It's interesting reading posts like http://www.girlschase.com/content/nonverbal-attraction-and-getting-girls-without-words , where he says nonverbal is always more powerful than the verbal in the game of attraction (And, likely, in most social spheres).
I found that interesting, because the HEB chick turned into this loquacious energetic talker into this relatively silent "ok, let's go" kind of girl shortly after I was leaving and she following along for a few seconds and those moments were particularly powerful,silent and nonverbal. When she got frustrated she couldn't come along, she started huffing and puffing, then looked pensively into the distance [You could sense the sexual tension as she was looking into the distance, like she was wanting to consummate it right away.]. Those moments, her talking went down to pretty much nothing and it was almost entirely nonverbal.
So, when a girl becomes expressively nonverbal with your person, that can be a really good sgn. As opposed to silent/withdrawn.
Isn't this interesting?
http://www.dictionary.com/browse/consummate
to complete (the union of a marriage) by the first marital sexual intercourse.
It seems like we can replace 'marriage' with 'relationship', which suggests the same thing. Solidifying a relationship by the first sexual intercourse, makes me wonder if that was her intention, to solidify the relationship and thus her sense of urgency/importance she seemed to be putting on it. Seeing to my "I want to sex her as quickly as possible to bond her", it certainly seems like it was mine.lol
As to her, I don't really know if she would've been trying to bond me, because there's an open question as to her being a ho. She didn't come across like "your average ho" (She came across as verbally dominant, playfully aggressive and uninhibited, which I believe communicated "high value". Most ho's I've known were not verbally dominant and uninhibited, not a typical hallmarker of low self esteem.), but she was definitely skilled at creating sexual desire with her risque flirting.
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I will confirm that coconuts give you energy. My tiredness unmistakably converted to "alert awakeness" after eating only coconut and I'm feeling pretty full. But, it's an interesting sense of energy, not like typical "sugar high" kind of energy, just feeling awake,alert and active. I still believe the body benefits from fruit or starch vegetable consumption, because this banana tastes awfully good right now, so I believe coconut should be supplementary as opposed to trying to subsist off of it. I believe in the natural world and historically, starchy root vegetables were the goto carb of choice globally. Fruits mainly grow in warm weather (summer months and/or near the equator year round), whereas starchy root vegetables grow year round pretty much everywhere in the world.
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Man, there's a scene in a porn video I want to link to show you the gaze I gave the HEB chick. Sure enough, that scene turned me on, lol, no doubt it had a similar effect on the HEB chick. It's interesting to think infatuation=lust=getting turned on. I never really thought infatuation really meant that back in highschool when it was common, but it only makes way too much sense, lol.
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Man, I love these lemons. I don't know how, but they seem to make me so happy and laughy, lol.
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Learning a lot about hoes from looking at https://www.google.com/search?biw=1316&bih=732&tbm=isch&sa=1&q=hoes+be+like&oq=hoes+be+like&gs_l=psy-ab.3..0j0i67k1j0l2.427676.430054.0.430262.16.10.1.0.0.0.439.1538.2-4j0j1.5.0.dummy_maps_web_fallback...0...1.1.64.psy-ab..11.4.1023....0.na_9BPLysdU#imgrc=_
Google search: Hoes be like
Dang, either there's a lot of overlap between your everyday girl and hoes, or this girl was a hoe, lol.
This girl definitely reacted very positively to acts of affection like she's been missing it her entire life. But... I would think that's a normal thing? "Women need love" and all that.
This girl was /definitely/ horny. Are hoes normally pretty horny? It makes sense, but I'm not seeing much suggestion in google images of this plausibility.
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It's interesting to think I was like "I wanna sex her to bond her" and she's like "I wanna sex him because I want dick", lol.
Isn't it normally "I wanna sex her because i want pussy" and she's like "I wanna sex him because I think it'll establish our relationship"?
What is the implication. I have the sexual motives of the average woman, and she has the motives of the average male? lol... (I am making assumptions there. It's very possible we both have motives of the average female, which could be ideal... or might not be. I guess it might ultimately depend on the "why" behind my motive, i.e., "I need her". Or "I love her".)
