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got the rest of 4 ft. fence split tonight. Was some tough hand work, cutting all that steel wire with diagonal cutters. Seems like the real benefit of the expensive "compounding diagonal cutters" is reducing fatigue with lots of cutting to do. Will apply the top 2 ft of the fence tomorrow to the sides and barbed wire deployed and soon enough, get the front gate finished and the front wire applied and tada, the fence is largely finished.
I'm still not really solid on what the gate will look like. Seems like I'm spotting weaknesses in my current simple design.
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Anyway, think it's interesting that there's slightly more "I want a husband" than "I want a boyfriend" google results, while there's /significantly/ more "i want a girlfriend" than "i want a wife" results. "I want a boyfriend" and "i want girlfriend" are pretty comparable, while there are far more who want a husband vs. those who want a wife.
Anyway, I was just trying to figure out why that girl was so excited and I think I realized that she wanted a boyfriend... yeah... seems like a fairly common desire. I can't say I really wanted anything until she reminded me of what I apparently wanted, lol. And, I'm still not entirely sure if I wanted "love" and/or "sex with (whom I found) a hottie", lol. I don't think they're exclusive, but the latter can exist without the former (And apparently commonly does among men)...and there's no denying I wanted her body. I don't really know why her being mean had that affect and I'm not entirely sure if she intended it to have that effect, but she apparently welcomed it, so I'm guessing her instinct probably knew even if she may not have consciously knew.
5 days ago, my paycheck hadn't yet deposited until the following day and my savings were running down. So maybe that was it. Maybe it was the kroger chick, whose exited from my thoughts for about 3 days now. A largely forgotten person now whom I feel no strong feeling towards/against today. I mean, I still recognize her weak personality and childishness was repulsive to the extreme (I suspect it means "Bad mother" or some such), but I don't really care now. I suspect she might have quit but I don't really know and I'm definitely not going through the process of confirming it, lol. But if she did, well, that's kind of awesome. I don't want to take credit for being instrumental from her leaving the workforce, but if that's what happened, that's kind of cool. Bullying serves a good purpose, it keeps the worthwhile people around and pushing the fringe elements where they belong, the fringe. I don't actually say that with sincerity, lol, but just for my own amusement at my hypothetical power and influence. I'm thinking there's probably a good chance that didn't happen, lol. If she left, there's likely other reasons she left.
In light of the HEB chick acting like a little girl, I found this term interesting.
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=ddlg
Daddy dominant / Little Girl
I found it especially amusing when the lower ranked entries called it "legal pedophilia", because I'll have to admit, I strongly suspect the juvenile tones appealed to the instinctive attraction for "really young post-puberty females". I didn't really notice this attraction to young girls until like in the last month or so, lol, and I really wonder why now and not before AFAIK?
It's weird, I think she was intstrumental in making young girls attractive by herself being attractive and acting like a little girl. Does this girl have magic powers in turning guys into pedophiles? lol.
Anyway, I really no idea what the relationship is. It could be that before I was largely unaware of what little girls sounded like, but she might've reminded me and made them seem that much more attractive, lol. I'm sure if I heard an actual little girl talk, I'd be like "Yeah, f that", lol, "Stupid little girl", lol.
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got the rest of 4 ft. fence split tonight. Was some tough hand work, cutting all that steel wire with diagonal cutters. Seems like the real benefit of the expensive "compounding diagonal cutters" is reducing fatigue with lots of cutting to do. Will apply the top 2 ft of the fence tomorrow to the sides and barbed wire deployed and soon enough, get the front gate finished and the front wire applied and tada, the fence is largely finished.
I'm still not really solid on what the gate will look like. Seems like I'm spotting weaknesses in my current simple design.
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Anyway, think it's interesting that there's slightly more "I want a husband" than "I want a boyfriend" google results, while there's /significantly/ more "i want a girlfriend" than "i want a wife" results. "I want a boyfriend" and "i want girlfriend" are pretty comparable, while there are far more who want a husband vs. those who want a wife.
Anyway, I was just trying to figure out why that girl was so excited and I think I realized that she wanted a boyfriend... yeah... seems like a fairly common desire. I can't say I really wanted anything until she reminded me of what I apparently wanted, lol. And, I'm still not entirely sure if I wanted "love" and/or "sex with (whom I found) a hottie", lol. I don't think they're exclusive, but the latter can exist without the former (And apparently commonly does among men)...and there's no denying I wanted her body. I don't really know why her being mean had that affect and I'm not entirely sure if she intended it to have that effect, but she apparently welcomed it, so I'm guessing her instinct probably knew even if she may not have consciously knew.
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5 days ago you're what? Starting your fence? What's really improved my mood after 3 days of car trouble is I fixed my longstanding glow plug issue on my truck and should able to run it through smog and register it again. For those not familiar with smog tests they test your sensors more so than emissions and a check engine light is a fail. So these clown testers who don't drive diesels don't warm up the glow plugs properly and if they're old enough one might throw an error that wouldn't happen if they'd started correctly. But a little accident I posted about over a year ago had kept me from crawling in from the wheel well and pulling things off, etc. The great Ford alternator shortage of 2017 has forced me live through the experience of crawling in there, which will help in the long run because moving around is good for you, but it was a rough day. I decided I'm going to force myself to do more of those jobs I'm afraid of and get myself over this sooner.
So even with no alternator on the horizon and some real soreness my mood is much better than 24 hours ago.
Your paycheck deposited? Did you actually get a job I missed? No more line drawings?
Oh, and, with all this fence building it sounds like time to renew the call for all this solar you promised us. What if all these illegal aliens you keep seeing land kidnap you to outer space? THEN what do we do for a solar story?
So even with no alternator on the horizon and some real soreness my mood is much better than 24 hours ago.
Your paycheck deposited? Did you actually get a job I missed? No more line drawings?
Oh, and, with all this fence building it sounds like time to renew the call for all this solar you promised us. What if all these illegal aliens you keep seeing land kidnap you to outer space? THEN what do we do for a solar story?
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