oh, if by "real woman" you mean a girl who's lived with me...
damn...
I feel like screaming this on the frocking mountain so loud so that your ears bleed... REAALLLLLL BAAAAADDDDDDDD!!!!!
But, that's kind of impractical, so I'll desist.
Because they can't, that's why.

I can take pride in my networth as much as I can, but that doesn't mean I possess a co-habitable tenement in a safe neighborhood, but it's getting there. Just got the joists installed mostly today, need to get the blocks made and installed and the floor frame is done. The floor frame seems like it took about 20 hours of work, including the foundation. (The floor frame taking about 16 hours of work for a 20x20, plus an extra 10 hours for traveling to pick up all materials.)
In terms of the real answer, I'm strongly suspecting it's because I can only fall in love once.
As much as I don't want to believe that's true, these recrudescent feelings that have arisen recently FOR HER, tells me they really haven't disappeared.
And I get tell all these attractive girls who appear interested in me, I'm getting really miffed at when they start edging on in, and I insinuate them off accordingly.
I signed off my love to a highschool whore, and there's not much I can do about it now.
I swear if this continues for more than a couple years, I'm just going to kill myself because there's no point to living if you can't fall in love.
However, I can't say I fully explored the territory just yet, so I can't make definitive conclusions just yet. That's why I'm going to give myself a couple years.
Now I understand those murder-suicide motivations...
It goes... if I'm going, who do I want to take with me?
It's not so much "I've just killed everyone I wanted to, time to escape jail time thru suicide".
It's more like,"If I'm going anyway, who have I always wanted to kill that can come along with me?".