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LOL, I posted "I'm on the fence now... I don't know if she's falling for other guys as I'm typing this..."

And, checked her feed like 3 hours later, comment suggesting she was going to meet this guy in california DELETED. LOL
 
Dang, you link all this OTHER stuff, but you never link where you post this and she responds.

Oh, I guess it would have to BE THERE for you to link it.

But did it ever occur to you that, when you posted all that puppy talk, most people take that has her way of saying healthy baby? "Healthy puppy."

And did she take the puppy talk down?
 
I never link to it because, I don't want anyone here being all like "You know what he said about you?!"... so you see. I've been tempted at times, however.

For example, like the fact I have all their information. I didn't put that on facebook, and the fact she deleted the comment told me she read my material. I didn't have confirmation of that until that point.

And, I furthermore recently surmised that her most recent post, was likely a reaction to my entry talking about my favorite girl name, celeste. Thus, why she replied with "My child", I'm inferring she's asserting its hers to name (Thus why I guess roman names aren't that common, lol. Girls generally have the veto power. But doesn't Tiberius sound so darn awesome, roman emperor in 14 AD, ruled until he died of natural causes in his 80s unlike say caesar.). Granted, there'd seem to be a multitude of assertions in that short statement, opening the possibility I'm reading too much into it.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Limerence

The inclination is to sift through nuances of speech and subtleties of behavior for evidence of limerent hope. "Lovers, of course, are notoriously frantic epistemologists, second only to paranoiacs (and analysts) as readers of signs and wonders."[19] "Little things" are noticed and endlessly analyzed for meaning. Such excessive concern over trivia may not be entirely unfounded, however, as body language can indicate reciprocated feeling.

Body language was the only indication of (positive) reciprocation to my flirtation when I called her a loser.

The fact she emphasized "I don't care if it's a boy or girl", could be referring to the fact I only mentioned my favorite girl name in that particular entry.

https://www.quora.com/Who-has-the-right-to-name-their-child%E2%80%94-the-mother-or-the-father

Here in the Northeast USA, it’s the mother who names the child. In many hospitals the name of the father isn’t even an item on the birth certificate form (which is filled out at the time of naming and is the first legal form with the child’s name.) I know that this is for the mother’s sake in case the father is unknown (as in sperm bank donor or multiple partners) or in cases of rape where it is too hard for her to use the rapist name.

Damn. No wonder why there's so many boring names.

It'd appear she anticipates being a "girlfriend", nothing more. Here today, gone tomorrow. Granted, her comments suggest she's looking for "the one", frustrated over the ephemerality of her relationships, referring to it "as a curse", so plausibly keeping their expectations on the conservative side, partially due to experience. I'm not saying she's realizing narcissistic relationships tend to be problematic (With primarily her being the narcissist, something she apparently doesn't realize.), but I get a feeling that might be the case...

Granted, from the BPD inference of her reckless and impulsive behavior, it's very well she may have classical BPD relationship issues leading to short term relations.

"Trust issues" (baseless "You're cheating on me!" suspicions leading to 'revenge' cheating. :roll:)
"Hoe issues" (Again, cheating)
Impulsivity ("I got carried away so easily!", again cheating. And massive spending. That's literally what she said in regard to blowing it at urban outfitters, "I had a relapse and couldn't help myself".)

I'm getting something of a BPD feel from this ^^^ list and the fact she had strong hoe indicators. (Provocative poses)

It'd appear those hoes crave all the male attention they can get and love the rush of being chased over and over again, and having a baby is a liability, so could explain the expectations of the smarter hoes.
 
What was that feeling welling inside this morning at 4:30 a.m.; overwhelming. deeply. It'd seem unusual I keep falling for her. I haven't learned yet that such feelings inevitably mean you're going to get massively hurt, dude, but somehow I get that suspicion. But I understand how such suspicion may cause undesireable withholding, so I should choose to ignore it since a proper chance had yet been given.

