Buying forest land, implementing solar

[billvon]

And I had no women killing desires then, and still don't, but women seem like they want to kill me

No they don't.

so it might be appropriate if I did, lol. [Obviously not all women are trying to kill. Seems to be mostly the losers. Maybe even "the evil girls". Well, most definitely "the loner girls".]

No, not even a small percentage. Most women (and most men) simply don't care about you. Same for me; same for almost everyone. Which is a good thing.

Take a normal guy, who's wealthy as fudge or has pride in his sexy talents (Obviously not all talents are sexy, math doesn't woo the ladies like sensuous poetry might), that kind of narcissism is utmost appreciated by women.

So anyone who has a lot of money is a narcissist? I disagree. If someone has a lot of money it means they are rich. They could be selfless, they could be narcissists, they could be hedonists, they could live in a hut and do nothing but stare at their navel.

Yep, the HEB chick was rather subtle about this "lip biting" thing just like this girl. The amanda girl, can't judge too much from a static picture if she'd actually be like that in real life, but looks exaggerated. And not because she's intending comedy.

Dude, IT'S A MODEL. They are paid to look like whatever the photographer wants them to. It's not real. She's not really like that. I really hope this is not news to you.

 

[swbluto]

I think there's two points in which the "kill process" gets initiated with the girlies.

Either being in the same area, thus becoming a possible territorial dispute, or initiating some kind of relationship contact with them. Some girls wish you death (Either prior, during or when ending the relationship), so thus it starts, in their sophisticated relationally aggressive ways. I would assume this isn't applicable to every guy out there, but it's hard to think I'm the only one. Granted, probably most guys don't see the deep underlying intent quite like I, they'd probably interpret it as "Being a bitch".

Removing my experiences from biasing the interpretation, this sounds romantic.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kar%C5%8Dshi

"the best thing about being born male was, 'having a family, and being able to support that family.' Conversely the worst thing was 'being unable to quit your job even if you want to' due to the same responsibility."[12] The responsibility men have to provide for the family correlates with their masculinity, so if a man gets laid off he may think that "their own ability is really poor, and would get quite depressed."[13] These pressures are ones that society puts on them, since it is expected that the men work and provide for the family.

 

[billvon]

Either being in the same area, thus becoming a possible territorial dispute, or initiating some kind of relationship contact with them. Some girls wish you death (Either prior, during or when ending the relationship), so thus it starts, in their sophisticated relationally aggressive ways.

I am sure some do. 99.9999% don't.

Many guys can't handle the emotions involved in a breakup. Since they can't handle them internally, they externalize them. "She HATES me! She must if she wanted me to feel like this. I wouldn't be surprised if she wanted to murder me, if she hates me that much!"

Of course, there's no hate, just a guy with a very low emotional IQ trying to displace his frustration so he doesn't have to own it. And a new incel is born.

I would assume this isn't applicable to every guy out there, but it's hard to think I'm the only one. Granted, probably most guys don't see the deep underlying intent quite like I, they'd probably interpret it as "Being a bitch".

I think most guys have a high enough grasp of their own emotions that this doesn't come up.

 

[swbluto]

Either being in the same area, thus becoming a possible territorial dispute, or initiating some kind of relationship contact with them. Some girls wish you death (Either prior, during or when ending the relationship), so thus it starts, in their sophisticated relationally aggressive ways.

I am sure some do. 99.9999% don't.

Many guys can't handle the emotions involved in a breakup. Since they can't handle them internally, they externalize them. "She HATES me! She must if she wanted me to feel like this. I wouldn't be surprised if she wanted to murder me, if she hates me that much!"

Yeah, as I said, the loner girls. The 1%. Find the evil fudgers in places like Nuke School and they come from places like Hawaii, lol.

But she openly implied she hated me. Yeah, so...

As I said, I needed to meet the girl first, wasn't sure of "our compatibility". But fudging stole my heart before that even happened, without my awareness, what a fudge.

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Insufficient nutrition in light of workload, that's the current suspect. Okay, taking it easy today, and will try to recoup diet before continuing work. Think I'll supplement tonight with pizza, easy straightforward way to add calories.

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So pretended being this rodger elliot guy, and started reciting his tagline "I'm the supreme gentlemen, here to punish all of you", and I started laughing so hard. Telling me, that's a lie. Just like when I called Amanda a loser and started laughing; yeah, that's a lie, too.

 

[Dauntless]

https://www.cnn.com/travel/article/turkey-castle-ghost-town/index.html

 

[Dauntless]

https://www.cnn.com/2019/01/25/business/accenture-julie-sweet-davos/index.html

https://www.cnn.com/2019/01/24/business/most-expensive-home-in-the-us-sells-for-238-million-trnd/index.html

 

[swbluto]

Okay, so, took a 1.5 hour nap at 8 p.m.-9:20, and had a dream. Rode a motorcycle upto this place where this girl was, told her to "hop on", and she did, and I asked her as I drove off, "So where are we going?" while she grinned silently.

So that was the dream.

 

[Dauntless]

That's not a dream, that's a Honda commercial. Before that it was a common fantasy guys had while AWAKE. You have to go to sleep to think that? You're waking thoughts are ALL THAT incel?

Amazing how you and Bill have found one another. Here I hadn't even thought about it, but you really are about the two most long chain incoherent posters here. Anyone else all that bad can't spit the sheer volume of text you to can. Together at last.

But, as I predicted, now that he no longer has rumme or Drkangel, Bill had to go sniffing around. Wonder what the rest of the hoarde will find to do. . . .

 

[swbluto]

I don't think I have waking thoughts like that, lol. Unless, I'm thinking of someone in particular, even then, fairly simple thoughts compared to my dreams.

[youtube]dTQMd2I3drE[/youtube]

Yeah, this song totally understands how it works.

"I need your green light, day or night, say that you're mine".

I swear that was the entire interaction with that gal, just a bunch of green lights, masked with sarcasm and in hints. I didn't make the connection until I started getting red lights after getting taken and noticing the affect, and soon realized must have been because of all those green lights.

Thought maybe you'd have philosophical discussions or meaningful discussions about life and the universe and everything... nope... nothing like that. I think her range of discussion agendas was very limited.

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Went to sleep some past 1ish a.m., woke up at 3:52 a.m. ; Roughly 3 hours of sleep fits recent patterns. Then fall alseep about 3 hours later, getting last time another 5 hours. Reassuringly, did not feel my heart going to sleep tonight.

Eating the pizza had no obvious ill effects. I did pair with wine. Au contraire, seemed to cure this urgent hunger that my body was urging me to cure.

Circulation seemed impeded at 12:10 a.m., similar to recent nights. (Since transporting all that gravel, "Straining the heart", so the sensation felt.) Hoping I really don't have something like heart failure, just a simple caloric deficit. Hoping I can transport all this concrete without a single disconcerting "heart sensation" issue the following night or during the day.

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Went to sleep at 5:50 a.m., and woke at 7:54 a.m.

Damn dog kept barking while I was falling asleep. Barking directly at my window, grrr. The new design addresses this with bedrooms on the back side.

Woke and not too long after, felt this sickening pain happen inside my chest and felt like a brief loss of breath, but could've been gastro. Burped not long after getting up.

Repeating sharp left pains in the shoulder present this morning. Circulation appears to be better in the morning than late evening.

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https://www.yahoo.com/finance/news/facebook-engineers-went-without-shoes-201740776.html

The crux of the debate came down to: engineers build the product, but the salespeople keep the lights on.

Despite the battle of words, none of the former employees recall the company implementing any changes to the policy regarding shoes.

I'm definitely more of an engineer than a salesperson. But, I do win in both categories, just that... I don't really like interfacing with customers. Have to make it a daily habit to ensure it getting done.

