Buying forest land, implementing solar
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And this particular girl, even though there was palpable chemistry between us, I don't think one can readily assume she was widely attractive to most guys (As I said, she kind of comes off as a little bit flighty.). If she were, I don't think she'd feel compelled to flirt with everyone as she was. So, your depiction of the beautiful blond hair girls might not be quite that accurate. I certainly don't think she was ugly by any means and I thought her personality was 'cute as hell'... but her being a little kooky... that's probably a fair assessment. [When I use the word "little", I'm just trying to be polite(r).]
And, it actuality, I don't express as much interest in front of her as I do here during certain parts of the day (Not that I'm feigning disinterest, per se, but not really feeling like I need her.). So, no problems, I got that covered. Those certain parts of the day would be those parts of the day I might be feeling particularly lascivious and/or disattisifed with the current situation/thought of the moment, and seeking greener pastures.
And right now I'm feeling like cuddling and a warm embrace. But, hell, I know that's not possible out in the middle of nowhere, lol.
Actually, I'm a little bit paranoid that the people looking for me might've linked my identity to this handle somehow, and they could possibly discover my posts in this forum, and there's a chance they'd come across identifying pictures that'd help in locating me. It's a pretty remote possibility, but it's worth considering with what's at stake. Before it was a hypothetical "They could be looking for me", but now it's confirmed.
And, it's the not feds for me. It's likely going to be a PI being funded by a very powerful organization.
And, it actuality, I don't express as much interest in front of her as I do here during certain parts of the day (Not that I'm feigning disinterest, per se, but not really feeling like I need her.). So, no problems, I got that covered. Those certain parts of the day would be those parts of the day I might be feeling particularly lascivious and/or disattisifed with the current situation/thought of the moment, and seeking greener pastures.
And right now I'm feeling like cuddling and a warm embrace. But, hell, I know that's not possible out in the middle of nowhere, lol.
Actually, I'm a little bit paranoid that the people looking for me might've linked my identity to this handle somehow, and they could possibly discover my posts in this forum, and there's a chance they'd come across identifying pictures that'd help in locating me. It's a pretty remote possibility, but it's worth considering with what's at stake. Before it was a hypothetical "They could be looking for me", but now it's confirmed.
And, it's the not feds for me. It's likely going to be a PI being funded by a very powerful organization.
Just realized that undulating o-face that I thought she had that was unusual (At least in the way she did it), yeah, I just realized that was the "OMG, so hott" face, and she was getting turned on. She wasn't wafting her face, so it wasn't that obvious.
Then after that... it morphed into the infatuation look I've extensively described. Then the choking on-her-words baby noises.
Which totally makes sense, considering I was just making the move on her, lol. That would be the desired effect, I'd think. I didn't think it would have that kind of effect, but that certainly would've been the desired effect. (I want you, want me too, please. lol)
I came to this realization during imagining where the situation could've led if it weren't public.
Anyway, I think it's perfectly okay to express interest BUT... it helps to be fearless and demanding about it (Depending on the girl, she might appreciate some tact; if you don't have it, that's ok, just need to find the right girl or a good approach.). If you come across like a pussy who's afraid of getting rejected, guess what's going to happen... yep... you bet.
Man... I seem slow on the sexual faces uptake, lol. It took this long to figure it out? lol. Nah, I'm going to be a man and say it's all her fault, lol. Her facial expressions were just way too subtle for my quick pickup, and maybe it was just as well I rejected her. Like, I can't predict how that would've worked out in the longterm, but I've seen many anecdotes suggesting that emotional incompatibility is a pretty big predictor of relationship failure. But... in the short term... we definitely had a thing going on. And maybe that wouldn't have really been a huge problem even though it kind of seemed like it at that particular point. (It maybe wouldn't have been a huge problem because we both bounced back to cheeriness and were adaptable; didn't really persist on misperceptions and quickly shifted away from them.)
"Difficulty relating to others and subsesquential feelings of suicide", I wonder if that's really where that was coming from, not that I was suicidal because I was missing her and hadn't seen her for days. These feelings were common in highschool and I assumed it was because I was undesired. But, I was highly desired by this girl, and I still had those feelings. So... yeah... I don't think how much you're liked has anything to do with it. Could explain why Skylar Cullitan went off. He might've had trouble relating, despite his attention seeking and overt popularity.
There is definitely something different about my brain but it's pure speculation what. I wonder about my cortical density (neuron population size divided by volume, or maybe just simply the neuron population size.) and how maybe my limbic system might've been affected by that.
If my neuron population size is really just too much and its overcrowding my skull, I wonder how that might affect things like brain cancer risk, lol. I thought maybe there's a connection, but I don't really know.
Anyway, all these green tiny berries on the plants thoughtout my property are just now turning a pretty shade of lavendar. I see all these berries everywhere and I'm just wondering if these things are edible? lol. These plants seem to like growing in the depressions where the soil is moister, and that makes me suspect that watermelons definitely benefit from depressions here (As opposed to mounds).
https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2016/04/160413120954.htm
That's interesting. Suggests maybe it's a superior gene set to have at least in terms of cancer risk.
https://spectrumnews.org/news/adults-with-autism-are-at-risk-for-host-of-health-problems/
Definitely doesn't seem to be good for everything else, lol.
I don't think I have autism because I went to an ASD meeting once and, oh jeez, I really didn't feel like I belonged at all. Unlike the other participants there, I was pretty effective at making the other people happier, lol, which they clearly weren't at times. lol The fact I was so skilled in effecting their emotions, and I obviously did not feel like I belonged at all, lol, kind of instantly dispelled the idea I was autistic, lol. At least not /that/ autistic.
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Yep, there's the face. FOUND IT, holy crap, that took a long time. I almost think this is one of the rarest faces to capture.
https://www.google.com/url?sa=i&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=images&cd=&ved=0ahUKEwiLvenPxrHVAhUDRiYKHRdfBfkQjBwIBA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fcommentanypage.com%2Fwimg%2F7924271&psig=AFQjCNHiroEQDAe-yMu6Dx0NWqfwpYnkgg&ust=1501522781852881
She was looking downwards left and right while making this face, I guess avoiding facial contact to avoid exposing her emotions (I'd guess she was trying to subdue it), but then I guess she decided it was time to return like a moth to a light, and then the adrenaline was rushing.
Then after that... it morphed into the infatuation look I've extensively described. Then the choking on-her-words baby noises.
Which totally makes sense, considering I was just making the move on her, lol. That would be the desired effect, I'd think. I didn't think it would have that kind of effect, but that certainly would've been the desired effect. (I want you, want me too, please. lol)
I came to this realization during imagining where the situation could've led if it weren't public.
Anyway, I think it's perfectly okay to express interest BUT... it helps to be fearless and demanding about it (Depending on the girl, she might appreciate some tact; if you don't have it, that's ok, just need to find the right girl or a good approach.). If you come across like a pussy who's afraid of getting rejected, guess what's going to happen... yep... you bet.
Man... I seem slow on the sexual faces uptake, lol. It took this long to figure it out? lol. Nah, I'm going to be a man and say it's all her fault, lol. Her facial expressions were just way too subtle for my quick pickup, and maybe it was just as well I rejected her. Like, I can't predict how that would've worked out in the longterm, but I've seen many anecdotes suggesting that emotional incompatibility is a pretty big predictor of relationship failure. But... in the short term... we definitely had a thing going on. And maybe that wouldn't have really been a huge problem even though it kind of seemed like it at that particular point. (It maybe wouldn't have been a huge problem because we both bounced back to cheeriness and were adaptable; didn't really persist on misperceptions and quickly shifted away from them.)
"Difficulty relating to others and subsesquential feelings of suicide", I wonder if that's really where that was coming from, not that I was suicidal because I was missing her and hadn't seen her for days. These feelings were common in highschool and I assumed it was because I was undesired. But, I was highly desired by this girl, and I still had those feelings. So... yeah... I don't think how much you're liked has anything to do with it. Could explain why Skylar Cullitan went off. He might've had trouble relating, despite his attention seeking and overt popularity.
There is definitely something different about my brain but it's pure speculation what. I wonder about my cortical density (neuron population size divided by volume, or maybe just simply the neuron population size.) and how maybe my limbic system might've been affected by that.
If my neuron population size is really just too much and its overcrowding my skull, I wonder how that might affect things like brain cancer risk, lol. I thought maybe there's a connection, but I don't really know.
Anyway, all these green tiny berries on the plants thoughtout my property are just now turning a pretty shade of lavendar. I see all these berries everywhere and I'm just wondering if these things are edible? lol. These plants seem to like growing in the depressions where the soil is moister, and that makes me suspect that watermelons definitely benefit from depressions here (As opposed to mounds).
https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2016/04/160413120954.htm
That's interesting. Suggests maybe it's a superior gene set to have at least in terms of cancer risk.
https://spectrumnews.org/news/adults-with-autism-are-at-risk-for-host-of-health-problems/
Definitely doesn't seem to be good for everything else, lol.
I don't think I have autism because I went to an ASD meeting once and, oh jeez, I really didn't feel like I belonged at all. Unlike the other participants there, I was pretty effective at making the other people happier, lol, which they clearly weren't at times. lol The fact I was so skilled in effecting their emotions, and I obviously did not feel like I belonged at all, lol, kind of instantly dispelled the idea I was autistic, lol. At least not /that/ autistic.
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Yep, there's the face. FOUND IT, holy crap, that took a long time. I almost think this is one of the rarest faces to capture.
https://www.google.com/url?sa=i&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=images&cd=&ved=0ahUKEwiLvenPxrHVAhUDRiYKHRdfBfkQjBwIBA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fcommentanypage.com%2Fwimg%2F7924271&psig=AFQjCNHiroEQDAe-yMu6Dx0NWqfwpYnkgg&ust=1501522781852881
She was looking downwards left and right while making this face, I guess avoiding facial contact to avoid exposing her emotions (I'd guess she was trying to subdue it), but then I guess she decided it was time to return like a moth to a light, and then the adrenaline was rushing.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Callicarpa_americana
The tiny purple berries on my property. They seem like they're ripening right now.