A reasonable concern might be "not meeting material expectations", but I'm not really worried. If in the event that happens, as of right now, I have no troubles wishing them well and farewell! I know there's plenty of girls out there who'd have no qualms, but would I fall for them is the question. :lol:

At times, I'd seem indifferent, but I knew from past experiences that it's entirely different when "You're in the situation" or "Possibly anticipate being in the situation", so can't reasonably extrapolate "How it's going to be" from that indifference. But probably fair to extrapolate from the "possibly anticipate being in the situation" moments, and definitely no indifference there. The pervasive all-day feeling of obsession characteristic of the first two months, however, is no longer there. The kind that'd motivate actions like mailing them crap.

The idea of a puppy. Yeah, I understand how there's a risk of getting the puppy taken down the road or skips town for this Tacoma guy, which might happen sooner than later, but I also think... it might have strong positive affects on "the household". (Almost) Everyone loves a puppy and I'm no exception, and I had always planned it sans "a girlfriend". I'm not sure if emotions will be the primary culprit, though... lol... given the obvious problem of "being broke" finances.

The hoes ain't loyal song, "I don't mess with 'em broke bitches", yeah, cause you're paying for everything and further, they typically have this highly irritating sense of entitlement and if not that, expectation. It's not like you're doing it out of beneficence, you're doing it because they're demanding it and that's somewhat irritating. Somewhat irritating when the begger is exerting the power in the exchange.

But what's a typical stay-at-home wife other than a broke bitch? Might be fun trialing the lifestyle, see if I have the wherewithal, or at least having the pressure to quickly develop it. I have a strong suspicion I have the capacity. But simply a pseudo trial, an actual wife would likely come with a prenup.
 
Gee, I shouldn't have been pushing the child talk. Just merely wanted to filter out the wasteful "useless" quickly, not that I want a child right away. She's now pushing the father memes. :lol:

It's great seeing her pushing these posts, though. I'm pretty sure she doesn't often post about these concepts. And whether she has thought of them... maybe she has, but maybe not with the concepts inside my ... approaches. I don't want to call them entreaties, that might convey the wrong idea. But maybe I might have conveyed "I WANT YOUR BABIES", lol.

Got the layout done for creating a 4x8 porch. Just enough to sit outside and enjoy the summer rain.

And got window placement done, so I think I'm pretty much done with design work. But, I THINK, I'll probably want to create the basic diagram for the windows and doors, so I can implement on the fly. (Instead of drawing out the entire side's stud diagram.)

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Today's horoscope

Realizing a long-term goal challenges the limits of your current capacity. Your dream draws close enough to touch, yet it requires much more from you than you initially estimated. Dig deep into your reserves to see what else you can muster. Consider letting colleagues add their talents to your labors. Your force multiplies when you get the right team on board. Recruit the perfect players and hit the ball out of the park.

Oh, yes, I think it knows what it's talking about. "Your dream" of a family or something.

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It's funny reading this "Lies girls tell" and see myself telling them.

Like "I'm not jealous", yep, I told her that.

Then, hypothetically, I'm the one pushing for marriage and children. Isn't that something the woman normally does against a reluctant male? lol.

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https://sexyconfidence.com/he-wants-to-marry-you/

Summary: Looking for Signs He Wants to Marry You

He Says That He Wants to Have a Family in the Near Future

:confused:

He’s Committed to You and Only You

:confused:

There’s Future Progression in the Relationship

Yeah, I think I'm in the clear, here. Woo, close one.
 
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You're going to be figuring out families are expensive, you'll be needing some sort of real job.

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I think I made it clear I wasn't looking at marriage and children right now. Kept it direct and succinct. So, don't think it's an issue.

I'm aware that "marriagability" is usually 40k a year. And, a girl like this, probably higher.

But, what a relevant picture you found, lol.

Started checking my bases on septic funding, and found out I could use a 504 loan, but HAS TO BE A FINISHED HOUSE I'M LIVING IN. (if I'm living in it when the county does the permit inspection, they could assess a 5k fine, you see...)

