Buying forest land, implementing solar

[swbluto]

lol, especially true for the narcissists. Pretty woman, a huh. lol

https://ca.style.yahoo.com/former-miss-teen-universe-dies-suffering-heart-attack-just-20th-birthday-134151598.html

Man, reading thru the comments of people dying in their 20s of heart attack and this and that... sh1t... that hopefulness my fears are baseless are starting to fade... lol

My only insight was....

-Anorexia is a plausible cause. Cardiac arrest is a common anorexic mortality.

-Possibly deaths of solitude and hopelessness.

The fact someone died a month after getting married in the comments... hmmmmm... hopelessness would be suspect...

It's interesting I was getting distinct stroke-like pains in the right lobe yesterday, just a day after "the day after the day of tragedy". I'm only presuming a clot, could be hemorrhage. Sudden "worst headache of your life" does suggest hemorrhage. It was a more minor version of that, sudden "distinct pain", but not quite worst headache of my life. And I obviously lived thru it.

I wonder if hopelessness makes people cry... maybe that's why I really crying about with the idea of "getting married"... a sense of hopelessness. Now just what type exactly...

I guess thinking I was going to get divorced was making me feel hopeless. But then again, maybe something else.

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Okay, deployed and installed all but one of the trusses (The last one is missing a hurricane tie).

Finishing trusses tomorrow hopefully, then onto the ladders and purlins.

Should get wood to install the eave.

The method of installing the trusses was pretty efficient. After practicing, about 30-40 minutes a truss. First I set up a 2x4 beam between the two gables that passed through the all trusses that were sitting upright against the gables, then slid the trusses one by one down the line to where they needed to be, fixed the truss in the near vertical position by using a squeeze clamp against the beam, then put the two ends one by one into the hurricane ties, centered it, screwed in, then used the makeshift plumbing bob to level the truss and then screwed into the central beam. Done. Very fast compared to what I did before, was to able to install all 13 trusses (except one) before 4:30 p.m. today.

 

[swbluto]

Apparently got lethally threatened by her yesterday, at least it felt like it. Big emphasis on felt like it. Well, that's a pretty big red flag, isn't it.

Think maybe she was reacting to my forgoing marriage for now. She was telling her friends that she was going to be a future wife, and I guess the reality was sinking in for me when the talk started going around... lol

Well, at least I can look forward to starting up the house without any baggage at the start. Getting the new business ventures started before looking again... or possibly renewing that interest.

The other minor item was her implying she had a hundred exes or so. I already deduced she was fairly promiscuous, I was guessing somewhere around 20 or 30... but 100+ would be getting impressive... not that it really matters past 10, LOL.

Unsurprisingly, the risk of divorce among narcissistic people is very high, predominantly because of their inability to see reality when it comes to the balance of relationship roles.

Maybe that's why I was crying so hard at the thought of marriage... the seeming reality of the inevitable divorce...

Not that I would've been the one filing for it. And, I doubt my narc would be the problem, but MORESO theirs, LOL. I'm perfect, after all. LOL

In reality, I tend to work towards resolution where there's problems. Her on the other hand, lol... my way or the highway or I'm OUT OF HERE. lol

I'm obviously the "healthy narcissist" type. The functional kind.

 

[Dauntless]

She who? Someone you have met? Someone you're imagining? Some pitbull with the jaw to back it all up?

 

[swbluto]

So threatening someone is supposed to arouse them, huh. That'd seem to be a BDSM tactic, now doesn't it. I figured that was the actual intention, would reflect their long history of prior intentions. And, that'd seem like a fitting intention a slut would have, creating arousal.

Just... the fact it felt like I was sleeping with a knife to my throat... and didn't sleep well at all... and the feeling was very similar in vein to that okcupid witch who had a homicidal malicious bent to her... and I started to think, this person is dangerous. Funny enough, it'd almost seem like Proverbs 7:1 would describe her person. The only thing I couldn't verify is her "Being loud", but seems like a possibility.

https://biblia.com/bible/nkjv/Pr%207.1-27

So, the descriptor I have is...

sexy pretty narc with bdsm cheating bitch slut leanings. It'd seem like there's an element of being horny/aroused and the narc side reflects the element of "power/control", that is, "controlling men". Most men don't have a problem being controlled into having relations with a pretty girl, so I guess that's probably why it'd seem like she's prolific. Got the heart of a slut, and a pretty face to match. Very plausibly has malice. Possible homicidal and larcenous intentions.

