Buying forest land, implementing solar

[swbluto]

I see, the pecking order refers to the habits of chickens to peck each other into submission in establishing the chicken hiearchy. Ok, that's not what I meant, lol. Definitely wasn't doing the pecking around the playground, lol. I think I was popular because I introduced new ideas to the group, mainly new games and various playground tricks and techniques, like fancy yoyo tricks, lol. I guess I did also play a mean game of wallball, lol. I was also the lead soccer player, but... eh... that's not really significant. This didn't necessarily translate across the puberty boundary line as other charactedristics tend to become valued, and I'd be guessing as to what those characteristics might really be. I do notice I tend to have flairups of thumbsups on the various social media sites when I comment without inhibition, whatever immediately comes to me, so I suspect maybe inhibition is one such factor. "Speaking before you're thinking", lol.

I don't have much inhibition as I used to. I don't need anyones approval for my material security, so fear of consequences tends to be lacking. Physical security (i.e., not getting shot) might be a different story, but that tends to be an issue only on some days past 6 p.m., lol.

Woman seem to beam when I come face to face with them lately. Not really sure why. Maybe I'm just feeling so good about that shed, lol.

Anyway, fact checking my diet.

Looks like bananas are awesome.
And so is peanut butter.
And haven't fact checked, but so is green peas, lol.

I don't see anything wrong with my diet, lol. I could certainly use some green leafies and small red globular fruits, lol, but I'm not feeling hungry. Seems like tiredness is a more reliable indicator than hunger if I need something to eat. So I don't think I could really blame diet for recent happenings. I'm just kind of hoping that all the screwy stuff yesterday is no longer an issue.

 

[swbluto]

OKay, stopped by and got some beans, rice and pico de gallo.

The rice appeared to be refried rice (Some kind of orange grease). [Likely canola oil; will ask for white rice nextime]
The beans definitely had salt added. Tasted delicious and I became more awake.

Anyway, I'm not entirely sure if bananas and peanut butter makes for a solid foundation. Because, my experience of the world sure did seem to improve following that meal.
ices.

This did not kick up acid reflux at all. Their chicken tacos normally do and their tacos consist of a small corn tortilla, chicken and a tiny bit of cheese additionally. It seems to me that likely the chicken or tortilla is the culprit. The tortilla is suspect because of being a processed carb, but the chicken may be suspect because they prepare it at 11 a.m. so they told me. I'm not sure if they have it sitting in the hot dish for 10 hours when I get there? If so, could breed bacteria and kick up the reflux. I don't entirely remember, but thought that would violate washington's food safety practices.

Anyway, I think about what attracted me to her, and I think I got it. Curiousity. But when I say curiousity, do I really mean something like "academic curiousity" or "interpersonal curiousity"?

My guess is probably interpersonal curiousity.

I kind of remember that from that book, "Win friends and influence people" or whatever. Taking a genuine interest in other people and asking accordingly was key to them liking you. Sure enough, this principle was being played out on me and it obviously worked, lol.

Anyway, when she took a step back as if to take a breather and started making baby noises, in my opinion, she looked possessed. Like, back in Nuke School, when the guys were baby talking with each other, they were obviously engaging with each other and looked fairly normal in doing so, despite being somewhat infantile and widely annoying to the others, lol. This girl just looked like she was possessed, lol, and that really freaked me out. I mean, I know she was't /really/ possessed... I understand she was just a little nonverbally unusual at times... but anyways. Yeah, that's kind of why I cut that convo off quickly. And I believe that's why her voice became nervous with fear of rejection, because she knew she just scared me off even if she might've not entirely knew why. And, obviously that wasn't her intention.

Taking a step back as if to take a breather and then started making baby noises...

Is this a shutdown mode of some sort? Maybe she wasn't trying to endear me. But, if that were the case, why would she've become so nervous as I left? Maybe it's all the above... overwhelmed into being reduced to the simplest responses and only the most latent emotions chose whatever responses that fulfilled the subsequent intention (endearment).

Still looked possessed.

I wonder... I mean "possessed by a spirit", but maybe she was possessed with something. Maybe she was possessed with my dream, lol. I still don't think that would normally lead to the "possessed by a spirit" look, lol.

