Dauntless said:
If you're getting all these orders and being distracted By all the work on the ranch and the sluts chasing you, how do the find time to respond and edit? That's a lot of text you're spewing and maintaining.
Sluts are only chasing me when I go grocery shopping. 1 hour every 3-4 days.
Working on the "ranch": 2 hours at the end of the day, if that (Currently with the hot temps).
And, I'm a software engineer by trade and my programs automate my business, so I literally have to put in like 30 minutes of labor every day.
And, so that's why I have so much freetime.
I'm looking forward to full time employment, so I have wages and business income making up my total income. In the longterm, I might have rent coming in too, so I hope to be making lots of dough in the longterm.
wages, automated business income and rent. Sounds like a recipe for a pretty glamorous lifestyle. Too bad I can't fully enjoy it in my younger years.

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i might going on European vacations in a couple years, though, so I can't say I'd be doing too badly all things considered. Enjoying europe and mediterranean cruises at Age 32/33 doesn't seem "too late" by any means. Of course, this is assuming I don't lose the health lottery in the meantime. Signs are pointing to some bad acid reflux or heart failure. [Well... you know what... I did actually have some really bad acid reflux last night (Acidic foods greatly worsened it)... so it seguing into today shouldn't be that surprising...]
A girl/wife may or may not sap my ability to accumulate wealth. On one hand, it'd likely make me more persistent and ambitious, but on the otherhand, depending if she was working and her consumption rate, it might be a net gain or significant net loss. Research tells me, though, it'd greatly reduce my homocysteine levels by upto 70% and subsequent cardiovascular risks, and bloodpressure would go down by some 6-10 points. All things considered, if I had the option, it might be wise.
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I still don't really know if she was slut, or a bombshell looking for a sugar daddy. She was /really/ good at flirting, though... so... a slut is definitely a possibility. She's just one of the happier sexier sluts I've seen, I guess.
I could see myself falling for a sexy slut (I have before, actually...hhmmm...).
The two aren't mutually exclusive either.
This one girl I knew, she was also pretty good at creating that deeply comfortable warm atmosphere, and she married this one guy who joined the army for the $100,000 enlistment bonus due to the Iraq war. Despite her insisting "It wasn't like that"[By that, I'm pretty sure she means he, likely empowered by his own feeling of wealth, went after her hot sexiness and she submitted... a common tale I'm absolutely sure.], so there can be definitely overlap between gold-digging and sexy sluts. One of the first things she started doing upon expressing interest was seeking monetary assistance with her loans. So, she was definitely a money-seeking sexy slut.
OMG,you know what... oh... that HEB chick was exactly like that girl at times in terms of her "affected affectionate greeting behavior", yes, but she didn't make loan repayment one of the terms likely because she didn't have any, lol. She might've been still in highschool as much as I know [Though that seems pretty odd in hindsight since she was definitely "working the crowd"]
I can't really say she looked like a bombshell at any time except... during her voluptuous dramatic reaction.But.... oh.....she might've been a bombshell, I just don't really know. I didn't personally think she was a bombshell, at least it wasn't my first thought seeing her. She looked like an ordinary female at a distance.
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standard single story home construction material costs, estimate. Brought upto standard.
8wx12lx8h frame + floor frame + osb 7/16 sheathing + door+window = $600
side panels + wallwrap = $700.
pitched roof = $400. (Guessing)
Drywall = $150
carpet padding + carpet = $150
Paint = $50
So entire cost for 100 sqft is $1910, let's roundup to $2000/100sft.
So a 2000 sq ft. single story home ("standard home") would be roughly $40,000 in material costs, or marginally lower than that since the side-paneling and window/door costs would be lower than implied.
So, I'm estimating $20/sq. ft. in material costs. What do other estimates say?
http://www.homeadvisor.com/cost/architects-and-engineers/build-a-house/
This place suggests an average of $150/sq.ft. and at the lowend of $100/sq.ft. for custom houses.
They also include wiring,plumbing,insulation, interior trim and HVAC in their estimates, which I did not include. Interior trim and insulation seems like the only possibly really necessary things to include in my estimate for a "standard house". Wiring could be electrical wires, possibly hidden by wall conduit, and plumbing is not strictly necessary though tending to grey water basins for running water and RV toilet like systems would be required at a minimum [I don't have running water currently, my water mostly comes from a 7 gallon drinking water tank.].