And this area definitely has red cardinals and woodpeckers. It has others too, I haven't identified them though.
The red cardinals seem to subsist off the bugs on the treebark, and I've only seen them feed off the bark of fallen trees.
The tiny purple berries on my property. They seem like they're ripening right now.
And this area definitely has red cardinals and woodpeckers. It has others too, I haven't identified them though.
The red cardinals seem to subsist off the bugs on the treebark, and I've only seen them feed off the bark of fallen trees.
I'm thinking for subsistence, I might try growing cherry tomatos. I noticed that cherry tomatos have an easy time at satisfying blood sugar demands, so it seems like it'd be possible to subsist off them for carbs. They also have a GI of 15 according to http://www.livestrong.com/article/286192-glycemic-index-of-tomatoes/ which is pretty good. The fact they're native to South America leads me to suspect, beyond the research I've seen, "These are very good for consumption", lol. And, they're berries... so it's pretty much like the hunter-gatherer diet, at least among the berry-picking gatherers.
I just really need to figure out what kind of infrastructure I'll need for subsistence. I don't get the idea I can just grow them directly in the Texas summer sun, according to my neighbor (Apparently gets too hot). With the greenhouse, I get the idea I can grow these year-round, but I apparently need disease resistant varieties designed specifically for greenhousing.
Anyway, I like with the well water, and with the average ground temperature around these parts apparently being 72 degrees, I can potentially use it for thermal regulation in the greenhouse so that it doesn't freeze in there. That is, no need to supply heating, I just need to get the water to the surface and radiate its heat energy which basically requires something like a radiator. It'll require replacement of the water throughout the day and I need to think of where to dispose the 'used up water'.... maybe just dump it back into the ground, lol. Well, anyway, seems like it has potential... using the ground water for heating during cold winter days.
And, apparently indeterminate tomatos are tomato plants that will grow and produce as long as it doesn't freeze. Makes sense, originating from south america, they'd produce fruit year round which is exactly the kind of crop I'm looking for.
Seems like corn will also produce yearround given enough sunlight in the day; around the equator, the length of the day with sunlight is pretty much the same all year round, so I think it will grow all yearround in south america. Seems like it's a part of the native's diets. But, I'm not sure if I'd want greenhouse corn... might not have disease resistant enough varieties... think I might just want to plant cool weather crops wherever the corn was during the warmer months. Like, potentially, potatos, lol. [It's also cheaper that way; less greenhouse -> less greenhouse expense.]
I just really need to figure out what kind of infrastructure I'll need for subsistence. I don't get the idea I can just grow them directly in the Texas summer sun, according to my neighbor (Apparently gets too hot). With the greenhouse, I get the idea I can grow these year-round, but I apparently need disease resistant varieties designed specifically for greenhousing.
Anyway, I like with the well water, and with the average ground temperature around these parts apparently being 72 degrees, I can potentially use it for thermal regulation in the greenhouse so that it doesn't freeze in there. That is, no need to supply heating, I just need to get the water to the surface and radiate its heat energy which basically requires something like a radiator. It'll require replacement of the water throughout the day and I need to think of where to dispose the 'used up water'.... maybe just dump it back into the ground, lol. Well, anyway, seems like it has potential... using the ground water for heating during cold winter days.
And, apparently indeterminate tomatos are tomato plants that will grow and produce as long as it doesn't freeze. Makes sense, originating from south america, they'd produce fruit year round which is exactly the kind of crop I'm looking for.
Seems like corn will also produce yearround given enough sunlight in the day; around the equator, the length of the day with sunlight is pretty much the same all year round, so I think it will grow all yearround in south america. Seems like it's a part of the native's diets. But, I'm not sure if I'd want greenhouse corn... might not have disease resistant enough varieties... think I might just want to plant cool weather crops wherever the corn was during the warmer months. Like, potentially, potatos, lol. [It's also cheaper that way; less greenhouse -> less greenhouse expense.]
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I've never had any luck with tomatoes, except for the red cherry and those little yellow pear-shaped ones. They usually grow like wild and don't have problems out of doors. Maybe wild grapes would do well in your climate zone. I used to stop and eat them out on MT bike rides in NorCali.
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Red cherry and green house relatives might be the ticket then.
Didn't know that grape tomatos grew in the wild. Lots of berries around here (chokeberry,american beautyberry,blackberry, some others), but no tomatos.
http://www.survivaljoe.net/man-doth-not-live-off-tomatoes-alone/
Living off tomatos alone, I assure you'd have no problems eating 60 cherry tomatos a day. I'm thinking somewhere around 100-200 might be more likely. For protein, though, chicken, eggs and fish would be my personal go-to source.
Didn't know that grape tomatos grew in the wild. Lots of berries around here (chokeberry,american beautyberry,blackberry, some others), but no tomatos.
http://www.survivaljoe.net/man-doth-not-live-off-tomatoes-alone/
Living off tomatos alone, I assure you'd have no problems eating 60 cherry tomatos a day. I'm thinking somewhere around 100-200 might be more likely. For protein, though, chicken, eggs and fish would be my personal go-to source.
I keep thinking back to this one time when a landlord was telling me he could get this girl, right, so he started talking to her, then somewhere in the convo, he looked deep into her eyes, he started swishing the change in his pocket to make that ching-ching sound, then they started making out and during the middle of the kiss, he looked in my direction and winked at me.
I remember being in so much disbelief at the time "Like, wtf, that actually worked?". And then I thought, must be good to be a landlord, lol.
But where the hell did that happen? When? Did it ever actually happen in real life, and not in my dreams? I just don't see myself dreaming it either, lol.(I'd say this guy was in his later 30s and I get the impression it was somewhere in Seattle during the 6 months I was there. But, I don't know when/where. Might not have been Seattle, could've been Spokane, Spokane just doesn't seem like the kind of place where I'd 'stumble' upon a situation like that.)
(But, given my recent experiences, that looking deep into her eyes definitely works so it's become less unbelievable as of now, lol. And, at this point... we do both own property, so that might also be a strong factor. It's not hard to believe that possessing territory would lead in that direction; it could fundamentally change the behavior in a man that would make it easier attracting females. I do know, not owning my own place, I did feel less secure and the lack of this "territory" security of the alternative lifestyle I was considering at the time, the nomadic RV lifestyle, greatly repelled me and strongly influenced my decision to buy land, so it's not hard to believe it's a strong factor in male behavior.)
It has a dream-like quality to the memory at this point, where I can't really ascertain it actually happened but it feels like it did. It's just so bizarre. Kind of like that... Church event(With the "You're a monster" undercurrent, not quite unlike recent accusations) yeah that kind of crap from a long time ago... that memory also has a dream like quality to it making me think it never really happened, but I almost swear it did.
I think it has a dream like quality to it, not necessarily because it was a dream one point (Although, maybe it was.), but because it seems so unbelievable in recalling it. It doesn't fit my "normal" expectations/perception of the world, in some cases, taking on kafkaesque qualities.
Well... I guess if the shoe fits, wear it, lol.
Think of all those things I've murdered. Ants, wasps, caterpillars, and the most advanced lifeform so far, a rabbit. I'm just so evil, lol. (But, considering I wasn't killing the rabbit for survival, you could argue it had malicious intent; I just wanted to see if my BB gun could take down an animal, since it's never done that before. I don't feel the compulsion to hunt down rabbits at the moment, and I don't foresee it for sometime.)
I remember being in so much disbelief at the time "Like, wtf, that actually worked?". And then I thought, must be good to be a landlord, lol.
But where the hell did that happen? When? Did it ever actually happen in real life, and not in my dreams? I just don't see myself dreaming it either, lol.(I'd say this guy was in his later 30s and I get the impression it was somewhere in Seattle during the 6 months I was there. But, I don't know when/where. Might not have been Seattle, could've been Spokane, Spokane just doesn't seem like the kind of place where I'd 'stumble' upon a situation like that.)
(But, given my recent experiences, that looking deep into her eyes definitely works so it's become less unbelievable as of now, lol. And, at this point... we do both own property, so that might also be a strong factor. It's not hard to believe that possessing territory would lead in that direction; it could fundamentally change the behavior in a man that would make it easier attracting females. I do know, not owning my own place, I did feel less secure and the lack of this "territory" security of the alternative lifestyle I was considering at the time, the nomadic RV lifestyle, greatly repelled me and strongly influenced my decision to buy land, so it's not hard to believe it's a strong factor in male behavior.)
It has a dream-like quality to the memory at this point, where I can't really ascertain it actually happened but it feels like it did. It's just so bizarre. Kind of like that... Church event(With the "You're a monster" undercurrent, not quite unlike recent accusations) yeah that kind of crap from a long time ago... that memory also has a dream like quality to it making me think it never really happened, but I almost swear it did.
I think it has a dream like quality to it, not necessarily because it was a dream one point (Although, maybe it was.), but because it seems so unbelievable in recalling it. It doesn't fit my "normal" expectations/perception of the world, in some cases, taking on kafkaesque qualities.
Well... I guess if the shoe fits, wear it, lol.
Think of all those things I've murdered. Ants, wasps, caterpillars, and the most advanced lifeform so far, a rabbit. I'm just so evil, lol. (But, considering I wasn't killing the rabbit for survival, you could argue it had malicious intent; I just wanted to see if my BB gun could take down an animal, since it's never done that before. I don't feel the compulsion to hunt down rabbits at the moment, and I don't foresee it for sometime.)