Sales & Marketing is definitely very important; it's where the majority of "The upside" exists.

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https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jama/article-abstract/258894

Heart strain

Recently the Kahns1 have emphasized anew that the circulation and the heart can stand strain without harm if the person has been trained to gradually increasing labor or athletic work. But the heart must rest for a considerable period after such exertion before the exertion is renewed, even when the person has been trained to violent effort, else cardiac strain will occur. If the strain is too frequently repeated or too prolonged, even in a trained athlete, feats of strength and endurance will cause respiratory and circulatory injury.

Oh, so I guess maybe it's a normal phenomena? Effectively carrying 60 pound bags of gravel half a mile (2800 feet), would cause most anyone "circulatory injury"?

I noticed that most anyone using the term "Strained heart" in the sense I'm using it tends to be papers originating before the 1930s. This one was 1928.

Think I'll take it light today. Maybe transport 1000 lbs of concrete today, so 60 blocks, just for benchmarking. I have a total of 200 blocks I need to transport.

 

[Dauntless]

This must be how they're gettin' to ya.

https://www.cnn.com/videos/us/2019/01/24/lavandera-border-tunnel-drug-ebof-vpx.cnn

 

[swbluto]

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Get the impression they get a travel visa and simply drive over the border, and move in with existing family in the area. Overstay the visa. I get the impression that's how this one local got here and stayed here. But, then again, they do take holiday trips to and from mexico, it'd be hard to pull that off with an expired travel visa. They definitely act like they grew up in Mexico; sounds like it and doesn't have awareness of VERY BASIC american concepts. Like "The stock market".

Anyway, happy to report no obvious heart sensation issues transporting 60x 17 pound blocks yesterday, after starting off the day with a 1450 calorie tombstone pizza. No obvious "heart strain" sensation during the day and no obvious heart sensations while falling asleep. Slept from 11 a.m. to 5:20 p.m., which seems like an unusually healthy sleep pattern (Compared to recent days).

The internet was out from 10 a.m. to 7 p.m., so I spent the day pretty much hanging out with the dog, lol.

Within the 4 hour time window after eating the tombstone pizza, however, during occassions of stress, I did feel fleeting left shoulder pains. Occassions of stress like going behind my property onto someone elses to find my lost arrow. That area "seems dangerous" because that's where the neighbor shooter lurks at times. Luckily, I think that riffraff is soon moving away, tata! lol.

Wonder what kind of demographic would be moving in next. I suspect it's not as easy for the average mexican to get a $200k mortgage like it was in 2007, when they purchased.

After they move out, the entire street will be NOT mexican. With the sole exception of myself, it'll be white social security pensioners, pretty much. And, I'm the only person on this street building conventional wood houses. Given the age (↓) and the quality of my property(⇈), I'm obviously cut from a different cloth, a better one. lol

I do understand that they're probably over the "impressing a girl with your possessions" stage of their life, lol.

And, well, gee shucks, can't ignore I do think of things like "resale value" and "sellability". I consider myself "investing" as opposed to "just building a place to live".

I deduced conventional homes in this particular area tend to go for $75-90/sqft. (Listed price trends, anyway)

$100/sqft in Tomball, and $120/sqft in The Woodlands.

The unconventional homes, ones that have been mangled together with no uniform design go for $35/sqft., and even those haven't sold yet after being up for 300+ days.

Zillow is telling me that a 400 sqft. home in this area could rent out for $1000/month. Not sure if I believe it, but... hmmm... if it's close to that, I might want to consider finishing this one off and attempting it.

https://www.fool.com/investing/2016/08/10/do-you-need-financial-therapy.aspx

net worth = self worth tends to be seen in children from lower income households

HAHA, my family is definitely not a lower income household.

Financial therapy. Interesting concept, explores the psychological underpinnings of spending habits and behaviors and potentially addresses and mollifies issues people may have.

So, like a financial psychologist.

So, interesting explanation as to the hoes being melancholic spenders. Spending is a mood boost against the low mood. Just like the excitement of lust.

I thought it was more due to them being impulsive by nature, tending to give into their sexual and spending impulses. And, many times, DEFINITELY giving into their impulses, not just tending, lol. But as compensation for melancholy, that's an interesting concept.

 

[swbluto]

The Greatest Day in Stock Market history could mean big gains. Are you ready? This trend investor correctly predicted the rental property boom, the legal marijuana trend and the blockchain explosion. Now, he's predicting Feb 4, 2019 will be the Greatest Day in Stock Market History.

When the first of the earning reports from fourth quarter 2018 come out, predicted to miss highly inflated expectations (Due to the 20% corporate tax windfall, applying in 2019.).

Should I take a triple short position on SQQQ? Or triple long on QQQ?

https://secure.caseyresearch.com/?cid=MKT385308&eid=MKT395506&assetId=AST95179&page=1

Supreme Court Order 16-476

Hmmm... okay... what is this court order exactly...

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murphy_v._National_Collegiate_Athletic_Association#Reception

With the Court finding in favor of New Jersey, observers believe its ruling will impact other current federal laws in place that could be considered to have commandeered power from the states and other challenges related to the Tenth Amendment, such as gun ownership rights, immigration enforcement (eg. penalizing sanctuary cities), and the legalization of marijuana under state law.

Oh, interesting, marijuana companies are no doubt the intended recipient of this "Windfall".
asey research LLC seems to average at finding opportunities that create a 2x increase in stock prices. They post the highest %'s first (1100%), but then a long line of 200-300% results follow after.

On May 14, 2018, the Court reversed lower court findings, favoring New Jersey in deciding that PASPA violated the anticommandeering principle by a 7–2 vote, and declared the entirelaw unconstitutional by a 6–3 vote.

So you'd expect this law starting to affecting companies in Q3 and Q4 2018. I guess definitely in Q4, given the time for companies o ramp up, combined with the 2019 tax laws.

Seems that the video is suggesting "sports betting" companies are poised to profit, amid the 10 states that allow sports betting, and 30 that seem to be following in the next 5 years or so.

What I would do if I were to do anything, is find all the companies, and invest in the top 2 or 3.

Suggests that the SuperBowl now legalized sports betting coming up in 2019, will bring in massive profits. Feb 4, the monday after the superbowl.

Okay, then, find out their betting vendors. "3 specific companies" they suggest.

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Ok, this morning's concupiscence was rather high. And, so hungry, didn't seem like 1 banana and 800 pizza calories really took care of it properly. Palpitations all this morning, even after taking the cocoa, seems like it corresponded with that hunger. Triggered by certain thoughts and onset of physical exertion after a period of rest. Today, I'm trying the 2/3 pizza for breakfast, and 1/3 for lunch approach. Thinking it might keep down the blood sugar spike I suspect causing the fleeting left sharp shoulder pains. So far, haven't had shoulder pains.

Hunger might have been deepened by the "high exertion" yesterday, and presumably not just the fact I ate a pizza in the morning. Think maybe I should eat more in the evening, post exertion? Probably had 2 bananas in the evening yesterday.

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[youtube]m7Bc3pLyij0[/youtube]

I think he wants his loved one to be happier, and it seems that means he'll have to leave?

FUNNY, almost seems like that's what unintentionally happened with the Amanda girl. Forced to withdraw due to change of plans, and looked like she was pretty happy about that. At the time I was hurting, I suspected "She was trying to deceive me, maximize the hurt", but think maybe she was genuinely happy about that happening.

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This idea of "retiring early". Hmmm....?

By many standards, I'm pretty much already in a position where I could "plausibly retire" like the other social security pensioners around me, but am I doing that? OH HELL NO. I want that roman villa! lol

I'm just getting started, after getting the new place built, I'll be in a position where I can reinvest and expand with suitable floorspace at my disposal. By suitable, I mean protected from weather, casual theft and mosquitos.