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She looks so heartbroken in her latest picture. And, I must say, I've been somewhat dejected and unmotivated myself. Should I really be comparing her to proverbs 7:1? I do know, when visiting her page today, I do feel a strong bond of some kind, fairly palpable. With a tinge of sadness, but most definitely a connection.

It's interesting I'm readily reading her sentiments from her face, pretty easy to fit into context. Didn't even need to read the tagline, not that it really fit anyway.

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I'm amused by the jekyl and heide-esque transistion between the two prior sections, lol. Think it'd help in real life, seeing their face, probably tend to limit reactions before they "get too severe".

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It's funny thinking my reaction was misplaced ("feeling threatened"), but she very clearly has an implied history of that in her photos and videos. Taunting the camera man with a gun, swinging those weapons with full vigor, there's no shortage of implied threatening behavior in her. So, I'm of the impression it really wasn't misplaced but... I'm giving her the opportunity to amend herself.

I know I do that with my dog sometimes, threaten it. But, NEVER, with anything lethal, and almost never sustained. I stop pretty quickly and pet it affectionately. She goes straight to death symbols and instruments of death, so it appears, and doesn't seem to limit herself in targets.

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Think maybe she's generally abusive. Part of narc paradigm. Got the emotional abuse (cheating, disrespect,etc.) and the physical abuse (physical threats and the ilk). I've been reacting by telling her to stop it, essentially.

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I wonder if this is why I intended on keeping the new house clean all the time. I personally thought it'd be kind of neat using the small one as storage, and the other one as minimalist "perfection", a showcase.

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Woke at 4:10 a.m., symptoms seemed subtle and sketchy. It's often enough like this. Ate a stalk of romaine lettuce and the subtle symptoms seemed to fully abate within 10 minutes. Ate the lettuce, because banana didn't seem appealing (Often enough doesn't seem to be the best choice at this hour), but the lettuce sure did.

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"So, your boyfriend breaks up with you, probably didn’t expect it and now, you’re a mess. I get it, so what are you going to do now? No, don’t text him."

You're a mess, that looks about right. Smeared mascara among teary eyes, and a grim expression.

When your boyfriend breaks up with you, you’re going to turn into a huge stalker. HUGE. Trust me. Every girl does it. Don’t think you’re not one of them. You’ll see him going out and meeting girls and you know what, you’re going to be jealous and pissed off.

The thought is amusing me. How I would've been the one stalking her in the beginning, and now she's the one who'd be stalking me. :lol:

https://www.lovepanky.com/women/girl-talk/your-boyfriend-breaks-up-with-you

Think maybe she went psycho bitch when I was looking at pretty girl ikuraz and mentioned her. I wonder if that's a thing...
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Sure enough, google confirms, jealous psycho girlfriend is a thing, LOL.

I see, threatening behavior is normal for jealous girlfriends, huh. I guess my "feeling threatened" wasn't misplaced, now was it...

Or maybe it's a particular kind of girl and not every girl is like this...

There's the silver lining...

Heck if I know that's really true...

http://emilyraymond.com/2016/02/24/post-title-1/

SIGNS YOUR EX GIRLFRIEND WANTS YOU BACK

Alternatively, she may in fact allude to her heartbreak on social media. Sad songs, quoted lyrics or literature, or simply expressions of sorrow are all clues not only that she’s unhappy, but that she hopes you’re noticing these statuses and feeling the same way. As I’ve mentioned, women who are heartbroken tend to want their ex to make the first move.

Uh huh, and I responded.

 

[swbluto]

Her "wtf" look is making me think I'm just a drama queen. lol

"creating dramas out of nothing"

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Had a nap from 2-4 p.m., and that dream told me "All it takes is one word and it starts with an L".

This would've been a response to her claiming to feeling like an extraterrestial, and one of the comments implying she was an outcast.