As to what girls are looking for... what they need... yeah, it's in this music video. (And obviously not every girl doesn't know what they're looking for; I think the HEB chick knew exactly what she was looking for and I have a feeling that's why she was being mean to me; because she was horny and begging for it, and that's why she succumbed so easily when I responded in kind. Given the fact that apparently semen absorption alleviates mood in women, the desire understandably could be quite strong. Makes me wonder if that's why she was so happy... all that semen inside her... lol. Indications suggest that she was missing out on it for a while.)
http://www.girlschase.com/content/how-tell-if-girl-horny-without-her-having-tell-you
This guy has some unusual insight that seems to square up pretty neatly with my experiences. And dauntless's experiences, too.
[youtube]AtKZKl7Bgu0[/youtube]
There's a reason why girlfriends are complaining about video games.
[youtube]cE6wxDqdOV0[/youtube]
It takes their time away.
I guess lucky me, I'm not distracted by videogames, so I guess have that /oomph/ that most guys are being robbed of, that she could feel. [That's BS, ignore that, lol.]
Anyway, the days are getting noticeably cooler now and that's pretty cool. The mornings are definitely feeling cooler, doesn't feel like I'm swimming in a sticky, hot mess like earlier in July, a kind of "warmth/heat" that never really went away day-by-day except for the rare day a storm passed through.
Anyway, soon enough I'll get the auger, get the post holes dug up, put in the fence and hunting I go. Sales seem like they've gone back up to normal, but I'm aware this week was greatly influenced by a certain benefactor, so in reality... they're still pretty dismal. My sales were historically driven by the crowds, not one particularly generous customer, and those kind of customers tend to be rare. Kind of seems like, very recently, the ordering patterns have gone back to normal but I won't know until a week from now if it persists. So, yep, I don't think I'm going to depend on it like I once did. I need a more stable source of income, because a low cash position and dismal sales is a bad position to be in. [My cash position was low because my main generator died about a year ahead of schedule, lol.]
http://www.girlschase.com/content/how-tell-if-girl-horny-without-her-having-tell-you
This guy has some unusual insight that seems to square up pretty neatly with my experiences. And dauntless's experiences, too.
[youtube]AtKZKl7Bgu0[/youtube]
There's a reason why girlfriends are complaining about video games.
[youtube]cE6wxDqdOV0[/youtube]
It takes their time away.
I guess lucky me, I'm not distracted by videogames, so I guess have that /oomph/ that most guys are being robbed of, that she could feel. [That's BS, ignore that, lol.]
Anyway, the days are getting noticeably cooler now and that's pretty cool. The mornings are definitely feeling cooler, doesn't feel like I'm swimming in a sticky, hot mess like earlier in July, a kind of "warmth/heat" that never really went away day-by-day except for the rare day a storm passed through.
Anyway, soon enough I'll get the auger, get the post holes dug up, put in the fence and hunting I go. Sales seem like they've gone back up to normal, but I'm aware this week was greatly influenced by a certain benefactor, so in reality... they're still pretty dismal. My sales were historically driven by the crowds, not one particularly generous customer, and those kind of customers tend to be rare. Kind of seems like, very recently, the ordering patterns have gone back to normal but I won't know until a week from now if it persists. So, yep, I don't think I'm going to depend on it like I once did. I need a more stable source of income, because a low cash position and dismal sales is a bad position to be in. [My cash position was low because my main generator died about a year ahead of schedule, lol.]
Anyway, the timeline here for that event. [my in the moment impressions]
"omg so hott" face looking downward left and right. [My impression; she looks unusual and like she's possessed, kind of like an alien. I suspect plotting.]
infatuation look. [Looks good, but not entirely convinced... I didn't know, can't really convincingly read her. Very subtle signs.]
choking on her words baby noises. [With the distance and plotting suspicion earlier, and the fact I couldn't read her infatuation convincingly, I suspected she was truly disinterested and she was trying to manipulate me. Endearing me for her gain, while I believed she really wasn't interested. And this does actually happen in real life... girls pretending they like you and then taking advantage of them, especially if you have something they want.]
Anyway... I can't forget to understate the fact she came off as a freak/weirdo. Recalling it while working outside, yeah, that definitely was there; that whole "Wow, she is effing weird" repulsive feeling. But, at the same time... I almost feel like I was precisely attracted to her because of it.
Seems I'm not isolated in this sentiment...
https://books.google.com/books?id=byDbBQAAQBAJ&pg=PA42&lpg=PA42&dq=she%27s+a+frocking+weirdo&source=bl&ots=hl8TcXeCKG&sig=944BHZTE-cnB1wZxQ8x5sk8-pMQ&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwig0cT43bTVAhUd24MKHdwVCfsQ6AEIOzAE#v=onepage&q=she's%20a%20fucking%20weirdo&f=false
But this dynamic didn't really apply by the time of the infatuation stage.
I literally thought she disinterested though, by the way she was staying back as she was. It almost seemed like I could sense fear and distrust, in spite of the infatuation, and...
*rolled eyes, shook head, angry, rejected her; we came back around though I'd say within 10 seconds*
*she lunged forward, crying as if saying "Where are you going? I LOVE YOU!"*
*She looked downward, with those grieving eyes, as if she had just lost her soulmate and it was weighing heavily on her soul* [It was look of extreme despair; like if you can imagine them momentarily widening up to 10X their normal size and the eyebrows furrowing downward*
It didn't look like this, but it was pretty much this intense
*I'm still in the midst of the repulsive rejection phase keeping my distance from her*
*extremely nervous, talking to me in a noticeably high pitched nicer voice*
*Bit confused at first, like wtf... I'm not sure if I believe this... but then I'm kind of noticing, oh wait, she does like me*
*start smilling and being friendly again*
*She smiles and starts acting a little bit excited* "You got to go watch portlandia! It's called GOING BANANAS! Yeah, that's it!"
"Oh yeah definitely will*
*She's definitely really excited by this point*
*takes the bags leaves*
*couple of seconds later*
"hey mister, you have an excellent day!"
"Yeah, you too, and have an /awesome/ life!"
*then she starts the heavy affectionate tones on the next customer, and I'm thinking... does this girl flirt with everyone or is she trying to make me jealous? lol*
Yep, so that's what was going on there. But, after much thinking and research, I realized all of my suspicions were completely unfounded and what actually happened seems like it was more like one might expect. Anyway, it became kind of obvious she was interested in me after I withdrew, and I'd say the internal suspicions mostly vanished I'd say within 5-10 seconds. But... I can't say they 100% disappeared... it did take like a good month to figure out everything that was going on step-by-step and not default to the 'paranoid' explanations in absence of a good explanation.
....
Let's focus on that newly identified emotion I was detecting that I believe /really/ led to my anger and rejection of her. (Deep-seated) Fear and distrust.
According to google, there appears to be fear & distrust between...
Different 1800s european countries
Blacks and police
Americans and congress
What's the common thread...
The enemy.
She thought I was the enemy.
That seems kind of hard to admit with how her infatuation was surging and how she acted like she just lost a soulmate... but... it's not hard to suspect that perhaps deep down I was regarded as 'the enemy'. And why would that be...
It's pure speculation at this point, lol. Water under the bridge.
But if this were true, I being regarded deep down as 'the enemy', I don't really honestly see a stable foundation for anything longterm. Not that I wouldn't try, but I wouldn't put too much of my wealth/assets at risk.
I really do wonder the "why", though. I almost think my insight is completely fallacious as it seems inconsistent with (much) of her behavior before and after. But, yeah, I can't deny she had a fake-ass smile for a while when she was first talking to me. Granted, I don't know if she's trying to "be polite" or she was "masking her utter disregard for her enemy", lol, but... yeah anyway, lol.
Maybe I'm reading too much into it. Maybe simple trust issues, I mean, I wouldn't necessarily trust someone acting way out of the norm you know.
If there was deep-seated distrust, oh, that'd be a different animal that'd be difficult in changing.
But, I just don't see that being likely because... I just don't see that kind of chemistry going on with someone I wasn't "on the same page" with in terms of personality. If there's too much difference, attraction is highly unlikely from the outset.
---------------
Anyway, I did have the choice of not reacting to her 'meanness' and just passing it on by like I would any standard cashier. If I had, I guarantee she wouldn't regarded me as she did afterwards. Why? Because it wasn't until I demonstrated my fearlessness in pursuit of her, that she really started... what's the word... intensely bonding... through eye contact... did her regard for me really change. And that's because I directly evoked the powerful emotions within that she wouldn't otherwise had experienced. So, yeah, it was ultimately because of a choice I made, not that it was "inevitable" by any means. I.e., there really was no 'destiny' involved, otherthen me possibly having been destined to not deny my compulsion and thus destiny thereof.
"omg so hott" face looking downward left and right. [My impression; she looks unusual and like she's possessed, kind of like an alien. I suspect plotting.]
infatuation look. [Looks good, but not entirely convinced... I didn't know, can't really convincingly read her. Very subtle signs.]
choking on her words baby noises. [With the distance and plotting suspicion earlier, and the fact I couldn't read her infatuation convincingly, I suspected she was truly disinterested and she was trying to manipulate me. Endearing me for her gain, while I believed she really wasn't interested. And this does actually happen in real life... girls pretending they like you and then taking advantage of them, especially if you have something they want.]
Anyway... I can't forget to understate the fact she came off as a freak/weirdo. Recalling it while working outside, yeah, that definitely was there; that whole "Wow, she is effing weird" repulsive feeling. But, at the same time... I almost feel like I was precisely attracted to her because of it.
Seems I'm not isolated in this sentiment...
https://books.google.com/books?id=byDbBQAAQBAJ&pg=PA42&lpg=PA42&dq=she%27s+a+frocking+weirdo&source=bl&ots=hl8TcXeCKG&sig=944BHZTE-cnB1wZxQ8x5sk8-pMQ&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwig0cT43bTVAhUd24MKHdwVCfsQ6AEIOzAE#v=onepage&q=she's%20a%20fucking%20weirdo&f=false
But this dynamic didn't really apply by the time of the infatuation stage.
