Buying forest land, implementing solar

[swbluto]

HOW TRUE! Doesn't take much to get accused to be cheating, LOL. I get the sense she senses the "lost love", however that happens, and automatically YOU'RE CHEATING ON ME!!! lol. (But au contraire, it was you who were cheating on me)

That's a plausible DB cooper guy. For a guy who seeks attention, he sure has threatened enough lawsuits over ruining his reputation.

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You know, I'm wondering about FWB with an ex. I'd be interested in it, lol, in a "casual" kind of way. Mainly curiosity, wonder if I would feel anything.

It seems like hyperbole to talk about "us" in this manner, but seems like that's pretty close to the emotions thus far involved.

Granted, don't currently feel angrily embittered like you'd think a "real ex" would. "THEY" talk about taking at least 3 months for emotions to cool off and... eh... seems like they cooled off by day 17.

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That's funny. "Try for baby" interaction unlocked before greet. lol

I swear that's exactly how it happens with the girls I like. Particulars are mentioned later, lol.

The kind of thoughts guys universally have around a hot mama, I'm just not afraid to mention them when they come to me.

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What this .edu guy believes is going to inevitably happen if you marry a non-virgin.

Haha, yeah, it's funny seeing the kind of effect I have on this Amanda girl despite her having a boyfriend. My my, I'm thinking, THIS GIRL IS A CHEATER, not just something I fudging experienced.

So quite simply, hoe indicators => cheater => DON'T MARRY THE GIRL NO MATTER WTF YOU FEEL.

Hoe indicators like scantily clad and provocative poses. Provocative poses is the universal "hoe indicator", I swear to god. Real life and virtual. This would accurately classify the Amanda girl, heb chick, the navy restriction slut and that pregnant 18yo kroger slut... and.... probably more that I'm not recalling right now. Bending over or spread eagle, universal. That's an unfailing signal right there.

That's construction store girl was such a good choice, wasn't getting a slut feel from her.

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Find it interesting that I basically ate two small potatos today (60g carbs), and LOTS OF PEANUT AND CHEESE... and I'm doing perfectly fine. Feeling no energy crashes or anything, feel perfectly fine. Peanuts in particular taste absolute delish.

It's an interesting contrast to how I was eating a year ago, 12 bananas a day and getting those 4 a.m. "am I going to die this time" heart events. Also happened within 10 minutes of 4 a.m. DESPITE THE FACT I HAD NO IDEA WHAT TIME IT WAS. I didn't know what time it was until the event happened, and then I looked, and ... always within 10 minutes, usually 4 minutes or less.

 

[Dauntless]

https://www.thedailybeast.com/look-but-dont-touch-inside-the-weird-dangerous-world-of-japans-girl-idols

 

[swbluto]

started experiencing fleeting prickly pain in the left shoulder blade and an ache in the lower left back and pricks in left neck last night. Seemed reminiscent of heart failure. The fleeting lower back ache especially does, seems like those started within the last 3 weeks or so (What my uncle was experiencing at age 50, terrible lower back aches, turned out he was experiencing heart failure, needed a transplant.). This coincides with the palpitations that started 6 days after the "cheating trauma", and continue to this day. Other papers suggest palpitations, at least in the khmer population, indicate a "weak heart" and risk of cardiac arrest.

MIght explain the seemingly lowish practical limit I seem to have with working outside, without getting sleep disrupted.

(Was wondering how this neighbor guy could work so long yesterday, and presumably still have good sleep? lol)
Feeling pretty hungry for carbs this morning, probably a followup from yesterday's lowish carb day.

Lots of rain yesterday night ended up flooding some of my post holes. Wonder if I should just go ahead and work on filling them with gravel today? Part of me is thinking yes, the gravel will displace the water fine.

Considering the heavy work, think I might want to load up on the meat and potatos this morning. Potatos seem to surely give you that "energy to work hard without fail".

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jan 23 2019 stock list (received 6 a.m., checking prices at 10:15 a.m.)

LQMT - 0.16
RWLK - 0.24
UXIN - 3.34

Possibly useful insight in his logs here.

The goal on swings is target 1-2 patterns from my daily scan (ideally with catalysts) and hit 5-20% in 1-4 days, rinse and repeat. Click here to stream the above portfolio in real-time (Jason Bond Picks members only).

