Buying forest land, implementing solar

[Dauntless]

You are starting to sound seriously deranged.

I suggest that you go in a corner and pound your balls.

Hey hey hey, that was uncalled for. Besides, it's far more constructive to suggest àctivities that might actually be GOOD for him. Did you know that various warrior-monk cultures in Asia had a special exercise to help make them impervious to certain---KICKS?

One end of a rope would be tied around a large stone. The end around---smaller stones. The idea is to walk around, dragging the large stone. It's supposed to help---well, straight out with it, it helps develop the stones you've always dreamed of. He could walk around, carrying his machete---becoming a tourist attraction!

There, now. Don't you wish that YOU had channels your energies into something more POSITIVE?

 

[swbluto]

Honestly, guys... think about horny girls. She sees a hunk imposing his authority, she's going to go wet and she's going to imagine herself having sex with him when he gives her "the look". So, her reaction really shouldn't be all that surprising. Granted, maybe moaning and gasping for air is an infatuation thing... just can't find any mention of it. And, I personally never experienced that in my past infatuations.

Anyway, that does kind of make her reaction seem a little less romantic but it's not all that bad. Even after reasoning that all of this is probably quite important to a relationship (sex, teasing and having a playful dynamic), I'm just going 'ickkkk...lol'. I want to think her reactions were more romantic/idealistic like I've always thought until just recently. I never really thought about the gasping for air phenomenon until just now...so... new insights are not unexpected.

Granted, I'd imagine most guys would probably just think "SEXY", lol, as did I. Acting as if you're having sex could be considered sexy.

For example...

Twerking.
Grinding.

So maybe I shouldn't be looking down on her enjoying those thoughts too much. Probably an important part of many a relationship, mutual enjoyment of the sex therein.

That would be an awfully puritanical viewpoint, thinking female enjoyment of the forbidden fruit is a bad thing.

And, heck, she might've been enticing me to follow through with it, maybe unwittingly. Maybe that's how nature works.

It's not too unsurprising I did feel compelled to "follow through with it" in the days immediately following. So, you could say she was doing a good job of coaxing/enticing it.

 

[Dauntless]

Oh, yeah, horny girls. I get ya. Like where the guy was in court and he said, 'C'mon, she was BEGGING FOR IT!'

It's not that I don't know what you're getting at. It's that I DON"T BELIEVE YOU! Does that make it more clear?

The more you do without, the more you engage in wishful thinking. When you start to believe the outrageous fantasizes as you spout them, you have a problem.

[youtube]4hAF6xyP3yg[/youtube]

 

[swbluto]

You're a fool if you believe you can't turn women on. If you can't do that, that's your problem. :lol:

That entire situation was her getting turned on.

Since you weren't there to witness the entire thing firsthand, I don't blame you for your doubts.

As to this "Believing your fantasies, you have a problem"... maybe it's more like... you have a solution! Believing is 90% of the battlefield of love. The more highly you think of yourself, the easier it gets.

 

[swbluto]

Anyway, as to this "Emphasizing your attractive traits in recounting stories" thing... there's a word for it...

It's called preening.

It's how boy birds get the girl birds in the sack.

It's a standard courtship technique as old as the dinosaurs.

 

[Dauntless]

Gotthis part figured out. Your into Klingon sex, you sure look Klingon. Dude, you're KLINGON!

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[swbluto]

Definitely determined she was having sex immediately after her eyes locked with my "I want to f your brains out" face. At a gasping for air rate of 1x a second, that's about the right frequency, and with her being as seductive/flirty as she is, her having experience here wouldn't be hard to imagine (More than likely, she was recalling a past experience). Now the infatuation/heart-melt part is an open question (What I've thought was happening so far), I'm guessing it probably was since withdrawal led to morphine withdrawal symptoms. It probably was happening altogether at once. [And looking back, I can't say this is a bad thing. Most definitely a great thing, lol, and the overlap is unsurprising.]

My original question "Was she having an orgasm?", I see was not too far off the mark, lol.

Seeing the change from "bullying oh-so-tough girl" to "nervous little-girl" after that was interesting. Her personality was all over the wall in terms of masks she was wearing.

The only psychological archetype I can confidentally infer from this observation is High EQ Neurotypical which shouldn't be surprising for a "normal female" which she showed much nonverbal behavior suggesting she was one.

As to anyone doubting this plausible frequency, there's this.