I literally thought she disinterested though, by the way she was staying back as she was. It almost seemed like I could sense fear and distrust, in spite of the infatuation, and...
*rolled eyes, shook head, angry, rejected her; we came back around though I'd say within 10 seconds*
*she lunged forward, crying as if saying "Where are you going? I LOVE YOU!"*
*She looked downward, with those grieving eyes, as if she had just lost her soulmate and it was weighing heavily on her soul* [It was look of extreme despair; like if you can imagine them momentarily widening up to 10X their normal size and the eyebrows furrowing downward*
It didn't look like this, but it was pretty much this intense
*I'm still in the midst of the repulsive rejection phase keeping my distance from her*
*extremely nervous, talking to me in a noticeably high pitched nicer voice*
*Bit confused at first, like wtf... I'm not sure if I believe this... but then I'm kind of noticing, oh wait, she does like me*
*start smilling and being friendly again*
*She smiles and starts acting a little bit excited* "You got to go watch portlandia! It's called GOING BANANAS! Yeah, that's it!"
"Oh yeah definitely will*
*She's definitely really excited by this point*
*takes the bags leaves*
*couple of seconds later*
"hey mister, you have an excellent day!"
"Yeah, you too, and have an /awesome/ life!"
*then she starts the heavy affectionate tones on the next customer, and I'm thinking... does this girl flirt with everyone or is she trying to make me jealous? lol*
Yep, so that's what was going on there. But, after much thinking and research, I realized all of my suspicions were completely unfounded and what actually happened seems like it was more like one might expect. Anyway, it became kind of obvious she was interested in me after I withdrew, and I'd say the internal suspicions mostly vanished I'd say within 5-10 seconds. But... I can't say they 100% disappeared... it did take like a good month to figure out everything that was going on step-by-step and not default to the 'paranoid' explanations in absence of a good explanation.
....
Let's focus on that newly identified emotion I was detecting that I believe /really/ led to my anger and rejection of her. (Deep-seated) Fear and distrust.
According to google, there appears to be fear & distrust between...
Different 1800s european countries
Blacks and police
Americans and congress
What's the common thread...
The enemy.
She thought I was the enemy.
That seems kind of hard to admit with how her infatuation was surging and how she acted like she just lost a soulmate... but... it's not hard to suspect that perhaps deep down I was regarded as 'the enemy'. And why would that be...
It's pure speculation at this point, lol. Water under the bridge.
But if this were true, I being regarded deep down as 'the enemy', I don't really honestly see a stable foundation for anything longterm. Not that I wouldn't try, but I wouldn't put too much of my wealth/assets at risk.
I really do wonder the "why", though. I almost think my insight is completely fallacious as it seems inconsistent with (much) of her behavior before and after. But, yeah, I can't deny she had a fake-ass smile for a while when she was first talking to me. Granted, I don't know if she's trying to "be polite" or she was "masking her utter disregard for her enemy", lol, but... yeah anyway, lol.
Maybe I'm reading too much into it. Maybe simple trust issues, I mean, I wouldn't necessarily trust someone acting way out of the norm you know.
If there was deep-seated distrust, oh, that'd be a different animal that'd be difficult in changing.
But, I just don't see that being likely because... I just don't see that kind of chemistry going on with someone I wasn't "on the same page" with in terms of personality. If there's too much difference, attraction is highly unlikely from the outset.
---------------
Anyway, I did have the choice of not reacting to her 'meanness' and just passing it on by like I would any standard cashier. If I had, I guarantee she wouldn't regarded me as she did afterwards. Why? Because it wasn't until I demonstrated my fearlessness in pursuit of her, that she really started... what's the word... intensely bonding... through eye contact... did her regard for me really change. And that's because I directly evoked the powerful emotions within that she wouldn't otherwise had experienced. So, yeah, it was ultimately because of a choice I made, not that it was "inevitable" by any means. I.e., there really was no 'destiny' involved, otherthen me possibly having been destined to not deny my compulsion and thus destiny thereof.
Yeah, anyway, I was thinking about this lifestyle so far...
In a lot of ways, it's a lot better than other lifestyles I've lived. Feeling like the chains of slavery are mostly broken, a chance to start anew (Though they are threatening as they are), striving towards the future and making life better over time as resources allow. I can actually do things that require space, like gardening or putting in a pool or whatever.
But, I was recently looking towards the sky and I could imagine even a more ideal lifestyle. Having a partner in crime, striving towards the future together, the sky being the limit.
Something about the sky reminds me of "the other". Passing clouds or twinkling stars, for some reason, the thought of "the other" almost always comes to mind.
Probably because I look towards the sky and dream, lol.
Also, I kind of feel like there's a clock ticking. You know, the generator would show signs here and there of issues, and then it would suddenly and irrevocably die. I suspect I've been seeing the same kind of "issues here and there" and there's a clock ticking. I'm not feeling pressure from society, but from my own impending mortality.
In a lot of ways, it's a lot better than other lifestyles I've lived. Feeling like the chains of slavery are mostly broken, a chance to start anew (Though they are threatening as they are), striving towards the future and making life better over time as resources allow. I can actually do things that require space, like gardening or putting in a pool or whatever.
But, I was recently looking towards the sky and I could imagine even a more ideal lifestyle. Having a partner in crime, striving towards the future together, the sky being the limit.
Something about the sky reminds me of "the other". Passing clouds or twinkling stars, for some reason, the thought of "the other" almost always comes to mind.
Probably because I look towards the sky and dream, lol.
Also, I kind of feel like there's a clock ticking. You know, the generator would show signs here and there of issues, and then it would suddenly and irrevocably die. I suspect I've been seeing the same kind of "issues here and there" and there's a clock ticking. I'm not feeling pressure from society, but from my own impending mortality.
Man, I totally discovered the problem I have with this work environment. It's so relaxing in the quiet forest during the middle of the day, I just feel like kicking back and enjoying it, lol. I just realized this when I was like "Ok, I'm going to start working after lunch" but then I realized I wasn't and wondered why... oh, yeah, because this is like a perma-vacation... lol
More reason for me to get a job. Not just increased income and income stability, but to make me actually do something during the middle of the day, lol.
More reason for me to get a job. Not just increased income and income stability, but to make me actually do something during the middle of the day, lol.
Indications suggesting she was missing out on it for a while.
https://www.girlsaskguys.com/flirting/q224569-how-can-you-tell-girl-desperate
How can you tell if a girl is desperate?
A: They're throwing themselves at every guy.
Rebuttal: Those girls get all the guys, as they eat it up. (In otherwords, ho)
It was the way she was acting, she legitimately seemed desperate, not because she was "playing the game".
But hell if I know. If I came across her again, I think one question I'd ask would be "How many guys you /f/ since the last time I saw you?", lol. She didn't strike me, though, like your average ho. Or... wait... maybe she did...hos are pretty good at making you horny, right? Well, she was a more eccentric smarter ho, if she's a ho. My intuition is telling me... I don't have enough evidence.
Hmmm... neediness/clinginess... I'm thinking about my dogs... and I like the ones that feel like they need me more than the ones that don't. Prime example: Cats. I hate cats, they act like they don't need me at all, lol. I kind of think I wouldn't my girl being all sorts of clingy, I think I would prefer it actually. My best friendships were totally mutually clingy; the ones that weren't kind of sucked in comparison, lol. I can't say I didn't like them overall, but definitely less enjoyable.
https://www.isitnormal.com/post/i-actually-want-a-clingy-girlfriend-56766
Yeah, totally normal sentiment just like I thought.
https://www.girlsaskguys.com/flirting/q224569-how-can-you-tell-girl-desperate
How can you tell if a girl is desperate?
A: They're throwing themselves at every guy.
Rebuttal: Those girls get all the guys, as they eat it up. (In otherwords, ho)
It was the way she was acting, she legitimately seemed desperate, not because she was "playing the game".
But hell if I know. If I came across her again, I think one question I'd ask would be "How many guys you /f/ since the last time I saw you?", lol. She didn't strike me, though, like your average ho. Or... wait... maybe she did...hos are pretty good at making you horny, right? Well, she was a more eccentric smarter ho, if she's a ho. My intuition is telling me... I don't have enough evidence.
Hmmm... neediness/clinginess... I'm thinking about my dogs... and I like the ones that feel like they need me more than the ones that don't. Prime example: Cats. I hate cats, they act like they don't need me at all, lol. I kind of think I wouldn't my girl being all sorts of clingy, I think I would prefer it actually. My best friendships were totally mutually clingy; the ones that weren't kind of sucked in comparison, lol. I can't say I didn't like them overall, but definitely less enjoyable.
https://www.isitnormal.com/post/i-actually-want-a-clingy-girlfriend-56766
Yeah, totally normal sentiment just like I thought.
Different foods that have particularly high levels of certain otherwise-rare-to-obtain chemicals with "significant" physiological affects.
Watermelon (L-citrulline)[Also high in lycopene, as are tomatos and pomegranate]
Grapes (Melatonin)
Bananas (Tryptophan)
Cocoa (Theobromine)
I had a standard serving of wine lastnight and instant knock out; solid 6 hours of sleep. Recently, a solid 6 hours of sleep is hard to come by. Typically 3.5.-4 hours with a chance to make up for the remainder some 2-3 hours later or sometime in the afternoon. The afternoon ones seem particularly symptomatic (waking up drugged, lifeless, etc.), which does cause me concern. Seeing research like "Those who sleep more than 40 minutes during mid-day are 40% more likely to die", kind of makes me think those symptoms are not particularly innocent.
