Dauntless said:
http://www.cnn.com/2017/10/05/health/why-women-cheat-partner/index.html
Women having affairs is up 40% eh? Its not me with them, I don't do married women.
Ashley-madison has been an enabler. Same with Tinder. Saw that syphilis rates were up 21% thanks to the presumed "Tinder effect".
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Anyway, I started thinking about it...
I noticed when girls are coming full force at me like I'm some prey that's to be devoured, I start to panic. And then I start having nocturnal panic attacks, one of the most recent consisting of chest tightness and a "not quite there" feeling (discombobulation) that wore off within 10 seconds of walking around. I immediately stopped where that could've been going because that's one thing I was not having with the HEB chick, nocturnal panic attacks resembling heart attacks.
(With the adorable microcenter chick, I was having some weird fantasies with that. With her forcing herself on me, and me being quite reluctant with it, but still immensely enjoying it. I think the reluctance was more based on my not having a "stable situation" and not because of sexual repression in my toddler years, my mommy spanking me and making me eat soap because I was a 3 year old playing around with the neighborhood girls in trying to recreate scenes from the movies my dad was watching when mom was gone.)
So I started thinking about it... The difference between the HEB chick and these girls is those girls were chasing me and my mind was running like prey. The HEB chick however, wasn't chasing me, she was definitely being forceful with her flirtation, but she wasn't really 'chasing', instead I was the one initially chasing her and ... I never really felt like there was any kind of sustained chase anywhere. It was mostly a balanced gentle push-pull between us both. So, I think that's kind of the ideal. A balance, a mutual falling into each other.
Anyway, that chest tightness has become a more common phenomenon in the last year, started this year as far as I know. Typically happens at peak of performance (lasts 3-4 seconds, has happened once as far I know... was standing at that time.), but recently happened in the morning when I was having a tiny spate (happened over the course of 24 hours) of mini nocturnal panic attacks (Lasted 6-10 seconds).
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If only the electric lines were a little closer to me (i.e., not on the opposite side of the road), I might be tempted to do this at night, lol.
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Huh, well, second data point that girls care about WHERE you live. So, this is a confirmed trend.
They care about your financial wellbeing and they care about where you live. You might think that this is only true of the superficial chicks but, lol, this was supposedly one of those "deeper chicks" that cared about ideals and what not, but those two constants didn't change one iota.
Anyways, this is a confirmed trend. She wasn't really desirable in my opinion (She was anti-social in multiple ways (i.e., unfriendly, unsocial, non-helpful, bitter, condescending; has a history of anxiety/fearfulness. wasn't playful.)), so it didn't really matter to me what her particular mate evaluation criteria was, but it's generally indicative of females in general. This was a girl I once knew back in college, but having experienced many kinds of girls since in real life, I have a pretty good background to realize this isn't the kind of girl I want to be around, lol.
This particular location is ideal because it provides a good location for operating my business, really close to the post office and excellent climate/location/soil/etc. for planting crops. And, shallow wells are totally doable here. So it's great for business. I've seen a number of females in the area, though, attached to guys who obviously earn enough, so I get the impression that money/wealth is really the biggest factor.
Anyway, the local grocery got a new refrigeration machine in, and they're putting their fruits/veggies in. I put in the word they should put in quartered watermelons becuase I'd be a near daily customer then, lol.
Thankfully! Man, I'm really an influence on these people, which is good. I put in the word they should sell some fruit, they told me they lacked refrigeration and like 2 months later, they got a refrigeration machine in. Yeah baby! We're getting somewhere.