Anyway, got the light installed in the shed and.... I realize this shed needs to be flooded with natural sunlight to get rid of that "dingy" dungeon look, lol. It'd be nice if could open the door and not have mosquitos come in. I think that's why the RV, at the moment is preferable to this shed, plenty of sunlight through the windows.

I suppose I could implement more 'windows' with my angle grinder.I'd use a proper square form this time, lol.

Anyway, she asked me in a angrily disapproving tone "Why the hell did you move [here]?" as if she believed it was a piece of chinga mierda.

I took it from our conversation that she liked Portland. And, she obviously had no idea what portland was really like, lol. It's where the young go to retire, yeah, no jobs and skyhigh rent. Homeless youth is a census registered demographic there, lol. (There are jobs there, but it's largely skilled college educated jobs. It's not somewhere I'd go as a young unskilled laborer unless you're like someone I know, and shacked up with family in the area.)

Anyway, the sense I got that she wanted to get out of here tells me she didn't feel like she belonged. That's not the reason why I left Spokane; I was seeking freedom from Wall Street and I wanted a place where I could grow a garden using the god-given resources there. And a warm winter climate. And, a place with a historically solid economy should I need a backup plan. And I wanted to be in a place with a wealthy economy should I find a good business opportunity there.

Spokane did not have any of that. Spokane, and the times, was arguably the cause of may wall street shackles. Well, not really... I could've just been a poor ass mofo with no spending money like every other millenial there... lol...m
What really polarized me against wall street was seeing my federal student loans being given to a wall street company that masqueraded as a government agency. Being sold out by the federal government to Wall Street inspired deep antipathy for both.

Age 18 though. Yes, I believed I felt the same.

I should've just joined the military, but the economy was like gangbusters at the time with no obvious warning signs (Dotcom bust didn't seem systemically indicative of any kind of grand weaknesses in the ecoomy), so the miltary seemed like a poor choice at the time. The current crop of 18 year olds have the benefit of learning from the current plights of the milenials. My roommate clearly was aware of this, which undoubtedly motivated his decision to join. He said he would have anyways... but he clearly knew of the current state of affairs... so he could just be saying that to make him seem like he was so smart, lol. He had that omniscience complex like so many at nuke school, lol.

Age 18 though, it's unlikely I would've prioritized saving for a house. But, I would've likely prioritized saving like a few of my fellow class members. But there is a risk I would've foolishly spent it... but then again, maybe not.

However, in his past life, he was an alleyway weapons trader (He specialized in ammo magazines). He may have been naturally attracted to the military, so maybe he wasn't lying.

Anyway, I noticed that the cocoa this morning spurred some anxiety and irritation. It has also caused 3 seconds of chest soreness in the past. I didn't have cocoa yesterday, so I could more readily tell the difference. It's plausible that maybe it's not good for me or I'm having a bit too much. Maybe I shouldn't be doubling up on it just because it has half the iron content, lol.

Anyway, anxiety and irritation aren't necessarily good. It's some of the main cardiac emotions. Both of these emotional states could lead to cardiac issues over the longterm, and cardiac issues can trigger both of these emotional states.

Now that I think of it, if I remember correctly, cocoa initially causes vasoconstriction but eventually leads to vasodilation. I should look more into this, because that would readily explain the phenomenon if there were a blockage and/or narrowing of the arteries. And if that's true, well, that's portentous, lol.

See no mention of vasoconstriction in the cocoa/theobromine literature(Plenty mentions of vasodilation), but plenty suggesting that it can increase anxiety. No mention of irritability.

Now the middle of the day (1;40 p.m.) and wow, that shed is definitely way more comfortable than the RV and I'm not running anything in the RV either. The shed fan on the lowest setting (20w) suffices for user comfort. I'm not using it now, though, because the neighbor appears to be burning off the rest of the brush and smoke is pervading the air intake. I personally want to keep my brush, because it helps create a privacy fence along my back side, lol. It kind of acts like a fence too: Not too many people are going to try climbing through the brush, lol. And it almost appears like that smoke is triggering a stroke, lol. Weird facial sensations on the left side of my head. (probably cervical phenomenon, at least I hope.)