I didn't have a corkremover on hand (Wouldn't you believe, the leatherman didn't have one, I guess it's only standard on normal pocketknives.), so I used a screw and wedge it into a gap and pulled, and the cork came right out and also made a mess because the bottle was upside down, lol. [Didn't lose a significant amount of wine]
And, I think I know why my neighbor seems so happy about getting a well dug up. He's minimizing expenses in all possible categories as low as possible. I don't really know /why/ he is... but he is. The water out here is pretty expensive and apparently it gets calcium buildup or somesuch.
For me, I'm not connected to the grid because it's not something I can afford. And, I'm perfectly fine with that, though... I really wouldn't mind electricity, lol. But, I'm getting by on generator.
The other property I could've bought in the neighborhood at the time, I believe had electricity, or at least really close to it since it was on the main road. But, I didn't like that property because it was too close to the trainlines and there was more traveling on the washboard/pothole roads.
There seems to be someone with a sense of humor here. Putting up signs in various places with alternatives descriptions that make light of it.
For example, the neighborhood had a sign at the entrance with an arrow on it pointing in with the word VIP. It was humorous because the most visible residents, the residents on the mainroad, seem to be anything but. There are some pretty wealthy residents (Usually old-as-hills people) on the main drag, but the baser elements are far more noticeable. And, oh, today's trash day and I get to take out the trash, I'm looking forward to that, done hopefully within 3 deliveries or so. Hoping for 3 so it gets done this week, but might take 4 or 5.
The most recent sign is on the main county road labeled "Pothole and rocky road", lol.
This person, whoever they are, seem to strongly resemble an older best friend I had, with that kind of sarcasm.
I strongly believe I'm one of the youngest property owners here and I'm using it with the original intent on having access to Houston's economy. Granted, I was thinking more on business opportunities originally, but employment opportunities were definitely of consideration. Part time minimum wage jobs were the standard back in Spokane, and even those were hard to come by, and high paying skilled jobs were rare, whereas fulltime higher wage jobs are pretty standard here, with an abundance of high paying skilled jobs available.
This is of considerable consideration since the average amount of hours was typically 20-25 hours per week, in many cases, below that. That's almost nearly half the monthly income of a fulltime employee. You can barely live on your own at that rate; definitely can't afford a car and pad simultaneously, unless you happened to be rooming with 3 other people or shacking up with the parents.
Anyway, kind of miss my old neighborhood (BUT DEFINITELY NOT THE CLIMATE, lol), there was a sense of a time past when people were dreaming big, manifesting in the way their house was designed; they aimed for grandeur and reached for the heavens where they could or something... you could definitely tell people were dreaming and it was a magical time. I don't get the sense people here are "dreaming big", they appear to come here as a place where dreams go to die or they're a retiree just squeaking by.
Google imaging "Where dreams go to die", I'm getting...
Adulthood, highschool, marriage, comfort zones, complacency
I just have to lol at a few of those, lol. I think it's because I'm sensing a miserable person behind those images and it's schadenfreude.
Update: Yay! Finally found the trash collection place! And it was completely hidden away all the way in the back, which I why I couldn't find it - I was too busy looking for a "church looking building", which I have no idea where that was coming from. I didn't see a church looking building anywhere near this thing.
And, it looks like I got an order on my website. So, Yay! Somehow people are finding my website. :lol: (I was getting concerned people weren't able to find it anymore because it was delisted for 2 solid weeks)
Now that I have confirmation that people are finding my website AND my payment processing actually works (Paypal has been acting a little squirrely), it's worthwhile to start expanding so I think I'll start doing that.
I really want to confirm I can run at high production levels first... Want to get a battery to power my fans/laptop during the day/night. It's that whole "Energy demands while off the genny" to power my 70w load I need to figure out because once I configure my existing batteries for 24V service, they'll no longer be usable for off-genny power (Because they need to maintain 24V so they're ready to go whenever).
The idea is that during times when the power goes off, the battery needs to supply upwards of 50A, which I think 24V 100AH can do comfortably. I don't know if 50AH can do it comfortably.... I guess it shouldn't really matter... too much....
I wonder if I could deploy my lipos for 24V backup service?
6S -> so that'd be 4V per cell. With a nominal top charge voltage of 4.1-4.2V, it almost seems like it shouldn't be a problem... I just don't like the idea of them exploding in a fireball of death inside my RV if something goes wrong, lol.
I guess I'll have to get the batteries outside, preferably in the shade, and have multiple wires leading into the RV for the least amount of resistance. Now just trying to figure out the connectors I'll use. (Powerpoles are expensive and, more to the point, I ran out, lol.)
I need a connector for 13A.
Looks like 2mm bullet connectors, rated for 20A, would do.
They go for about (Looking at ebay market rates) 40cents/pair whereas andersons go for about $1/pair. So, I might just go with that.... but I really do wonder about the standard bullet connectors from the hardware store... what are those rated for?
These are typically used in electrical wiring for houses (They're sold in home depot for crying sakes)... so I'd think they'd be rated for 20A service? Not particularly easy to find info on it... seems like RC connectors are the darling of the internet, lots of info on RC connectors.
http://www.practicalmachinist.com/vb/transformers-phase-converters-and-vfd/amperage-crimp-terminals-304870/index2.html?s=bb16cabc7970f245288c23d11867e6f1
This place says upto the current rating up the wire. So, the largest connector for the highest current rating. Someone suggests spade is ideal (O rly?), and everyone agrees the crimp quality is essential.
I generally try to avoid carrying particularly heavy things in the morning time. Seems associated with the most severe symptoms. Just carried the fencing material into the shed this morning at 9 a.m. and about 10 seconds later, got that fleeting sharp pain in the left shoulder and a deep seated chest discomfort that flashed for under a second. Yep, I knew that was; cortisol spiking from the heavy workload and fleeting pseudo-ischemia. Light lifting tasks and cardio seems like it's OK for the morning time /after/ one has eaten; Heavy lifting should be pushed towards the end of the day due to lower cortisol levels and greater overall bloodflow from all the eating and physical activity during the day (Manifests generally in just feeling a bit better/more awake) and usually opportunities to nap off remaining sleep debt. Sleep debt = cortisol. More sleep debt = more cortisol.
Watermelon (L-citrulline)[Also high in lycopene, as are tomatos and pomegranate]
Grapes (Melatonin)
Bananas (Tryptophan)
Cocoa (Theobromine)
I had a standard serving of wine lastnight and instant knock out; solid 6 hours of sleep. Recently, a solid 6 hours of sleep is hard to come by. Typically 3.5.-4 hours with a chance to make up for the remainder some 2-3 hours later or sometime in the afternoon. The afternoon ones seem particularly symptomatic (waking up drugged, lifeless, etc.), which does cause me concern. Seeing research like "Those who sleep more than 40 minutes during mid-day are 40% more likely to die", kind of makes me think those symptoms are not particularly innocent.
I didn't have a corkremover on hand (Wouldn't you believe, the leatherman didn't have one, I guess it's only standard on normal pocketknives.), so I used a screw and wedge it into a gap and pulled, and the cork came right out and also made a mess because the bottle was upside down, lol. [Didn't lose a significant amount of wine]
And, I think I know why my neighbor seems so happy about getting a well dug up. He's minimizing expenses in all possible categories as low as possible. I don't really know /why/ he is... but he is. The water out here is pretty expensive and apparently it gets calcium buildup or somesuch.
For me, I'm not connected to the grid because it's not something I can afford. And, I'm perfectly fine with that, though... I really wouldn't mind electricity, lol. But, I'm getting by on generator.
The other property I could've bought in the neighborhood at the time, I believe had electricity, or at least really close to it since it was on the main road. But, I didn't like that property because it was too close to the trainlines and there was more traveling on the washboard/pothole roads.
There seems to be someone with a sense of humor here. Putting up signs in various places with alternatives descriptions that make light of it.
For example, the neighborhood had a sign at the entrance with an arrow on it pointing in with the word VIP. It was humorous because the most visible residents, the residents on the mainroad, seem to be anything but. There are some pretty wealthy residents (Usually old-as-hills people) on the main drag, but the baser elements are far more noticeable. And, oh, today's trash day and I get to take out the trash, I'm looking forward to that, done hopefully within 3 deliveries or so. Hoping for 3 so it gets done this week, but might take 4 or 5.
The most recent sign is on the main county road labeled "Pothole and rocky road", lol.
This person, whoever they are, seem to strongly resemble an older best friend I had, with that kind of sarcasm.
I strongly believe I'm one of the youngest property owners here and I'm using it with the original intent on having access to Houston's economy. Granted, I was thinking more on business opportunities originally, but employment opportunities were definitely of consideration. Part time minimum wage jobs were the standard back in Spokane, and even those were hard to come by, and high paying skilled jobs were rare, whereas fulltime higher wage jobs are pretty standard here, with an abundance of high paying skilled jobs available.
This is of considerable consideration since the average amount of hours was typically 20-25 hours per week, in many cases, below that. That's almost nearly half the monthly income of a fulltime employee. You can barely live on your own at that rate; definitely can't afford a car and pad simultaneously, unless you happened to be rooming with 3 other people or shacking up with the parents.
Anyway, kind of miss my old neighborhood (BUT DEFINITELY NOT THE CLIMATE, lol), there was a sense of a time past when people were dreaming big, manifesting in the way their house was designed; they aimed for grandeur and reached for the heavens where they could or something... you could definitely tell people were dreaming and it was a magical time. I don't get the sense people here are "dreaming big", they appear to come here as a place where dreams go to die or they're a retiree just squeaking by.
Google imaging "Where dreams go to die", I'm getting...
Adulthood, highschool, marriage, comfort zones, complacency
I just have to lol at a few of those, lol. I think it's because I'm sensing a miserable person behind those images and it's schadenfreude.