The idea that nobody loved her does suggest something about her attention seeking, desperation and immense appreciation for acts of affection. So the idea of mine that "she seemed a little odd" might be pretty true. She definitely seemed slow to interpret things in real-time at times and she definitely seemed like she had some kind of attention deficit, agreeing with her energy/hyperactivity. But, despite all that, so lovable, lol. (Or,more likely, precisely because of that.)
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I told myself "I need to get a dog" and a rare wind blew through the forest as if confirming my strong suspicion. So, that's it, a sign from the heavens has solidified my resolve for a dog, probably right after I build the house and get a small yard fenced off.
Think I might go with 8x10 for the initial stage. 8x8 just seems a little bit too cramped. Then the next stage might be adding on another 8 feet, so 8x18. Then the expansion would be going to the left or something.
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Wondering about this.
https://www.reddit.com/r/asktrp/comments/62ichj/should_i_lose_my_virginity_to_a_slut/
She can teach you a lot and make you comfortable for your first experience. Don't think of it as something too sacred. Use condoms. Make sure not to get oneitis on her, I would worry about that more.
What is this oneitis?
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=oneitis
Often confused with love, this is the feeling that a particular woman is actually special. This is just an illusion; she is the same as the other three or so billion. "Go frock ten other women" is the most commonly prescribed treatment for this "disease" (hence the "itis"), as it tends to show quite quickly how very alike people are.
In other words, get over yourself and your obsession with that girl, because it's just an illusion. And when you get rejected, don't be depressed. Because there's really not much to worry about.
Google...
oneitis is a common affliction, especially amongst geeks, affecting millions of men and women daily. Symptoms can include feelings of hopelessness, heart palpitations, dry mouth, depression, anxiety and an inability to seek out other romantic or sexual relationships.Sep 9, 2011
Getting hung up on a girl who has yet to reject/accept you. Huh, well I don't know if that's my issue exactly, as I definitely got past the 'rejection/acceptance' phase, and my issue is really a lack of attractive girls in my everyday encounters. They just don't really exist. I like white girls (Definitely no blacks) and I don't like fatties, and they need to be under the age of 30, which puts me at a distinct disadvantage in this particular part of Houston. I don't really know why the hell I'm not seeing them anywhere, whereas I encountered them all the time in Spokane.
The acceptance/rejection phase for me... hmmm...
Well...never was I asking to be accepted, per se. She did have the opportunity to reject me by averting her gaze or otherwise making a scene of some sort, but she didn't and so I'd guess 'acceptance' was the default, at least I would surmise that by the fact she was begging for my acceptance when I started rejecting her after the baby noises, and then when acceptance was granted, she acted all sorts of excited and happy and she just wanted to be with me and she was obviously feeling a significant compulsion to fudge me up good. So, I blasted well past that part, and almost instantly went straight for home base which wouldn't have been unlikely had the context/environment not been forbidding.
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Anyway, the emotional memory to that sexual tension highpoint, when she caught my gaze and held it (The first 5-10 seconds of the holding part seemed most crucial), vanished at the 2 month or so mark. It was a pretty distinct emotional memory that was quite pleasurable in recalling at certain times of the day. It's interesting that I can remember that I had such a feeling, but I can't seem to actively recall the explicit emotions involved at that particular point in time, the tension.
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It's interesting that I know that sex with a girl = she's bonded with you (My mom told me this). Multiple sources indicates this translates to "She loves you", lol. Not only from a guy's comment, but from the anecdote of this girl groupie who got laid by the hot drummer of some band passing thru (she and her friend got laid, and both apparently fell madly in love). It's interesting how my gaze was definitely sexual in nature after having seen it in that porn video, lol, and hearing that "i love you" intonation in her departing message. She was definitely strongly chemically addicted after that gaze, extreme limerance. So, it's interesting to think I already had that affect on her without actually having did the deed.