The idea of "retiring early" doesn't seem to match this 40 year plan I have. I've already had enough occasion to know what "retirement" feels like, and I don't want anything to do with it!! lol. Having nothing to do isn't that exciting, dude, lol.

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When Wolfinger broke down those stats based on the number of sex partners respondents had before they got married, things got interesting—and a little murky. For example, Americans who were virgins when they got married were most likely to report being in a “very happy” marriage; by gender, that broke down to 65 percent of women and 71 percent of men. That percentage of women content with their relationship changed as the number of partners went up, but not as you’d expect: While 52 percent of women who had 6 to 10 sexual partners before they got married said they were very happy, 59 percent of women who had 11 to 20 partners also rated their marital happiness pretty high.

In other words, instead of marital happiness decreasing as the number of a person’s exes increased, the percentage of people happy in their marriages actually grew, too.

Partly why I have reservations about marrying a presumably promiscuous lady. The other reservations being 1) She'll cheat on my ass and 2) "Highschool whores" have a VERY HIGH divorce rate. The two facts are probably connected. Cheating causing divorce.

Women who are virgins have a much higher chance of not divorcing their husbands. Men should try to find women with as few sexual partners as possible.

It's funny about the Amanda girl, I was actually more interested in her when I came to infer she slept with her baes. No "very strong" marital sense in choosing her, I would now think, lol.

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Women who've been around the block are often quite manipulative. That's WHY they were going around the block. Trading one thing for another, going to the highest bidder. It's all economics. No biggie.

That was my insight into the Amanda girl. Manipulative. Manipulating guys with her risque photos and provocative poses, first thought, she's looking for something. What are they looking for normally...

She definitely was looking for housing.

But my dreams have told me she was also looking for money to spend...

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[youtube]0GoGcVs6pbU[/youtube]

Your body's poetry speaks to me, move your body.

I'm pretty sure she's telling him to dance. And by "let me be your rhythm tonight", I'm pretty sure she's talking about having corporeal fun. Funny enough, when seducing the heb chick, I was moving my body left and right in a repetitive wavy way, in a "playful manner", and I suspect that maybe it was to convey my "body's poetry". Though, I do have suspicions as to how poetic it really is, lol. Maybe "how poetic it is" doesn't really matter, just that it matches her poetry...

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Moved about 96 blocks today. 1672 pounds about 100 feet each. 96 * 100 feet = 9600 feet = 1.8 miles. Yep, all that walking, too.

Pecs feel pretty solid.

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Seems like the "wunderkids" making fantastic money were midwest kids who did comp sci, got out in 4 years, and worked in the field at 22-23 and quickly advanced.

NOT SPOKANE KIDS, lol. Comp sci jobs back in 2010 didn't exist in spokane, but they sure seemed to in the midwest including houston. I've seen two "midwest kids" that followed exactly this career/wealth path. One in columbus, ohio and Houston, texas. Both them found their comp sci jobs in 2010 and 2011.

The ones who did get comp sci jobs applied for jobs in Seattle and moved to Seattle for them. People with no money, like me, couldn't just afford to go to job interviews across the state and rent an apartment while waiting for the first paycheck...\

Military was the best way out. No startup capital necessary to establish a career.

And need to build this place quickly. Competition is heating up with the international turmoil, so need to reinvest and expand quickly.

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Looks like I'm the dominant one between me and the guy going down the road. He quickly averted his look. I wasn't trying to dominate anyone, I just wanted to see who it was.
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Women who have had a lot of sexual partners end up having trouble pair bonding and get divorced much more often.

My Reply

I think it's more likely that girls with lots of sexual partners probably have issues with pair bonding in the first place. The frequent presence of bisexualism in families where aspergers/autism tends to run is interesting.

It's interesting to speculate I lay somewhere in the direction of PDD-NOS and find this whore girl Amanda so interesting, and her brother seems to be some kind of nerd. I think maybe it has a lot to do with the overlap between "bisexual personalities" and "autism", high concinnity.

Granted, that's pure speculation. (My pdd-nos and her whoriness; her promiscuity is not that speculative.)

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SO THIS TIME... I said I would level the corners with each other first. This was to ensure the floor is level.

But how exactly do I level the corners with each other if the opposing corners are like 35 feet away?

Couldn't find info online, think if I have to, I'll peruse the store aisles (particularly, "The surveying area") and "try to figure it out".

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7:07 p.m., even after eating 3 chicken drums and nuts and 3 bananas, I still feel hungry. What the heck...

I bet this feeling is why I wake up so dang hungry. And, bet it's because of all that wheat in the pizza. Increasing gastro hole size, increasing absorption rates and promoting hunger.

Could be because of all that work. Don't remember really being hungry the following morning after eating the first pizza, and I rested the first day. It was the morning following the block moving, when I was real hungry (This morning).

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https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/sexual-past-impact-marital-future-230000884.html

I`ve never paid any attention to any marriage studies. In June of 1970 I was 17 years old and working from eleven at night till seven in the morning pumping gas. Yep, it was back in the day when people would pull up to the pump and the attendant would pump the gas, check the oil, and clean the windshield. One night at around 1:00am the phone rang and when I answered a girl asked to speak to some guy. I said that this is a gas station and that nobody by that name works here. The girl then said " I`m just kidding, a friend of mine is spending the night and we`re just making prank phone calls. After a couple of minuets I asked if I could speak to her friend. Her friend and I will have been married 47 years on march the 10th. We have four daughters and 16 grandchildren. Sadly the girl that made that call died this past week and my wife and I attended her service yesterday.

Find it interesting that he found "his love" at 1 a.m. in the morning. It's not hard to imagine that thoughts tend to be turned sexual at that particular hour, so methinks that had a lot to do with the broaching of marriage in his particular generational context.

I did call Amanda a loser at 11:30 p.m., didn't I... (Which she saw about 2 minutes after I sent it, I can tell, because I got a visit to my page which FB let me know of...)

And then she soon followed up with that particular kind of smile and her leg kicked "Way back".

I wonder if her boyfriend could decipher her body language like I could...

https://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/science/science-news/6709373/How-to-tell-if-a-woman-fancies-you-look-at-her-feet.html

A man only has to look at a woman’s feet to tell if she is head over heels in love with him, according to a study.

Attraction: a woman shows she is attracted to a man by moving her feet away from her body, to adopt a more open-legged stance, when laughing.

 

[Dauntless]

But my dreams have told me she was also looking for money to spend...

Most guys do not need a dream to figure that one out.

I did call Amanda a loser at 11:30 p.m., didn't I... (Which she saw about 2 minutes after I sent it, I can tell, because I got a visit to my page which FB let me know of...)

And then she soon followed up with that particular kind of smile and her leg kicked "Way back".

I wonder if her boyfriend could decipher her body language like I could...

Nah, he can only go by what he actually sees, unlike someone who sends a message online and imagines what's going on at the other end.

So you've been talking about digging, maybe you've learned something.

I'm trying to dig a 3 foot deep hole. I figure the cleanout at my house goes down 2 feet, then the slope toward the street rises about a foot to where I'm digging. So I need to get 3 feet to find the sewer main and clear away the roots and stop calling RotoRooter.

The ground actually gets softer once I crack the hard shell surface of the first foot. But I thought I was going to dig almost straight down, which is getting harder and harder to do. So do I need an increasingly wide hole? It's currently 2' wide and 5' feet long over the spanse of the main. I keep it aligned with a crack on the sidewalk so when I face that way the main should be offset several inches to the left and I won't actually hit the main, I should see the roots build up.

But I'm 3 feet down and no root mass, no sigh of the main. And reaching down in with the shovel has become near impossible, even with me digging out a 'Step' on one side that's another foot down from the surface. Does the hole need to be conical?