LQMT - I have a big holding in this stock over at TD Ameritrade long-term for a move to $.50+ but am also considering it as a swing in my E*TRADE portfolio for a move to $.20. Shares moved from $.10 to $.16 with little resistance and have formed a bull flag just below the supply line. If $.16 breaks I don't think $.20 is unreasonable in the next week.

RWLK - This is a catalyst swing trade I like in the low $.20's. I already have a small position but am looking to add to it today. Here's my report if you missed it (Jason Bond Picks members only) and my goal is $.30+ for profit. I'm looking to add as much as 150,000 shares in the low $.20's.

UXIN - Oversold chart pattern (see Penny stocks 101) that's in play for me above $3. Monitor trade news with China as a catalyst here. Recent upgrade to overweight by JPMorgan with a price target of $7 leaves me to believe good news might be coming soon here too.

The diary of a real $ trader,

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[youtube]DmwTN2slUhU[/youtube]

Remember at the Paul G. Allen comp sci building at UW seattle, the computer science used the ML Programming language (Functional programming language), as opposed to this guy's OCaml. Interesting to note they both used a functional language as opposed to the commonplace procedural type. The difference between the two is that functional languages lend themselves towards density and succinctness, which requires higher cognitive complexity to effectively use. And what kind of complexity exactly... verbal, spacial/semantic...

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http://forums.prohealth.com/forums/index.php?threads/anyone-notice-a-connection-palpitations-and-carbs.87371/

Noticed a palpitation while eating a second white potato and a little bit of cheese. Googled.

Since I changed my diet to low carb, no sugar, I rarely have this symptom anymore. Only when, as you say, it's almost that time of the month, and more mildly. If I eat some potato chips, ( the only thing that tempts me back ), I get the pounding heart again for hours. The Atkins- type diet works for so many of our symptoms.
Basically, you eat lean protein, veggies, and fruit. You eat very little bread, no rice, cereal,or white potatoes. No sugar at all. Drink lots of water.

I just recently started eating potatos 3 days ago, so it'd be meaningful if I started noticing symptoms along these lines. And, there's a lot of overlap with this gal, mainly the potatos chips.

Some suggestion about "hypoglycemia" leading to palpitations while eating carbs. My carb intake was pretty low yesterday.

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Brrrr... fudging cold and windy. 40F and 18mph winds. Looks like 3 p.m. is the best time to start work, 48F outside for 3 hours.

40F wouldn't be so bad IF IT WERE NOT WINDY. According to the weather, "feels like 29F" and seems about right. I need something like a sweater and leg warmers.

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started work at 3 p.m., finished by 3:45 p.m.; transporting all the gravel bags by hand where they needed to go, weigh 50 pounds each. Tried using the hand truck, but couldn't push 3 bags at a time uphill, 150 pounds was too much to push with the kind of traction I could achieve. So, individually taking them in by hand was the most practical.

Think I'll start deploying the gravel tomorrow, should be able to see the bottom of the hole. Standing water in some of them after last night's rainstorm.

Grabbed one of these "easy eats", curious how suitable they are at solving dinner hunger. Just meat and veggies (mine is chicken and asparagus). I've noticed that carbs aren't ideal in large quantities at night time.

https://www.harpersbazaar.com/beauty/health/a20125685/cutting-carbs-at-night/

Supports the idea of 2:30 p.m. cutoffs for carbs.

Apparently did "The brides diet" for 2 weeks, lol. Intuitively a good idea.



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omg. This asparagus tastes SOOOO delicious but 95% of it got way overcooked! Feels like this is what I've been missing all along.

 

[DAND214]

Turn around :lol: :lol: :lol:

Dan

 

[swbluto]

Stage 1: Shock - The break up has just happened. You know it has happened but you can’t quite connect with it. it doesn’t feel real yet.

Stage 2: Denial - Not able to deal with the enormity of the situation our brain steps in with the coping response of denial, “ Nope, it didnt happen, they will come back”.

Stage 3: Anger (some people put anger in 4/5th place because it can come at anytime) - The fear that stalked you through the initial stages has now subsided enough for the anger to come out. This is healthy. Suddenly you realise that YOU MATTER. ITS AN OUTRAGE THAT THEY FINISHED IT. HAVE THEY SEEN YOU! The best part about this phase is that you can use this indignation to get out the house and start rebuilding your independence.

