Buying forest land, implementing solar

[swbluto]

If you've ever had your dick sucked then you've paid a whore to suck it. You might not have given her cash directly but she still got paid with something be it a meal, a movie or what have you.

Oh... so the seatac airport qdoba girl who seemed to want me to pay for her meal, so I suspected,... was intending on sucking my dick? lol.

Didn't suspect that, though that'd kind of make sense given what she's likely reading from my body language, and the idea she came off like a probable hobo whore.

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Well, woke up at 3:18 a.m. this morning, instead of 2 something like on previous mornings. I might be able to read that as an "improvement", but I guess I'll really know in time, hehe.

No carotid pain when swallowing as of 3:28.

Breathing in feels "normal". Often times before at this time in the morning, it wouldn't feel normal, but I can't fully describe the sensation.

Now 4:34, no obvious concerning events.

Up until 4:10ish, eyes felt "tired" and wasn't hungry after testing a tomato. Afterwards, they felt normal and awake and at 4:30 a.m., felt fairly hungry after testing a tomato. I'm now eating the rest of the rice//peas I prepared at night, I produced more than I intended to eat specifically for this time.

I've associated the "tired eyes" effect with circulatory problems in the past, which cocoa tends to resolve. Resolves the problem, and makes the eyes "awake" and one feeling normal instead of "tired".

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I kind of wondered...

If the sugar in fruits, when eaten excessively, can cause pancreaitis (inflamed pancreas), and diabetes is a symptom of an insulin-resistant pancreas (An "injured pancreas")...

Is diabetes essentially the same thing?

An inflamed pancreas vs "an injured pancreas".

So this would, I'd think, highly implicate sugar and fructose as a cause of diabetes.

But, I thought we already concluded binge eating patterns are actually the most fundamental cause of diabetes.

Maybe it's both...

I like tomatos, has almost everything a banana has, minus the sugar (in terms of vitamin c, magnesium, potassium). And has lycopene, to boot.

So, I'd think that'd count towards the "fruit and vegetable" intake goal.

Let's google...

sugar intake diabetes site:gov

No association.

These opinions relating to the threat to health from fructose alone and as a component of sucrose and HFCS, are sustained despite reports such as that from the German Nutrition Society, which concluded that intakes of up to 100 g fructose per day are not associated with increased serum triglycerides and that fructose and sucrose are not associated with increased risk of hypertension or CHD

But, what about 300grams daily from bananas? Now we're talking, huh.

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In about 15 to 20 out of 100 cases, acute pancreatitis leads to complications affecting the pancreas or other organs. Pseudocysts (fluid-filled cyst-like blisters in the pancreas) are a common complication. If they are small and don’t cause any symptoms, they don’t need to be treated. Larger pseudocysts may rip open and bleed or become infected and form an abscess. To stop this from happening, the cyst can be punctured and drained from the outside using a hollow needle. In some cases, surgery is needed.

If it’s not infected, dead tissue doesn’t always need to be treated. Infected dead tissue has to be treated with antibiotics, though. It may also be necessary to remove the dead tissue. Various procedures are used, depending on what part of the pancreas is affected. If the dead tissue isn’t causing any acute problems, it’s best to wait for about four weeks before removing it so that the patient can recover from the illness first. By then the dead tissue will also have hardened, making it easier to tell it apart from healthy tissue and remove it.

Yeah, that episode of fatigue and lightheadedness...

Indicating possible internal bleeding...

And we've likely inferred pancreaitis...

And they're talking about pseudocysts ripping open and bleeding...

Maybe that's what was happening.

And removing dead tissue from the pancreas. HAHAHAHAHA... do I have to? lol.

Don't think I'm going to volunteer myself to a surgeon unless something compels me to get to the hospital. And they're talking about dead tissue causing acute problems, so as long as I don't have acute problems, no need for surgery.

And apparently these cysts can become cancerous. Makes me think this is how pancreatic cancer typically starts, and steve jobs was a fruitarian idealists and he died from pancreatic cancer at age 56.

One doesn't typically think fruit = cancer... but I'm more cautious in my assumptions when talking of excess...

And pancreatitis from fruit subsistence would seem to surely indicate excess, regardless of what one thinks.

So sugar/fructose intake and pancreatic cancer... that might be an interesting link to explore.

In the new study, researchers found no relationship between the total carbohydrates in participants’ diets and their risk of pancreatic cancer. And when they focused on fruit intake, higher consumption was related to a lower risk of the disease.

In contrast, there was a relationship between increased pancreatic cancer risk and higher intakes of sugar, candy, honey and jam. This suggests that sugary, processed carbohydrates — rather than carbs like fiber-rich grains, fruits and vegetables — may be particularly linked to pancreatic cancer, the researchers report in the Annals of Epidemiology.

I wonder if there's supposed to be a caveat in there...

And when they focused on fruit intake, higher consumption was related to a lower risk of the disease... upto a point.

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Like a u curve.

Are older people really happier, or is that simply a matter of the happier ones tending to stay alive that long, and the sad ones not...?

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saw that these steel racks at wallie were $80 each at the store, but $65 online, and I couldn't find them at the store...

So I improved both issues by ordering them online. They'll find them for me and I'll end up paying less for them, ^_^.

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https://www.reuters.com/article/us-sugary-foods/sugary-foods-linked-to-pancreatic-cancer-risk-idUSTRE65E5H420100615

No consistent association with a particular food intake and pancreatic cancer, but there is an association with high GI index diets and pancreatic cancer.

73% higher risk for the top tertile vs bottom tertile.

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https://www.yahoo.com/gma/florida-police-arrest-2-girls-were-allegedly-plotting-151006200--abc-news-topstories.html

“They had a strong belief in satanism and they believed the more people they killed the faster they would go to hell,”

No wonder I was getting the "crazy" and "homicidal" vibe from the okcupid occult witch, LOL. THEY ARE BOTH! lol.

I thought it was due to something like autism, but nope... thinking maybe I was accurately sensing what kind of person she was in terms of want and intention.

I don't actually believe these people REALLY "wanted to go to hell faster", I think they just wanted to kill people, and satanism is the weak justification.