I'm only concerned about the septic as far as "making it acceptable" for girls. Not really an overriding concern, but seems like something I should take care of or at least look into pretty early. Ideally, I'd get the septic started fairly early, but can't apply for loans if in the case it's 10 grand aerobic they require.... and I was told by the local county office that "You know, that's where the festival is, it's not the same place it was 10-15 years ago." implying the "standards" have gone up (read: $$$).

And, need to start construction. And, need to get the window and door diagrams first. That's homework, essentially.

community program
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254-742-9789 - texas community program

bryan office - 979 846 0548 - 504 loan, new septic

repair, must be living in.

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I told her my "gross income" on taxes was something like 11,000 last year, and she asked "Are you being truthful?", apparently skeptical about my building a house and earning only $11,000. (She should know that businesses have a lot of good writeoffs... but she didn't know I ran a business...)

Or, wait, last year was around 14k I believe. This year SHOULD be around 11k, but I'll have to see later. Before writeoffs, it probably was somewhere between 30-40k, and that's actually IMO the more accurate number as to "how much I make" but... you know... my opinion doesn't matter much...
 
swbluto said:
I think I made it clear I wasn't looking at marriage and children right now. Kept it direct and succinct.

Umm, no, you keep going on about a woman to have a family with, rating her potential for that, etc.

I'm aware that "marriagability" is usually 40k a year. And, a girl like this, probably higher.

But, what a relevant picture you found, lol.

Started checking my bases on septic funding, and found out I could use a 504 loan, but HAS TO BE A FINISHED HOUSE I'M LIVING IN. (if I'm living in it when the county does the permit inspection, they could assess a 5k fine, you see...)

swbluto said:
I'm only concerned about the septic as far as "making it acceptable" for girls. Not really an overriding concern, but seems like something I should take care of or at least look into pretty early.

Yeah, as long as it's just you it can be a sewage swamp all you want, eh? I'd suggest early is the best option, because once it truly IS a sewage swamp, that takes awhile to, er, redirect.

swbluto said:
. . . . and she asked "Are you being truthful?", apparently skeptical about my building a house and earning only $11,000.

Yeah, Dan's thoughts are contagious. I rather want to keep picturing the great unwashed trying to bring a woman home to his sewage swamp. Such a movie could be made from that idea. . . .

Oh, I found a whole amazing collection of relevant pictures the other day. Sometimes I marvel at the marketing minds of yesteryear, finding some of the most amazing "What WERE they thinking?" moments.

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Dauntless said:
Yeah, as long as it's just you it can be a sewage swamp all you want, eh? I'd suggest early is the best option, because once it truly IS a sewage swamp, that takes awhile to, er, redirect.

Thinking that's probably the best option.

I'm thinking this is how it could play out.

-Designs a regular septic system. No problem, just pay for it and do it.

-Designs an aerobic system. Fudge. Well, let's keep developing it, then apply for a 504 loan once it's finished. This would probably delay the "practical move in" date if I were to avoid a "living in it" $5000 septic fine.

If I weren't able to acquire a loan, then my option is... what exactly... and I'm on the septic's radar now...

I guess the options are

1) Don't move in. Wait for funding (Practically meaning "don't move in").
2) Call off the septic people, say "waiting for funding", move in and hope they won't check. This is bad idea, however, because you're still going to be living in it when you do eventually have the funding needed, and probably get the fine then.

The probability of the second option is... unknown and risks are somewhat high. Might cause a breakup which doesn't seem that consequential right now, but would be pretty damn painful more than likely, this I know. I guess the practical option is... explain the situation in my facebook and never check her feed EVER again... and definitely mean it this time, LOL.

And right now... I'm thinking I should never check her feed again... not sure why I would need to... There's usually two possible states, "we're together - happy" and "Broken up - hopelessness and despair". Every time I check is a risk for the latter option.

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Started tearing thinking the dog was forever missing. I figured he got stuck somewhere with the chain tied to him, and walking around trying to find him, I heard his familiar bark and sure enough found him. You think I'd be elated, but think I'm just so keenly aware how easy it is to lose a loved one. Waiting for the tears to dry before asking the land owner if I could trespass.