 

[swbluto]

That's what I meant by possessed. These obviously don't look like her, but the face was pretty similar.

The other "possessed look" faces I see in google images just looks like "I want to kill you", definitely not that face, lol.

But, if it /were/ that face... I think becoming scared would be a rational response. Like a blackwidow baby? lol

I have triggered that kind of response in the past; that was pretty easy to read that time. Thrashing, anger face, etc., lol. I think it was likely she was married and/or engaged, had the fourth ring finger on. You could ask me "Why didn't you look", uh yeah, I wasn't really checking her out well ahead of time and she was taking my order, lol, it was the first thing that came to me. That was inconsequential, felt bad for a little while, but brushed it off pretty quickly. Pretty easy with those oh so friendly nuke girls, lol. One of them came from "The Valley" of LA. She described to me what "Valley girls" meant in reference to the geography of LA, and I totally understood the term then. Didn't know that girls from a particular part of LA would speak like that and nowhere else, lol. Apparently her family worked as the supporting staff in hollywood productions.

Oh, and yesterday, I heard knocking in the backyard so I checked it out and saw two red-headed woodpeckers. It's interesting, there's a number of red birds here. Red cardinal is definitely here.

 

[swbluto]

Trying to figure out how to do a DIY fiberglass pool. I figure it's just like a DIY fiberglass kit car, right? lol. I'm looking at 6'x24' (Basically a swimming lane). I'm going to prioritize it after the first segment of the house, but if it's cheap enough, maybe I'll forgo the house and implement the pool first, lol. I really want a pool, lol. Hopping on trees for exercise is great and anything, but I could totally swim everyday if I had the opportunity.

I saw the 24' above ground pools by walmart. 12' width is a little too wide. If they made a 6' width version, I'd be pretty tempted, especially at their price point.

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It's close, but I know I don't care if a girl's laughing, lol. It's just basically confidence in yourself, saying the first thing that comes to mind damned the consequences! Lack of fear in fully expressing the emotion behind the thought whatever comes to mind (in regard to intonation/volume/etc.). (Well, not always... where decorum is expected. But, yes, I'd say that's pretty much true for personal attraction.)

I think the same is probably true vice versa. Seems to be.


I know this first hand... say whatever you're thinking... has produced the funnest things I've been in. The day before I was getting out the navy, oh yeah,I had no problems letting them know what I was thinking (I was mistreated, you see.). She said "Hey guys, why don't you stop peeing on the head.", and she had that really annoying pissant voice like she always had, so I let her know what I was thinking "Hey, why don't just /suck my dick/!". That stirred some emotion in the crowd, lol, and my roommates we're tellingme that was the funnest nightly rollcall they've been too, lol. (They didn't acknowledge my contribution, because they were just perceived the zeitgeist of the crowd, and I just happened to be a major contributor that night, lol.)

Anyway, as a critique to the black guy's behavior in that video. He folded forward his shoulders when the female spoke to him. I know he wasn't trying to attract her but if he were, he shouldn't have done that, lol. Keep those shoulders and head back.

Anyway, I'm thinking through alternative designs. I see they use steel bars to support the bladder in the intex design. I wonder if I could create a wooden pool frame and put a bladder inside of that? Seems possible. Seems kind of unappealing to a permanent pool, but it'd probably be faster/cheaper to implement.

On the otherhand, doesn't look bad with some wood staining. Apparently could be constructed from wood and above ground pool liner.

It looks like I'm looking for a certain kind of pool liner designed for 6' wide pools, lol. I wonder if there's anyone that cuts pool liners to size? It doesn't seem like they make 6' wide pool liners as standard options.

For something 5 ft on each side, 6 feet wide, the pool liner would be 16 feet wide. The length is 24 feet, including height, 34 feet for the pool liner. The area is 544 sq. ft.; According to https://www.poolsupplies.com/page/inground-liners , they quote "As low as 99 cents a square foot" so about $550 or so. I haven't done the frame estimates, but I'd guess $400.

So about $1000.

Well, this is getting tempting, lol.