Because, plenty of people without satanistic beliefs also want to "kill as many as possible", thus, the mass shooting sprees.

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Life is precious. You need to find God before you die.

Yep, you might think you have so much control over that, until you're looking at the scythe of the grim reaper, and you realize how powerless you really are.

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In the middle of closing off the roof and getting the rest of it shingled (probably tomorrow). Just waiting for battery to charge for the battery saw. Didn't want to drag an electric line up on the roof just for this one 4x8 I need to trim.

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So with this knowledge of a BMI of 26.

What's my definitive understanding as to health issues.

Inflamed pancreas seemed pretty likely, caused by excess fruit consumption (Sugar consumption in particular).

But no "real proof". Just that the upper right quadrant pain is hard to mistake and it's now largely gone, and inflamed pancreas will subside within a few days of removing the irritant, according to the internet. And the implicated internal bleeding is explained by the pathology of pancreatitis (Bleeding cysts).

And not hard to see that the carotid pain is largely gone since cessating the bananas.

It does seem like, however, the "heart issues" are persisting albeit it seems to have subsided as of this morning /somewhat/.

It was still robbing me of my sleep, which I later resolved after lifting the sheathing loader which soon made me tired, then took a 2 hour nap.

Makes me think I need to lift heavy things daily.

Don't know what's wrong with the heart, but hope it improves though that's not my normal understanding of the more severe heart pathologies. Don't really know how "severe" I might be.

 

[swbluto]

LOL, I see a good reason I was asking "Who is this person, exactly?'.

Turns out they're a model, and they're used by events to "attend it" and I guess make it look good. So that's her job, I guess.

What I've been thinking she was...

a psychopathic hottie with homicidal ideation. Turns out I probably was right.

Guarantee I make more than her, lol. And definitely for the foreseeable future assuming good health.

The first year I modeled, I was making minimum wage. It was like $30,000. But this past year was probably like $15,000. I got lazier with modeling. I’m just kind of over doing it so I don’t really like to work quite as hard. And plus I’m stationary now. When I’m traveling I make a lot more money.

Yeah, that's what I was wondering, why is she in Dallas the next morning. I thought she was doing it for "Work", but wondered what kind of work would have someone travelling to Dallas if you lived in Houston. So, I figured, too busy, too popular... whatever, and I might've been exactly right.

So staffing some kind of event in Dallas, more than likely.

And I thought she was just some kind of convention fanatic judging from the instagram photos, lol, and I thought, "Wow, what a geek.". LOL!

A geek and a hottie, what a fantastic combination, lol.

So all those "great ideas" in her instagram... were someone else's idea... that she was passing off as hers...

Yeah, I see I was totally overestimating what kind of person she was, lol.

Not a really creative geek, more than likely, just a hottie.

I thought her communication seemed a bit too simplistic.

 

[Dauntless]

Damn board screwup, don't want to write that again with my thumbs. But some of those trade show models do real sales work. I once made a training video on the subject. https://www.livecareer.com/resume-search/r/trade-show-model-booth-hostess-197aa72bcde043ddb9c6d4e2ba9f4f62

 

[swbluto]

lol, she replied on facebook shortly after our encounter... lol... with something highly relevant, lol.

And she clearly saw the picture of the house by that point. Dad took picture saturday, replied wednesday. I guess it didn't meet the "soulmate test", lol. Which is what exactly? I think dauntless knew... lol

Looking through her feed, it is is a unique reply of hers, since none of her other posts even mention a "soul mate" or anything related to the subject.

So... must have had an impact...

And it seems like I often do...

It feels like I have the biggest crush on her, just bubbling latently below the surface. It's unusual to think if this feeling would be amplified if we met in person, or if it would sink into indifference.

The autonomic response almost feels breathless. Subtly shaking and breathless. Seems like a common refrain, a hallmark of love.

Shaking seems associated with "crushing". But the heb chick was definitely shaking, and I swear with tremendous hindsight, there's no doubt that was love.

She reports having a history of stealing hearts. Must be cautious...

 

[Dauntless]

So have you figured out if you're going to survive the trade war, or is the storyline still in flux?

https://www.cnn.com/interactive/2018/politics/kitchen-table-election/index.html

 

[swbluto]

I'm pretty sure with high confidence I'll be surviving the tradewar, at least economically I will. Why? Because of... a couple main things...

-I know what it takes to beat my competitors. Have proven performance here. And, yes, I'm relentless.
-Know how to efficiently identify the most profitable in-demand products and markets. (Recently acquired skill)
-And I expect on having plenty funds to diversify into the highest ROI categories after this christmas. The performance this october as compared to past octobers is telling... or so I suspect...

As long as consumer demand exists, and the great recession's consumer demand suggests it will (Consumer demand reduced by 10% at most), I'll have no trouble surviving. Diversification and pursuit of highest ROI markets.

I need to make equipment purchases by Dec 31 to qualify to deduct them off of taxes. Or construction supply purchases if intending on building a resale property (That's assuming I have the wherewithal)

 

[Dauntless]

https://247wallst.com/special-report/2018/10/08/28-cities-that-never-recovered-from-the-recession/2/

 

[swbluto]

Yay, slept a full 6 hours last night! None of those "Let's be awake for those 4 o' clock russian roulettes", lol.

And, it'd seem like the wine has the greatest association with pancreatic pain. Had a tiny bit (3 sips), and top right quadrant pain resurfaced.

Hmmm... that's suspicious...

Swear I'm not an alcoholic, never really get drunk, but... I'm suspicious...

Think the "too much fruit subsistence + wine" is the most compelling explanation.

1-2 glasses of wine daily is okay if you aren't eating 250 grams of fruit sugars a day, lol.

I think sugar intake is definitely the most straightforward explanation. Because, eat an equivalent amount of starches (rice and pea carbs as of right now), not a single problem with carotid pain.

 

[swbluto]

Gosh, I like torturing myself, don't I. lol

Here I am feeling like I have the biggest growing crush on this person as I'm texting her, and telling her simultaneously I'm going to ignoring to her due to the bad feelings I'm getting from her pops taking pics of my place, lol.