[youtube]n-OPZsONjFE[/youtube]

I'm becoming more aware and accepting of the relatively common coexistence of two seemingly distinct overlapping emotions, now. That is, feeling two things at once. No longer a confusion between this or that intent/feeling, it's all the above. So the question between longing or concupiscence, probably both. As to her "being the one"... lol... it's possible... though I consciously doubt it, but my instinct feels like it's so. But, why would I trust my instincts in matters of human-invented ideals? It just wants to procreate, lol.

I think really, it's too early to tell. And, it might always stay that way. While I might wax poetic about ideas of fate, I'm forced to recognize the nature of a large city. (And, possibly, people hiding other people, lol. It's an open question what's happened since, could be anything.)

I think having more savings/income/future-certainty makes me more forward/confident with women. It is a question if I would have done what I did then now in the same situation. If I didn't, obviously the outcome would've been different.

 

[swbluto]

Wow, a seemingly realistic article on spending habits of the different generations. The last one I quoted was like $700/month on food, I'm thinking "What the hell are they spending money on?", lol.

http://www.marketwatch.com/story/this-is-why-millennials-cant-have-nice-things-or-save-any-money-2017-06-26?siteid=yhoof2&yptr=yahoo

Millennials spend more than an average of $2,300 per year than older generations on five key items: groceries, gas, restaurants, coffee and cell phone bills, a recent study released by personal-finance site Bankrate.com found. Millennials spend $233 per month on meals versus $182 for older generations, and $161 on cell phone charges versus $135 for older people (but they spend $1,130 less per year on travel and TV). For TV services like cable, satellite and steaming/subscription, millennials spend just $80 per month, compared to $114 for those aged 37 and up.

Cool, my peanut butter and banana diet costs me about $150 a month, which is pretty much on par. The peanut butter is more expensive than the bananas, and I could trim that back. The reason for bananas is they're the cheapest ready-to-eat fruit carb available and they taste like you're supposed to eat them, lol. And, the oh-so-healthy natives eat them frequently. I have the least problems with bananas out of all the types of carbs available.

I find it funny that the eggs seemed to be making me angry and really hungry. I suspect maybe they were decreasing appetite, so I wasn't getting enough carbs in, which then lead to the anger. But... I'm suspecting other plausible paths.. maybe eggs make people irritated... and maybe the increase in insulin. (http://www.marksdailyapple.com/insulin-index/)

Could explain the possible association between egg consumption and diabetes. But, then again, maybe not. Last time I checked, studies were incomprehensive(Don't adequately control for variables such as dietary patterns and commonly paired foods) and conflicting.

I spend around $3-4/month on cell charges (Skype credits) and $15/month on internet.

So far, the monthly cost of a generator has been my biggest expense. A $1000 machine destroying itself in 6 months.

Getting the rest of the post holes dug up later today, and hopefully tomorrow, I will get started on setting the posts in concrete.

I had this grand plan of moving some significant assets, but I see the marketplace is moving a bit slowly. I suspect the company's move to remove kits from their lineup has been limiting their popularity. I was hoping to use the sale of it to fund my housing construction, and then sell the RV, and then I'd be completely enclosed in what my neighbor has called a "fort". (I just want to keep my backyard private)

And I figured out why my neighbor is shooting his gun at the hours of 11:30 p.m.; it's because I'm being loud, and the noise doesn't stay inside my RV, lol, and I assume he leaves his window open at night due to the warm summer weather, so he can hear me when he falls asleep. Yep, totally figured it out now, lol. I was a getting a little concerned I had some hostile neighbors who were targeting me for no good reason, but I think I figured out the reason now, lol. Anyway, that took some imagination, since I can't see his house/mobile-home/etc.

Anyway, this property... oh... I'd say is not the kind... well... it's the neighborhood more than anything else. It's a peaceful neighborhood, but a few of the residents along the main road make it unappealing for people who care about that kind of thing. I personally didn't care about it for running my business because it was closest to the post office and had the most exposure to the sunlight out of all the properties available, but for certain purposes other than running a business, I get the impression some people care. It doesn't really matter too much... or maybe it does... I guess maybe I'd say "That shouldn't be my focus right now", but .... it has a way of being there regardless and I can't really say why. I might guess age.

Anyway, it was kind of interesting meeting a girl whose hair I really wanted to pull, lol. All the things I was imagining, never really imagined before with anyone.

 

[Dauntless]

I'll bite, how do you pay $4 a month for a celphone? You pay less in a year than I pay in a month, I do have a smart phone.