Update: Yay! Finally found the trash collection place! And it was completely hidden away all the way in the back, which I why I couldn't find it - I was too busy looking for a "church looking building", which I have no idea where that was coming from. I didn't see a church looking building anywhere near this thing.
And, it looks like I got an order on my website. So, Yay! Somehow people are finding my website. :lol: (I was getting concerned people weren't able to find it anymore because it was delisted for 2 solid weeks)
Now that I have confirmation that people are finding my website AND my payment processing actually works (Paypal has been acting a little squirrely), it's worthwhile to start expanding so I think I'll start doing that.
I really want to confirm I can run at high production levels first... Want to get a battery to power my fans/laptop during the day/night. It's that whole "Energy demands while off the genny" to power my 70w load I need to figure out because once I configure my existing batteries for 24V service, they'll no longer be usable for off-genny power (Because they need to maintain 24V so they're ready to go whenever).
The idea is that during times when the power goes off, the battery needs to supply upwards of 50A, which I think 24V 100AH can do comfortably. I don't know if 50AH can do it comfortably.... I guess it shouldn't really matter... too much....
I wonder if I could deploy my lipos for 24V backup service?
6S -> so that'd be 4V per cell. With a nominal top charge voltage of 4.1-4.2V, it almost seems like it shouldn't be a problem... I just don't like the idea of them exploding in a fireball of death inside my RV if something goes wrong, lol.
I guess I'll have to get the batteries outside, preferably in the shade, and have multiple wires leading into the RV for the least amount of resistance. Now just trying to figure out the connectors I'll use. (Powerpoles are expensive and, more to the point, I ran out, lol.)
I need a connector for 13A.
Looks like 2mm bullet connectors, rated for 20A, would do.
They go for about (Looking at ebay market rates) 40cents/pair whereas andersons go for about $1/pair. So, I might just go with that.... but I really do wonder about the standard bullet connectors from the hardware store... what are those rated for?
These are typically used in electrical wiring for houses (They're sold in home depot for crying sakes)... so I'd think they'd be rated for 20A service? Not particularly easy to find info on it... seems like RC connectors are the darling of the internet, lots of info on RC connectors.
http://www.practicalmachinist.com/vb/transformers-phase-converters-and-vfd/amperage-crimp-terminals-304870/index2.html?s=bb16cabc7970f245288c23d11867e6f1
This place says upto the current rating up the wire. So, the largest connector for the highest current rating. Someone suggests spade is ideal (O rly?), and everyone agrees the crimp quality is essential.
I generally try to avoid carrying particularly heavy things in the morning time. Seems associated with the most severe symptoms. Just carried the fencing material into the shed this morning at 9 a.m. and about 10 seconds later, got that fleeting sharp pain in the left shoulder and a deep seated chest discomfort that flashed for under a second. Yep, I knew that was; cortisol spiking from the heavy workload and fleeting pseudo-ischemia. Light lifting tasks and cardio seems like it's OK for the morning time /after/ one has eaten; Heavy lifting should be pushed towards the end of the day due to lower cortisol levels and greater overall bloodflow from all the eating and physical activity during the day (Manifests generally in just feeling a bit better/more awake) and usually opportunities to nap off remaining sleep debt. Sleep debt = cortisol. More sleep debt = more cortisol.
https://www.yahoo.com/finance/news/market-fomo-millennials-putting-cash-stock-market-155501483.html
UH OH! Imminent sign of market crash. Granted, I don't have inside market numbers like wall street banks, investment firms, hedge funds and other market insiders do... But generally...
When the latest investors start putting money in the stock market, shortly after, the earliest investors (Investment banks, mainly) will pull out, causing a stock market CRASH. And when the FEDs (Read, wall street banks) announced the QE, guaranteeing an ever increasing stock market price in 2009, the wall street banks definitely went all in which you can see in the charts (Almost a near 40-50% gain in nearly 4months, which is /massive/ considering the sheer amount of dollars invested in the market).
So, yep, I'm predicting an imminent crash sometime within the next year.
I'm not putting money in the markets because I have better uses for it, lol.
But if you happen to have cash laying around after the crash happens, might not be a bad investment opportunity.
Anyway, looking at historical charts... it seems like you can tell when it's dropped out by.... when the market has risen by at least 20% from it's most recent trough. And, "signficant events" like "The FEDs announced QE" or some such. Basically keep track of the news and keep a thumb on the market. Whenever I've solidly figured out that it has bottomed out, I'd invest and ride it out until the next market peak.
These market peaks generally take 7-9 years, historically.
UH OH! Imminent sign of market crash. Granted, I don't have inside market numbers like wall street banks, investment firms, hedge funds and other market insiders do... But generally...
When the latest investors start putting money in the stock market, shortly after, the earliest investors (Investment banks, mainly) will pull out, causing a stock market CRASH. And when the FEDs (Read, wall street banks) announced the QE, guaranteeing an ever increasing stock market price in 2009, the wall street banks definitely went all in which you can see in the charts (Almost a near 40-50% gain in nearly 4months, which is /massive/ considering the sheer amount of dollars invested in the market).
So, yep, I'm predicting an imminent crash sometime within the next year.
I'm not putting money in the markets because I have better uses for it, lol.
But if you happen to have cash laying around after the crash happens, might not be a bad investment opportunity.
Anyway, looking at historical charts... it seems like you can tell when it's dropped out by.... when the market has risen by at least 20% from it's most recent trough. And, "signficant events" like "The FEDs announced QE" or some such. Basically keep track of the news and keep a thumb on the market. Whenever I've solidly figured out that it has bottomed out, I'd invest and ride it out until the next market peak.
These market peaks generally take 7-9 years, historically.
Anyway, on this making your other jealous...
Well... it's pretty intuitive for me to understand because I've done it before... it's because I'm testing how much my girl loves me. If she doesn't react, then I start to believe she doesn't care, and I start to lose interest.
So, when your other is trying to make you jealous, the correct response is to tell her to stop it. Lots of people are telling you just to ignore it, but... I don't think that works as nearly as well as disciplining your b*tch. Number 1) It shows you care which is exactly what she's looking for 2) It makes you the "takes charge and won't take shit from your gf" kind of person, which is exactly the kind of guy girlfriends like. The kind that keeps their girls in line. (You need to be the leader... discipline her when she gets out line because she's testing your power... and helps to be demanding like a good leader...)
So, it's best to respond... but it's equally as important to take the "disciplining" approach as opposed to the "whining" approach. One's the alpha approach, the other is the beta.
Anyway, as to this "disciplining your girl".... you hear about those guys that are like beating up their girlfriends or whatever and the girls just want them so much... and you're like "Wow, those girls are completely stupid, looking for abuse"... but, they don't really tell WHY they were beat up. They were acting stupid or testing their power in the relationship and the guy kept her check and she /f/ing loves it. Granted, perhaps beating them is not necessarily the ideal method, but disciplining them is certainly important if they are acting out of line.
Let's talk about these attributes again...
Fearless, demanding, disciplining...
I think we're pretty much talking about a good leader here. And there's attributes ideal in a leader...
Like vision, initative, and whatever else you can think of.
Girls love that shit.
[I'm just reading this post at 7:30 p.m. and it comes off with a S&M vibe, huh? lol]
In the rare event you come across a girl who isn't constantly testing the boundaries, I guess discipline isn't really needed and lucky you.
Well... it's pretty intuitive for me to understand because I've done it before... it's because I'm testing how much my girl loves me. If she doesn't react, then I start to believe she doesn't care, and I start to lose interest.
So, when your other is trying to make you jealous, the correct response is to tell her to stop it. Lots of people are telling you just to ignore it, but... I don't think that works as nearly as well as disciplining your b*tch. Number 1) It shows you care which is exactly what she's looking for 2) It makes you the "takes charge and won't take shit from your gf" kind of person, which is exactly the kind of guy girlfriends like. The kind that keeps their girls in line. (You need to be the leader... discipline her when she gets out line because she's testing your power... and helps to be demanding like a good leader...)
So, it's best to respond... but it's equally as important to take the "disciplining" approach as opposed to the "whining" approach. One's the alpha approach, the other is the beta.
Anyway, as to this "disciplining your girl".... you hear about those guys that are like beating up their girlfriends or whatever and the girls just want them so much... and you're like "Wow, those girls are completely stupid, looking for abuse"... but, they don't really tell WHY they were beat up. They were acting stupid or testing their power in the relationship and the guy kept her check and she /f/ing loves it. Granted, perhaps beating them is not necessarily the ideal method, but disciplining them is certainly important if they are acting out of line.
Let's talk about these attributes again...
Fearless, demanding, disciplining...
I think we're pretty much talking about a good leader here. And there's attributes ideal in a leader...
Like vision, initative, and whatever else you can think of.
Girls love that shit.
[I'm just reading this post at 7:30 p.m. and it comes off with a S&M vibe, huh? lol]
In the rare event you come across a girl who isn't constantly testing the boundaries, I guess discipline isn't really needed and lucky you.
I was wondering why this girl started acting like a little girl after the fact.
https://nextasf.com/forum/nextasf/general/8636-when-she-acts-like-a-little-girl
Oh, so she saw me in a strong, protective role. Hmmm... from all my research so far, that's not a bad thing. lol
Yep, those little girls... ymmmm... lol. From what I've experienced so far, that seems like a pretty satisfying kind of relationship.
This whole "disciplining your little girl when she misbehaves" idea is just getting way too real, lol.
I wonder if little girls tend to have daddy issues?
And my stare... I wonder... was that more dominance than anything? Hmmm... well.... I'm thinking about it... she was challenging my status by questioning my choice in the area I moved to... in kind... I stared her down... So, it's plausible dominance was the main issue. But, I swear that's not what was on my mind, lol, but it might play an integral role. I guess after I dominated her, she was like "Oh god, I love you", lol. There's an interesting relationship between dominance & sexual desire. Males dominating the females...? The lionesses submitting to the desires of the lion.