Oh well, I guess it means I'm a master of "mixed signals", what makes girls so effective so I've heard, LOL.

As I said, I'll ignore her, and out of sight, out of mind, which is so true when it comes to things of this nature.

Until acceptance happens, then yeah, not getting out for a while, lol.

Ode to the heb chick, lol.

Had a photo in the feed, "Boys are nice, but a million dollars is nicer".

What's the song that comes to mind...

[youtube]RBHZFYpQ6nc[/youtube]

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So, thinking.

If I wanted to protect my business assets...

Incorporate, add a partner. put assets on a different piece of non-adjacent land with its own dedicated building.

Then religiously drive profits down to zero thru reinvestment, so there's no "vulnerable" income. An aim I would have anyway due to taxes.

And land would be becoming cheaper in... 2-3 years...

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I see why sluts like chasing crushes and orgasms...

It's damn enjoyable. How the euphoria chemicals in the heart race, and how it beats so strongly.

And one doesn't even need to hear from them. Just simply talking with them (Flirtatiously, maybe) seems to work.

But then, you get someone's dad out here, it seems. Yeah buddy, take another picture, I double dog dare you! lol.

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Hmmm.

The girl denies that her father rolled upto the house saturday morning. Denies him driving a vehicle of that description and everything.

OKAY.... so.... WHO WAS THAT. lol...

Unmarked white suv, looked like it came from a fairly wealthy area. Taking pictures of the house with his camera phone and then was OUT OF THERE. He looked a little annoyed when he rolled up and just prior to taking the pictures, like he was trying to catch me.

That leaves me the suspicion of a private investigator. Though the private investigators I've seen before tend to drive really crappy vehicles.

And will I be seeing a court notice soon... lol...

Well, we can try protecting it in court thru the homestead protection. Positives are it's my only property, and it is my place.

Specific reason why I chose this state.

And the girl reports she remembers me. And told me to never contact her again. :lol:

Well, talking about being a casanova, lol.

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And the possibility crosses my mind she could be lying.

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That was saturday morning. Would a private investigator be working saturday?

Maybe law enforcement would. But, why would the fbi/cia care about me?

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I see why girls are talked about being 'mixed signals'. She told me to never contact her again and I thought, "Ha, don't believe it", but I complied anyways because the matter had been settled and that was pretty much it for today, lol.

Kind of like when girls say... "Go ahead and do it." when they're all mad...

Same exact thing, don't believe it. lol

She invited me to messenger, confirming what I suspected, she was just frazzled from the "re-encounter", and wasn't thinking straight.

I declined the invitation and exited. I may or may not follow up.

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The latest theory is she could be mistaken. Did he leave towards dallas saturday morning... and stopped by my place on the way... so "He was in a whole another city that day" like she reports.

The mismatching vehicle colors however, is pretty convincing, assuming she's right.

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It's odd how the crush felt so warm this morning (Cheeks all flush), but now it seems completely absent. And doesn't seem like I've really suffered from any fallout or anything. So, it's curious.

The heb chick love... didn't just "go away", lol. Hell nah, it was strong and persisting for many moons and many suns, lol.

And would this be the "sinking into indifference" thing that I suspected would result of a crush?

Well, maybe I needed to eat two bananas. Feeling facial warmth, seems somewhat typical for this time of day though.

 

[swbluto]

The hearts of all Americans are filled with grief following the monstrous killing of Jewish Americans at the Tree of Life synagogue in Pittsburgh, Pa.

I see this and think someone's suffering economically and blaming the jews. Yeah, the economy is worse than it might seem, isn't it...

I bet there's a synagogue in Manhattan with all the high profile jewish wallstreet fatcats. Any economically motivated jewish hatred would probably be better concentrated there... but... I have a feeling such a place is heavily protected for obvious reasons. lol

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Got hungry, ate 2 bananas, and about an hour later, getting reliable carotid pain unlike with the rice/peas (starches).

Yep, definitely found the culprit, it's the sugar.

 

[Dauntless]

Maybe he wasn't taking pictures, maybe he was holding up his phone to see something on it. Oops, too logical, unacceptable, eh?

 

[swbluto]

Maybe he wasn't taking pictures, maybe he was holding up his phone to see something on it. Oops, too logical, unacceptable, eh?

Hmmm...

Maybe he was using GPS, went down this road accidentally, and just happened to stop directly right in front of my house along a 1200 foot road, and pointed his phone at it, and left about 2-3 seconds later.

Seems a lot easier believe he was snapping a pic! lol.

 

[Dauntless]

Seems a lot easier believe he was snapping a pic! lol.

Or at least seems more in character for you to insist. And me with laundry to get in the dryer so I'm sitting here reading THIS waiting for the wash.

Most of the picnic shots I found were, er, YUCK! This wasn't so bad. Go fantasize.

 

[swbluto]

Okay, then...

Even though it looked like a concerned citizen of some kind, I'm just going with the "fbi/cia agent" theory, in particular "Fbi agent". In which case, doesn't concern.

I get the sense they like following me, but I believe they're ultimately wasting their time.

Think maybe they intercepted my online activity and profiled some concerning behavior, that is ultimately of no concern, and started stalking me.

I'm concerned with the private investigator hypothesis, because that might lead to a path that ends up wasting my time. I thought about how such a person might find me, and I suspected they would have to get their records from the DSL (Centurylink) or electric company. Which seems somewhat surprising essential utility companies would sell out their customers so readily, but maybe not so surprising, since they're integral to "establishing residency".

Because, they the only ones that have uniquely identifying info to my full name (SSN or DOB).

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And third straight day I woke up after 4 am and got an (almost solid) 6-7 hours of sleep!

This is a miracle, I was waking up at 2-3 a.m almost every day, many times to stand face to face with the reaper, and it was the "Rare exception" I ever got a full night's sleep.

So I suspect fruit sugars are definitely suspect, maybe some additional problems with the wine.