Stage 4: Bargaining - This is a real bugger of a stage. The intolerability of the feelings and separation mean that you suddenly remember the relationship through rose tinted glasses. In this phase people try to bargain their way back to what they had, either with their ex or with a higher power (e.g. promising a higher power that they will do better if they can have the ex back). It’s usually this stage when people decide to give it another go. Assuming it will be different this time.

Stage 5: Depression - The sadness really sets in (this does not mean clinical depression). Appetite changes, the tears come, you want to withdraw from the world. This dark hole can feel like an abyss but its a good sign, you are on the home stretch.

Stage 6: Initial acceptance - This can feel more like surrender at first. Finally giving in to the terms of the breakup. Overtime this will change. While the pain may still be present you can see the relationship more clearly, accepting each person's role in the relationship, the good and the bad.

Stage 7: Hope - THE BEST STAGE! You see a picture of your ex, you don’t feel so much anymore. You go out with a friend and realise you are enjoying yourself (not just tolerating it like you had been). You can feel it, YOU ARE MOVING ON.

Wow, that's exactly right. Shock, anger, depression, and Hope. Day 1, Day 2-10, Day 6-10, and Day 17.

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This comes off as bitter ignorance. The laws themselves have mostly been corrected. The prime advantage women have is in the judicial discretion, not the laws. If you end up with a beta judge who has the hots for your STBE, you're screwed.

So beyond many of these hotties being hoes, there's also the fact she's going to win the support of the judge when the divorce her cheating causes comes about. Makes me think, don't marry "a hottie"(in my experience, the hoes).

 

[billvon]

You're not going incel on us, are you?

 

[Dauntless]

Going? It's where he was coming from when he got to ES. This is where he writes his manifesto.

 

[swbluto]

I've noticed no one really "goes incel". I think it's more of a derogatory term than an actual substantial community. The largest one I could find had 150 something posts over the last 5 years, hardly a bustling community deserving of its own "widely publicly recognized phrase".

I think the key figurehead behind it really is Elliot Rodger, who merely well articulated his grievances prior to his heinous acts, unlike his contemporaries.

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WOW, he typed up a 141 page manifesto on the matter? WHAT A LOSER. lol

See, I never had a problem with girls. I did have a problem with hotties trying to make me jealous and finding it satisfying, though, lol. [That only happened once! She was a junior banging some 20-something guy, so unfair advantage he had.]

I might've had a problem with "finances" and "having my own place" during the great recession as well as most of the millenials, but not ME personally. In fact, if I were to characterize my person, I have no problems with the right girl. Of course, it seems like "The right girl" is often some kind of hoe, lol.

Anyway, the massive chicken breast and asparagus did a great job of curing hunger, the appetite for carbs for the rest of the night was practically non-existent, unlike before I consumed the chicken. I've read that meat protein will raise insulin levels, so this might explain the displacement of carb demand. And maybe there's some key interaction with the veggies I don't fully understand yet.

So, I could pretty easily see cutting out carbs after 2:30 p.m., by front-loading at the beginning of the day. Doing this not only because the circumstantial evidence looks convincing, but just my own experience that eating carbs at night seems like it tends to provoke symptoms.

https://www.byrdie.com/cutting-carbs-later-in-the-day-benefits/slide3

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HAHA, yeah, isn't economic decline a funny thing.

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2014_Isla_Vista_killings

Referring to an incident that occurred on July 20, 2013,[78] Rodger wrote that "he tried to shove girls at a party over a ten-foot ledge after being mocked but failed", and instead other boys pushed him over it. He said that he "felt a snap in [his] ankle, followed by a stinging pain" and "tried to get away from there as fast as [he] could". Realizing that he left his Gucci sunglasses at the party, Rodger returned to retrieve them but the "same people he had tangled with before began mocking him and calling him names, then dragged him into the driveway to beat him up". One of Rodger's neighbors said that "he saw Rodger come home, crying" and said that Rodger claimed that he was going to kill the men involved, and kill himself.[74] Rodger told investigating officers that he had been assaulted, but they determined that he might have been the aggressor.[19][78][79] He wrote in his manifesto that the incident was the final trigger for his planning of the attack

That'd be an understandable catalyst. Yeah, ummm... hate to say it, but THIS AIN'T ME, lol.