Do I need a 5' radius at the surface or the like? You don't suppose the main is sloped downward and maybe a foot or to more to go, do you?

 

[swbluto]

But my dreams have told me she was also looking for money to spend...

Most guys do not need a dream to figure that one out.

I did call Amanda a loser at 11:30 p.m., didn't I... (Which she saw about 2 minutes after I sent it, I can tell, because I got a visit to my page which FB let me know of...)

And then she soon followed up with that particular kind of smile and her leg kicked "Way back".

I wonder if her boyfriend could decipher her body language like I could...

Nah, he can only go by what he actually sees, unlike someone who sends a message online and imagines what's going on at the other end.

So you've been talking about digging, maybe you've learned something.

I'm trying to dig a 3 foot deep hole. I figure the cleanout at my house goes down 2 feet, then the slope toward the street rises about a foot to where I'm digging. So I need to get 3 feet to find the sewer main and clear away the roots and stop calling RotoRooter.

The ground actually gets softer once I crack the hard shell surface of the first foot. But I thought I was going to dig almost straight down, which is getting harder and harder to do. So do I need an increasingly wide hole? It's currently 2' wide and 5' feet long over the spanse of the main. I keep it aligned with a crack on the sidewalk so when I face that way the main should be offset several inches to the left and I won't actually hit the main, I should see the roots build up.

But I'm 3 feet down and no root mass, no sigh of the main. And reaching down in with the shovel has become near impossible, even with me digging out a 'Step' on one side that's another foot down from the surface. Does the hole need to be conical?

Do I need a 5' radius at the surface or the like? You don't suppose the main is sloped downward and maybe a foot or to more to go, do you?

Oh yes, using the shovel, my "really deep" holes have definitely been quite large. Just so I can get the full range of motion necessary with the shovel to dig any deeper than 2-3'. I'd guesstimate 3-4 foot diameter on average. In this area, the clay layer becomes apparent at 3', and it's harder than hell to shovel up. I'm convinced you need to use a pick axe (or pulaski axe) to loosen the clay up for removal. But I think the auger can be skillfully used here, though I've yet to prove it.

My hand auger can go to any depth, but the hole is the size of the auger, about 7". Might not be suitable for your application.

 

[swbluto]

Went to bed at 11:30, woke at 5:20. Had a brief awaking during the middle, probably 30min to an hour.

Did not wake up really hungry this morning, unlike yesterday. (The day before, moved 1000 pounds of concrete 100 feet)

Yesterday's diet.

Breakfast: 2/3 frozen pizza + 2 bananas = 140g + 60g = 200g
Lunch: 1/3 frozen pizza + banana + 2 chicken tacos = 80g +30g+60g = 170g
Dinner: 3 chicken drums + 3 bananas = 90g

So, looks like I consumed about 460 grams of carbs yesterday, and that last banana of the day definitely felt like I needed it. And, my heart seemed to be fine at night, no unsettling sensations, despite moving 1672 pounds of concrete by hand. (I did take a 2 hour break after the first 1000 pounds, head pressure, manifesting in the ears.)

I'd estimate I normally consume about 100g + 200g = 300g carbs a day. Recently, I'm guessing it's been closer to 120g-150g carbs (60g potato and 90g banana), that's when my heart was not taking the heavy labor too well. But at 300g to 450g, seems like it's not really having too much issue.

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Dream told me she uses guys to fund her heroin addiction.

Somehow I find that dubious, but if I ever meet, I think I'm going to demand seeing the underside of her arms. lol

he doesn't have the "druggie eyes" (heavy bags under the eyes), and she seems a little classier than the kind I normally see around here, so not an immediate suspicion. But "The hoe indicators", it's a flag.

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Getting excited to be doing the "market games" at full scale. I don't know how much I can make, but something tells me I can probably boost my monthly a bit with sustained effort.

I think if I get the monthly above certain goals, I'll go ahead and get the water connection. I won't apply for septic until I'm certain I could afford aerobic. Don't want to apply and find out, "whops, can't afford it", then being on their radar as not having septic and fines following... lol

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Okay, went to home-depot and looked there because they have a much greater selection for products than the local hardware store, and found what I needed: A self-leveling leveling laser. Pretty self-expanatory, but set at a height, and it'll level the laser itself so that it's guaranteed to be perfectly horizontal, so just sweep in all directions at the desired height, and get leveled blocks. At least it sounds that easy...

I got the tripod from walmart, because it was $30 there instead of $100 at home-depot. I ensured that the screw mount would fit prior to purchase, and it did.

I also got a haircut! Just to make sure my hair doesn't get in my face all the time like it normally does, lol. PITA when working.

People said "Great Clips" was cheap, and my my, CHEAP MY ASS! $15 for an haircut, WOW! Thankfully, this is one of those "once every year" kind of items for me, so no biggie.

They did what I couldn't do (easily): thin my hair. Felt like that was needed after two years of not having a "proper cut".

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9 days since last posting. Seems like she usually goes 3 days. Wonder if the boyfriend figured it out... :lol:

I'm not that evil, am I?

Evil doesn't mean "getting what you want", does it? lol.

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https://www.drugfreeworld.org/drugfacts/heroin/i-ll-just-try-it-once.html

Many people experiment with heroin thinking, “I’ll try it once or twice. I can always stop.” But those who start down that road find it nearly impossible to turn back. Consider the words of Sam, a 15-year-old addict: “When you first shoot up, you will most likely puke and feel repelled, but soon you’ll try it again. It will cling to you like an obsessed lover. The rush of the hit and the way you’ll want more, as if you were being deprived of air—that’s how it will trap you.”

DAMN. I'll take the heroin possibility a little bit more seriously. She seems impulsive and has a little bit of dysthmia, so she might very well be the type that "tried it once".

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After yesterday's work and diet, I've noticed that today: WOAH, I FEEL ALIVE TODAY! lol.

It generally seems reassuring to "feel alive". Seems like more often than not, moribund periods tend to be the onset of something a bit more serious.

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To that guy's story, saying he found his wife with the 1 a.m. gas station prank calling, I replied "True, love is found after midnight", and I have 5 thumbs up! Apparently others' experiences corroborate that fact.

Funny enough, so does murder. Many times, around 3-4 a.m, sometimes midnight if scheduled.

Sex and murder, the post-midnight topics.

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Went back to HD and got a "surface level" for quickly leveling the surface of the starting block, and just done with leveling my first corner. Now just need to level the three other corners and all the intersections between the 4x6s. All the other block stacks are merely supporting the 4x6s at that point, requiring no specific need to level, merely getting to "about the right height".

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Ended the day at sundown with 3 completed leveled block stacks. Think I might want to get 7/16 treated something or another, for creating shims to get the proper height on the blocks. Would like to find something that won't swell with rain. Hope the local hardware store has something.

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Wonder why it feels like I'm sitting back and someone is lounging across my chest, while I'm posting to facebook. I think it's just my imagination, right...

Just like when I was walking around and felt like some women was wrapped around my body. That's clearly my imagination, I haven't seen that anywhere.

WELL, ACTUALLY.... remelisa did do that to me once...

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Found this while googling "dreaming of you", because I seem to be dreaming of this Amanda girl a bit, in much more rapid succession than the heb chick dreams were. (Probably because I'm building a house, seems like working outside leads to dreams)

the saddest part when she says she will be dreaming with him for now and all of her life and endlessly murdered at 23. just sad AF

Than that would make the lyrics factually true, then. Because, I do believe she would stop dreaming about him after a couple of years. I know I haven't had an HEB chick dream for at least a couple months.

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Interesting how my dreams have told me "She uses people". Looked into it...

https://www.wikihow.com/Tell-if-a-Girl-Is-Using-You

See if she's commitment-phobic. If she's always trying to keep her options open, rather than committing to plans with you, she could be just wanting to play the field. However, she also could just be stringing you along.