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Well, shiz.... I used to be an INTP and now it looks like I'm an ENTP according to https://www.blogthings.com/howrareisyourpersonalityquiz/ , lol. (Short accurate myer briggs)
I was wondering about that because the predictions about marriage based on personality type at https://www.yahoo.com/style/youll-get-married-based-myers-briggs-type-203817407.html sounded like some bullshiiiit for my personality type, INTP.
The person I love just simply has to understand my theorizations, lol. Yeah, no, I don't think so. Oh jeez, I didn't stand their testing the HEB chick's capacity for my theorizations, lol. The moment I'm explaining theorizations to someone is decidedly the moment I no longer consider them a romantic interest.
It's interesting to wonder when the change happened, from INTP to ENTP. I suspect the navy was probably instrumental, a highly social environment compared to many civilian environments.
ENTP
You’re a natural flirt and tend to charm others — but you’re also better at understanding others’ feelings than you are your own. Sometimes, you’ll even think you’re head over heels when your spark is destined to fizzle. You’ll fall in like a lot, but you’ll only fall in forever-love when you meet someone who engages your mind fully, allowing you to play, letting you explore, and making you think in ways you never thought possible.
I'm not sure how much I agree with that,but the first sentence fragment almost seems like it's been fitting for the last couple months.
Manipulating a few of the questions because it's a bit half/half, it looks like my secondary personality type is ESTJ.
ESTJs keep marriage as an afterthought for a long time. It’s not that you’re not open to love, it just takes a while before you care enough to edit your life plan to accommodate. However, you’re reasonable and rational in the sense that you see no reason to prevent a long-term commitment when you find someone who inspires you to be the best version of yourself. In that case, you’ll happily (and carefully) set a wedding date and call the planner.
Hmmm... there seems to be some validity to the emboldened part. No one has inspired me to be 'the best version of myself' except for the HEB chick, and marriage was definitely not off the table. Not exactly one of those things I'd be pushing right away... but I saw some potential. It's strange, she seems to be the only person in my entire life that really pushed me in that way, and I've had girlfriends before so that is the strange thing. I wonder why. was it because i had this notion that this was the beginning of a family?
granted, she is also the first person I've used the passionate love gaze on to that extent/seriousness.
It almost seems like I could sense her expectations, and I felt compelled to match them. mmmhmmmm. And what did she expect? The absolute best, mmmhmmm.
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I've heard that sentiment "girls care about dick size" as if it's the requirement for sex.
All I have to say is that is some bullshit. Sexual tension and arousal leads to sex, not dick size. Granted, I suppose in some cases, talking of dick size could lead to sexual arousal,but I really doubt it's among the most effective ways except for the whoriest of whores.
Now a girl using dick size as a bitch wall, lol. That'd be an objection that's fun to overcome.
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This almost seems true. With the tone of voice the HEB chick was using when I was departing, it definitely sounded like "I love you". And... ohhhh.... you just don't know how much that pulled at my heartstrings. It's like when a dog sits there and licks so affectionately except... you're hearing it... so it's like... far more significant. ESPECIALLY, when it's coming from someone you really f'ing like.
When was the last time anyone really meant "I love you" in my life so far?
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-Well, youknow, the friendly awkward california nukeschool girl seemed like she did. Except she was already in a relationship with the class leader, so that didn't go anywhere.
-So did the slut, but I'm not exactly sure how much she actually liked my personality beyond my affected body language. She seemed to have financial motivations, which I somewhat distrust.
-Then before that... well, there was that online girl onetime. It didn't seem like that was characterized by love, that seemed like a competition between peers more than anything forthe most part. But, there were times when she appeared really attracted to me for some unknown reason. I'd say we felt like friends, I was friendzoned much of the time, but occasionally she'd relinquish, likely because she was between unmentioned boyfriends in real life, lol.