I'm thinking the inner column wood pieces along the length would benefit from shoring them up.

the wikihow article I was reading was like "There's a chance for catastrophic failure due to water pressure" and I'm thinking back my navy basic training "Just shore the wall up!", lol.

 

[swbluto]

As far as my dating marketability (Not that I /really/ really care... but, I guess maybe a little. I don't really care when I'm here at home, but I do care when I [strike]see[/strike] meet a girl I like, lol.), should I build a pool or a house?

Google images is not helping me. I'd surmise houses are likely more important, but ... man... I just don't feel like /I/ need a house, especially not if I could have a pool RIGHT NOW. lol

I know the're more important actually, one of the first questions I get when meeting a potential interestee is "Are you planning on building a house?". They do not ask about pools, lol.

Back in Spokane with the "renters market" of the west coast, the first question was "Do you have an apartment"? I wasn't even really attracted to her, especially not after that. My gosh, I felt like she was looking to use me with no romantic elementsed whatsoever. At least that one girl was endearing in a way, at least tried. And she didn't ask, she inferred it. She's actually... normal?

Normal people avoid being explicit, make inferences and express emotions?

Maybe that why I thought she was creepy, lol.

I don't want /that/ to divide us when I like her, though, lol.

And I mean... I wouldn't /mind/ if she was that kind of weird friendly California girl I once knew, lol. But she's not, get over it, lol.

[Those two questions were "Do you have an apartment? Do you have a job?"]

I keep remembering this one French girl, she just moved in. And she just munched and told me which foods were good and which ones weren't, no explanation behind it. I thought she was the lamest person ever. And I really have no idea if that actually happened, lol, because it seems bizarre. I think it did happen, but she didn't actually "move in" to a house or something. I'm not really sure where I briefly met her. But I feel like I did, otherwise, I wouldn't have this memory, lol.

 

[swbluto]

Okay, turns out my 1000 watt generator can work at 75% of my normal capacity if I tweak things.

And, I'm now working in the shed because the RV is hot as hell, lol. And, yes, it is very cool in here with the fan on the lowest setting. "The office" known as my shed could very easily be ran on fairly low watts, I'm thinking probably 70 watts max (Very possible to run off of nominal solar).

Anyway, just need to do some comp work and do some 2000w generator maintenance. I'm hoping 'regular maintenance' should get it back running; I hope I don't have to mess with the 1) fuel lines 2) fuel filter 3) carbuerator 4) the two jets in the carburator, lol. Because I really don't know which one I should be messing with if any were the problem. And, it looks hard, lol. But, I figure in this line of work, these kinds of skills will become necessary to learn.

I will reconfirm, it is totally cool in the shed under the shade of the forest's canopy with a light fan running at 20w during the middle of the day. Yes, it is completely possible to live in Texas without AC, lol. It just seems a sort of inevitable compromise that the structure can't be too large or it won't be able to fit between the shade giving trees. Kind of running into that issue with my planned courtyard house. Doesn't seem like I'll be able to build an entire wing without exposing a large part of it to the sun. I guess those parts of that house won't be normally used during the midsummer day, lol.

(I guess if you plant shade trees around the courtyard, fans in the widows would be able to supply enough fresh cool air to keep the rooms cool at nominal power. Could be entirely solar powered, which would work precisely when it's wanted the most.

Anyway, was having a bit of tickling in the back of my throat this morning, coughing and the waking up at 4:00 a.m. this morning was strangely sorely painful in my chest/throat. I'm thinking either lung congestion due to heart failure or acid reflux.

Known triggers.
Getting excited and saying something loud *tickle* *tickle* *cough*
Bending fowards

I could see the case for Acid Reflux here, but I can't rule out congested lungs, especially not in light of recent events. I could blame all that weird phenomenon the from eating the watermelon/cheese on "Well, I just didn't get enough sleep 2 days ago, and so I suddenly got sleepy and feeling weird.", but even if that were true, I wouldn't normally think it'd impose itself unrelentingly while I walked and I did not wish it. And, I thought about it and I thought maybe... it's all the salt from the cheese. If that's the case, that could indicate heart failure since high salt loads is a known trigger.