Yes, I noticed the Amanda girl never changes her relationship status, despite being in one and having ample opportunity to do so.

My thoughts are, keeping her options open. If she's a career rent hoe, dependent on relationships for residence, that could be for good practical reasons.

Watch how she introduces you. If she's proud to be in the relationship, she'll be happy to call you her boyfriend. However, if she doesn't want to acknowledge you publicly, she may be using you, especially if you've talked about being exclusive in private.

Look for when she disappears. That is, does she suddenly drop off the map if you're low on cash?

LOL.

In light of her dream implied spendthrift nature, it'd be ironic if they're spending all your dough is ultimately why they leave. But suspect that's a fairly common reality.


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Woke up at 3:52 a.m. (Fell asleep at 11:30), and feeling really hungry, so had 2 bananas, a few nuts and a little bit of cheese and a little wine, and a headache soon ensued. I went to go drink some water, despite not feeling thirsty, and the headache somewhat subsided, about 70% less severe.

I'm careful of eating too many bananas at this hour, because they can cause heart issues (fatigue and shortness of breath). I thought 2 bananas was risky as it was, but justified with the hunger.

I need to be more diligent in creating a "good ending meal". Something tells me I can improve a banana dinner, lol. Suspect the banana dinner tends to lead to bloodsugar crashes during sleep.

Think maybe some kind of starch (potato), meat and vegetables might be better.

https://www.health.harvard.edu/diseases-and-conditions/what-causes-red-wine-headaches

Red wine headaches. Hmmm, maybe that's the culprit. I never have "Red wine headaches" during the day, apparently only at 4 a.m.

 

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Well, while engaging in certain activity, noticed an ache in my chest. While my pec muscles did appear sore, it did strike me there was a fairly high likelihood of some kind of subgrade angina may have been present. So stopped that activity. Calmed the anxiety, headache appeared to diminish a little, and went to sleep.

(Given the seeming duration, it wouldn't seem difficult to classify it as a subgrade heart attack. But not sure that really makes sense.)

Slept from 5-7:30. Subgrade headache still present as of 8:18 a.m., but no obvious symptoms beyond that. Woken up by the heater, I think.
You think I'd learn by now about those bananas, lol.

Anwyay, so figured out that 200g carbs is present in 1200g potatos. Think maybe that's the diet I'll try today.

Seems odd, you'd think a higher % of the potato would be carbs? Especially since fiber is almost picayune.

Makes you wonder what the other 1000g of potatos is, exactly.

The "direct heart symptoms" seemed to have picked up since including the pizza, but not directly after eating it. If it'd have any involvement, it'd appear delayed and indirect. Actually, it'd seem like bananas are the most culpable since it tends to happen within an hour of eating it at 4 a.m., and various other episodes during the day involving bananas.

OF COURSE... the pizza intake increased precisely because of the strained heart following the gravel bag moving. So might be more accurate to say it's picked up since moving the gravel bags and straining the heart.

There was one time about a week ago, before the heart strain (I think), where I was jumping up and down to music at 5 a.m. (Woke at 3 a.m.), and nausea (In the neck? In the chest?) hit for about 5 seconds, and that went away and then I fell asleep.

As to the social happenings yesterday, seem to have recently acquired this thinking that "she's mine". Which wouldn't seem true on the surface. Just an inference into clues. That may play a role, being affairs of the heart. The emotions present when she was last mine, seem to have returned in almost complete force. The indifference while previously looking at her has turned into bubbly crush excitement, and there have been other recognizable physiological responses.

Regardless, no facebook past 6 p.m.; Whatever I intend to type up on there at night, I'll put it here, and post in the morning.

It seems odd thinking I'm think this strapping young healthy lad (That's the way it feels like thru the day), while it ... kind of seems ... like the grim reaper is knocking at my door at certain times. It's an amusing irony, even if I recognize there's no natural irony in it.

Did I figure out how to reliably get a full night's sleep, yet? I thought I did. I may want to do that going forward. Now what was it...

It's fair to speculate, that something psychosocial on my part might be leading to these problems. Then again, diet is suspect. Because, there's a lot of people around me in this area that have grown fairly old, so don't think it has anything to do with "where I live", don't think anyways. Don't like thinking there's something wrong with me, but hard to ignore seemingly very premature vascular phenomena.

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9:30 a.m., feel somewhat hungry. Subgrade headache. Blood sugar is at 108 m/dl. Not surprising since I ate two bananas about 5 hours ago. upper body feels lightly uncomfortable walking around, but not sure if I should be concerned, could be normal "Hungry as hell" phenomena.

Early morning blood sugars can be disregarded due to stress and whatnot. They don't seem to be an accurate indicator of "need for food".

After eating a quarter can of fish and two small potatos, headache seems largely gone and I'm still hungry.

Just ate 3 and still hungry. Headache is definitely gone.

Just downed 4. Still hungry.

Just downed 5. ran out of cooked potatos. waiting for the other 3 larges to complete. still hungry.

https://www.indiatoday.in/lifestyle/wellness/story/hunger-headaches-starvation-karva-chauth-indian-festivals-lifest-347174-2016-10-18

1. It's no secret that good nutrition is important to avoid headaches. The idea is to have the kind of food in the morning that will sustain you through the day. The answer is protein-rich foods (like pulses, nuts and yogurt), which often take longer to digest, and hence delay hunger pangs.

2. Another way to get through the day is by eating complex carbohydrates in the morning. Complex carbs sustain the level of blood sugar for a longer time. So, load up on cereals, fruits, rice and wholesome breads in your meals, according to Renegade Health.

3. One major cause for headaches is dehydration; so drink as much water as you can before the fast begins. Dr Ebrahim Elimam, consultant for diabetes, endocrinology and internal medicine at HealthPlus Diabetes and Endocrinology Centre, Abu Dhabi, told Gulf News, "One of the most useful safeguards against these headaches is to drink enough water and fluid when not fasting. When the brain detects that the water supply is too low, it produces histamines (compounds released by cells that cause contraction of smooth muscle and dilation of capillaries) to ration and conserve water in case the water shortage continues for a long time. These histamines directly cause pain and fatigue, which is experienced as a headache and lowered levels of energy."

4. Those sugar-coated matthis you get for sargi? Yeah, they're a big NO-NO. But that's okay, you're not the only one making this mistake. Most people make the mistake of eating a sugar-heavy meal early morning, thinking that sugar will sustained them through the day. Instead, suggests Dr Elimam, the sugar is released into the blood too quickly, leaving the body feeling tired when the blood sugar level drops rapidly.

Think that's definitely it, will eat enough protein and vegetables at night.

Just downed 6, estimate I've consumed about 140 grams carbs. Seems like I'm just "getting full". Maybe I should have one more. Will check in 10 minutes.

Think I should add greek yogurt to my breakfast. In addition to nuts and complex starches.

https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/12-best-foods-to-eat-in-morning#section13

Think tomorrow, I'll try.

greek yogurt, nuts, fish, 2 starches, 1 fruit. For breakfast (90 gram carb)

And then the rest of the meals, maybe 1 starch, 1 fruit, vegetables and a protein. Greek yogurt, fish, chicken. Think I'll buy raw vegetables instead of frozen ones. Seems like they're competing a bit much for the oven.

Hoping that'll get me to my recommended daily caloric intake, while keeping appetite under control. Seems like appetite was the big problem this morning.

90+60+60 = 210g carb.

I'm noticing that the high potato consumption definitely aggravated the gum recession. Think maybe the morning appetite would've been set with 1 fruit at the 2 or 3 potato mark. Seems like it still had a liking for a banana and liked the sweetness of wine, despite eating 6 potatos.