Now it's more of a question if her challenging my status turned me on or if it was more the anger? I would almost think that if dominance was the main motive, her challenging my status would definitely be up there.
https://www.reddit.com/r/sex/comments/2ne9fy/why_is_dominance_so_sexy/
Dominance is so sexy... hmm... yeah, that seems to be the case.
One male lion interrupted another while it was mating. Yep, I can understand, lol.
Murder would definitely be at the top of my mind, lol.
Anyway, I'm thinking about creating a path through the back so I have access to the road on the other side should someone try to lay siege from the front. For example, if I need to make mail deliveries. I swear if I had to mail deliveries to do, I would just be like *Whatever, it can wait until tonight*, lol, but I think having an escape route might be a good option to have. And, that means I should put my bike towards the back behind "the curtain" out of view of the front so they can't see me escape.
And, I'm thinking I might eventually need a protective barrier around my vehicle so there's no unauthorized booting nor identification of the vehicle. (it'd be fenced in and covered up)
Identification of the vehicle by certain persons could lead to identification of the probable occupant, which would be undesired. I don't want unauthorized knowing of who I am.
And, I can't really have anyone else living at this property. If I do, it does create certain risks. So the idea of "Building a house and bringing a girl home", lol...
I'd have to train my girl. Just that... I don't think I'd trust too many females in the kind of situation I'm imagining. And, further, the reasons why I'd need to train her (Which undoubtedly she'd want to know what's going on), wouldn't be reasons I'd want her to know. She most likely wouldn't have my perspective on this country and how it's structured, and thus my understanding. No one born and raised in Houston, TX would have my perspective.
https://nextasf.com/forum/nextasf/general/8636-when-she-acts-like-a-little-girl
Oh, so she saw me in a strong, protective role. Hmmm... from all my research so far, that's not a bad thing. lol
Yep, those little girls... ymmmm... lol. From what I've experienced so far, that seems like a pretty satisfying kind of relationship.
This whole "disciplining your little girl when she misbehaves" idea is just getting way too real, lol.
I wonder if little girls tend to have daddy issues?
And my stare... I wonder... was that more dominance than anything? Hmmm... well.... I'm thinking about it... she was challenging my status by questioning my choice in the area I moved to... in kind... I stared her down... So, it's plausible dominance was the main issue. But, I swear that's not what was on my mind, lol, but it might play an integral role. I guess after I dominated her, she was like "Oh god, I love you", lol. There's an interesting relationship between dominance & sexual desire. Males dominating the females...? The lionesses submitting to the desires of the lion.
Now it's more of a question if her challenging my status turned me on or if it was more the anger? I would almost think that if dominance was the main motive, her challenging my status would definitely be up there.
https://www.reddit.com/r/sex/comments/2ne9fy/why_is_dominance_so_sexy/
Dominance is so sexy... hmm... yeah, that seems to be the case.
One male lion interrupted another while it was mating. Yep, I can understand, lol.
Murder would definitely be at the top of my mind, lol.
Anyway, I'm thinking about creating a path through the back so I have access to the road on the other side should someone try to lay siege from the front. For example, if I need to make mail deliveries. I swear if I had to mail deliveries to do, I would just be like *Whatever, it can wait until tonight*, lol, but I think having an escape route might be a good option to have. And, that means I should put my bike towards the back behind "the curtain" out of view of the front so they can't see me escape.
And, I'm thinking I might eventually need a protective barrier around my vehicle so there's no unauthorized booting nor identification of the vehicle. (it'd be fenced in and covered up)
Identification of the vehicle by certain persons could lead to identification of the probable occupant, which would be undesired. I don't want unauthorized knowing of who I am.
And, I can't really have anyone else living at this property. If I do, it does create certain risks. So the idea of "Building a house and bringing a girl home", lol...
I'd have to train my girl. Just that... I don't think I'd trust too many females in the kind of situation I'm imagining. And, further, the reasons why I'd need to train her (Which undoubtedly she'd want to know what's going on), wouldn't be reasons I'd want her to know. She most likely wouldn't have my perspective on this country and how it's structured, and thus my understanding. No one born and raised in Houston, TX would have my perspective.
Dauntless
100 TW
What makes you think any of those people on those websites know what they're talking about? Dang, I could just imagine the awe they'd experience reading my posts. You just don't know how good you got it.
But anyone concerned with knowing who's on your lot or where you are knew it and forgot it by now.
But I do have one bit of good news: Thanks to a little research project over the past week, I can offer you a hilariously illustrated post on picking up girls, by the master. NO, I don't mean ME. (I wish.)
I'm talking about KAA! You read 'The Junglebooks' growing up, right? If so you realize that Kaa was Mowgli's FRIEND, who PROTECTED him from the monkeys. Disney made him out to be a bad guy in their silly movie. (Oh, Baloo is no fool, either.) But I think we can all read between the lines on what's goin' on here. You gotta see it to believe it, but the slithering one would be a regular subject for 'TMZ' if only they could figure out they should be reporting on
You think women like those snakeskin boots, imagine how they feel about gettin' coiled up in it.
Daphne from the Scooby Gang, Belle from 'Beauty and the Beast.' The coily one is competing with the Beast AND Shaggy, coming away victorious. Noone expects Princess Jasmine to be a pushover, but when even Tinkerbelle turns shy and giggly before you. . . .
But could there BE a triumph to match Ariel, from 'The Little Mermaid?' Talk about needing to be in finest form going after THAT one, you realize Mermaids don't even HAVE a heart in them until someone can make enough magic to create it within her. Or die trying, according to legend.
Does Kaa have to resort to any of that macho claptrap you've been spouting? Nah, he just shows what charm is all about. What chance does Ariel have against THAT?
You should only know what she was holdin' between her toes in that last picture, which to ensure our PG-13 rating I went ahead and slipped under the picture before it.
She can do all the playin' hard to get she wants on those moonlit swims, 'cause it ain't for nothing they call Kaa a predator, you know.
Though I gotta admit, for all his skills, he's obviously a succor for a woman who's got some serious charms of her own goin' on, cartoon character or no. A guy could get pretty jealous of such passions being unleashed on the page. Especially with all the heat that little la---er, mermaid is giving off.
So I'm just sayin', there's really only one way with a woman, and you just witnessed an exhibition of an inspiration to us all by that ma---er, snake . As well as by the artists and writers of the fan fiction I got this from. The 'Sailor Moon' character, Wendy from 'Peter Pan,' they're like the pins for Kaa to bowl over just looking them in the eye and gently hissing "Trusssssst, meeeeeeee." I suppose the length and speed of that forked tongue of his makes a difference.
I gotta say there were some pretty good artists putting together illustrations; comedy, drama, action/adventure and off course romance. Oh, goes without sayin' there was a lot of the NSFW, offset by really some imaginative writing at times. I found the collection interesting. We all should have guessed just what a seductive little devil Kaa could be, eh?
Just goes to show there's hope. If a scaly, belly slidin' snake in the grass can woo a heartless mermaid into submission, there's hope for us all. But you're STILL going to have to start taking showers.
But anyone concerned with knowing who's on your lot or where you are knew it and forgot it by now.
But I do have one bit of good news: Thanks to a little research project over the past week, I can offer you a hilariously illustrated post on picking up girls, by the master. NO, I don't mean ME. (I wish.)
I'm talking about KAA! You read 'The Junglebooks' growing up, right? If so you realize that Kaa was Mowgli's FRIEND, who PROTECTED him from the monkeys. Disney made him out to be a bad guy in their silly movie. (Oh, Baloo is no fool, either.) But I think we can all read between the lines on what's goin' on here. You gotta see it to believe it, but the slithering one would be a regular subject for 'TMZ' if only they could figure out they should be reporting on
You think women like those snakeskin boots, imagine how they feel about gettin' coiled up in it.
Daphne from the Scooby Gang, Belle from 'Beauty and the Beast.' The coily one is competing with the Beast AND Shaggy, coming away victorious. Noone expects Princess Jasmine to be a pushover, but when even Tinkerbelle turns shy and giggly before you. . . .
But could there BE a triumph to match Ariel, from 'The Little Mermaid?' Talk about needing to be in finest form going after THAT one, you realize Mermaids don't even HAVE a heart in them until someone can make enough magic to create it within her. Or die trying, according to legend.
Does Kaa have to resort to any of that macho claptrap you've been spouting? Nah, he just shows what charm is all about. What chance does Ariel have against THAT?
You should only know what she was holdin' between her toes in that last picture, which to ensure our PG-13 rating I went ahead and slipped under the picture before it.
She can do all the playin' hard to get she wants on those moonlit swims, 'cause it ain't for nothing they call Kaa a predator, you know.
Though I gotta admit, for all his skills, he's obviously a succor for a woman who's got some serious charms of her own goin' on, cartoon character or no. A guy could get pretty jealous of such passions being unleashed on the page. Especially with all the heat that little la---er, mermaid is giving off.
So I'm just sayin', there's really only one way with a woman, and you just witnessed an exhibition of an inspiration to us all by that ma---er, snake . As well as by the artists and writers of the fan fiction I got this from. The 'Sailor Moon' character, Wendy from 'Peter Pan,' they're like the pins for Kaa to bowl over just looking them in the eye and gently hissing "Trusssssst, meeeeeeee." I suppose the length and speed of that forked tongue of his makes a difference.
I gotta say there were some pretty good artists putting together illustrations; comedy, drama, action/adventure and off course romance. Oh, goes without sayin' there was a lot of the NSFW, offset by really some imaginative writing at times. I found the collection interesting. We all should have guessed just what a seductive little devil Kaa could be, eh?