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And neighbor is removing all the junk vehicles in his yard, apparently. Wonder, is he making money off that? Or he paying for it?

Did it have anything to do with my comment like 5 days ago, pretending like I was sitting on the front porch, "Well, this isn't the best sight. We could always look *this way*", lol.

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interesting sign the neighbor had. "No trespassing, no dope hoes or drug dealers allowed". Kind of tells you a bit about their business, lol.

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it's interesting, my neighbor was talking about "having babies and getting food stamps", and I felt that feeling in my heart like I do with this girl, except transient and a little less intense. Interesting, you'd think there's a "having babies" emotion in guys, not just the pure lust that's often attributed to them.

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so doing it properly.

-Need to hire an independent engineer/designer to draw up a "septic plan", who is also the soil tester.
-Submit plan and permit app with $210
-Implement the system
-Schedule inspection, if pass, license to operate issued. Effectively, a certificate of occupancy.

So... what's my minimum cost looking like...

http://texaswaterwellseptic.com/site-evaluations-design/3935456

I'm almost guessing $1000 for the "site evaluation and design", then $210 for the permit, and $1500 for the system install. Or $5000 for them to do all of it.

So looks like $3000 to $5000 probably. Will have to call these guys for a quote.

And the mexicans got their septic installed for $1500, permit and everything. The mexican dudes did the site design, I take it?

That actually doesn't seem like it should take 5+ weeks to accomplish. But... the issuing of the permit itself might be the incredibly slow part...

But does look like if the designer "requires aerobic", I'm not on the counties radar yet... so... I can just keep it quiet and figure out an improvised solution since I know there's no way in hell I'm going to afford aerobic anytime soon.

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Wait... what... my tax form says I owe 1336 but the IRS says I owe them 1379. Where did the extra $43 come from?

Yeah, anyways, paid the taxes, now I'm missing 1400 buckaroos.

Off a prewriteoff income of 35,000.... doesn't seem too bad. My effective tax rate was ... 4%?

For example, if the individual making $35,000 paid $7,400 in taxes, his effective tax rate is about 21%, even though he paid in the 15% and 25% brackets

I got a deal, didn't I.
 
swbluto said:
And right now... I'm thinking I should never check her feed again... not sure why I would need to... There's usually two possible states, "we're together - happy" and "Broken up - hopelessness and despair". Every time I check is a risk for the latter option.

Every time you think about pulling the ripcord there's a risk of slowing down. An unopened parachute keeps your speed up all the way to the ground.

swbluto said:
interesting sign the neighbor had. "No trespassing, no dope hoes or drug dealers allowed". Kind of tells you a bit about their business, lol.

DEA agents????

swbluto said:
it's interesting, my neighbor was talking about "having babies and getting food stamps", and I felt that feeling in my heart like I do with this girl, except transient and a little less intense. Interesting, you'd think there's a "having babies" emotion in guys, not just the pure lust that's often attributed to them.

Not to mention a getting foodstamps emotion.

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Had a dream. There was an elephant that had planted its left foot on my chest, and was nibbling at my face kind of gently at first with its nostril, then it started getting a little more aggressive like it was eating it, and I started freaking out and "woke up". Now having "woken up", I'm in my bed kind of freaked out, gasping for air a little, so I get up real fast and run to the door, open it and run into the hallway, and by this time, my breathing has gotten has got real sketchy, like deep and repetitive, kind of like shortness of breath (Except real shortness of breath tends to be short, fast, repeated gasps.), just like that one panic attack I had about 3 years ago, "deep and constrained repetitive" breathing. The firetruck medics at the time noted something possibly ususual with the EKG but didn't know how to interpret, but the doctor dismissed it, the breathing problem subsiding by then. By this time, I'm thinking "WTF IS HAPPENING??", lol, then I "wake up" again, and this time for real, and no obvious elephant stand on my chest, no obvious panic like after the first "wake up", and no obvious labored breathing. The only thing unusual is that it was 5:10 a.m. which is bit early for waking up from the second sleep. Usually wake up at 6:30-7:30 a.m. I think I probably woke early due to the nightmare, and not actual medical phenomenon.