I think maybe the store bananas, which are priced by the pound, are unnaturally huge (as compared to the tribal people), so they're easy to "overdose" on. I've seen bananas growing here and they were quite small, and I assumed they just weren't suited for this climate, not rainy enough or persisting hot/really-warm enough.

It's definitely an established trend, fruits priced by the pound are unnaturally huge and normally can't find "small ones" (For example, apples)

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And thought about that girl, and I wondered about people like her, and not necessarily her in particular.

Wondered why I don't see them in Houston.

I think she inadvertently answered my question when I found her in Austin, all the "cool people" are in Austin, lol.

Which is what I've long suspected, but didn't really believe that was entirely true. But, seems like it.

I get the sense from the viewpoint of a young renter, between the same cost in Houston vs the same cost in Austin,TX... they'd rather be in Austin. I think maybe it's a trend, also, that the cool people go to the University of Texas in Austin, and find local jobs so easily after school there. Her particular history, she lived with parents in Houston,TX and went to school in austin and stayed in austin.

And looking at the UOT at austin, looks like they have SAT scores averaging about 1300. I see, maybe that's why I'm thinking all the "cool eople" go to Austin, lol. I see that's equivalent to the university of washington, sat wise.
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Now I'm trading like a boss. Money has hit the account and I'm betting big.

I became less concerned about a "correction", and think we're now entering the "uncertainty phase".

Because think like a deer drinking at the pond. He hears a noise, it spooks him, and he looks around... but doesn't see anything, so he hesitates. His mind is vacillating between "better GTFO of here!" and "I'm still thirsty". The littlest thing after this point will set it off, be it another noise or a sighting, and he's OUT OF THERE!

I believe we're in that "Looking around for danger" phase, which is normally marked with volatility.

I'm just betting one of the market swings will swing down to my limit price of 12.9. Not confident it'll happen, more like I'm hoping, lol.

The volume of this particular stock has gone up significantly, too, suggesting other investors are placing their bets.

I should track the daily volume. It might be instructive in future stock trading scenarios.

average as of 10/26 - 16 mil
Volume of 10/26 - 27 mil

Volume of 10/29 - 27mil, $15.52 end

For intents of figuring out what we would've made (If we had the money fast enough), let's assume we purchased the entire lot at 13, lol.

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Okay, so, the roof is completely shingled, finished this early afternoon. Now just need to add the ridge vents which I'm planning tomorrow morning.

And, wondering what I was going to do now that I've been running out of water for the doggie (Barrel is empty), I added some plastic trays outside to collect it.

Immediate results are somewhat discouraging, but this is best measured in terms of longterm performance, since heavy rainstorms tend to add the most water here by far, and they're pretty intermittent. I'd say, once or twice a month on average.

In which case, the trashcan that has been tarped to the tree was elucidating. It was nearly half full!

So we have plenty water for the time being for him.

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Seeing the latest photo of the amanda girl, I think she's aroused. What is that pose again...

I knee lifted, slightly turned ever so flirtatiously.

I know she was definitely an object of lust, so this shouldn't be too surprising.

I can tell because I was giving her the elevator eyes, unlike the heb chick, whom I was peering into her soul.

I had no problems arousing the heb chick, so my having this affect shouldn't be surprising.

 

[Dauntless]

Okay, then...

Even though it looked like a concerned citizen of some kind, I'm just going with the "fbi/cia agent" theory, in particular "Fbi agent".

Maybe it's Jello Biafra.

So I dont know what trolls would do that would be like coyotes howling at the moon, but since they're doing it in another thread you get to think of yourself as the more civilized poster. While they discuss their justifications for their hate, you can discuss why why you think you should get to date a real girl someday. Maybe even https://www.cnn.com/travel/article/yosemite-engagement-couple-found-trnd/index.html

 

[swbluto]

So, thought I'd try out that new technique I recently thought was a better kind of reaction to sarcasm... "React to sarcasm with sarcasm"...

And got 6 thumbs up! Yeah, thought it was a good technique. Maybe I'll use it the next time I'm talking to a sarcastic girl.

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Wonder why a girl I showed interest in, would suddenly start showcasing all her friends all of a sudden. I'm sure there's a reason.

I thought it'd would've been funny to comment, "It's good to see who your friends are, you're more of a loser than I thought you were."
'
But, trying to stay away. Not because I really think she wants it... but... because... lol... don't ask me.

Seems impractical.

Would seem like driving her wild would just lead to frustration, since I'm not going anywhere.

I think maybe they show them to show "who they are". As in, not a loser, lol.

 

[Dauntless]

So where did they give you 6 thumbs up? Out of how many?

Dead Puppies aren't much fun.

[youtube]WyKzdvZU3pg[/youtube]
[youtube]Qr6NOsluHYg[/youtube]
[youtube]hkhZ1sFBKDs[/youtube]

 

[swbluto]

Is that why I can't seem to sleep right now, lol.

Thought it would be more likely due to some not fully understood medical problems or something I did during my day, like working frantically late at night.

This be the part of the year where I'm working frantically, think maybe I should start the "frantic work" A BIT EARLIER, lol.

So if someone was dreaming of me... who would it be...

My guess is on the HEB chick.

No evidence suggesting its the amanda girl, lol. If I were to guess her level of interest, I'd think maybe "intrigued" at most, doubt anything much more than that.

And don't think her current postings have much to do with me, like I originally thought, since learning of the weekend escapades in montrose on a friend's feed. But, maybe they do... seems like it's probably just drip-fed recent events.

So, I thought, if I think they were doing something because of MEEEEE... what would that be a sign of...

At its worst, paranoid schizophrenia. At its best... narcissism, lol. (OF COURSE SHE'S DOING IT BECAUSE OF ME, WHY WOULDN'T SHE...SHE'S ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT ME, AFTER ALL. lol)

https://www.istockphoto.com/photo/frantic-businessman-panics-at-huge-quantity-of-waiting-work-gm171259693-20201254

Frantic businessman panics at huge quantity of waiting work

Yep, lol.

Ha ha, doubtful. No obsessive thinking or warm delirium has been striking me as of recent, lol.

Think we're honing in on work stress, lol.