Just goes to show there's hope. If a scaly, belly slidin' snake in the grass can woo a heartless mermaid into submission, there's hope for us all. But you're STILL going to have to start taking showers.
http://street-attraction.com/alpha-eye-contact/
Okay, that doesn't contradict my experiences.
Still no contradiction.
Okay, dominance was probably the underlying motif.
And, yes, I purposely held and did not flinch. I did not care, this girl needed to know where she /f'ing/ stood, challenging my choice in towns and implied status.[It is kind of funny though, if she thought magnolia was bad, I'd have to lol when she saw this neighborhood, lol.]
But... the way I held it... it wasn't a normal 'dominance' stare like one between subordinate/superior. I definitely think it was a sexual one, for a lack of better term. [It conveyed sexual intent as opposed to simply dominant intent. I wasn't actually imagining explicit sexual activities or anything, but just felt a strong general attraction to her,which on further investigation, seems to have an element of sexual desire.]
If I were to characterize... it was definitely forward, immediate, imposing, unrelenting, prolonged.So, yes, more than likely it was a particularly strong message of dominance, which I could possibly see the 'strong,protective' inference coming into play.
It was pretty interesting how quickly she got turned on. That's one of those things you hear about women, "They are slow to simmer", no, that was pretty darn quick. I'd say she was 'feeling it' within like 6 seconds and not just kind of. I'm just saying, if the setting was a bar... this would've likely proceeded pretty quickly. [It kind of helped she was already pretty horny, judging from the way she was presenting herself to the other male customers.]
Update: just had cocoa, and I'm getting moments of delirium now reading this, lol.
Okay, that doesn't contradict my experiences.
Still no contradiction.
Okay, dominance was probably the underlying motif.
And, yes, I purposely held and did not flinch. I did not care, this girl needed to know where she /f'ing/ stood, challenging my choice in towns and implied status.[It is kind of funny though, if she thought magnolia was bad, I'd have to lol when she saw this neighborhood, lol.]
But... the way I held it... it wasn't a normal 'dominance' stare like one between subordinate/superior. I definitely think it was a sexual one, for a lack of better term. [It conveyed sexual intent as opposed to simply dominant intent. I wasn't actually imagining explicit sexual activities or anything, but just felt a strong general attraction to her,which on further investigation, seems to have an element of sexual desire.]
If I were to characterize... it was definitely forward, immediate, imposing, unrelenting, prolonged.So, yes, more than likely it was a particularly strong message of dominance, which I could possibly see the 'strong,protective' inference coming into play.
It was pretty interesting how quickly she got turned on. That's one of those things you hear about women, "They are slow to simmer", no, that was pretty darn quick. I'd say she was 'feeling it' within like 6 seconds and not just kind of. I'm just saying, if the setting was a bar... this would've likely proceeded pretty quickly. [It kind of helped she was already pretty horny, judging from the way she was presenting herself to the other male customers.]
Update: just had cocoa, and I'm getting moments of delirium now reading this, lol.
Okay, well, I could either get a shallow well jet pump for $166 or a manual old-fashioned hand pump for $56. Considering that I likely would not be so enthused of bringing out my generator all the way to the back everytime I wanted water, I think I'd want the handpump.
But... filling up swimming pools.... that might be a lot of pumping, lol. [Shouldn't matter too much; there'd be a limited well capacity anyway. It takes I'd say at least 10-12 hours to replenish itself though the low pemeability clay. I think I would have more wells for more all-at-one-time pumping capacity, and I'd transfer the pump head from pipe to pipe.]
Anyway, yeah, UPS seems to be slow as /f/. It's been a good 5 business days since the auger has shipped and it shipped out from Chicago, IL... wait... did it ever reach the carrier?
"Package has left the carrier facility"
Okay, it did. I was hoping it wasn't going to say "In transit to the carrier", lol.
Chicago is only 1000 miles away though. It should hypothetically get here in 2 days, maybe 4 given UPS's additional "processing time".
http://thegrownetwork.com/survival-gardening-in-the-heat-with-marjory-wildcraft/
Cool... I can grow sweet potatos during the summers here when apparently few crops do well in the Texas summer midafternoon heat. (My neighbor suggests shading the plants during the mid-afternoon for best results, which seems plausible with the right kind of fabric. I'm trying to find cover that allows partial transmission of sunlight.)
[youtube]xSAfR5FpwgU[/youtube]
Apparently "30% or 40% shade cloth" exists for this purpose.
But... filling up swimming pools.... that might be a lot of pumping, lol. [Shouldn't matter too much; there'd be a limited well capacity anyway. It takes I'd say at least 10-12 hours to replenish itself though the low pemeability clay. I think I would have more wells for more all-at-one-time pumping capacity, and I'd transfer the pump head from pipe to pipe.]
Anyway, yeah, UPS seems to be slow as /f/. It's been a good 5 business days since the auger has shipped and it shipped out from Chicago, IL... wait... did it ever reach the carrier?
"Package has left the carrier facility"
Okay, it did. I was hoping it wasn't going to say "In transit to the carrier", lol.
Chicago is only 1000 miles away though. It should hypothetically get here in 2 days, maybe 4 given UPS's additional "processing time".
http://thegrownetwork.com/survival-gardening-in-the-heat-with-marjory-wildcraft/
Cool... I can grow sweet potatos during the summers here when apparently few crops do well in the Texas summer midafternoon heat. (My neighbor suggests shading the plants during the mid-afternoon for best results, which seems plausible with the right kind of fabric. I'm trying to find cover that allows partial transmission of sunlight.)
[youtube]xSAfR5FpwgU[/youtube]
Apparently "30% or 40% shade cloth" exists for this purpose.
Yeah, funny about the snakes. Anyway, I don't want to talk as if it some "thing that's going on right now"... it's getting to be the distant past now. But, the fantasies that spawned from it, I can't say I haven't been enjoying it, lol.[When I say fantasy... I don't really mean something unrealistic... I think it's something pretty realistic... but just a few things that are not quite in place yet. And, absence makes the heart go yonder, so I'm not betting she's not taken by now. I kind of get the impression she was a ho throwing herself at every passing guy OR she was looking for a way out of her current environment, possibly because she's getting kicked out by the parents or she just really wants to move out, thus she was feeling the pressure to find her knight in shining armor fast. Or maybe she's just legitimately desperate for love for its own sake; I haven't come across too many girls like this in my experience, which is why I kind of doubt it. But that Sia girl definitely seems to have that complex... desperate for love.]
What is 40% higher than 20%?
1.4*20% = 28%
Wow, so I'm practically in the 28% category?
That'd explain why I seem to be one of the youngest property owners here. I didn't think homeownership was that rare among my age group, and I'm still way ahead of most those who "own homes", mortgaging away their future meager income to America's financial overlords. I almost suspect I'm in the 10% category or some such, which isn't too surprising. I didn't think I'd be kicking butt that much though, lol.
I think the homeownership rates among native millenial Houstonians is likely higher than the national average.
Granted... I guess some might argue I've cheated a tiny bit for a slightly unfair advantage.
shineon102
1 mW
You are not a 'Homeowner' until you put your 'home' on your lot! Tomorrow never comes, set a date and become a 'homeowner'. Just Sayin'
https://cdn.meme.am/instances/500x/60753917/leonardo-dicaprio-biting-fist-when-you-want-to-frock-her-so-bad.jpg
Biting my fist. Hey that's exactly what I was doing when she bit her lip,smiled slyly and turned around for my pleasure, lol. (She kind of liked... wiggled her lower back/hips or something, but it was subtle.)
I think she was being mean to me on purpose, like a spur to the horse, and she definitely liked the outcome.
https://www.girlsaskguys.com/guys-behavior/q15176-what-does-mean-when-girl-bites-her-lip
According to this place, she was flirting with me. Wow... yeah, so she was flirting with everyone.
Oh?
Ok, looking good. Didn't really know that in particular, but I know she was doing a good job of creating naughty thoughts in my mind. I just wanted to hug her so much and nibble her ear or something.
No wonder why she was so receptive to my unrelenting stare, she already wanted me from the beginning. That was the thing that really pushed her over the edge, dumping that dopamine and adrenaline, creating a chemical addiction.
Looking at all this written evidence...It's not implausible I also have this addiction... lol (Even if I didn't really experience that adrenaline rushing feeling; but I did feel that warmth of reciprocation.)
Anyway, she reminded me of someone in the past and I don't really know who. But, someone that I was infatuated with and she got away (Because I never really pursued her, that's not really something I did...), and I was like "You better not let this one get away, you bitch.", lol.
I'm really trying to remember who and I don't want to say my mother, lol.
Biting my fist. Hey that's exactly what I was doing when she bit her lip,smiled slyly and turned around for my pleasure, lol. (She kind of liked... wiggled her lower back/hips or something, but it was subtle.)
I think she was being mean to me on purpose, like a spur to the horse, and she definitely liked the outcome.
https://www.girlsaskguys.com/guys-behavior/q15176-what-does-mean-when-girl-bites-her-lip
According to this place, she was flirting with me. Wow... yeah, so she was flirting with everyone.
Oh?
Ok, looking good. Didn't really know that in particular, but I know she was doing a good job of creating naughty thoughts in my mind. I just wanted to hug her so much and nibble her ear or something.
No wonder why she was so receptive to my unrelenting stare, she already wanted me from the beginning. That was the thing that really pushed her over the edge, dumping that dopamine and adrenaline, creating a chemical addiction.
Looking at all this written evidence...It's not implausible I also have this addiction... lol (Even if I didn't really experience that adrenaline rushing feeling; but I did feel that warmth of reciprocation.)
Anyway, she reminded me of someone in the past and I don't really know who. But, someone that I was infatuated with and she got away (Because I never really pursued her, that's not really something I did...), and I was like "You better not let this one get away, you bitch.", lol.
I'm really trying to remember who and I don't want to say my mother, lol.
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