Even though for some reason it felt... so appropriate... I just can't bring myself to it. So I just implied it by mentioning the dream, lol.

Then started crying like a crybaby. The same kind of tears I had when it felt like marriage was imminent.

What does oscar wilde's epitaph have to suggest, if anything?

Or maybe I shouldn't be using him for reference.

 

[swbluto]

Did you not regret not having kids? I am asking because I am getting married in a few months and I don't want kids. My SO agreed (and understand my choice) and he assured me that it's okay, and yet somehow I'm still not okay.

WHY THE FUDGE ARE YOU GETTING MARRIED?!! I would never get married if children weren't intended. That'd be basically like resigning myself from the gene pool which... seems like utter defeat. And totally agree, you shouldn't feel OKAY about that.


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Shiiiizzzz....

Trying to attach the ladders to the side of the roof, and was using rope to secure one end so I could pivot the other end onto the rafter platform for fastening, and on the third one I was trying to attach, the rope gave out, and the thing went tumbling straight down on my head, and I have a glorious subgrade headache. LOL

Went to the store and got chain and a "quick link", I'm pretty sure that's not going to just "give out".

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Just took a nap from 4 to 6, and the headache is no longer there, but now I only have an hour to do any work, lol.

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Well got the desired main task done for today, installing the ladders. Intended to complete the fascia too, but midday nap precipitated by the head clubbed headache, took away a couple hours.

The chain and link worked like a charm. No imminent risk of failure, lol.

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I'm not sure if I'm crying because I love her, or because, the heb chick still owns me soul and I'm REALLY missing her. And when thoughts that conflict with that notion, like my claiming to love her, or thoughts like "Getting married" seem pretty serious, is when the tear inducing belonging I have to the heb chick manifests. Or when she tries to seduce me, I'm vehemently rejecting her because the heb chick owns me, not necessarily because my concern for "Don't cheat!". It's an interesting theory, those tears. It'd seem like that might be true because of the alleviation I felt, that carried over to the next day, when I pushed her away after finding an out to marriage, "I didn't get on one knee and ask her", lol.

It's an interesting theory, because the heb chick is nowhere in my /conscious/ thoughts at those times... but yet still... the deep sense of belonging might still be there, deeply embedded in the limbic system. Still, 1 year and 9 months later...

I told her sorry, just shortly before sharply rebuking her and telling her to stay away(!!!!), because I just stole her soul and was trying to destroy the bond for her sake and mine. Didn't necessarily realize that at the time, but it makes perfect sense.

And the tears still flow.

Don't know if I should keep pursuing her or just "ghost her" and stop posting to facebook. The thought does actually amuse me, because it'd be mean.

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Some guy was coughing as he passed by, I muttered under my breath "Shut the fudge up". I felt so proud of myself, not taking the bullshit anymore.

Wait, do people cough when they get stressed...

Psychogenic coughing increases at times of stress and disappears during sleep.

Oh, well, I guess I might be stressing people out unintentionally just walking by, I guess. Heck if I know why that's the case... maybe it's because my size is intimidating. Maybe I'm just intimidating...

It'd be fitting for an intimidating individual to tell them to STFU, lol. Kind of ironic, when my thoughts are "He's insulting me".

 

[swbluto]

I posted to this fb, but it won't let me post.

Installed ladders yesterday, doing sheathing today when weather permits. Ordered the water install this morning. Dreamt walking along and then mentioned a topic of murder (I think), then took my left finger and started biting it, and I started yelping... okay, okay... I'll stop talking about that, I promise!! Didn't really amputate my finger tips, but that might be because I woke up.

Horoscope told me I should find a trusted confidante to confide in, who won't judge me and whatnot. I'm not sure if that's here...

No, I do not believe in the zodiac like it's some kind of religion. I really believe there's some dude just handing out generic personal advice that can be of benefit at times.

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It's interesting thinking of her evil / power tripping facial expression when I first approached her, and the most recent Proverbs 7:1 comparison to her comparing a bed of skulls she was laying in to all her exes, and someone commenting "Lady death". Because what is murder... it's a power trip, essentially. Makes me wonder if that what she was power tripping about... as absurd as that seems...