 

[swbluto]

Okay, didn't get much sleep yesterday night (now 8 a.m.), but I did get a dream in.

And the topic of the dream was taxes. The guy doubted how much I made after telling him I ran a business, so I told him how much I paid in taxes, and then we talked about how uncle sam was taking so much in taxes and how this year we're going to minimize that thru reinvestment.

Was getting fleeting sudden sharp eye pain last night, this time the left eye. Last time this happened, it was because of the okcupid witch, and that was a sleepless night too.

Think I need to ignore girls for now (Especially those whom appear to be her psychological associates) and avoid imposing needless stress.
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Some guy in NYC was talking about who models tended to date on Quora, and his list went "Other models, Rockstars/musicians and investment bankers.", and went onto mention photographers are not on that list (Of course, he *IS* talking about NYC). I distilled that list as...

Other Hotties, The Famous and The Rich.

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And my read of SQQQ, is that it's probably running away... damn... didn't get the money fast enough. Well, maybe there'll be a rebound. I didn't want to enter in at a high mark, because of the risk builtin over a year long hold on these triple inverse etfs and the calculated range of return on investment at its mark then, 70%-300%. At a higher mark, seems like that'd be more like 50%-250%. The further the lower bound is away from 0%, the more comfortable I feel, lol, since my model could be an underestimate. I might be underestimating average daily volatility, and higher volatility increases loss of value over the longterm.

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I'd read that zenimax likely has its own custom in-house brand protection software. Because found me on the platform like 4 weeks later, lol, and (probably auto-generated) a DMCA cease and desist letter.

None of the standard brand protection software covers the platform, I believe, so I'd suspect they have in-house software, which would make sense since they largely employ programmers.

I'm not really worried about the platform too much, not really a driver of my bottom line.

But I should think about the implications of getting booted off there, and weigh against the potential benefits of the platform, namely its profit-ensuring advertising models. Especially if I were diversifying into products with more widespread appeal.

Think it's worth obfuscating the titles for the platform. And when does that need to be done...

I'd say based on current workload and estimated pending workload, by end of tomorrow.

Now I'm starting to wonder how safe my website is... lol...

Don't advertise it, purely organic search.

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Why do I want to name-call this girl? I just want to emphasize how much of a loser she is, lol.

I think maybe it's a term of endearment.

I think this part of the "treat them like crap" strategy that guys talk about, but it doesn't feel like I have to pretend... it's something I want to do. And it really just feels like "i'm playing around", and I'm pretty sure they know that too.

It's something I had to pretend with remelisa, I actually want to do it for reals.

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SQQQ -

10/30 - 31M volume, $14.84 end

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keep reciting bob marley's "Is this love that I'm feeling" lyrics today, lol. Is there a reason why I'm not completely aware of... lol

Didn't think I entered a relationship with the amanda gal, not even close. But some how, it almost feels like it, for some odd reason.

[youtube]CHekNnySAfM[/youtube]

While listening to his "Don't worry, be happy" song... I caught myself worrying about health... and that probably causing the heart palpitations I was feeling, lol... and thought "Man, this guy is right. Let's stop worrying.", lol

Okay, widened the ridge gap as much as possible and finished installing the ridge vents. Just need to put ridge shingles over them, I think, and trim the excess of the shingles and whatnot, and the roof is largely done. Except for drip edging that should be installed, and maybe some fascia. And of course soffits, but need to install the lap siding first I think.

And the water and septic is getting installed before the lap siding. Hoping that way I won't get too much trouble if the septic people visit the area in the meantime, lol.

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And I have reason to believe amanda visited the biz website, lol. Someone clicked the shop now button on facebook on the same day we chatted, lol. I take it she might've been intrigued?
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What will be the next song I might be reciting all day long...

[youtube]j4FbRl1Lms4[/youtube]

haha...

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And, for some reason... definitely don't want to see her facebook page...

Think maybe I don't really like her...

Doesn't seem like it'd be relaxing, which is what I'm trying to do right now... lol...

Got the stressful work done early in the day, so I can relax in my evenings. And that I am enjoying.

But she has the prettiest face and sexiest physique I've seen a white woman have, lol.

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Went to bed at 10 or 11, woke at 3:10 a.m., eyes pretty tired. Had can of corn and some cheese to cure the slight hunger.

@3:42 a.m., 135/74 60 bpm

Fleeting left eye pain returned, so took BP suspecting possible high blood pressure.

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now 4:21 a.m.

Thinking more about her personality.

And I would say, overly dramatic and sarcastic. A drama queen.

Yep, exactly. I think she's something of a queen bee, and she has the typical hallmarkers. Let's see, can I iterate.

No stranger to sexual allure, exploits it to maximum effect and with 'class'. Has no shortage of male attention.
Drama queen.
Very pretty and just about the perfect physique.

I think she wears black lipstick because red looks too sexy on her, lol.

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And if I were to imagine what heart failure feels like, this seems to be it. Think its best to stay away from the negative emotions, in particular, attack.

I think tit-for-tat responses (defense) are ideal upto some extent.
Unprovoked attack isn't ideal.

Chest getting a little heavy at 4:30 a.m. with soon-recognized-to-be unprovoked viciousness.

The viciousness stemmed from perceived malice, but it was ambiguous enough to be interpreted otherwise.

Saw this whisper image, seemed enlightening.

mom's a lesbian, dad's trangender, brother is gay and sister is a bisexual whore.

And here I was hypothesizing that bisexuals might be my natural domain given plausible transgender associations, lol. But, I think it's really that most guys have a thing for whores, lol.

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Got sleepy at 5ish, woke at 7:14 a.m.

Just prior to resleeping at 5, the neighbor dog came to my window and started barking at me.

Grrrr...

I'm getting tempted to shoot one of these dogs that keep coming on my property. Usually they're harmless, but not when they're barking at me when I'm inside my house trying to fall asleep.
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feel somewhat weak and slightly hungry. Think I need to eat.

132/73 - 57bpm @7:27 a.m.

Seems like my average systolic blood-pressure has gone up since cutting out the bananas and eating the rice/peas instead.