I'm not really sure if that fatigued under the weather feeling at the mexican grocery after eating 5 tacos one time might've been a heart attack and I'm now in the congestive heart failure phase. I just hope not, lol.

Now that I'm enjoying the coolness of the shed, I'm starting to think "maybe a pool isn't so urgent, let's build a house first.", lol. I largely wanted a pool because of overheating in the RV all day, lol.

 

[swbluto]

The sexiest mugshot guy... lol.... that's just the "I want you" look. You do not turn away nor flinch when she notices, many will melt. Gals apparently like a man who isn't afraid to show them who they want.

 

[Dauntless]

Oh, your generator isn't good enough. Meanwhile, where is this solar array you promised us from the very start?

And let's come up with a way to liven up your bland life. How about a trip to Lesbos island, where the magazine promises us the women are quite lonely. And possibly animated, from the picture. You get the idea the rifle was just a prp to her, eh?

 

[swbluto]

Eh, I don'tknow if I'd like lonely women, lol. I guess if they were starved for attention and there was nothing wrong with them, lol. I do like, however... spirited/energetic women, lol. Which strangely enough, is how I like my dogs, lol. They don't seem to be out here. I do see women on a pretty regular basis, though, mainly cashiers and the such. And they can tell I'm looking and act accordingly, lol, and that just makes me feel good and hopeful for a couple hours, lol. Then I'm stuck here the next day feeling so depressed and momentarily suicidal until I meet someone else, and then I feel like my existence has been validated for at least another couple hours, lol. It seems my pride is contagious.

And, you're right. The little bunny that comprised the spice of my life is gone. I haven't seen him/her for the last 2 weeks. I have no idea if the local hunter has killed him/her (Not unlikely) or if my killing his/her parent led to its eventual death? The little bunny seemed to know how to eat grass, lol.

Anyway, need to do a tool sweep. Realizing I don't have all the tools I need for generator maintenance in my toolbox.

The solar array was based on the assumption I would have $3000 to buy one of the many $700 RVs on craigslist, $500 for gas/lodging, and then an extra $1500 for getting solar working.

But, then something happened. Van broke down before I could even get to my property, lol. Had no idea what the hell was going on, had some guys do the solving for me, and they charged me a "not so bad" fee of $900. And the RV was actually $1200 because all the $700 listings were of people who already sold it and weren't responding to inquiries, lol. So, my cash position was wiped out big time before I could even get started. Anyway, I'm finding I could run the business off of generator, which isn't so bad. It'd be hard running it off solar since it'd require lots of batteries. 12kwh/day is a pretty hefty requirement for batteries. It'd be possible to get a blend, and I'm vouching for getting office equipment running off of solar because the energy usage is low enough and solar costs are affordable enough. But there are priorities...

Like that pool, lol. And the house. So close yet so far away, trudging to get there day by day.

I really should get that garden going. That's the dream I mentioned to her that caused a sudden change in her regard. I have a feeling that's exactly the kind of therapy I need. Maybe get some fluffy lop-eared bunnies. I wish I could just pick up some sod. I'd love to create a little patch of grass with gridding underneath where the bunny would hop around. It does't feel right having a bunny stuck in a cage, like my neighbors.

Girls popped the question about the bananers. They were just sitting their giggling and laughing together all over, I swear to god they were about to have a lesbian makeout session or something, lol. I really had no idea why... did they think I really wanted to see a lesbian makeout session? lol.

And, I'm getting lumbar nerve pinching issues in this card table chair, lol. That's some electrical stabbing feeling in my groin there, lol. That's definitely adding dimension to my day, lol.

Anyway, I'm finding this "most powerful LED light" is good for this shed. Can pretty clearly the mosquitos when they invade in the evening. I found they were entering through the ridges ontop, so I plugged it with paper towels and no more mosquits.

 

[DAND214]

Don't you think that you better call 911? If I had a heat attack as often as you do, I sure would.

Dan

 

[swbluto]

Don't you think that you better call 911? If I had a heat attack as often as you do, I sure would.