-College, the dark years. I actually flirted quite a bit as a freshman but i didn't really know how to progress anything at the time. I didn't really understand how you became someone's boyfriend for example or how you would even move in that direction. It was something I was pretty clueless about. I didn't know... for example... "Go for the pussy, get a girlfriend as a result" thing. I thought there was something magical that lead to getting a girlfriend that "just happened" (Like, you just /click/ and it just happens) and then sex would come later in the relationship. Little did I know, for example, that you need to "make a move" on a girl.
-Then I pretty much ignored it for the rest of my time there. I would avoid interested females, i think because 'poor college student living with parents' wasn't really the kind of foundation I felt comfortable pursuing anything from even if it were a common tale for many going. I believe I had "anxieties about the future" that greatly impaired that, with mounting student debt and the low income job opportunities in the poor city of Spokane, and especially the lack of job opportunities period during the great recession.
i guarantee the tone of voice she used that sounded like "I love you", even if she were merely wishing me a goodday, was far more significant than someone saying "i love you" with a straight voice. Granted, I can easily imagine most "I love you"s are not said with a straight voice, at least not among females saying it. Guys, on the otherhand, I won't hold my breath; I don't have anything against guys but it's not unknown for guys to manipulate girls for sex.
And, I still am not forgetting about her. So, yeah, I think I looking into her eyes as I did pretty much created that f'ing love thing, lol.
I didn't really know what I was messing with when I did that. I certainly didn't premeditate I was creating love even though I certainly did it because I was immensely attracted to her personality.
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And, what is this sexual compatability thing I'm seeing? this thing that prevents wives from sexing guys due to "no interest".
Is there really a sexual compatability thing that exists independently from raw primal sexual attraction?
I'm not going to claim I know all that there is behind sexual attraction... but, I think if there's a lack of sexual attraction that there once was, this guy might've become a little too beta. Granted, if the sex immediately stopped after marriage, than it's pretty obvious you're getting used and I would bail immediately. I would hope a competent male could see this "Getting used" thing well before getting married.
1) Body language - keep that back straight, shoulder back. Keep calm and fluid with your movements.
2) Voice - Deep, calm and loud enough. Talk with authority/force.
3) Personality - leadership, authority, dominance. Don't ask, demand. And I don't mean in a whiny way, I mean in a authoritative/forceful way, like you're the boss that gets what he wants.
4) Social - I don't how significant this really is, but how you're regarded in the local community might have an affect. Your occupation might matter. Your neighborhood might also matter, I just don't really know how significant socioeconomics matters. It seems like it's pretty insignificant in my experience, though, if you're an attractive male. I've witnessed short order cooks pull plenty of ass. And many highly-paid professionals pull none.
5) And, of course, foreplay. A girl might need some sexual arousal, seems like they usually need more of it than guys do. Guys, especially if feeling impotent, can still greatly benefit from some arousal.
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I started really thinking. This HEB chick didn't look hot by any means. She wasn't ugly, ok, so the looks department didn't disqualify her as it does for a lot of women in this particular area, but it alone wasn't enough like it seems to be for very very few girls, and even then, an unlikable personality can easily disqualify.
It definitely seems there was something to her voice. I don't really know if had something to do with the tonal qualities to her voice or the meaning behind the intonations in her vocalizations.
-"I'm desperate, save me" (initial greeting, "Why are you getting so many bananas?") [I started rattling off the important minerals found in bananas]
-"I want you" (seductive quality to her "What have you been doing lately?")
-"I'm so excited/happy your mine!" (when she was doing that "ooo boy, ooo boy, ooo boy", "yippee","yay" exclamations.)
-"I love you" (departing message)
Yes, she was really skilled at reeling me in with those vocal meanings behind the otherwise innocuous questions and sentences. So, maybe it wasn't necessarily the pitch of her voice, but the skillfully used underlying meanings in the intonations of her speech in the context of the situation. Yes, that really seems to be the crux of "her voice" and why it seemed so central.
And, then further, her looks didn't disqualify her. She wasn't morbidly obese, had some symmetry.
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This judy girl at https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/7-most-important-things-men-150200580.html seems to be highly active in the comments section. She seems to be very "I hate males" and "I make the demands in the relationship" in her answers. Further, she admits that she's looking for a provider.
So, this girl is the self-appointed dictator in the relationship who hates men and simply wants to use a man for his resources.