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Now 1:58 p.m., still have the subgrade headache. I've been suspecting that anxiety has been responsible for it, but it seems like it's never gone away even when the anxiety seems relieved. Just taking a 10 minute break before continuing the block leveling.

This morning's breakfast seemed to definitely take care of lunch. Not hungry at all for lunch.

Seems like there's periodic hints of nausea.

Seems like I might have underestimated the number of blocks required by a little bit. Oh well, just have to get more when needed.

I estimated the average at 4.5 blocks per stack, might be closer to 5 or 6 in practice.

Many who have migraine headaches often have stomach problems at the same time. In fact, 8 out of every 10 people in the U.S. with these headaches say they get nausea along with them. A migraine is the type of headache most likely to make you nauseated.

Funny to think this is a migraine. Hoping diet balancing will resolve it, does seem unusual it followed 3 days of eating pizza. About the only time I've eaten wheat over the last 4 years.

Not going to assume wheat causes migraines... but it's an interesting possibility given gluten's reputation.

Gluten may be a trigger for migraines in some people. ... Migraines may even be an early symptom of celiac disease in some people, though migraine is considered a rare complication of celiac disease. Gluten can affect the nervous system in people with celiac disease and people with non-celiac gluten intolerance.

mhmmmm... maybe we have a culprit.

Well, looks like I figured out what causes migraines in susceptible people. Wheat's been blamed for lots of things, but this seems rather substantial.

In my case, the other suspect is a little more serious.

So the substantial morning appetite and migraines, all because of wheat, purportedly. I did notice that it's rather easy to go overboard on wheat. It's hard to go overboard with potatos, relatively speaking, because of the sheer volume required to get equivalent carbs, and just the fact it seems ridiculous eating 15 potatos, lol, but not an entire frozen pizza in the morning.

Other suspicion is... wheat withdrawal symptoms?

https://mkfa.info/blog/what-are-gluten-withdrawal-symptoms-and-what-causes-them

Anxiety

Bloating

Headaches

Stomach discomfort

Irritability or anger

Cravings (typically in the early stages of elimination)

Constipation

Hot flashes

Joint Pain

Nausea

Mood Swings

Depression

Brain fog

Dizziness

Diarrhea

Fatigue

Weight gain or loss

Vomiting

The overlap is interesting.

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Ate 6 potatos and 1 banana and some fish and cheese at 9:30 a.m. (I think), did some leveling of blocks outside, now 3:39 p.m. and feeling a little bit hungry. Like, could use a snack hunger.

blood sugar = 106mg/dl

 

[Dauntless]

Overlap? With bad personality?

Maybe you should move to McAllen. Go south to the coast, follow it to Corpus Chirsti, keep going you're almost there. The illegals will pass you by and never think to look for you in McAllen.

https://mcallen.org/business-community/innovation/

 

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Overlap? With bad personality?

Migraine symptoms. And nice seeing the entrepreneurial programs down there.

And, still have the subgrade headache as of 5:32 p.m.

And, almost done leveling the intersection blocks. Two more.

And, looks like I might need 200 more blocks. Will do a refined calculation sometime.

I like how this "oh so treacherous" polar vortex doesn't seem to be causing problems in Houston. Daytime temps in the low 50s, brrr... lol. Not a problem to work in with the subtropical sun. And, now I'm wearing a hoodie, so that changes the game BIG TIME.

Bad personality. Hmmm... interesting concept. Lemme take a guess as to what qualifies a personality as such.

Boring.

Think that's it. The only crime is being boring. You could be a real malicious, greedy and evil person... but as long as you're not boring, that's perfectly OK.

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-subgrade headache nearly all day
-circulation seems low based on unusual difficulty of maintaining form at 7:53 p.m. (Not a normal hour for that to be a problem)

Seems like circulation is low for some reason. Going to test bloodsugar, just ate.

Then blood pressure.

Blood sugar at 7:58; 94mg/dl

WOW, rarely see it below 100mg/dl. Thinking that hearty high carb breakfast must be causing a night-time crash or something.

Unless the greek yogurt, kale or broccoli is causing it to dip or something... Maybe the greek yogurt is "normalizing it"...

But, the crash hypothesis would explain the extreme sleep waking hunger at 4 a.m.

https://www.everydayhealth.com/type-2-diabetes/diet/yogurt-diabetes-one-type-better-than-another/

Some types of yogurt have higher levels of probiotics than others, and those that contain friendly bacteria can help boost your immune system and gastrointestinal health. To make sure you’re getting your fill of gut benefits, look for the words “live and active cultures” on the container, Namolik says. “The friendly bacteria help improve your insulin levels when you have type 2 diabetes, and can help prevent infections, which may be difficult to control when you have type 2 diabetes,”

Isn't that an interesting hypothesis, the friendly bacteria is improving insulin levels and lowering blood sugar levels...

I'm not really hungry either. Not after eating the kale, brocolli, greek yogurt and medium sized potato. I was fairly hungry prior to eating that.

Maybe "greenery + greek yogurt" is some kind of hunger buster. That would be nice, I've been looking for one of those. lol

Seems like it'd be safer than bananas.

https://www.smartnutrition.ca/nutrition-2/9-filling-food-keep-hunger-away/

Greek yogurt is such a filling food because of its protein content. Protein is the top nutrient to choose for satiety. It slows down the emptying of your stomach and suppresses your appetite. The determining feature between regular and Greek yogurt is the protein content.

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Fudging fantastic. The second time I've used my blood pressure reader, it simply won't turn on. Heating up the batteries, maybe they're too cold. Nope, that didn't work.

What I'd be looking for is low blood pressure.

Although hypertension is well known to trigger incident HF, higher SBP in patients with established HF seems to paradoxically have a protective effect on survival. Numerous studies have shown that in populations with HF, high SBP is associated with improved, not adverse, outcomes (14–20) and this holds true for both acute (14–17) and chronic (18,19) HF. A retrospective study examining 2,289 patients from the COPERNICUS (Carvedilol Prospective Randomized Cumulative Survival) trial by Rouleau et al. (21) found that the lower the pretreatment SBP of patients in the cohort is, the higher the risk is of a major clinical event. For each 10-mm Hg decrease in the pretreatment SBP, there was an 18% increase in the risk of death, 11% increase in the combined risk of death or hospitalization for HF, and 9% increase in the combined risk of death or hospitalization for any reason.

Yeah, because higher SBP, indicates a better working heart that can put out higher blood pressure when pumping. So, effectively higher SBP indicates a stronger pumper.

98% and 65-67 BPM resting.

Resting seems higher than normal. It'd normally be at 60 or 61 or less in similar conditions.

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Now 4:38 a.m., went to sleep at 11:20 pm, woke at 4:25 am.

Do not feel extremely hungry, unlike last night. Do not feel hungry at all. Think the greek yogurt is some double plus good food.

Some fleeting left carotid pain at exertion at 4:41 a.m.

The heart sensation at peak seems different than in the past. It seems to thump noticeably harder, as if it's REALLY giving its all or something. Then again, maybe that was just a "yesterday phenomena".

Don't have a headache this morning. Experience seems a little on the not-feeling-so-alive side, but not tired. Not uncommon at this hour.

Resting heart rate is 57-58. There's that low resting heart rate I've known and loved, lol. (Purportedly a sign of good health, heavy emphasis on purportedly, lol.)

Suspect the higher resting yesterday was likely due to blood sugars higher after eating a banana. Granted, maybe there were other temporary phenomena present yesterday, causing the headache.

Intend on taking bloodsugars the next time I'm feeling hungry. Wonder if my "hungry" bloodsugar level has been reset(lowered) by the greek yogurt or something...

“Remember that sometimes not getting what you want is a wonderful stroke of luck.” ― Dalai Lama XIV

What I keep telling myself everytime a hottie escapes my grasp. There's something wrong with them and I got lucky, lol.