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Got the side fence put up. Didn't have a oint to secure the fence stretcher, so I hand tightened it section by section, which is good enough to look imposing, but wouldn't withstand a serious scaling attempt too well. Just need the back top two feet, then time to implement the gate. I want to get the gate done before housing construction in ten days so that the construction material is secured from casual thieves.
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And, there appears to be a leak in the cooling system somewhere. Going to get some dye probably in two days when i go grocery shopping so i can identify the leak. I'm guessing the leak, assuming it's not headgasket failure (And coolant is either leaking into the oil or the combustion chamber; milky oil or excessive white exhaust being key indicators accordingly), developed when too much pressured developed in the radiator when it overheated due to the lovebug swarms pasted onto the radiator preventing proper cooling, so I'm thinking likely there's a leak in one of the hoses. Not a particularly easy vehicle to look around the radiator system, but i'm going to try.
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Interesting seeing the comment about my controlling women (Like I know what that means?) and seeing this.
Oh, I see. Maybe hoes are my natural pairing, lol. [I really don't want to believe that. I'm still not entirely convinced that girl was a ho, but based on all of these images so far... she seems to be more ho-ish than the vast majority of girls I've met, lol.]
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Furthering my hoe education with this music video.
[youtube]JXRN_LkCa_o[/youtube]
Hoes tend to be broke.
Hoes get rich after messing with rich niggas.
Hoes ain't loyal.
I think the main reason why it was particularly difficult identifying her kind is that she wasn't wearing her chosen clothes, as she had her work uniform on. So, I'm surmising... she was a broke hoe (frizzy hair dude, can't afford hair products) who was going to miss the rent payment at the first of the month and she was looking for money. As to expecting loyalty, I shouldn't expect it.
It's a theory anyway. It's not a particularly strong one,but it would explain some oddities. Like getting cut off for not entirely obvious and completely unintuitive reasons. Loyal to the dollar is my best guess.
There was undeniably a strong connection, not the kind I'd normally expect between random rich nigga and random hoe, but she probably had other baser overriding objectives that'd explain her (apparent) unusual sudden change of heart at exactly the last moment.
It's interesting too, if her problem was purely the rent payment... I had a solution for her. But, she probably has other expenses... food, iphone 7, white pearly mustang, etc., lol.
It's questionable if she would've abandoned her ho-ish ways in that direction. I'd think it'd depend on the underlying motivation; there are those who seek riches and those who seek comfort. Those seeking riches or glamorous/opulent lifestyle wouldn't likely abandon them, those seeking comfort would probably want to abandon them if they're doing it simply because they wouldn't have comfort otherwise.
So that feeling I was describing..."I felt like I was in a steamy brothel or backalley",yeah,probably because this was a hoe looking for money, a brothel being their natural habitat.
The heart of stealing someone's bitch (What he's calling a hoe).
Just got rich
Took a broke nigga’s bitch
I can make a broke bitch rich
But I don’t frock with broke bitches
When a rich nigga want you
And your nigga can't do nothing for ya
These hoes ain’t loyal
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I started wondering, what is the natural pairing to a hoe? Showers her with love/affection, controls her, is rich...
I'm starting to wonder if it's a pimp, lol.
It's funny to think that random guys accusation as to my being a pimp is true, lol. I never really thought that was my natural role in life, lol.
It's interesting that... she did her pelvic thrust and huffed out, I then nuzzled her and wished her well ("see you later...*dramatic pause*... girl"), she whined as if she really really appreciated that [or did she whine that I was leaving her and this sexy time with it?], she started following me like we were going to go do something(it almost seemed like she was pulling me along), then she acted like she ran into a brick wall, got frustrated because she remembered she had to work, huffed and puffed... and stood there looking in the distance with that patent sexual frustration, lol.
Yeah, started to wondering about that. It almost seems like this girl was thinking "sex -> love" and she was wanting love... so she felt compelled to have sex right now, because she wanted to secure my love essentially. While I'm told that's often mistaken thinking with players (They lose interest and hit it and quit it), I don't think that would've been mistaken thinking with my person.