[youtube]D5drYkLiLI8[/youtube]

 

[Dauntless]

I've noticed no one really "goes incel". I think it's more of a derogatory term than an actual substantial community. The largest one I could find had 150 something posts over the last 5 years, hardly a bustling community deserving of its own "widely publicly recognized phrase".

The term was coined by the founder of the first community who popularized it. It's what you guys took to calling yourselves. You're not looking hard enough, it's a HUGE thing. Reddit shut down some big communities, I understand.

WOW, he typed up a 141 page manifesto on the matter? WHAT A LOSER. lol

Yeah, a winner has a thousand pages of meanderings in HIS manifesto, eh?

They're all like you, never having a problem with girls but it's the girls that all have problems with you, always saying you don't have the money to buy women, of course all the talk of using violence to get what you want/violence being directed at you, etc. Dang, you could probably start the community that blows all the other away. Some day it could be YOUR picture in the dictionary with the definition. It's so cute the way you hate to say all that awful stuff isn't you when you're feeling such jealousy and all.

I guess you should start reading Jordan Peterson. I'm sure he doesn't like being considered their herald, but what's a guy to do?

 

[DAND214]

I've noticed no one really "goes incel". I think it's more of a derogatory term than an actual substantial community. The largest one I could find had 150 something posts over the last 5 years, hardly a bustling community deserving of its own "widely publicly recognized phrase".

The term was coined by the founder of the first community who popularized it. It's what you guys took to calling yourselves. You're not looking hard enough, it's a HUGE thing. Reddit shut down some big communities, I understand.

WOW, he typed up a 141 page manifesto on the matter? WHAT A LOSER. lol

Yeah, a winner has a thousand pages of meanderings in HIS manifesto, eh?

They're all like you, never having a problem with girls but it's the girls that all have problems with you, always saying you don't have the money to buy women, of course all the talk of using violence to get what you want/violence being directed at you, etc. Dang, you could probably start the community that blows all the other away. Some day it could be YOUR picture in the dictionary with the definition. It's so cute the way you hate to say all that awful stuff isn't you when you're feeling such jealousy and all.

I guess you should start reading Jordan Peterson. I'm sure he doesn't like being considered their herald, but what's a guy to do?

All he needs is a CLUB and a CAVE, just the way they did it in the old days!

Dan

 

[Dauntless]

All he needs is a CLUB and a CAVE, just the way they did it in the old days!

Dan

But then he'd have a reason to blame himself.

https://hbr.org/2019/01/the-era-of-move-fast-and-break-things-is-over

 

[swbluto]

Okay, guys, I think we need to differentiate between "What I journal and fantasize about" and HOW I ACTUALLY TALK AND INTERACT WITH GIRLS as two separate things. I never encourage physical violence as an approach, but as a reaction to disrespect, it's an option depending on if the severity is deserving of it. Not saying it's an option I would personally use on those who aren't my property yet, but ... well, anyway, I really haven't physically abused anyone, but I have yelled and scolded to great lusting effect on their part, so I mean... I know what works on certain kinds of girls. Cheeky disrepectful girls like the reprimand.

AND OBVIOUSLY THAT MEANS I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT GOOD GIRLS HERE.

I wonder if this is why I seem to keep finding hoes... I'm learned in the ways of bad girls...

Damn, this "Bad girl" is JUST JUST JUST like the Amanda girl. Outfit, hearts, pose, holding weapons, looking pretty and all...

Pretty as in like the last picture, yeah.

 

[Dauntless]

So you fantasize about a girl who has a club and a cave so you won't be incel-ated from it any more. I admit I understand the CONCEPT of you feeling disrespected by them avoiding you so you become violent, I can't say I understand you thinking it's okay.

So you want to be called Chad now?

 

[swbluto]

I don't want to be called anything, I think this topic (AS TO MY PERSONAL IDENTITY) is fudging bogus and complete waste of resources. The applicability is somewhere less than infinity, and not much greater than -1.

Wonder why carrying 50 pounds of gravel some 2800 feet in total, would cause a "strained heart"?

Wonder if it's a bad thing.

Think people can normally hike with 50 pound backpacks for miles without issue, is that right?