How to pay more on groceries:

The Gen X go to the butcher section, get a raw chicken, maybe have a few things laying around at home to help cook it. The Millennial go to where there are precooked chickens. Never mind it doesn't cost much more, these things add up. Some people never make their own coffee, never drink the coffee provided at work. Dollars a day, tens of dollars a week, maybe over a thousand a year. What used to be common after WWII in the meat section of America was something called a 'Roast.' Apparently in the 1970's as prices rose without corresponding wages they were putting out less of the roasts. This corresponded with the rise of 'Hamburger Helper.' At this point I'm not sure I could identify what exactly IS the roast in the meat cooler, if there's even one there.

When I took microeconomics I was already a college graduate and working, etc. I think the number for the poverty rate at dinner was $1.84 per person, you were supposed to make dinner for a family of 5 for at least $9.20. On the first test, the last question: How do you feed the family dinner for $1.84 each? So I had a large can of tuna cooked in a can of mushroom soup with a little can of olives added, mixed with rice, for the family of 5. There could be a can of peaches, a can of green beans, whatever you can get using up the $9.20. I made the point that a family that's used to eating better probably wouldn't have a problem with lapsing into some temporary hard times and eating this way for awhile, in fact that's what I went through growing up. But also I acknowledged how people who know only that kind of eating will grow frustrated with it. The teacher read mine to the class and of course said that was probably the best answer he'd ever got to that question, yada yada, probably said that about the one he read to the class every semester, etc.

My thought on this is the collision of the lack of budgetary restraint with the cost of home ownership. How will they ever make this payment? So I know the guy who evolved quickly from single guy in a small apartment and life never needed to change to getting married, buying a house quick for the wife got pregnant to make it harder with her not working, to indeed the kid came and he's selling his scooter, etc. No more travel for the time being, no more yada yada yada. I told him I took back things about his spending before, turns out he really was capable of giving that stuff up when he had to and at least he got some of it out of his system when he could. Yet he acknowledged he'd have done himself a favor by being better about saving some more when he could. But I know another couple who had to move farther away than he did for a lower payment; if she DID get her husbands same job that doesn't double their income, if they DID buy the same house as they have one renter in now here where they wish they could live they can't rent out twice as many rooms. How will they ever live here in the OC in the same house at twice the price on under $100k once the kids come and she's off work for awhile? Meaning they can't. If you want an interesting conversation get her started on how she's getting around spending money, she'd gotten out of the habit of living on nothing once her husband got that better job. "I make so much coffee at work (Waitressing) but I hadn't made it at home for years." Now she's rediscovering the joys of tuna and mushroom soup. Oh, what I went through because I couldn't afford a house or to support older brothers and sisters and nieces and nephews. Such as finding old tires at the side of the road and prying them onto the rims myself.

Are you changing the oil on that generator? I might guess every 200 hours of operation. Might the pugs be fouling from running too rich? Overheating and burning valves from running too lean? What sort of cheap Harbor Freight engine might replace the engine on it? Funny about old engines, though. For all the problems there's so often little things that can make much of the trouble go away and you can put up with a little to put off spending money on it. But there's one thing that would do MUCH to alleviate that problem. (What's this thread called again?)

 

[swbluto]

Reading mark apple's site on the insulin increasing affect of eggs, and already knowing the widespread association between eggs and diabetes, I wonder if there was also an association between meat and diabetes since mark also mentions that meat increases insulin.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3942738/

A 2-year follow-up period included 41,387 men and women. Compared with those eating meat more than once per week and after adjustment for age, body mass index, gender, ethnicity, income, and education, risk of developing diabetes was significantly lower in vegans (odds ratio = 0.381, 95% CI, 0.236–0.617), lacto-ovo-vegetarians (odds ratio = 0.618, 95% CI, 0.503–0.760), and those consuming red meat or poultry less than once per week (odds ratio = 0.486, 95% CI, 0.312–0.755). Risk was not significantly lower among those who ate fish but no other meats (odds ratio = 0.790, 95% CI, 0.575–1.086) [11]. While the foregoing studies indicate substantially increased risk of diabetes associated with meat consumption independent of body weight, they do not settle the question as to whether this association is mediated by the addition of meat per se or by the displacement of plants that may follow the inclusion of meat in the diet.

Looks like it. Frequent eat meaters have nearly 3x the diabetes risk of vegans. So, I guess the insulin increasing affects of eggs and meat does have a significant relationship with diabetes risk, and that could explain why I was getting so persistently hungry eating my neighbor's eggs.