It's easy to understand why murder seems so common in politics when the essence of politics is a competition for positions of power.

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I wonder if facebook wouldn't let me post that because it had mention of murder... lol....something the dream told me not to mention to her.

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bieber could never feel good about fudging girls because his mom told him to always respect women, and that clearly isn't?

That doesn't make sense to me. How is giving them what they want, getting fudged by justin bieber, supposed to be "disrespect" exactly? I'm sure most people wouldn't claim my giving them a $100 bill would be "disrespecting them", lol.

Now raping them, I'd call that disrespect.

 

[Dauntless]

If SHE blocks you, you can't post. They let people like you on, they have a place for you. She just doesn't have to let you in.

www.dailydot.com/unclick/weird-facebook/

 

[nicobie]

I posted to this fb, but it won't let me post.

If only the same would happen here. :|

 

[swbluto]

I know, wouldn't it be a crying shame if every post of mine couldn't raise the collective IQ by a few points.

Started wall sheathing, continuing in about 10 minutes. I'd say 4:25 is a good continue time.

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Maybe this is why her relationship status is always single.

LOL! I've already made the inference she's a hoe, the only thing that's lacking is widespread agreement from everyone else.

 

[swbluto]

Awww, jeez. I'm just reading about these chokers mean they do anal on the first date, and just remembered seeing her with a choker. LOL The hoe flags just keep on coming up, lol.

I was telling myself initially, "But that'd be too obvious to be true", but I think I'm starting to accept the possibility the obvious might be true.

I'm rather skilled at identifying them in real life, but online is a different animal, can't see those key facial expressions or KEY BEHAVIOR like you can in conversation. But think I'm getting game there, too.

 

[Dauntless]

I know, wouldn't it be a crying shame if every post of mine couldn't raise the collective IQ by a few points.

Let's test him and see it it worked.

https://www.cnn.com/2019/03/14/entertainment/dominique-gardner-r-kelly/index.html

https://www.cnn.com/2019/03/14/us/first-amendment-rappers-supreme-court-elonis/index.html

 

[swbluto]

My dream told me that talking about topics of murder (like death threats) are a no-no, so yeah... I listen to my dreams... They instruct me on matters of life when it matters.

This morning, at 3:59 a.m., my tummy grumbled after having been a bit hungry for a little while, and the hunger quickly vanished.

HA HA HA HA HAH!

Isn't that interesting.

So, there's something that happens at 4 a.m. that can cause both heart phenomenon (fleeting heart pains, shortness of breath) and tummy grumbling and vanishing of hunger. It implies there's a distinct medical process that happens at 4 a.m.

Slept from 10:30-2:20, then 4:40-8

Also learned, TACO BELL IST VERBOTEN! Started getting persisting lower right neck pain after eating a loaded chicken griller and mini chicken quesadilla from there. It was relieved by eating dark chocolate pistachios I had at HEB, I'm assuming it was the cocoa.

I'm not saying she's a slut, but she sure acts like one. "OMG, SO HOTT!!" said indiscriminately to male/females.

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Like one example back when... on the topic of no murder topics... I probably shouldn't have tried to reassure my roommate with, "I promise I won't slit your throat in the middle of the night while you're sleeping.". He was trembling like because we just got in a heated argument, and I tried reassuring him I didn't intend harm. I was being absolutely honest, the thought never even flitted thru my mind.

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Sheathing the gables...

Rent a lift and raise the platform or bucket to the top of the gable. Measure the distance from the peak to the top of the plywood wall. (Note: Alternative methods of accessing the top of the wall involve the setup of pumps and poles or special building brackets attached directly to the building. Though cheaper, the risk of injury is greater with these methods.)

Hmmm... that sounds pretty appealing, a lift, lol.

Last time I tried, it was the ladder against the flat house, scary as heck hoping the ladder wouldn't just topple over with nothing to hang on... lol.

Think this time I'll use "building brackets" or some such secured to the top of the frame (To the top plate), basically to prevent the ladder from toppling over.