This is the kind of girl you hear about that's kind of like the nightmare of guys. Taking dominance and using the man for his wealth/provision.
So, I so far have thought that relationships tend to evolve in that way, guy fails to establish dominance and lets her get away with simply using him. Perhaps that's what her previous relationship(s) has been like, and maybe that guy(s) kicked to her the curb, and so now she hates men as a general rule.
But, I'm thinking maybe this girl is a just a horrible mate to begin with. And there are females whom are just generally horrible mates (A dominant mate looking to use a guy for money). Just like there are guys who are simply horrible mates (a weak ineffectual man looking for love sans sex).
But maybe the inverse exists. A powerful/dominant man looking to use girls for sex. Seems like that's true. A submissive female looking for love. That also seems to be true. i guess there are definitely all combinations among motivations and their dominance/submission status.
Dominant men looking for sex / Dominant women looking for money
submissive men looking for love / submissive women looking for love
But, on the otherhand, maybe she's /really/ looking for that "strong man" who won't let her get away with it and refuses to submit to her, and it's going to take one hell of a strong man.
If I were to characterize the HEB chick encounter...
It would've been Dominant man looking for sex / Submissive women looking for love. I'm sure there was an element of "Looking for money"(girl) and "Looking for love"(guy), but wasn't the primary desire at the time, it might have eventually evolved to become that way.
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You know, it's kind of strange now that I'm thinking about it.
1) She was already strongly neurochemically addicted to me as the rejection suggested.(Limerence)
2) She became my girlfriend very shortly afterwards.
3) She implied "I love you" in her intonation when wishing me farewell.
4) She had "the glow" by the very end.
It almost seems like we had sex. I certainly didn't feel like I was having sex, but judging from the above effects on her, it almost seems like /she/ was. So, maybe she was having sex in her mind when I was looking at her like that. The look definitely seemed to convey "I'm frocking you right now" (Even though I'm not exactly sure what that look actually looks like and if it can be even conveyed,lol.), and she acted like she was getting frocked as weird at that seems, so yes... it's very plausible we already had sex in her mind.
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And, you know what, I just realized my own reaction to her departing message that had the underlying tonal meaning of "I Love you" was /identical/ to her reaction to my passionate love gaze. I don't know how to describe the reaction...
(partially) close you eyes, tilt the head slightly back, take an exaggerated short breath in.
i don't know if there is a name for that reaction, but it's definitely a characterizable reaction.
So, her voluptuous reaction was likely not sexual in origin, entirely sentimental.
Yes, so the thing she was looking for, what she thought she had found with me, was love.
And maybe some protection and provision, this I didn't ultimately find out about. Lost contact, never saw her again.
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https://www.google.com/search?biw=1440&bih=808&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=men+want+sex+women+want&oq=men+want+sex+women+want&gs_l=psy-ab.3...9037.9836.0.10731.5.5.0.0.0.0.217.741.0j3j1.4.0....0...1.1.64.psy-ab..1.0.0....0.WWaGJ0cW_Ck
Looks like "Men want sex and women want love" is the most popular result, and "Men want sex and women want money"/"Men want sex and women want everything" is the second most popular. What is the driving motivation? For a number of girls, it seems to be money (Though food seems the most important 'essential' resource judging by its seduction effect based on the PUA threads I'm reading). But, that could be presumptuous to assume that's true of all women. I know the HEB chick wanted love, but I also think she wanted support additionally, had the "I want babies" body language suggesting that much. Seems like there's a number of young attractive gals who can spot you're doing well in the way you carry yourself, and target you accordingly. I walked by one such person in Microcenter once, was within 2 feet of her, oh she just looked so adorable [literally I was instinctively "oooh"ing how adorable she was as I passed by her, literally, lips were lipping out "oooh", lol.], and she was immediately drawn to me and gave chase, I don't really know ultimately why. Looking for support for her babies, support to buy this video security system she was eyeing but was mulling over how exactly was she going to afford it... Heck if I know. Considering her kneejerk reaction to the "success body language" I had at the time, I doubt love was at the top of the list. It's plausible she was instinctively drawn with no particular explicit motivation, but I just get this feeling she wanted my money.