It's interesting to see that fish eaters have nearly double the risk of vegans. You'd think fish would be the exception with its pretty significant health benefits and widespread historical consumption, but I guess it's all about tradeoffs.

Granted, I haven't seen studies on the association between veganism and risk of sudden death. Could be even more significant than fish consumption.

Looks like the infrequent meat eaters, the kind likely more common in prehistoric society (Hunting is a bit harder with spears), and generally true for much of history (The average chinese or european peasant couldn't regularly afford meat), has a pretty comparable profile to vegans.

The old guy riding down the road with his motorcycle with his 20-something chick on the back definitely noticed me, lol. I think he could sense the... power vibe(?)... and might've felt threatened, lol.

 

[swbluto]

I'll bite, how do you pay $4 a month for a celphone? You pay less in a year than I pay in a month, I do have a smart phone.

I have a cellular phone that I have a 3G unlimited $15/month internet plan on, and then I have skype which I purchased credits for, I also purchased a skype number (not necessary to make outgoing calls). As long as I'm standing in clear view of the cell tower, the phone quality is pretty good. I don't believe it offers the full range of functionality of a standard cellphone (i.e., sms messaging), but I can make calls with it and I can hypothetically receive calls.

Are you changing the oil on that generator? I might guess every 200 hours of operation. Might the pugs be fouling from running too rich? Overheating and burning valves from running too lean? What sort of cheap Harbor Freight engine might replace the engine on it? Funny about old engines, though. For all the problems there's so often little things that can make much of the trouble go away and you can put up with a little to put off spending money on it. But there's one thing that would do MUCH to alleviate that problem. (What's this thread called again?)

Yes, hypothetically every 100 hours. Pretty good suggestion on the harbor freight engine, I didn't know they could be used in that capacity. I'd likely have to modify the frame a bit and turn into an open frame with the honda 2000w. I think the main problem with the honda 2000w was the engine was getting old, I'd guess 2000 hours of operation.

https://www.homeownershub.com/maintenance/how-long-do-portable-generators-last-129909-.htm

The cheap lawnmower engine units might go 250-350 hrs, OHV commercial engines 2-3000 hrs, a Honda inverter unit like you have at 50% load or 1800rpm might go 10-13000 hrs, a Honda inverter unit at 25% load or 900 rpm might last 40000+ hrs. You get what you pay for. Your Yamaha if it is inverter design is the same as Honda. Run it easy, keep the load low, the reduced Rpm makes the inverter types last. Buy a 3600 rpm 5000w 500$ HD special and you can ruin it in a few weeks. 24x7 full load.

I'd think a honda engine might be fairly comparable to a commercial engine, since it has an appropriate commercial warranty, so I'm guessing the 2000-3000 hours is probably more realistic.

 

[slacker]

I am guessing the old guy on the motorcycle sensed that you have mental issue's and spend way too much time posting inane stuff on the internet. JMO.

 

[swbluto]

Definitely determined she was having sex immediately after her eyes locked with my "I want to f your brains out" face. At a gasping for air rate of 1x a second, that's about the right frequency, and with her being as seductive/flirty as she is, her having experience here wouldn't be hard to imagine (More than likely, she was recalling a past experience). Now the infatuation/heart-melt part is an open question (What I've thought was happening so far), I'm guessing it probably was since withdrawal led to morphine withdrawal symptoms. It probably was happening altogether at once. [And looking back, I can't say this is a bad thing. Most definitely a great thing, lol, and the overlap is unsurprising.]

My original question "Was she having an orgasm?", I see was not too far off the mark, lol.

Seeing the change from "bullying oh-so-tough girl" to "nervous little-girl" after that was interesting. Her personality was all over the wall in terms of masks she was wearing.

The only psychological archetype I can confidentally infer from this observation is High EQ Neurotypical which shouldn't be surprising for a "normal female" which she showed much nonverbal behavior suggesting she was one.

As to anyone doubting this plausible frequency, there's this.

[youtube]n-OPZsONjFE[/youtube]

I'm becoming more aware and accepting of the relatively common coexistence of two seemingly distinct overlapping emotions, now. That is, feeling two things at once. No longer a confusion between this or that intent/feeling, it's all the above. So the question between longing or concupiscence, probably both. As to her "being the one"... lol... it's possible... though I consciously doubt it, but my instinct feels like it's so. But, why would I trust my instincts in matters of human-invented ideals? It just wants to procreate, lol.