The only thing unusual preceding this dream was that familiar lower left back ache after I woke up at 1:43 a.m., with tiredness in the eyes; I don't usually feel back ache so readily. I traced its origin, and felt that the lower left of the spine was irritated on palpation, unlike the right side, so nerve issues seemed plausible. But, irritation being sent down the left spine (referred pain) from the heart also seemed plausible, especially since it almost seems this is what happened to an uncle at age 50. Terrible lower back pain episodes, going into the VA, they determined he had heart failure and had like 10 or 20% ejection fraction. Got a transplant.

One time that I woke up at 1:43 a.m., I thought I noticed a small gasp for air. Not sure. Suspected maybe paroxysmal nocturnal dyspnea, heart failure symptom. Could've just been something like sleep apnea or acid reflux. It's unusual if I were waking at this hour due to some medical phenomenon, it happens just about every night. Get 4 hours of sleep, wake up, typically fall back asleep at 5, but think I probably fell asleep earlier today, like 3:30-4.

Well, anyway.

Yesterday, had a dream seeing lulubelle (An old pug), going into seizure. Had that jilted, shaking emotion on her as she was picked up by someone else. Then I woke up. It's interesting I didn't know the term while in the dream, but I quickly identified what was happening to her after I woke up, seizure.

Kussmaul breathing is a deep and labored breathing pattern often associated with severe metabolic acidosis, particularly diabetic ketoacidosis (DKA) but also kidney failure. ... It is this latter type of breathing attern that is referred to as Kussmaul breathing.

Oh interesting, maybe I woke up with kussmaul breathing one time. The only reason I can think of is "not eating enough", but not sure if that's enough to induce kussmaul breathing. Seeing "keto" leads me to suspect that.

Ketoacidosis shouldn't be confused with ketosis, which is harmless

Maybe I shouldn't.

Well, maybe I should consider the kidney failure possibility. Hmmm...

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So incredibly happy and tearfully sad seemingly just minutes apart. What is this emotion? Bittersweet?

https://workwithgrace.com/true-love-bittersweet/

True Love Is Bittersweet

Maybe. What was that look, of the highest level of happiness tinged with sadness in the heb chick's face, that was most definitely genuine and not 'affected', its extreme dramatism belied any hint of falsity. That was bittersweet.

That look, the "falling in love" look, I had a more minor version of it as I passed the gal in Microcenter, and she probably recognized it and soon gave chase.

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Seeing how I need to get the septic thing done, and there's 4 straight "non raining days" and then bunch of rain... think I'll devote 3-? to calling and continue working afterwards. It's much better to get started on physical work in the morning, I've noticed, to "kick start" the day and keep the operational momentum high.

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Googling for this "falling in love" look, I can't find it! So... lemme explain... unlike this girl who apparently can't. The head tilts to the left, the eyes slightly tighten and eyebrows furrow, and the mouth pantomimes the "awwww" sound.

Then the heb chick was like that, except for her "awww" mouth movements was over and over again and VERY dramatic. Pretty sure time stood still or something for her.
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Called this company for quotes (b&r). And got one for the site eval and design - 435.

And awaiting a ballpark quote for install.

Thinking of making an offer if it's too high. Something like 4000 upfront or 3000 now and 2000 in Jan 2020.

Called aquastar, full septic install including design, permit, install and everything was $7163.

Damn, where can I get those mexicans to do it for $1500? LOL.

And, tim kuta is the other guy to call.

6700 aerobic
5000 conventional

He thinks based on my area, it's going to be aerobic. That's his "professional" opinion.

Sounds like maybe it's worth getting a site design, to be sure. That would probably alter the "septic plans".