Averaged 125 then, now averaging 132-134.

But there's no doubt the carotid inflammation (Sore neck pain when swallowing) has gone away. And... I think I'm sleeping better.

Think I should start subsisting off the sweet potatos. Has little sugar yet high potassium.

 

[Dauntless]

Perfect for you today.

https://www.cnn.com/2018/10/31/opinions/halloween-witches-were-women-fighting-power-kerr/index.html

 

[swbluto]

Someone spouts that someone really comes alive during halloween. Haha, because you can dress like a slut and get away with it? LOL.

It's a legitimate question for someone like her, but she seems to be like my sister, "reserving it for marriage" like a proper upstanding white girl.

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Good read on witches.

My distillation goes sexual rebellion against the oppressive puritanical status quo.

So, bunch of sluts. Kind of seems to be their image in the popular mind. Wiccans definitely seem to have that tendency.

Occult witches, however... that's a mixed bag. I think they're more often the rebellious "power focused" type, which may be slutty and "lot stealing" or tempting yet cruelly widely rejecting.

Had a large banana and some peanuts about 30 minutes ago for lunch. Was feeling weak, tired and a little confused at the time, but now I don't. Don't feel hungry now, some temporary right carotid pain when swallowing (2nd banana of the day). Blood sugar = 112mg/dl

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What kind of feel was I getting with that girl. I be making her so horny, yes.

Just like the construction store girl when she learned I ran a business.

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Got another wallet, one with a chain, which is attached to my belt loop. I left my wallet at the bank 2 days ago, and I thought with this increased mental problems I seem to be having, I should definitely be using a chain on my wallet, lol. Don't want to lose that too often! lol

It's also a proper wallet, so it can carry my cash and cards simultaneously. And it buttons closed.

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And an unmarked white minivan came rolling around down this way about 30 minutes ago. Can't confirm if it was the same guy I saw saturday morning 2 weeks ago snapping a picture, but it's suspected. Not too many people come down this way, there's like 5 people that live on this street.

And sure enough, I talked to that girl like 2 days ago, lol. Was "pops" paying a revisit? lol.

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ate a long banana at 12:30, measured at 1. Blood glucose = 112 mg/dl

Went for a shortish walk.

Now 3:30. Feel a tiny bit hungry, tiny bit weak. Blood glucose = 105 mg/dl

A fasting blood sugar level from 100 to 125 mg/dL (5.6 to 6.9 mmol/L) is considered prediabetes. If it's 126 mg/dL (7 mmol/L) or higher on two separate tests, you have diabetes. Oral glucose tolerance test. For this test, you fast overnight, and the fasting blood sugar level is measured.

Okay, I'd take that to mean I'm not diabetic.

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Ate 1/4 cup white rice, 1/4 cup peas and some sprinkled cheese at 4:34, with a tomato. Tasted good.

I'd surmise my blood sugar likely started at 100.

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sqqq


10/31 end 13.87, volume = 29 million

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the setting required on the lancing device was "pain mode activated", which is what was required to get enough blood, LOL.

Tested blood sugar at 5:37, about 1 hour after eating the meal (Which should've been peak), and went for a small walk, and blood sugar is 127mg/dl. And I feel energetic and satisfied (not hungry).

Yeah, so that meal was exactly....

1/4 cup rice, 1/4 cup peas, 2 tbsp vinegar, bunch of turmerick, 1 tomato, and about 2 ounces cheese sprinkled ontop.

This is the meal that seems to be making for some sound sleep. Maybe it's because it has a small impact on blood sugar?

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And I intend on starting out the sweet potatos tomorrow. Got the weight scale today so I can properly portion them. Hard to tell how much exactly with the potatos coming in both small and really large sizes.

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Yep, this song captures the current sentiment. Just want SOMEBODY to love, lol.

[youtube]5Jj3wZVc7nw[/youtube]

Standing earlier at the window today, almost could feel a passing sentiment of... having "the life". It was a comfortable feeling, not unlike the comfort established with the heb chick.

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Want to start the conversation off with...

"Hey loser! What's been happening in loserville lately?"

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Since starting the "low sugar" diet (2 bananas a day, at most), my receded gums have largely grown back and sleep seems to be better. And neck pain when swallowing is almost always absent.

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Taking another blood sugar reading at 10:30, some walking, mostly sitting since 5:30.

110mg/dl at 10:30, down from 127mg/dl peak at 5:30.

All I had today was that and 2 bananas, a little bit of cheese and some peanuts.

Doesn't seem like I actually had to eat that much to keep blood sugar levels up in the "normal range".

And, I normally eat 3 times as much rice/peas in day.

Wasn't able to sleep one night when I had 6 times as much. Not hard to see probably why now, there was likely sustained high blood sugar levels.

Think maybe I should be trimming back.

From the blood-sugar readings today, that distinct "hunger feeling" in the stomach is a pretty reliable indicator of lower blood sugar levels. Or so I think...

Thought I usually had to use "tiredness" as a marker, before. But not so sure now.

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It's interesting to see my mind entertaining this father help plotting and planning this marriage to his daughter.

Seems entertaining to think about, but pretty absurd, lol.

But, entertaining the possibility, I'd wonder if that'd signal "benevolent intentions" or if there would be ulterior motives.

Wouldn't seem like if the father was so actively involved, it'd be so benevolent, lol. But maybe it would be, he's helping his flock and all, an improviso match maker.

I get the sense my mind trying to think of these "theories", a seeming temporary lack of differentiation between fantasy and reality, which my mind later figures out, lol. But I do wonder sometimes if that capability is vanishing or has long been vanishing, lol.

[youtube]59Hj7bp38f8[/youtube]

Seems like I'm referencing Fiddler on the roof that often. Kind of obvious why, the entire movie is about getting married and the dynamics of those already married.

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Before in the past, if I was still up at 2 a.m., I'd just figure my bed time just got pushed back a little. Maybe I'd fall asleep at 3.

But now... it's almost a safe bet it's another sleepless night.

I wonder how long this will continue.

I get the sense most people would think "insomnia" and don't think much of it...