I think really, it's too early to tell. And, it might always stay that way. While I might wax poetic about ideas of fate, I'm forced to recognize the nature of a large city. (And, possibly, people hiding other people, lol. It's an open question what's happened since, could be anything.)

I think having more savings/income/future-certainty makes me more forward/confident with women. It is a question if I would have done what I did then now in the same situation. If I didn't, obviously the outcome would've been different.

I have to admit, the first time I encountered this behavior, "This is interesting behavior I'll have to google later to understand.", lol. So clueless as to what exactly she was doing at the time (Other than, "Wow, that looks seductive", lol), but it makes a lot of sense in hindsight. I'd imagine there's probably many guys out there that would immediately understand what she was doing, and how might I have acted differently if I were one of them, lol. (Maybe I would've thought, yep, this is in the bag, lol. But, also, said guy likely wouldn't have been ballsy enough to make a move... and said guy would've avoided her for "obvious" reasons that aren't so obvious to me...maybe...maybe not.).

 

[swbluto]

I am guessing the old guy on the motorcycle sensed that you have mental issue's and spend way too much time posting inane stuff on the internet. JMO.

I'm sensing someone with jealousy issues and taking too much time to post baseless drivel.

Your antagonism rate has been about 100% so far, so I'm getting the sense maybe I'll end up blocking you.

But... thinking it about it more... it's possible he being a protectorate, might've sensed a threat to "the tribe"... or he might've sensed a threat to his power.

Either way, I'm not really concerned about it. Just thought it was a little interesting seeing the reaction I got from him just driving by, lol.

 

[slacker]

Funny coming from someone who has posted 66 page's of mindless drivel?

 

[swbluto]

Oh jeez, you're too funny. It's my journal, I'm allowed to post mindless drivel.

Getting the last of the fence post holes done this morning. Ended up sleeping off 2 hours of my evening work hours, so only had an hour left before dark.

Next step:

[youtube]qnIigpa7WSA[/youtube]

As of 11:20 a.m., Fence post holes are done. Need to measure and refine them later. Aiming for 3' 6" for 6" of gravel.

 

[DAND214]

Oh jeez, you're too funny. It's my journal, I'm allowed to post mindless drivel.

Getting the last of the fence post holes done this morning. Ended up sleeping off 2 hours of my evening work hours, so only had an hour left before dark.

Next step:

[youtube]qnIigpa7WSA[/youtube]

As of 11:20 a.m., Fence post holes are done. Need to measure and refine them later. Aiming for 3' 6" for 6" of gravel.

That guy on the YT is almost as fast as you are.

So the girl was breathing like that at work. No wonder she was let go.
Do they all like that around you?

This journal, as you call it, is getting strange. REAL STRANGE.

Dan

 

[swbluto]

Oh jeez, you're too funny. It's my journal, I'm allowed to post mindless drivel.

Getting the last of the fence post holes done this morning. Ended up sleeping off 2 hours of my evening work hours, so only had an hour left before dark.

Next step:

As of 11:20 a.m., Fence post holes are done. Need to measure and refine them later. Aiming for 3' 6" for 6" of gravel.

That guy on the YT is almost as fast as you are.

So the girl was breathing like that at work. No wonder she was let go.
Do they all like that around you?

I actually do wonder if she was let go for her 'behavior'. A bit too trampy, maybe.

No, they don't act all act like that around me. But, you see... I gave this girl a pretty bold, unflinching and aggressive "I'm going to f you" look, so not many have had the opportunity to respond like that, lol. Typically they act all giggly and just so friendly, but it also depends on how the conversation flows. Sometimes it just doesn't flow, I'd guess incompatible personalities and sometimes they just didn't get enough sleep, lol. I'm not crying about it, it's how the world works. I don't actually crush for many girls at all, but that seductress knew exactly how to act, lol. Sometimes I wonder why I seem to attract all the sluts, and I'm starting to think it's because when I'm not holding myself back, I'm falling for them, lol.

Yes, she definitely was more fun to be around, lol. She definitely wasn't hiding her 'feelings"/desires.

https://www.collinsdictionary.com/us/dictionary/english/seductress

Few males can resist a self-confident seductress.

Oh, she definitely had confidence (Until I made the move... then all confidence vanished...lol), maybe I'm not the only one.