Even though my dreams keep telling me this Amanda girl is a bad choice, and there are some things based in reality that might suggest that, I somehow still don't believe it. Don't want to believe, anyway. Suspect negative valuations during bonding were likely due to the fearful attachment style. I think it's a wonderful thing not being attached, because I still love 'em and don't fear them at all. Think we could still be baes, and I likely wouldn't have the erstwhile fears. GRANTED, maybe it tends to be a fear when I have many grand sitting in my account. I did see her as a plausible threat to the housing project, so that's likely the basis for that fear.

That particular source says that "lucky" people are skilled at finding and taking advantage of opportunity. Yep, exactly what I noticed; I'm not lucky because "I have luck", I'm skilled at finding and realizing market opportunity.

I'm not lucky at love because "I have luck", I'm skilled at finding and realizing love opportunities. (That's not true, I'm just seeing if a love analog of that statement seems true.)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PX-KPI9G6iM

I have always been lucky in love. MY SECRET - I make sure SHE GETS LUCKY TOO

Seems about right. Maybe that's why so many girls seem to want me, they know they're going to get lucky. I don't think that's hyperbole, either.

Granted, maybe he's not talking about lustful good fortune.

I have long noticed many girls respond well to seductive aggression.

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5:45 a.m.

116 mg/dl

I'm feeling hungry.

If 4 a.m.-5 a.m. blood sugars are this high, might be why eating too many bananas is bad.

https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/articles/11443-blood-sugar-hidden-causes-of-high-blood-sugar-levels-in-the-morning

Dawn effect and Somogyi effect - why morning time blood sugars tend to be high.

 

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Now 8:50 a.m., Jan 30.

Slept from 6 a.m. to 8:30 a.m.

I have always been lucky in love. MY SECRET - I make sure SHE GETS LUCKY TOO

Wait, I think maybe he's alluding to the O word. Rhymes with spasm.

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https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-freedom-change/201505/come-here-go-away-the-dynamics-fearful-attachment

But several months later, when your romantic partner throws his or her arms around you and tells you that they love you, you experience a flood of anxiety and a sense of impending doom. You try to act happy, because you know that is how a "normal" person would feel. But you have a hard time hiding your anxiety. You try to fix it by explaining, but this effort only makes you sound off-balance and needy. Across the coming weeks, you feel increasingly squirrelly, start to pick up on signs that your partner is having second thoughts, and get that awful feeling in your gut . . . you know, the one you spend your whole life trying to avoid. As the relationship begins to implode, you just want to scream, "What the heck just happened?!"

What just happened.... I'd say the lust ran its course, and he's quickly realizing how there's no true love present.

start to pick up on signs that your partner is having second thoughts, and get that awful feeling in your gut . . . you know, the one you spend your whole life trying to avoid

HMMMMMMMMMM.... While I suspect this dynamic with the Amanda girl, I'm pretty sure I was wanting to follow thru, just that I couldn't do so in a timely enough manner with her Jan1 moving deadline.

It is interesting this matches my inference she hated me because of "The second thoughts", the not-really-committing because I couldn't really take her in a timely manner.

[youtube]cb9t_MJdK9Q[/youtube]

One who would not regret, to keep me in his net.

That's right, don't have second thoughts with those girlies. (But I think it's fair since I never even met her face to face, to have apprehensions.)

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Look at that body language at 2:03. He feels like she's superior to him, that's bad juju for normal guys. For multimillionaire musical artists, it's probably forgivable, lol.

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Now 11:32 a.m.

Had for breakfast about 10:45 a.m., pink salmon, greek yogurt, large potato, medium sized banana and a tablespoon of cocoa and... FEELING ALIVE NOW! lol.

Not so hungry either. Trying jack lelane's diet, see how it works for me.

Haven't had palpitations, except for that one "really hungry morning", for about a week now. There's high suspicion that the spate of palpitations were due to a stunned heart due to the "traumatic heart break" that occurred on the first. A stunned heart causes a weak heart, and a weak heart is at risk of cardiac arrest. "Dying of a broken heart"

 

[Dauntless]

Overlap? With bad personality?

Lemme take a guess as to what qualifies a personality as such.

Boring.

Think that's it. The only crime is being boring. You could be a real malicious, greedy and evil person... but as long as you're not boring, that's perfectly OK.

Ummm, no, but the boring dietary stuff that followed that would be bad personality, according to you.

Then there's your sex fantasizes about songs. . . .

 

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I don't have biased lyrical interpretations do I? I started suspecting I did when it seemed like too many of the more ambiguous song was about sex, lol.

Had 60 grams carbs for breakfast, 60 grams for lunch. Plus protein and salad. And fat additionally for lunch.

And slept from 3:20-5:30

DOGS!

Slept the day away!

Think I need to up the carb count for breakfast, feels like it needs it. Was feeling kind of wired after this morning's breakfast, like I didn't have enough "comforting carbs".I'll try 90 tomorrow.

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I've been thinking of posting messages to Amanda, declaring my undying love and utmost devotion and admiration, but doing so really as a joke... you know... just being dramatic and all...

But then I think, I might actually see this person, I probably shouldn't say something I might regret. lol

https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/nation/2013/07/20/long-distance-relationships-2013/2568295/

When you're not there with the person every day, you're not seeing their highs and lows, and you're not exposing them to your feelings," Whitbourne says." You can create an ideal image of your significant other which builds intimacy."

This makes sense. If Amanda had seen me initially when meeting her, lol, I have my doubts it would've gone anywhere.

Then there's this popular refrain.

I don't see how that really works out in my case. I build a whole lot more intimacy in face to face interaction, if the heb chick was telling.

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Finished creating the shims from the 4x8 treated plywood and implementing them in the block stacks. Now pretty much need to lay down the floorbeams and assemble them together. I think maybe I'll use truss plates to join together floorbeams along a side. Then perpendicular floorbeams, I think I need to use hefty screws. Maybe a better name for them is "lag screws"?

The laser guide on the ripsaw really came alive between 5-6:20, dusk.

Appears the mexicans moved out today. Didn't see their vehicles and all the window shades were removed. I guess that definitely means they were foreclosed. After doing the floorbeams, and getting the rest of the block stacks up to support them, I'll be siding the house so hopefully it doesn't look too bad to whomever the next buyer might be. I don't wanna invite legal troubles with a higher class buyer that such a property might attract. I have a feeling the kind of buyer in 2019 is probably higher class than the kind of buyer in 2007, income requirements are higher and "real incomes" have generally shifted downward for the bottom 70%.

On the positive side, for a place like Houston, that would indicate a relatively high chance of a fair complexioned neighbor incoming. Not guaranteed, but a relatively high chance. Why this matters... NO SHOOTING IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD. That's why.

Of course... maybe there's no shooting now because no one here now is under the age of 60 (Other than myself).

I don't capriciously shoot, myself. I do so for very specific reasons and in very limited quantities. Literally, I've wasted two bullets in the last 6 months here. all warning shots. Never a "threat" or "anger" shot. Generally, that's my words are for, lol. I don't do that anymore, ok... lol.

Depending on the state, the home foreclosure process takes anywhere from about four months to several years.

Looks like I have some time to get the lap siding done. Probably within a week.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4Qy3uyaLmY

Framing a floor.

Looks like the concrete is affixed to the base with mortar and the floor frame's wood is affixed to the concrete via sill screws. He says they're important; makes sure the house is sitting on the base.

Hmmm....

I wonder if that implies the gravel and 12x12 concrete pads approach is not ideal?

Because they aren't affixed to the ground, they're floating on gravel.

And the house isn't affixed to the concrete pads.

I take it this wouldn't pass code?

Main concern is that, while I don't think it'd normally be a problem....

What if a tree fell on the house? Would it knock the house off the pads? That seems like it'd be an issue.