Dan

I don't know if they are or not? feeling funny and under the weather in response to eating something doesn't immediately scream "heart attack"? It's a suspicion, that's pretty much it. If I started losing my breath or there were tremendous chest pain or some other "clearly can't deny" sign.... YOU BET I'd be calling! lol.

Anyway, I'm thinking through the wisdom of being in a metal shed during a thunderstorm right now... yes, it's raining and thundering right now....

 

[DAND214]

DON'T TOUCH THE WALLS!!!

Dan

 

[Dauntless]

What makes you think that 911 hasn't blocked his calls by now

I do like, however... spirited/energetic women, lol. Which strangely enough, is how I like my dogs

Next comes the Tijuana fantasizes.

 

[Dauntless]

I have found articles about him making a living with his art. There's even a picture of him working. (If you have the stomach to look.)

http://www.escape.com.au/news/its-not-rude-its-art-art-series-hotels-want-your-nude-selfies/news-story/31670da1266536880b5eaa5ad0d06048

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-4427482/Hotel-promotion-encourages-visitors-nude-selfies.html

 

[swbluto]

Post-prandial hypotension could lead to one feeling weird. Coincidentally, I just ate a watermelon prior late at night. While that still seems somewhat farfetched (Wouldn't think an innocent watermelon could normally do that), it at least serves as a logical explanation. Now as to the tacos causing that tiredness/undertheweather feeling... I'd imagine a similar etiology given how close those two events were to each other and having the same significance in effect but I don't know how tacos would cause vasodilation or hypotension. The other two common factors in both those events is salt and maybe carb intake.

http://forums.webmd.com/3/heart-disease-exchange/forum/3201

When Does Neurocardiogenic Syncope (NCS) Lead to Symptoms?

When Does Neurocardiogenic Syncope (NCS) Lead to Symptoms?

NCS occurs in predisposed individuals in the following settings:

After prolonged periods of quiet upright posture (such as standing in line).

After being in a warm environment (such as in hot summer weather, a hot crowded room, a hot shower or bath).

Immediately after exercise.

After emotionally stressful events (having blood drawn, being scared or anxious).

Oh, being in a warm environment. Well no denying I've been in those environments lately, lol.

 

[swbluto]

Next comes the Tijuana fantasizes.

It's funny you should mention that. The local mex grocer was telling me about the "lady bars" at the border town where she was meeting her family. Possibilities are running through my mind...

A bar where no men are allowed
A stripclub/gentlement's club where men are VERY MUCH allowed, lol

I figured she was referring to the latter because, after asking her, she confirmed lots of gringos were there like I would suspect and because she had to make the point that I'm not the type that would go there. pffttt.... I can do anything I want, beeaaaatch, lol. But, it's true... well... no... maybe not. I don't get off on random girls, but if there was particular one I liked who happened to be at said bar, maybe. It does seem kind of doubtful the kind of lady I sought would work at one of these places. But then again, I don't really know, maybe. I do seem to have a thing for the town slut, and I think that's because lots of guys thinks she sexy as do I, and goes for her, and she has the same relinquishment rate as any girl so she inevitably fulfills that role in the community. The town sluts are rarely unattractive.

There's also the rebellious "Break all the rules" town slut. That's the kind that's not necessarily attractive but is pretty actively advertising. I don't really go for that kind, at least not recently. I did not find that girl spreading her legs and staring me down all that attractive. And now that I think about it, that's happened more than once, too... that's curious. I didn't really think of that particular girl as the rebellious "break all the rules" kind, I guess not everybody fits a mold.

It kind of sucks I don't think of girls as cute anymore until after we interact and she "becomes cute". I'm just thinking it'd be a lot easier knowing where to focus my efforts if I could spot cute girls before I interacted with them. That happened quite often when I was young, could spot cute girls a mile away. I was told this loss-of-perceived-cuteness was normal by a bunch of girls but what do they know? lol.