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=seductress

The quiet girl from school with the frizzy hair that turns into that tease you wanna bed

I don't know if she was "the quiet girl in school", but she definitely had frizzy hair. There's evidence suggesting she might have been "the quiet girl", but I can spot evidence to the contrary. The fact we got along so well, though, suggests maybe she was the quiet one. (I wasn't really that quiet, but there were classes where friends were not to be had, so I had no one to talk to. For example, the debate team, I the only freshman, and the rest juniors/seniors who had long formed a clique within the class, so I didn't really talk to them and did they label me correspondingly, lol.)

And just noticed something: I also have brown frizzy hair. Maybe we're soul mates, but she's gone. C'est la vie, lol

She did have that look on her face like "I've been searching for you my entire life" (And I kind of thought the same thing), it was detectable in how suddenly and dramatically emotionally overwhelmed she was, like her deepest wishes were coming true. And, it was not because of what words were said, but because of the unending gaze piercing deeply into her soul and refusing to stop. And this instantaneous reaction was not something she was acting out, unlike her breathing/gasping-for-air, so it definitely reflected her core.

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Staring%20into%20my%20soul

****Makes you feel really uncomfortable and you usually look away.****

She did not look away, good sign I'd think. She was actually in tears when /I/ looked away, lol... omg... such drama....

Hah, it'd be funny to think I'm the male equivalent of a frizzy-haired seductress, lol, but I think guys usually get called something else. And, no, I refuse to accept any such label, lol, I don't feel like I'm doing anything special to deserve it, lol, but it is so weird how ...some girls see me a second time, and suddenly they're so just happy or they reflect so unusually fondly on the fact I'm back, lol. I'm like... jeez... no...please no... I'm not doing anything special, I swear, lol. I mean, I am aware of what girls find attractive, but I am not embracing any of it (Well, except my advance on that girl; I definitely knew what I was doing there, even if I never really done it before.)

I'd like to think this is what my stare was doing, lol. It definitely felt like a strong connection was being made.

Similar effects were definitely noticed.

 

[Dauntless]

I am guessing the old guy on the motorcycle sensed that you have mental issue's and spend way too much time posting inane stuff on the internet. JMO.

I was thinking he was sensing a predator that'll take his granddaughter right off the back of his bike. I have a family of relatives where the granddad rides the grandkids around.

I'm sensing someone with jealousy issues and taking too much time to post baseless drivel.

Your antagonism rate has been about 100% so far, so I'm getting the sense maybe I'll end up blocking you.

It's taken you THAT LONG to pick up on that? But what's the point in ignoring him? Then he has a playground where the uninitiated with no idea you're not seeing it are noting that you're entirely unresponsive. You know what you look like then.

Funny coming from someone who has posted 66 page's of mindless drivel?

Oh jeez, you're too funny. It's my journal, I'm allowed to post mindless drivel.

ONLY if it's on topic. This is a messageboard, not a journal. I don't see 'Implementing mindless drivel' in the title.

So the girl was breathing like that at work. No wonder she was let go.
Do they all like that around you?

You're remarked on his need for a shower, why wouldn't they have respiratory problems around him? He probably aggravated a preexisting condition and she took medical leave.

Now why would you say it's getting strange? You remarked that it already WAS real strange near the beginning. Isn't that what you keep reading for? The strangeness?

 

[swbluto]

Ahmmm... the point of ignoring those entities which exclusively negatively affect you is to not let people get you down. Any of the hubbub in the background does not concern me, and any people who may join in the endless antagonism, once the antagonism rate approaches 100%, will also get ignored. But, I am talking hypothetically here... I haven't actually ignored anyone. And, during most times of the day, it's pretty hard to get me down. Morning time tends to my most susceptible hour.

20-something grand-daughter riding on the back of the bike... plausible... but... I'm thinking "Robbing the cradle", especially since she didn't exactly look like the random 20-something year old daughter, looks like she was specifically picked out.

 

[swbluto]

Okay, I've determined pretty confidently she no longer works there.

Based on the information I gleaned...

I suspect there's a good chance she was a former junior in highschool and her services were terminated probably not long after that situation. I really don't know that for fact, I wasn't doing day-time surveys since I was taking night trips due to security concerns, but there's a suspicion that if she were in highschool, she's not just job hopping around for the heck of it for the 3 short months she's working in the summer, so likely something catalyzed her departure and there's a fair suspicion that maybe that particular situation might've been influential.