So... think it means I have an issue...

https://www.webmd.com/men/news/20020626/is-your-heart-ticking-time-bomb#1

Kile's heart was also significantly enlarged, according to the autopsy results -- a sign of a strained heart. In addition, the night before his death, Kile reportedly complained of shoulder pain and of feeling weak and very tired -- possible signs that his heart was failing.

Isn't that right, left shoulder pain. Fleeting sharp pains in the left shoulder. Got two of them last night (Along with noticeably reduced circulation). A significantly enlarged heart would be detectable by an MRI, I think.

The Cardinal's team physician, Jim Loomis, MD, told reporters on Saturday that the 33-year-old pitcher had no known health problems and was not on any medication.

33 years old. I've heard 32 and 33... the beginning of the culling...

Notable that 32 years old is the upper limit of the age range many younger girls will look for guys on dating websites like OkCupid. Think the overlap is not coincidental, just don't know the exact cause and effect.

 

[billvon]

I've noticed no one really "goes incel".

You mean other than Alek Minassian and Elliot Rodger? And other than the great many people who self-identify as such on line?

I think it's more of a derogatory term than an actual substantial community. The largest one I could find had 150 something posts over the last 5 years, hardly a bustling community deserving of its own "widely publicly recognized phrase".

Right after the Minassian murders, a reporter found two forums with at least 5,000 members each, and a third with 9,000 registered users. Right after the murder, hundreds of active users were on those forums, chattering about the murders - with many approving.
https://www.theglobeandmail.com/canada/article-the-incel-community-and-the-dark-side-of-the-internet/

I think the key figurehead behind it really is Elliot Rodger, who merely well articulated his grievances prior to his heinous acts, unlike his contemporaries.

Perhaps. Apparently he has a lot of followers.

WOW, he typed up a 141 page manifesto on the matter? WHAT A LOSER. lol

?? Yes, he's a loser. Not because of a manifesto, though. Because he hated women and killed a bunch of them before killing himself. Hopefully that's self apparent.

See, I never had a problem with girls. I did have a problem with hotties trying to make me jealous and finding it satisfying, though, lol. [That only happened once! She was a junior banging some 20-something guy, so unfair advantage he had.

Incels talk about that exact situation. The "Stacys" (i.e. the hotties who won't sleep with them and torment them) will only sleep with the "Chads" (20-something guys with unfair advantages.) Not saying you are one, just that you seem to express similar sentiments.

I might've had a problem with "finances" and "having my own place" during the great recession as well as most of the millenials, but not ME personally. In fact, if I were to characterize my person, I have no problems with the right girl. Of course, it seems like "The right girl" is often some kind of hoe, lol.

Another incel meme is that they will meet a woman only to find out she is promiscuous with everyone but them; she is often referred to in terms like "tease" "whore" etc. (Along with "Stacy" of course.)

 

[swbluto]

REPEATED POST.

 

[swbluto]

WOW, he typed up a 141 page manifesto on the matter? WHAT A LOSER. lol

?? Yes, he's a loser. Not because of a manifesto, though. Because he hated women and killed a bunch of them before killing himself. Hopefully that's self apparent.

That criterion would classify the vast majority of nuke school guys as "losers" which I"m not sure I confidently agree with. THEN AGAIN... lol

Retribution. Retaliation. Not sure if that really what makes a person a loser, I think it makes them human. A rather brave human, considering the obvious mortality risks. Put most people in the same circumstances as he was in, I'm pretty sure a "relatively large" percentage would've had a similar response. And by that, I mean significantly greater than the current prevalence of "incel murders".

Not saying that I would have, but that's possibly because it's hard to imagine I would get the kind of reactions he probably did.

There's been a number of hoes anticipating getting promiscuous with me, ok, so... that meme don't apply here...

[The reason why they haven't is because... I HAVE STANDARDS. And, I don't have a place, YET.]

 

[billvon]

?? Yes, he's a loser. Not because of a manifesto, though. Because he hated women and killed a bunch of them before killing himself. Hopefully that's self apparent.

That criterion would classify the vast majority of nuke school guys as "losers" which I"m not sure I confidently agree with.[/quote]
Most nuke school guys killed a bunch of women and then killed themselves? I tend to doubt that.

Retribution. Retaliation. Not sure if that really what makes a person a loser, I think it makes them human.