I half suspect that's because this cuteness is mainly in younger gals, and many of my same-aged peers lost their youth as we got older. But, that doesn't explain that one particular girl. "You're cute when you're angry" - Maybe that's it.

https://www.quora.com/Why-do-men-say-Youre-cute-when-youre-angry-to-women-What-maks-it-attractive-to-them-Or-is-this-said-just-to-annoy-the-woman

These guys make it sound like its manipulative technique and they don't /really/ think shes cute. Hmm.... I don't know about that, lol. I didn't really think she was cute until precisely she became angry. She was wearing the fake smile all the way through until that point; maybe I found her true-to-self expressions oh-so-adorable.

On another note, some gf offered to suck a guy off when he was angry. Maybe anger makes you sexy. That angry german was rather sexy, lol. Maybe it's precisely how Hitler rose to power, lol. People like to call it his charisma ; maybe it was his anger.

 

[DAND214]

All I want to know is. What and where are you going to do with her, Take her to the Shed for a real thrashing?

You appear to be all talk/type and no action/solar!

Dan

 

[swbluto]

All I want to know is. What and where are you going to do with her, Take her to the Shed for a real thrashing?

You appear to be all talk/type and no action/solar!

Dan

Who are you talking about? As to no action, lol, well... I do maintain a modicum of privacy. And I don't feel like I'm suggesting I /f/ every girl that makes an advance, lol. If that were true, I would have slayed hundreds by now (That's an exagerration, I'd say a good 20 or so.). Also, because, in my recent experience... said threads tend to get inexplicably removed.And it's just not here; it's just about everywhere.

If you're talking about the HEB chick. I haven't seen her because she works days and I leave at night now. That's why getting the fence up was so important; to leave during the day. But, by the time it looks like that's happening, it's just been a little too long and the iron has likely cooled. I won't say I've given up on her, but she's not a priority as I've given up on the idea she's given up. She didn't look like she was "Waiting" when I came across her. Even though it felt like there was a strong bond between us as if we made commitment to one another, no explicit agreements were made and time and distance is instilling much doubt.

As to shacking up, well, I have an RV. The bed makes up a rather large percentage so it'd be hard to miss, lol.

But, you're right... maybe I should prioritize the house, lol.

If I sold a few things, I could have both the house and the pool, lol. Feeling pretty confident that's what I might do, lol.

Man typing this is making me so.... ugggg......lol

And dang it, I want to find my tools but it won't stop raining, lol.

It's funny, this energy is the same one that wants to kill my enemies and to love my love. Just like the greeks. What is it, really? I want to find a name for this energy. It feels like the same energy behind the saying "All is fair in love and war".

I feel like calling it passion, but that doesn't quite capture the life&death essence.

Maybe it's just low blood sugar speaking. This banana tastes pretty darn good right now.

Nevermind, that definitely was not low bloodsugar speaking, lol.

 

[swbluto]

Okay, got some more bananas and this nice lady bought them for me. Thank you nice lady!

I educated her on the wonders of bananas, and she felt so enlightened, having found a natural replacement for the magnesium and trypophan supplements she gave her son to help him sleep.

I don't know if she felt like I helped her, or if she could "feel the love" in my voice, lol. Because, yeah, it seems like I have that affect; people suddenly become happy and somewhat excited as they talk with each other. Definitely more conversant on random topics. I'm guessing my confident compliment on her dietary choices may have helped her feel better about herself. (I did have private internal critiques on her particular choices; namely, the pizza, juices and juice bars, lol. But, she had a lot of produce and good foods which harmonized congruently with my inner spirit, lol. Did I do a good job with projecting that new age vibe? lol.)

And, did I see a MILF on the way out. Yeah, nevermind, I can definitely see cuteness in the real world, lol. She was a little bit older (Later 20s) so she already had children; I'm becoming pretty certain if you want a cute girl without children in this area, you need to get them while they're young (early 20s), lol. That's not necessarily true across the USA, but it seems to be the case here.

I'm becoming convinced you meet/see the desirables more during the middle of the day. Don't really know why, seems to be the trend.

And, I think I want to inspect the fuel filter before I try to get the generator back in service tomorrow. Seems like that'd be the next likely issue looking at the service chart that doesn't look too hard to fix (I.e., not like disassembling and cleaning the carburator, lol. Oh god if I have to do that; I'm pretty sure I'm buying another gennie if I have to, lol.).