But, I can't really confirm she was a former junior. She just looked nearly as young as this other guy that today told me he was a former junior, and her maturity at times didn't seem like it had gone beyond highschool. But she appeared to be looking for a boyfriend or similar among the men going through her line, and I would think most girls wouldn't do that unless they were adults... but I know not always... but still...

Anyway, looking back... comparing to all these other girls I see working the HEB line... as much as I want to think she's a standard neurotypical... she definitely stands out. I just don't know how exactly in what way, but she's definitely not like the rest, lol. I just don't know what exactly is different about her, my guess is maybe high IQ and/or ADHD or something in that vein. She definitely was impulsive and "attention deficit". Pretty much matching me on the "impulsive" part and ... it's hard to observe myself like I could her... maybe the attention deficit part. 3rd party reports suggest that much ("Are you even there?", lol, bootcamp neighbor asked). Yep, thinking we're soulmates, lol.

Which is why we connected so deeply so quickly. A "glimpse into another world I never really fully knew existed". And, why my never-before-felt-utterly-compelled penetrating stare awakened the deep sense of longing she had always dreamt about, a connection she might not experience for a long time. I know I've never experienced a connection like that. And, no, I don't normally fall for sluts like I did with her.

It's interesting to think if her being impulsive is what led to her leaving. Because, I can ultimately say that's the fundamental reason why I was kicked out of the navy. And, that's precisely how another guy got kicked out too: Didn't check out who was barking commands to him, and he told him to 'f off', turned out he was the leading chief petty officer of the division. Yep, he got sepped fast. (Actually... the last straw of my leaving was less to do with impulsivity and more to do with mortal fear.)

It's interesting to think of the relationship between impulsivity and sex. Because, control of sexual impulses is pretty much the societal standard, and impulsiveness is related to...possibly...

Risky sex behavior
Promiscuity

What other relationships can there be? I feel like there's something else I'm missing... and it's pretty large....

Interestingly, googling "promiscuity impulsivity", interestingly I get many papers on borderline personality disorder. The "I'm unloved' personality disorder. What I kind of suspected in this girl (Inferring from her desperation for my love and just her emotional intensity), but then Dauntless pretty much persuaded me from such a conclusion, lol.

Anyway, conclusion: Lost in the mists of time. And time for me to shift back to "making progress", lol.

Anyway, that was a pretty enjoyable month of fantasizing while it lasted, lol.

The timing was perfect too, July 1st, just in time to cover the whole month of July, lol.It's

Anyhow, school starts Aug 28th. So, I don't really have a solid explanation for the slow late july sales, since that'd be a bit early for back-to-school-shopping.

Anyway, had I known then what I know now...

I think maybe I would've cut it off much more quickly, lol, because... I just don't know... but I can imagine lots of immature laughter, lol. But maybe that's only after the fact, lol, and I think I'm laughing because I didn't quite realize how lascivious she was really being.

Anyway, I'm trying to find youtube videos of people doing this reaction but I have no idea what it would be called.

Yeah, it kind of looked like that, except she kept doing it repeatedly at about 1x a second, and she had those "eyes"... like she was enjoying it... (outer corners on the eyes shifting down, inner parts of the eyebrow arching up.)

I'm suspecting this might be the kind of girl that sleeps around.

 

[swbluto]

Okay, tried removing the brass hex nipple and the hex stripped, rendering it unremovable. Looks like I'll need to get another coupler to use my auger... next grocery visit...

Be nice to find a solid coupler with a hex, and not brass, lol. Strips way too easily.

Seems like I'm constantly buying parts to use my things because I can't remove the existing ones, lol.

I want to get this well going so I can start watering my garden.

Anyway, tomorrow, I start setting my posts in concrete.

I'm thinking about it... if I had a drill press, I could drill a hole in the hex coupler, then I could feed a solid metal rod through and then twist the sucker out. Maybe my neighbor has one, maybe.

 

[Dauntless]

I suspect there's a good chance she was a former junior in highschool and her services were terminated probably not long after that situation.

A former junior in high school could mean your mother, unless she never went to her junior year. So I guess this departure from her job means she's on to you. Perhaps they're ALL on to you. Might you be delaying the parking of your trailer until you get her buried there? I mean, it would EXPLAIN both the fact the trailer never gets parked and the desperation of your search by way of needing to get it parked.

Anyway, I'm trying to find youtube videos of people doing this reaction but I have no idea what it would be called.