Feeling depressed because someone is alone all the time is a very human sentiment.
Wanting to "retaliate" against women would indicate that someone isn't understanding the issue.
Actually retaliating would make someone a criminal - not "make them human."

Put most people in the same circumstances as he was in, I'm pretty sure a "relatively large" percentage would've had a similar response.

We are fortunate that that isn't true, that most people are basically decent and are not murderers.

 

[swbluto]

We are fortunate that that isn't true, that most people are basically decent and are not murderers.

Aztecan food shortage, half of the population died off due to civil war. Tell me again how most people couldn't possibly be murderers under any circumstance...

It is true, however, most people are "NOT HIM", so there's that.

 

[billvon]

Aztecan food shortage, half of the population died off due to civil war. Tell me again how most people couldn't possibly be murderers under any circumstance.

Most people in our society, today, are not murderers under most circumstances. Which is a good thing. And saying "women are mean to me" is in no way an excuse for such violence.

 

[swbluto]

Well, if such "meanness" tends to cause early vascular death, then it's pretty arguable how senseless it really is in the grandscheme of things. "Killing me softly"

When gramps was attacking me once in the morning, I noticed that what quickly followed the emotional pain, was fleeting cardiac symptoms. Precisely, a sinking feeling in the chest with sharp pain in the left shoulder, lasted for about 5 seconds. Don't think these "emotional attacks" are really all that innocent...

I don't personally seek retribution for numerous reasons, but I understand how a certain kind of person in certain circumstances, might. Mainly under 25 males, tends to be violent, and the military loves using those young mens' murderous impulses to their advantage. Reason why FPS are popular with that demographic, just as it is with amanda.

 

[swbluto]

So after calling amanda a loser, I noticed the following in her feed. Precisely...

I see the projection in your insinuation, LOSER.

(She insinuated I was napolean dynamite incarnate, who is "a loser". That disrespect needs disrespect in turn, name calling.)

She has that flirtatious smile, and that right leg is kicked back so seductively.

She has it every so often among her pictures, but what's notable, is that it communicates "I feel sexy" and I know I'm the one that's making her feel that way.

Think it's good advice. :lol:

Think she might've been implying "You sit on a throne of lies".

Probably because she thought my mention of a house, gave her the idea it was "finished" (The only kind of house she's probably aware of), and when I mentioned it was going to be 3 months later at the earliest... I'm guessing she thought I was misleading her on purpose and retribution was to be paid.

When the simple fact of the matter was... no... not at all. And I explained it to her in great detail how that was not the intention.

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[Dauntless]

So the real indicator on the incel was posting the incel illustration, 'Virgin walk vs. Chad.' Where do you think that came from? Chad is an incel concept.

So after calling amanda a loser, I noticed the following in her feed. Precisely...

I see the projection in your insinuation, LOSER.

(She insinuated I was napolean dynamite incarnate, who is "a loser".

I don't personally seek retribution for numerous reasons. . . .

That disrespect needs disrespect in turn, name calling.)

WOW, he typed up a 141 page manifesto on the matter? WHAT A LOSER. lol

?? Yes, he's a loser. Not because of a manifesto, though. Because he hated women and killed a bunch of them before killing himself. Hopefully that's self apparent.

That criterion would classify the vast majority of nuke school guys as "losers" which I"m not sure I confidently agree with. THEN AGAIN... lol

Most nuke school guys killed a bunch of women and then killed themselves? I tend to doubt that.

Those nukes can do the job quickly. . . .

The one thing I'll say though. Elliot Rodgers would have been considered a better than average looking guy. Might be a bit short, that's not a problem with lots of women. But he reminds of 'Son of Sam.' Really full of himself (". . . .I'm the perfect guy. . .me, the supreme gentleman. I will punish all of you. . . .") and raging at women for not being so in love with him as he was with himself. A difficult type to be around, eh? No wonder women don't want you incels.

 

[swbluto]

So the real indicator on the incel was posting the incel illustration, 'Virgin walk vs. Chad.' Where do you think that came from? Chad is an incel concept.

So after calling amanda a loser, I noticed the following in her feed. Precisely...

I see the projection in your insinuation, LOSER.

(She insinuated I was napolean dynamite incarnate, who is "a loser".

I don't personally seek retribution for numerous reasons. . . .

That disrespect needs disrespect in turn, name calling.)