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Do floors really need blocking? It'd seem like the subfloor sheathing would maintain a fixed width between the floor joists, assuming it was properly fastened to each joist.

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This girl claimed she had no friends, so no problems with ghosts keeping her company. Wondered about this person...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PEeIg4GRYK0

i had created a very long description but i lost it so here I go again. thank you so much for watching my videos, i do appreciate every single one of you however I’m really trying to get the grasp of editing videos hence why the audio quality was bad lol. I’m having to type this quite fast as I have been trying to upload this video to YouTube for quite a few hours

Oh gosh, I absolutely adore her language usage. Sounds absolutely victorian or queens english, if you were to ask I. lol

Damnit, I figured it out. It's because she's british, lol. I initially suspected an American with that language style based on her last name, "maguire".

 

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GAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!

What the hell is going on.

Apparently they're broken up, just one month after dating?

What. What. What.

Oh, shit, I hope I wasn't instrumental there. Because, it'd seem like it would've been "All for nothing".

I'm trying to ignore her because of the inability to take her for another 2 months, and here she is saying "it's over" literally 13 days after calling her a loser. Oh, dude, seriously... that wasn't because of me, was it. Jealousy issues and all.

Looks like she's looking for a job in tacoma to meet this one guy there. Business executive position, in his late 40s or 50s, judging from the grayed hair. (Actually 31)

"Spent her life savings at Urban outfitter" = Spendthrift of money on shoes, clothes and travel.

Let alone not meeting the housing requirements, but she has allowance expectations for her clothes budget?

This girl ain't my sister, is she. lol

My sister shops at .... what's that $5 clothes store called?

She'd be a "man eater", I believe.

That's funny, my dream telling me "I want to find a guy with a lot of money and spend it all". Thinking it might be right on the mark. Now what about the heroin addict dream? lol.

So this is how these gold diggers apply their trade. I was wondering how exactly this happens, "Spending money on women". Apparently they ask you for money, TRYING to make you feel sorry for them. The thing is, I'm sophisticated enough to see "manipulation", so the fake sympathy grab doesn't fool me.

Don't let this picture fool you..I may look all happy but actually just spent my entire life savings at UO in one trip..please send help

And looking at Urban Outfitters page.

Beautiful clothes. We just can’t afford it!! I can buy 10 outfits at Q’s for the price of one of anything on their clearance.

She doesn't shop at just any old clothes store, nope, just the most expensive one.

DAMN. It's funny how my dream of her presaged this witnessing by about 2 weeks beforehand. Holy smoly, I KNEW IT, my dreams actually mean something. Insights into people.

And the heb chick was "beautiful" and was promiscuous. I believe that's what my dreams told me about her.

I don't know if I want to confront her about my ability to take on a gold digger for ... the next year. Yeah, I got money, but no manipulative puppy dog eyed bitch is going to be finagling it from me.

She could be dating another guy, and I don't believe I'd be heart broken by it. I'm wondering if she could ever break make my heart ever again?

GOLD DIGGER definition

a person who dates others purely to extract money from them, in particular a woman who strives to marry a wealthy man.

Yeah, I'm getting that feel.

How did I react to her plea for assistance? Did I offer to help? Nope. "You have some problems and my dream told me about these problems of yours and now they're actually happening. lol"

I'm feeling something in regard to her, but what is it exactly. It's not attraction, it's repulsion, I believe. Like, I don't want to touch her. Almost like I'm running from her. She chasing me?

I contacted her recent boyfriend, seeking a review. I'm wondering if I'm going to find an opportunity to use this meme.

 

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She finally blocked me. Good. Felt like there's no possibility of that going anywhere, complete mismatch of financial habits.

I actually wondered when that was going to happen. I was somewhat puzzled it hadn't happened already, and thought there was a reason for it. Just what was that reason...

So, what was she.

Narcissist, no doubt. Strong sense of entitlement regardless of affordability and belief of infallibility. The motivation behind it was quite true to the story of narcissus,

Narcissus is a figure from Greek mythology who was so impossibly handsome that he fall in love with his own image reflected in a pool of water.

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FUNNY, at about 10 a.m., a yellow helicopter that looked probably civilian, flew directly to my house from the direction of the woodlands and straight back. Literally turned around RIGHT OVER MY HOUSE.

Yeah, that sure was discreet, uh huh. LOLOL

Guess pops wasn't feeling so secure driving upto my house already having been "discovered", as I'm sure his daughter reported back.

As I said, these peeps are harmless. Nothing to fear with them.

So she moved backed in with the parents, and cried to her pops, so pops took his helicopter out to pay a visit. :lol:

Makes you wonder if she was in the helicopter. Wondering what she was hoping to discover, if that.

It's reasonable to guess they're afraid of me. But, I know they have nothing to fear, as far as my intentions go.

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Push comes to shove, I can pay my taxes at the nearest IRS tax office. Appears there's at least 2 in Houston. Now what was the deadline again... lol

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So it was turned in 10-15, that means I have until 2-15 (feb 15) to pay it.

 

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Slept from 10-2, then 5-8:30.

Found that 3 bananas for breakfast keeps me awake thru the afternoon (90grams carbs), while 2 does not seem to (60grams). Think 2 servings carbs is good for lunch. Then 1 for supper. About 180 grams carbs.

Suspect Jack Lelanne's height of 5'6" might explain his need for only 2 servings carbs in the morning. I'm half a foot taller than him.

Then with "high exertion days", supper will likely be more demanding. In my experience, somewhere around 3-4 servings carbs in the evening. 240-270 grams total carbs.

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I'm now into the habit of not eating ANYTHING from 2-5 a.m.; I did make an exception yesterday, 2 tomatos and a little bit of cheese. The taste of the tomatos told I was not hungry for carbs, but the cheese was somewhat appetizing. The fact I was not hungry for carbs would match the idea that eating carb heavy bananas could plausibly cause issues at that sensitive hour. Prior blood sugar testing shows heightened blood sugar between 2-5 a.m. (Think I last measured 116 mg/dl at 5 something, despite not eating anything.)

The barking dog at 5 caused stress making falling asleep more difficult, as well as fleeting left shoulder pains.

Issues I'm hoping to address with the new house with sound proofed rooms in the back. Want to accelerate this project...

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Think I'm going to differentiate between a gold digger and "normal girlfriend" by their expectations.

Normal girlfriend - Splits half the rent, pays her own bills, might get gifts here and there.
Gold digger - Guy pays for all the rent, pays all of her bills, and expects gifts (Especially money gifts) on demand.

This latest girl Amanda, I'm thinking, was a gold digger. The "hoe indicators" I was getting from her should've been telling me that much...

To find out for sure, take her to inexpensive dates, and don't take her to your place or tell her what you do. A gold digger will run if she doesn't smell any money in sight while a genuine girl will stay put.

Exactly right, she sees no money coming in, she going to run (or block your ass).

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So, applying the "Gold digger" dream to this girls' actual actions to show it's highly applicable.

"I want to find a guy with lot of money and spend it all" (Dream)

Amanda's example, she spends of all her money, then requests money from you since you have it. By repeating this process over and over, eventually you run of money and she had effectively "found a guy with a lot of money and spent it all".

So, that dream told the main intention, and Amanda's real life example explained the method.

 

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An October 2017 Government Accountability Office (GAO) analysis found that the median retirement savings for Americans between age 55 and 64 was $107,000. Household savings in all retirement accounts have dramatically increased since their pre-recession levels including among Millennials ($9,000 in 2007 to $36,000 in 2017), Generation X ($32,000 to $71,000), and Baby Boomers ($75,000 to $157,000)

36,000? That's pathetic. I'll have $120,000 in my property by the end of the year. (We'll see... lol. It isn't worth anything until it sells.)