 

[swbluto]

Okay, well, decided to get a 24 foot extension ladder because it'll be suitable for a 2 story house, and also it'll pass thru the top of the side ladders attached to the house, fixing the top so that it can't topple over. Used it several times now, and especially on very uneven terrain with only one foot touching the ground, and it works like a champ. It's also the cheapest model among the 20+ foot extension ladders at home depot, probably because it sells the most.

Sheathing the gables now. Kind of slow and it's frustrating to find out the measurements aren't correct, lol. Why I'm taking a break now, getting over the frustration of wasting a 4x8, lol.

Also trying to minimize sugar, including bananas. Seems like tooth recession got particularly bad after eating candy over 2 days, and teeth seems particularly sensitive to sugar, so I'm trying to minimize it. Figure that starches + vegetables is the way to go. It seems like pretty much every "healthy culture" does that. Greeks = pasta + veggies + fish, Japan = rice+veggies+fish, generic formula => starches + veggies + fish. So I'm consuming romaine lettuce and getting pizza from the local dollar store for now, lol. I'll be preparing other options when the kitchen becomes available, but for right now, yeah...

Had pain shooting down my right foot yesterday, precipitated by a bothersome thought. Seems like thinking about personality disorders is irritating or something, especially when assigning them to others. I'd assume the pain was probably related to the heart.

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Now 6:47 a.m., woke at 4:23 a.m., went to sleep at midnight.

Yesterday, I woke at 4 and went to sleep from 6 to 10 (I think) [WAIT, actually... looking back, 10-2;20, then 4:40 to 8]. Full 8 hours of sleep.

The difference seems to be that I had two slices of pizza (instead of 1), and a banana AND some wine. Think the wine might've been able to induce more sleep. Then again, maybe it's because I ate more.

Doesn't seem like I'm falling back asleep this time. Circulation seems low, impaired ability to change flaccid state.

Waking up hungry. Think maybe I should solve this, if I solve it, I might not be waking up.

https://www.livestrong.com/article/517570-why-do-i-keep-waking-up-in-the-middle-of-the-night-hungry/

Experts at the Division of Sleep Medicine at Harvard Medical School suggest eating a small bedtime snack that won't give you indigestion or otherwise disturb your sleep. A 200-calorie snack that includes complex carbohydrates and protein is ideal: try whole-grain cereal with soymilk, whole-wheat bread with peanut butter, or fruit and cheese.

Right, so I'll keep a large apple or somesuch on hand specifically for night. They also suggest not eating well through out the day which is plausible. I think my caloric intake yesterday was like 2000-2200 calories.

 

[swbluto]

Went to the grocery and trying a bread based diet, as opposed to a banana one. So trying to subsist off sandwiches.

After eating 2 pieces of dave's killer bread in one sandwich, got left shoulder pain not long after. OYYYY! Beware, is what that's telling me.

Think maybe it was the fact it was 2 slices? That's 44g carbs.

So, toning it down to 1 slice for now.

Every other ingredient in the sandwich was no way capable of causing that pain. Lettuce? Tomatos? Lol, don't me laugh.

Thought it ironic it was called "Dave's KILLER bread". I guess they chose the right adjective, lol.

Think maybe the other sliced bread doesn't have as much carbs per slice. Will check next time.

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Unproductive cough, been getting that this morning. I've had minimal banana consumption since yesterday so... maybe there's a connection.

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Got the fascia attached to the front and back.

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Also got the roof sheathing started. Got one panel up, got another c-clamp to attach a longboard up there. To stop the panel from sliding off the roof.

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Went to sleep around 11:30 and Woke at 3:52 a.m.; had an apple and cheese like recommended to prevent nighttime hunger like recommended at 10:30 p.m. and woke, didn't really as hungry as yesterday, but still felt hungry. Banana tasted great. This is interesting, because sugar wasn't all that appetizing at 10:30 p.m., telling me I didn't go to sleep with low blood sugar. And I didn't really go hungry throughout the day.