But I tend to think "heart problems", and attribute a little more significance to it, lol.

 

[swbluto]

Fell asleep at 3, woke at 7:10 a.m.

Since I ate at 12:30, want to test fasting at 8:30 a.m.

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Thinking about that girl, yep, I'd say a psychopath. I wouldn't think she's malicious, per se, but she does seem to affect/pretend to manipulate/influence as if it comes so naturally. Wears masks as needed to achieve the desired result. And she's not hiding her desire for money, but I like that she's at least upfront about it, lol.

I have nothing against the desire for money in females, but I am interested in how they want/intend to achieve. I'd find a girl who wants to make money thru investment/hard-work/skills/etc. a bit more acceptable than a girl who wants to merely take it, especially if they show psychopathy.

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http://www.diabetesforecast.org/2009/jul/why-is-my-blood-glucose-so-high-in-the-morning.html

Why Is My Blood Glucose So High in the Morning?

The cure is a ketogenic diet.
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Jessica Diane • 2 years ago
that is how I reversed this problem...It good Keto diet can do what nothing else can...

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Murray Brown Jessica • 2 years ago
How long did that take. I have not touched carbs for 6 weeks and while my glucose levels have come down they are still high (around 10) in the morning

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Murray Brown Murray Brown • a year ago
I will answer my own question. 6 months.

So, high fasting blood sugar in the morning indicates insulin resistance. Which is what pages online have been telling us in effect (Test for diabetes).

And, according to this bloke, the ketogenic diet reversed the diabetes and presumably restored normal insulin resistance in 6 months.

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So this (Nov1-Nov7, or somewhere in that area) is the diagnostic week of the shopping season. Reliably predicts the rest of the season in terms of consumer demand, if last years was telling.

So, essentially, I don't know what's going to happen this year until the first week concludes.

So far, seems a little slow. Which I was somewhat predicting from the happenings in the local economy.
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Tested blood glucose at 8:29 this morning, and it's 119mg/dl.

Wouldn't seem like the best time to be testing blood sugar since I just got 4 hours of sleep, essentially.

But, might be possibly indicative of insulin resistance.

125 is the cutoff for diabetes, and 119 is the high end of prediabetes (100-125).

I'd prefer taking morning fasting on a morning where I got a full night's sleep.

I also think it'd be distorted by eating a low GI meal just prior to falling asleep, by like 2 hours, because I wouldn't expect it'd to decline too much while sleeping, since sleep cuts the metabolic rate in half.

So ideally, last meal consumed by 8 p.m. Any hunger cures past that should be light snacks.

And that's probably a good practice to have.

And I'm definitely hungry right now, so current blood glucose levels are not indicative of morning hunger.

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So yes, I'm definitely diversifying this year. Now that I have a house (And have a roof that protects me from the rain) and electricity and we're soon entering the cold season which will kill off the mosquitos come Dec1, and I can get drywall in by Mar1, I have the usable floorspace and presumably will have the wherewithal to diversify as intended. This would simultaneously increase income and reduce taxes, something that would probably be highly desireable.

Building a second house takes second priority to that. Also notable, is that a second house would be something like $12,000-$20,000 depending on size, might not have the "easy capability" anyway... I'll have to see...

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So we need to reduce insulin resistance.

On physical activity side, bulk up and walk a lot.

On the diet side...

Ketogenic elements show promise.

It's notable that high protein was recommend for pancreaitis. It's like if sustained excess sugar causes pancreas problems, protein is the solution. So, protein sources seem like a good suggestion, too. But what quantity, I'm not sure.

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so started wondering if debt collectors were monitoring tinder...

I know they monitor facebook. Not hard to imagine they could be monitoring tinder. Plenty of bots on the platform.

But tinder is "first name" basis, with the possibility of finding the exact location. And age.

Then they could get a last name.

So with a first, last and age... could they figure out your social security or driver's license?

I'd think there'd have to be at least 1000 people in the USA with my first, last and age.

They'd need access the utility company's records.

And, oh shoot... according to how many of me... 399 in the USA with my full name. What about age?

Let's divide that by 50...

8 people or upto... 20 people,... with my first,last and age.

That's cutting it pretty close, lol.

Might want to watch out for wealth boasts on the tinder platform, lol. And DON'T USE THE DEFAULT LOCATION.

You wouldn't think debt collectors are putting in the footwork to physically find every male making a wealth boast on the platform... would they?

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So another way to do the fasting test is just to fast for 8 hours, so potentially can be done in the middle of the day.

Which I essentially was doing yesterday, and that would've been like 100mg/dl or some such, lol.

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Got the 2 wire storage racks deployed, and much of my paraphernalia is lifted now. So, now have traversible floorspace!

I can tell this is going to need to be removed (or moved) for the ceiling drywall, but that's going to be true of pretty much most anything in there. Should be relatively straightforward, small items are put in large containers, and large items are few in number.

The wire/pole storage racks are A LOT BETTER than the L-shaped holed metal posts with solid wood racks. SO MUCH EASIER TO SETUP, and I have a lot more confidence this thing is going to be sturdy. The mid-section on the L-shaped metal post racks look pretty iffy.

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horoscope of the day

Your prospects for fun and action beam with exciting possibilities. There are so many wonderful options on the table that you wish you could delight in all of them today. Of course, thats not a choice, so you need to figure out how to whittle things down. A deliberate process of elimination will likely weed out activities that are over-the-top or sound better than they actually are. Let a burning passion for something or someone be your guide.

Really? Lol. I guess maybe in due time... lol

Maybe it's referring to my parents coming in today and us going on a trip somewhere, just where exactly is the question... lol...

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Now 2:07 p.m., feeling "slightly" hungry, but not really hungry.

Last time at 8:30 a.m., I ate 2 bananas, and 60grams rice/pea carbs. Felt satisfying.

Blood glucose now measures 123mg/dl.

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had peanuts and water at 2:10, tasted great. Hunger no longer there. Feels like I gained energy/alertness.

Think baseline blood glucose is elevated by cortisol from 4 hours sleep last night. Sleep might've been cut short by the really late carb meal.