Yeah, it kind of looked like that, except she kept doing it repeatedly at about 1x a second, and she had those "eyes"... like she was enjoying it... (outer corners on the eyes shifting down, inner parts of the eyebrow arching up.)

I'm suspecting this might be the kind of girl that sleeps around.

If you're referring to a certain "Art project," it was called 'Beautiful Agony.' You find both the original videos and the imitators all over. There's even famous people in some of it. What also comes up on those pages includes names like 'O-Face,' 'Orgasmo,' as well as any other name they want to use, of course, but you see the trademark look so you know it's what you've been after.

[youtube]VEWtPt-8SPM[/youtube]

Ah, let's see, what other video should I put up for you, you little moth?

THAT'S IT!

[youtube]l1IR1vIamVk[/youtube]

Oh, are you familiar with Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response?

https://asmruniversity.com/about-asmr/what-is-asmr/

[youtube]OZtCt5UZ4ME[/youtube]

 

[swbluto]

If you're referring to a certain "Art project," it was called 'Beautiful Agony.' You find both the original videos and the imitators all over. There's even famous people in some of it. What also comes up on those pages includes names like 'O-Face,' 'Orgasmo,' as well as any other name they want to use, of course, but you see the trademark look so you know it's what you've been after.

[youtube]VEWtPt-8SPM[/youtube]

Wow, yep, at :28, that's exactly how she was behaving except obviously she w,as acting, so a little more elegant and less natural.

So, she was having an orgasm, lol. I knew it! lol

Man, now I just want to jack off to see if I do it and never really realized it, lol.

 

[swbluto]

I suspect there's a good chance she was a former junior in highschool and her services were terminated probably not long after that situation.

A former junior in high school could mean your mother, unless she never went to her junior year. So I guess this departure from her job means she's on to you. Perhaps they're ALL on to you. Might you be delaying the parking of your trailer until you get her buried there? I mean, it would EXPLAIN both the fact the trailer never gets parked and the desperation of your search by way of needing to get it parked.

:?

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I pretty much confirmed I can't find her, so she's definitely yesterday's news. And, her reaction to my leaving was not exactly... one where she was "on to me", lol.

But... you know what... I did write an article that could've possibly made it's way back to the store, and it's quite possible she could've left very soon after. So, yes, that's actually not a bad possibility. I probably should have first confirmed her employment there before writing that article, lol.

And, yes, the writing of the article was kind of disturbing actually (But at that point, I was like "Whatever", kind of gave up hope I would ever see her again.), so I can easily see the alarm it could set off in some people to take action. The question is if she could've been identified because I only knew her hair color.

I sure hope I didn't come off as a predator, but I could easily see it being taken that way.

Anyway, the idea she has seen my article though... that feels like a satisfying outcome because at least I made contact with her, even if I'll never know about it. If she chooses not to respond, that's ultimately her choice, though it'd be nice if I knew that she has seen it [the only thing I can confirm is she's seen and hasn't responded or she hasn't seen at all]. Even if my anonymous self might be thought of as "possible sex offender" in some people, it's not really tied to my identity so I have no worries. And, I'm not seeking to break laws or anything, I just wanted to see her again because it'd been a longtime since we were both happy about how it ended and I feel she was hoping to see me again soon after but then I wasn't, so I kind of felt like I had a duty to make a satisfying attempt to reach her again. Even today, I didn't feel like I was particularly motivated to see her again... I haven't felt motivated for some time actually... I just felt like I had to reach a firm conclusion to end the case and "move on".

Anyway... that's just a possibility... I wouldn't say it's a strong possibility... but it's a possibility. If it's true, no skin off my nose, I resigned making HEB my goto grocery store at this point [too far away].

Now if they were onto this thread... oh.... that'd be effin creepy, lol. And I'd be wondering who "they" were, lol. Even though I don't believe I have a reason to be scared, oh I'd be scared, lol.

And, I find it very curious the topic of dead bodies are being brought up. Not sure where that's coming from. Because, I know I don't have that intent, but somehow it sometimes gets foisted onto me by certain people for no particularly good reason. And you seem to be one of them. The people back in restriction, I'm pretty sure, were trying to get a reaction out of me... but I don't know if that's your intent here.

And that patrol car that drove by about a week ago... hmmm...

The timing with my article is kind of suspicious.

Hmmmm... this is getting sketchy... I hope I'm not being too paranoid here, lol.

Regardless, I know the law and I don't intend on breaking it, so I have nothing to worry about... I HOPE, lol.