 

[Dauntless]

https://getpocket.com/explore/item/the-munger-operating-system-how-to-live-a-life-that-really-works

 

[swbluto]

Cool. Asked the choker wearing cashier at mcdonalds "Do some girls wear chokers just because it looks good?", and she just gave me stifled laughter and didn't answer the question, somewhat confirming what I was reading online: They wear it for a reason. If it was done for fashion, there wouldn't have been stifled laughter. Now what the exact reason is... I don't really know. Is it really what the internet says, they do anal, or is it more likely what I would think, they a "sexual girl" (ahem... hoe)? That'd seem to be a bold public admission, they do anal...

Hmmm... I started thinking about what my mom was talking about me... "He'd lie to you like he would as if he were telling you the truth", and she was saying that in a kind of "Wow, that guy's convincing. Better watch out" kind of way, lol. They say that psychopaths can pass polygraph tests without issue, because of the lack of emotional response to it. I just wonder if maybe mum was noticing a genuine psychopathic trait...

It's funny, because I don't think any of my parents were known for characteristics like that... granted, maybe it's just a childhood trait that rarely transfers to adulthood...

Also, was able to climb to the top of the house frame without a ladder, using arm muscles. Felt like an achievement.

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A few years ago I may have been more open to a woman who was promiscuous or was reckless with relationship choices. But having been mistreated by them, I decided to have high standards instead of settling for table scraps.

OHHHHHHH... I see, this isn't just my isolated experiences being a faceless facebook user. Bitches like inflicting emotional pain via relational aggression, I see. The so called "destructive narcissist". It's funny reading off the characteristics of a "destructive narcissist", and seeing "pretty girl" all over it.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Healthy_narcissism

Traumatic childhood undercutting true sense of self-esteem and/or learning that he/she doesn't need to be considerate of others

Learning that they don't need to be considerate of others. Yeah, that sounds like a pretty girl.

 

[Dauntless]

https://getpocket.com/explore/item/the-disease-of-more

 

[swbluto]

Was reading about short sleepers, those who habitually sleep 5 hours or less absent external causes, and they concluded "after eliminating work and stress and this and that, they still...". I started to think maybe construction was causing my 4 hours of sleep a night.

Well, didn't have a choice, had to take yesterday off, the day before (Sheathing half the roof), kicked my catoots and I was feeling it. Fatigued and had a headache, generally not the kind of "spry" feeling one would usually have before starting work.

And then I slept 5 hours. From 12:10 a.m. to 5:22 a.m.

Well, the sleep wasn't broken and I felt refreshed waking up. Think maybe all this morning wood keeps waking me up, lol.

https://blog.bulletproof.com/sleep-hacking-1-million-people-prove-sleeping-5-hours-is-healther-than-sleeping-8-hours/

Well, a study out of UCSD paints a different story. The 2010 paper instead suggests that the secret to a long life lies in getting just enough sleep, which ends up being about 6.5 hours per night.[1]

The study looks at 1.1 million people’s sleep patterns over the course of 6 years, tracking the amount of sleep each subject averaged alongside their longevity. Its major finding: Sleeping as little as 5 hours per night can be better for you than sleeping 8.

I guess I shouldn't worry too much about 5 hours of sleep.

The "disease of more", haha, I'm not quite to that point yet, lol.

The hedonic treadmill... yeah... swear that's the driving force of that "pretty slut". Seeking lusty experiences in the pursuit of having that "10" emotional life. And I get the feeling their sex might tend to be better, more enthusiasm, and more enthusiasm is enjoyable, I'd think.

If this was the HEB chick, then it's definitely true. I have an inkling wouldn't have thrown her into the highs of love(or lust) otherwise. And I'm guessing I'm not the only one. That 30 year old "pretty slut" alludes to her many 10s of past lovers.

The "pretty" narcissists seeking "perfect love".

o, I just wonder about her mother, was she a slut. Doesn't seem like she was very slutty before the modeling career, had a "main man" that her friends would refer to. But, I'd assume with the modeling career came photographic marketability, and all that attention that followed. And...

[youtube]l5aZJBLAu1E[/youtube]

"It's raining men, and I'm going to get absolutely soaking wet", lol. Sounds like how it happened, lol.

This girl, in her native habitat (Facebook), sounds like a mongrel. Seems like she struggles to have more than a simple thought. Granted, I don't know, maybe it's the least stressful way of communicating. When she actually typed back a response about 5 months ago, I also got that impression: Sounded like a mongrel, lol.