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sqqq

nov1 end 13.27, volume 17mil

oooo... getting close to my limit order price.

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Looks like so far, about half as busy as last year.

Mirrors the festival traffic this year. About half as busy.

Half as busy is still "pretty good", especially since the amount remaining needed in the house is pretty much covered. Just mostly means, no "Second house" potential. I could expand the house, but why would I want to.

The septic and water thing, though; ouch. would be curious at to the practical minimization of those costs. $2500 water and $2000 septic, so I'm guessing.

I wonder if this would presage a market crash.

It's interesting that the festival traffic predicted my sales this christmas (So far), I think they're reflective of the same thing. The underlying mainstreet economy. I suspect it's only time before wall street catches up. I think it's funny this guy on a youtube ad is like "The stock market is on fire, and you know it and I know it.", and I'm thinking "By on fire, you mean like the dirigible on fire kind of fire? lol".

But, this does mean that trends will be observable this year, since trending is happening.

So time to play some marley.

[youtube]L3HQMbQAWRc[/youtube]

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I sound like a spoiled princess complaining about no second house, don't I... lol

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walked a bit for about half an hour (prob hour cumulatively), and the last thing I ate was breakfast at 8:30 (2 bananas, 1/4 cup rice and 1/4 cup peas).

BS at 7:30 pm is 103mg/dl.

Don't feel that hungry, but don't want to wait until 12:30 a.m. to eat like last night. So, eating I will.

Was told that 80mg/dl is the normal "getting hungry" blood sugar levels, and if mine are at 100mg, that needs addressing.

So, think this means I need more physical activity to drive blood sugar down just in time for dinner. And I'm thinking this means more than 1 hour of walking. In particular, more METS or joules.

If bloodsugar levels are this high with 180 gram carb daily intake, imagine what they must've been when consuming 300grams carbs bananas a day.

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She's so odd. :lol:

Took a plane ticket specifically to halloween town, OR for halloween. oh lord, lol.

She was trying to find where the witches live, yep, plenty of wiccans live in Oregon.

She's the kind of person I feel like making so much fun of. And the thing is, I know that leads to attraction, but that's not the point, I don't think, feels like some of her actions are highly deserving of ridicule, lol.

I'm wondering if I'm wanting to bully her because I like her... or because she needs some bullying, lol.

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went to sleep around 11 pm I think, woke up at 3:20, took BS at 3:30 a.m. 98 mg/dl

While laying down shortly after 10, could definitely feel the blood sugar (So I suspected) coursing thru.

Not sure if I'd call this a full night's sleep, but I'd have an easier time believing I have a normal fasting of 98mg/dl.

Still, think I should be taking the measurement around 5 a.m. at least, after eating nothing.

I wondered if I got up at this time because of nocturnal hypoglycemia. And, I'm not sure if I'd call 98 mg/dl the kind of bloodsugar that'd wake people up, and I don't think I'd call it hypoglycemia.

 

[Dauntless]

The only reason you'd like bullying someone is that you like bullying.

Try thinking about building her a house like this. If you even can think of something nonbullying.

 

[swbluto]

She'd probably want something more like this, lol. Trees and everything, lol.

But yes, all stone exteriors are popular around here. Typical hallmarker of the expensive neighborhoods.

On the expense side, she seems to like traveling and clothes/wardrobe. Seems like she has a penchant for expensive tastes, and I'm noticing many of the guys she "misses the most" tend to be venture fund guys, lol. With her seemingly irregular job history and her skill and talent in infatuating, pared with the travels, I wonder if she's does a little prostitution on the side, lol.

I kid, I understand she likely doesn't have 20k plowed into real estate and the rest in the stock market, so all that discretionary income that I'm investing, she is likely blowing.

Peter schiff is talking about this being a "long protacted stock market decline" reminsicent of the stock market in the late 60s to 70s. His reasoning goes because of inflation (QEs, etc.), whereas the inflation then I believe stemmed from oil.

The buildup in IXIC (nasdaq 100) just looks like a characteristic mania bubble, and environment seems ripe for it to burst. But, it's not crashing as fast as I might normally expect for a typical maniacal peak. I think it might be like gold, whose peak I also called (MIND YOU, BEFORE IT PEAKED), whose decline was gradual but definite.

Could be that we haven't peaked yet, but will soon. Should explore that idea more closely...

What's the typical hallmarkers of something peaking.

Want a little bit more substantiation than "The graph looks like it", lol.

The prominent alternate theory is that it hasn't peaked yet, but it will relatively soon.

Of course, if it peaks in 2020 at ixic 10,000, then i'm wrong, lol.

Let's look at IPOs, maybe some clues there.

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She posts "I just get pulled into relationships with narcissistic dudes and it always ends the same way... it's a never ending curse"...

And my my...

Can't think straight, *whack whack whack*....

Just need to remember, out of sight, out of mind, lol.

I'm holding myself back, and why's that... feels like because of future financial uncertainty. Unfinished house that's like $6000 and 2 months away from finishing, realistically. But almost there... just like tantalus...

And no, I'm not pinning my hopes on this one person. That'd be foolish for any number of reasons.

I wouldn't say unrealistic, but yes, foolish.

 

[Dauntless]

So last night it hit me how to tell if the guy in the van is law enforcement. Get an outdoor barbeque going and see if he comes to get any.

Last night we had the turkeys in the deep fryer, as the first came out here came the first cops. Same some years back when my brother in law had a whole pig roasting. You'll get that one settled conclusively.

She's into narcissic guys and you think that means you're in. Fine, but what about paranoid, delusional, etc.? There's so much more for her to like before you have a chance.

Almost forgot. How DO you seek relevance? Well, first you come up with a product you're not ashamed of and would actually be willing to post. Then you become a self appointed spokesperson for a politician. Beto O'Rourke is available in your neck of the woods, but I don't know his prospects in Texas. The one Democratic governor had like a 65% approval rating when Dubya clobbered her.

https://www-m.cnn.com/2018/11/03/politics/donald-trump-mike-lindell-mypillow-midterms/index.html