Anyway, need to anchor down the shed and put silicone sealant along the floor. Appears water likes to leak inside along the front (Maybe I'll only need to do the front). Also need to put water sealant on the outside exposed wood. And there appears to be a screw I'm going to have to seal off, water leak there.

 

[Dauntless]

You appear to be all talk/type and no action/solar!

Dan

He would have to be REAL to be action/solar!

Okay, got some more bananas and this nice lady bought them for me.

This "Lady." Might the rest of us use the term 'Cougar?' How DEEP did her interest in bananas run?

. . . .if she could "feel the love" in my voice

Perhaps her past relation with bananas was showing.

And, did I see a MILF on the way out. Yeah, nevermind,

Oh, quite the contrary, we're waiting desperately for SOMETHING. Especially Dan.

As to shacking up, well, I have an RV.

Yeah, if you're not deep in the Ozarks, the girl probably has no romantic notions of a shed far from civilization. And since you probably don't have any relatives there, well, I guess your chances would be relative, themselves.

A bar where no men are allowed

Just the women and the dogs? So you stand outside imagining?

There's also the rebellious "Break all the rules" town slut.

Yeah, I think that's exactly what Dan wants to hear about. In fact I think you'd have everybody reading. . . .

 

[swbluto]

Okay, about the "Break all the rules" town slut. I was forced to share a space with her along with a bunch of other guys. She flirted with all the guys, what can I say. She flouted the fact she kept a list of all the guys she f'ed in her pocket. She spread the eagle and gave me the come hither look, she brushed her hand up and down my neck which kind of turned me on. I never did anything with her though, because she... was the town slut. And I didn't want my name on her list, lol. I thought she was really stupid, putting on such a stupid show that apparently all the gullible believed. ("I"m such a bad girl because of my abusive childhood"; seriously? She got off on the fact she was breaking rules. I have a strong feeling her explicit sluttiness was key to that.)

I bet you if I started verbally berating her for her sluttiness and general BSness, she'd be like "Please daddy, spank me hard, just like in my childhood.". I get the strange feeling she was trying to find the man who'd reprimand her. Seems to be a common theme. Lots of hoes seem to be like "Please keep me in check".

 

[Dauntless]

Yeah, baby. So read to us from the list. Did she keep any notes on the experiences?

So when are we going to hear more on this "Reprimand?"

 

[swbluto]

No, it was just a bunch of names. The group deduced she did one new guy a week, and I'm assuming she was there for about half a year, so I'm guessing that's about 20-something guys. I don't believe she went into details about the experiences, lol, the guys were just shocked at how prolific she was and were "gently disapproving" of it.

What's funny about that experience is that all came about because I arranged the chairs into a "small circle" instead of a line like normal. The conversation that ensued became intimate very quickly, lol. I did that because I noticed people didn't really change the chairs, they just sat wherever they happened to be, and I just wondered what would've happened if I put in a close circle, lol. I found out fast, lol. Close face-to-face = intimate fast.

 

[Dauntless]

The group deduced she did one new guy a week. , ,the guys were just shocked at how prolific she was and were "gently disapproving" of it.

Except for the one a week.

What's funny about that experience is that all came about because I arranged the chairs into a "small circle" instead of a line like normal. The conversation that ensued became intimate very quickly, lol. I did that because I noticed people didn't really change the chairs, they just sat wherever they happened to be, and I just wondered what would've happened if I put in a close circle, lol. I found out fast, lol. Close face-to-face = intimate fast.

Ah, yes, a support group for the not one a week.

 

[swbluto]

Yeah, that's the look I'm talking about. Makes those interested women melt. If they aren't interested... yet... they'll look at you like... "Who do you think you are?", lol. And you have to let them know.

Google is calling it the "Sexy look", I'm calling it the "I want you" look, lol. Because, yeah, that's usually the desire that leads to that expression. It's not like you use it because you're feeling sexy, lol.

Synposis... gosh, do I have to describe this....lol... slightly narrow the eyes, stare forward, do not flinch or look away, slightly tuck in chin.

I did this in my younger years, but I had the habit of pulling away. And, man... it feels like I haven't done any of this in a while. It seems so strange for everything that's happened since.