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300 minutes, 5 hours is awfully close to that cutoff line between "optimum health" and "you're going to die tomorrow", lol.

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Apparently have lower left back pain near the hips. Can definitely feel it when bending back. Maybe it's no big deal.

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Slept again from 8 to 9:40.

I guess that totals 6.5 hours of sleep.

Lower left back pain still there.

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I thought about that the reason for the 5 hour cutoff, and figured that's likely because the vasoconstrictor levels are at their highest (adrenaline, cortisol,etc.), and if you're waking habitually before then, that indicates a likely plumbing problem. This also elevates cortisol levels throughout the day, further accelerating plumbing problems. (Cortisol accelerates vascular plaque accretion)

In the context of my sleep, if I'm waking up at 5 hours and falling asleep later and... especially... waking up with cardiac symptoms (Pinging left shoulder pain this morning)... even though my total sleep is 6.5 hours... I think it'd be fair to compare it more to the <5 hour sleep trendline.

Granted, this particular morning, can't tell if it was plumbing problems or the morning wood waking me up, lol. But all the other mornings waking up at 4 hours... plumbing problems or the gap between the natural "2 sleeps" (Because I usually fall asleep later)... that's an interesting question. The 4 a.m. cardiovascular phenomenon would lead me to believe plumbing problems. Granted, I suspect maybe that's because sugar intake has been high, and the ongoing results of lower daily sugar intake is pending with the increased wheat intake.

Asked the girl at the store how long she slept, said from 10 to 7, and she's somewhere in her 60s. So even though she's getting to that point and greater than 7 hours fares worse than 5-6.5, she undoubtedly has a "healthier" sleeping pattern. Her older age would indicate she'd be the kind that would likely have a healthy one.

Also found out at the grocery, traditional bread has 11-13g carb per slice, as opposed to dave's bread at 22g per slice. That's why eating two slices of his (Like a traditional sandwich) would skyrocket bloodsugar, much higher carb loading.

Got the bread that was 11g per slice.

The fact that both too much banana consumption and too much wheat consumption causes cardiovascular issues tells me one thing: It's the blood sugar, stupid. Not because of sugar alone, or because of evil wheat alone, it's the overindulgence in carbs that's evil. But sugar has a likely connection to dental health and it's been iffy lately, so that's why I'm trying out starches more. All the healthy cultures primarily subsist off starches.

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Getting pretty sunny lately, mar 20.

today's UV rating in houston is 9.

Try to avoid sun between 10-2. Okay, will do.

https://www.coppertone.com/uvindex/

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Had another nap from 1 to 2:30 p.m.

Looks like I'm upto 8 hours today, lol. I think maybe it's "make up" for all the construction heavy "missed sleep" days prior to this (Doing the osb walls, doing the osb roof)

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I posted "No one should be disheartened", sensing the malaise from her not replying to her comments lately. (Usually thumbs ups them)

The latest replies that followed sounds like an excited little girl, lol. :lol:

I like it when I have that affect, seems like an encouraging sign.

The heb chick had that reaction shortly after I retracted my rejection of her after "falling in love". That is, "Being so excited". So, I guess it's easy to say she's fallen somehow. Seems like the "having children" talk somehow triggered something... or maybe it was when I posted that "true love" picture.

It was nice reading that "hedonic treadmill" article. Things revert to a 7. Makes me feel peachy about not being infatuated all the time with her, just moments here and there, and mostly a spirited type inbetween.

So she was feeling rejection just because I was implying she was coming across like a slut... (Maybe that would imply she is actually is one, not pursuing a disagreement with it, lolololol)

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https://www.healthline.com/health/kidney-pain-alcohol#prevention

Okay, lower left back pain told me possible kidney infection. Okay, so what's the relationship between kidneys and alchohol.

It can cause kidney pain, oh, okay.

Noticed my left lower back felt fine for a brief period of time going into the grocery, then had some red wine with my mcdonalds burger, and lo and behold, there's that lower left back pain again. That made me a little suspicious.

So, breathless alcohol.