?? Yes, he's a loser. Not because of a manifesto, though. Because he hated women and killed a bunch of them before killing himself. Hopefully that's self apparent.

That criterion would classify the vast majority of nuke school guys as "losers" which I"m not sure I confidently agree with. THEN AGAIN... lol

Most nuke school guys killed a bunch of women and then killed themselves? I tend to doubt that.

Those nukes can do the job quickly. . . .
The one thing I'll say though. Elliot Rodgers would have been considered a better than average looking guy. Might be a bit short, that's not a problem with lots of women. But he reminds of 'Son of Sam.' Really full of himself (". . . .I'm the perfect guy. . .me, the supreme gentleman. I will punish all of you. . . .") and raging at women for not being so in love with him as he was with himself. A difficult type to be around, eh? No wonder women don't want you incels.

Elliot Rodger's problem, in particular, was being quasi-autistic. Being an incel was just a side-effect. He was diagnosed with PDD-NOS, which is basically like Aspergers in his case, especially if he's typing 141 page manifestos. Those aspergians are known for having a more formal air and being wordy and longwinded, which his 141 pages is telling me that much. If I were to attempt a summary of my life... I'd get about... 2 full pages out of it. In fact, I already did that when I was like 24 and it indeed was 2 pages. And I had no women killing desires then, and still don't, but women seem like they want to kill me, LOL, so it might be appropriate if I did, lol. [Obviously not all women are trying to kill. Seems to be mostly the losers. Maybe even "the evil girls". Well, most definitely "the loner girls".]

Take a normal guy, who's wealthy as fudge or has pride in his sexy talents (Obviously not all talents are sexy, math doesn't woo the ladies like sensuous poetry might), that kind of narcissism is utmost appreciated by women. It ain't the narcissism, it's "the creep factor".

Yep, the HEB chick was rather subtle about this "lip biting" thing just like this girl. The amanda girl, can't judge too much from a static picture if she'd actually be like that in real life, but looks exaggerated. And not because she's intending comedy.

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Last night, ate the chicken, brussel sprouts (Wow, the brussel sprouts, must've really picked up the mood), cheese and tomatos.

Still felt hungry like 20 minutes later. Relented, had a banana, it cured it. OKAY, so I think instead of "no carbs past 2:30 p.m.", I'll just go with "minimal carbs", carbs as necessary.

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Interesting that Amanda self-styled herself as "the baddest bitch". What does this imply exactly...

https://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=baddest%20bitch

a sexy original female who can have any man or object she desires who other women hate on cuz she "got it like that" she has a nice body, a cute face, with intelligence who knows how to get that money without being a gold digger

ISN'T THAT FUNNY.

What was my dream again about her...

"I want to find a guy with a lot of money and spend it all"

Damn, those dreams are so freaking insightful. And if they are what they appear, than that HEB chick was one hell of a catch. My dreams of her were so innocent.

WELL, I mean, assuming that some of them were implying she was a hoe wouldn't disqualify the idea she had "good intentions". Some girl who wants dick IMHO has some rather good intentions, lol.

 

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Okay, so walked at rapid clip (Say 4 mph) yesterday morning, for about 30 minutes, and afterwards... felt like the heart was "Somewhat stressed" by the exercise.

Then going to bed, I could feel my heart closing my eyes, and it felt "light" and "kind of stressed" (I'll take it that's what that "light heart" feeling is, some kind of stressed heart.). This kind of bothered me a little, since it didn't seem like I did any "real hard" exercise yesterday, at most, I carried ten 17 lb blocks some 100 feet each.

Slept from 11 to 2 a.m., then from 5:30 to 10 a.m.; the "light heart" feeling wasn't there after awaking from the first sleep.

It was easy with the foot infection to see it was getting better, but something like this... I don't know how confident I am in "getting better" when simple walking stresses the heart.

Seemed like carrying the 28 bags of 50 pound gravel yesterday made the heart a little bit more sensitive to exertion. Not sure if a progressive or temporary phenomenon. There are certain disease processes of the heart that are well known to be progressive and seems to be associated with the "working to death" phenomenon in the real world.

The major medical causes of karōshi deaths are heart attack and stroke due to stress and a starvation diet.

Maybe I should be watching out for that "starvation diet". I figure 200g carbs isn't that "starving".