Turns out kidney disease can cause breathlessness. Yeah, noticed that this morning, while eating some peanuts.

Guess it's time to abstain from the alcohol.

So, that drinking and "Dying in the middle of the night" phenomenon. Think I can avoid that fate... lol...

Fatty liver disease rarely causes any symptoms, but it's an important warning sign that you're drinking at a harmful level. Fatty liver disease is reversible. If you stop drinking alcohol for 2 weeks, your liver should return to normal.

That's good to hear. Seems like what I would normally expect for someone my age... livers and kidneys not failing...

 

[Dauntless]

Oh, so the imaginary girlfriend had a model mother, eh? Would this be Cindy Crawford?

You get morning wood? And dancing to 'Its Raining Men.'

 

[swbluto]

Oh, so the imaginary girlfriend had a model mother, eh? Would this be Cindy Crawford?

You get morning wood? And dancing to 'Its Raining Men.'

It'd be fair to suspect they had a model mother. Not sure how else a girl would get the idea to become a model... doesn't seem like a thought that strikes most pretty girls...

 

[Dauntless]

Oh, so the imaginary girlfriend had a model mother, eh? Would this be Cindy Crawford?

It'd be fair to suspect they had a model mother. Not sure how else a girl would get the idea to become a model... doesn't seem like a thought that strikes most pretty girls...

Oh, so she was an HEB MODEL. . . .

 

[Dauntless]

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[swbluto]

I feel like I want to write her name and mine inside a heart with an arrow thru it on one of my trees, lol.

LOL. I know you don't know exactly what I do, but lemme give you some stats.

I'm in the top 2000 out of 3,000,000.

That'd make me a POINT 1 percenter. So, don't tell me about "incompetence", lol. I didn't get there by pulling strings or greasing palms, lol.

If a person isn't right for me, it isn't because of "incompetence", it's because we don't match. That's the way it is, lol.

But it's true, I'm not perfect. A perfect person would be in perfect health, which I'm obviously not. I just hope it's not as bad as I think it is, lol. If I start getting lung congestion, I'm starting to think I should just bite a bullet. That's the practical side of me speaking, I'm actually pretty felicitous right now, lol.

Haha...

The .1 percent are the true villains: What Americans don't understand about income inequality

https://www.salon.com/2016/04/14/the_1_percent_are_the_real_villains_what_americans_dont_understand_about_income_inequality_partner/

I'm a villain, am I? She's evil, too, so it's A MATCH, lol.

I looked at some "evil girl" lyrics, and the description matched her just about perfectly, and the lyrics make it seem like it's some girl that takes all your money. Funny how my dream told me... "I want to find a guy with a lot of money and spend it all", lol.

A cheap and evil girl sets out on the city
She's moistened every curl, she's poisonously pretty
And the unsuspecting fool falls prey
As the dim detective's lead astray
And the genuflecting boy's all say
The cheap and evil girl will get her way

The cheap and evil girl
The cheap and evil girl
The cheap and evil girl

The cheap and evil girl dances if you're worthy
She teases every twirl, she's deviously dirty
And you fantasize about the ample
Milky thighs you'd like to sample
Vocalize to her example -
Deep, illegal sighs - Oh! - it's a scandal

The cheap and evil girl
The cheap and evil girl
The cheap and evil girl

Into the club for a rub in the sauna
Stream through the steam, there's a shot, you're a gonner
Cry as you die cause you know you still want her
She can hypnotize with her evil eyes

All the bold sounds like her. In fact, when she TRIED to hypnotize me thru facebook (She said "Look into my eyes"), she explicitly put a demon face emoji right next to it, lol, pretty much agreeing exactly here with the lyrics... evil eyes... lol.

"The cheap and evil girl wears you like a locket
She's polished every pearl then she put you in her pocket
And the undertaker hears the sounds
Of the dumb gumshoe making his rounds
Shaking all the wrong one's down
Cause the cheap and evil girl will not be found"

HAHA, when she tried "shaking me down" on facebook, I just called her out... "The word is GOLD DIGGER.", LOL.

 

[Dauntless]

Wow, you find yourself to be. . .AMAZING.

https://www.citylab.com/special-report/building-bauhaus/