Aerobic comes with a necessary maintenance contract and I see... $$$... lol
 
https://www.yahoo.com/finance/m/82a7bc51-ca99-3996-ac52-dfaf9492c129/jobless-claims-climb-again-in.html

YEP, KNEW IT. I was sensing something happening on the street that doesn't usually happen this time of year (Pervasive arguing and fighting) that indicated a strong market trend of some kind, and this would probably be why. JOBLESS CLAIMS UP THE HIGHEST SINCE JAN 2018 - think that means LAYOFFS. I.e., recession.

Someone posted a link to https://www.washingtonpost.com/business/2019/02/12/record-million-americans-are-months-behind-their-car-payments-red-flag-economy/?utm_term=.af86cf563f67 .

A record 7 million Americans are 3 months behind on their car payments, a red flag for the economy

Yep, happened to Amanda. Presumably gigs dried up, and spent all her money and now living with parents. I wonder, does she have a car payment? Is she making it? Presumably daddy is paying for it, or something, but imagine so many people who don't have parents like hers yet have the same job and income problems she does.

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By george, I think I got it. I'll install my own septic and won't apply for the permit. I know it's a bad move because I'll probably be paying some fine down the road, so I'll be cautious and get a site design first, so that if it's in error, it won't be "too far off from what it should be".

But if it's nearly what it should be, what's the problem with applying?

It might get disapproved and you're now on their radar. Get caught living in it, fined big time, and getting caught is high since you're now on their radar.

Don't apply... no risk of show-stopping disapproval... not on their radar right away...

But if I felt confident it was designed exactly to the site plan and without a doubt, pass inspection, then I'd consider applying. Essentially, permit is optional.

The Health Board imposed a $300 penalty earlier this month on Wallace for his failure to get the septic permit.

Hope the fines I might be at risk for are more like that... lol... keep hearing $5000 this, $10000 that, lol.

Well, maybe I should apply for the permit first.

I'm thinking thru the rationale for "$5000 if you're caught living there", and I'm willing to bet that's if they're inspecting a system in use, because I can imagine that might make inspection more difficult. Probably more unpleasant.

So that's a guaranteed fine if they're inspecting a system that's in use, I bet.

But, I will assess the risk of disapproval and try for permitting and I hope if it fails inspection, they'll tell me EXACTLY what's wrong so I can fix it so it'll pass next time. I guess that's the essential hope, anyway. I guess I might be risking a small delay, at least I hope it's small, lol.

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Refusing to look at her page, but I can see she changed her main image. "I Love You So Much" it reads.

Thought it was interesting, the extreme happiness and followup tearful sadness this morning. Totally didn't realize it was valentines days until 10 p.m., and suspected maybe that's why, oddly enough. My subconscious seems to keep track of days and time better than my conscious does, lol.

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Haha, not strange at all. Melancholy is the prevailing emotion of hoes, and isn't that interesting, star wars. I shouldn't assume every person who loves star wars is horny or a hoe or... right... because she loves star wars, that's why. LOL (I definitely believe she horny, though.)
 
There’s Future Progression in the Relationship

Maybe I'm not in the clear. :shock: lol

But, actually, I still think I am. Clearly, it needs to be a whole lot more "advanced" to get there. And, not even talking each other in the real world, hearing voices and whatnot, I'd say that's not that advanced. She dropped the L word, though. Don't know if it was for a mistaken idealization or "the real me", and that obviously can potentially be important.

I've had that effect on "real girls" in the past, though, so it's probably not that unrealistic.

Trying to figure how to cleanly convey the right idea with the phrase, "hurts so good". Proving hard.

https://www.theglobeandmail.com/life/health-and-fitness/health-advisor/falling-in-love-why-youll-kiss-your-sleep-goodbye/article16730134/

Falling in love? Why you’ll kiss your sleep goodbye

That's probably why. What was the first 3 months, then... lol...

Wait, probably the same thing, different set of emotions. Obsession, lust.
 
swbluto said:
https://www.yahoo.com/finance/m/82a7bc51-ca99-3996-ac52-dfaf9492c129/jobless-claims-climb-again-in.html

YEP, KNEW IT. I was sensing something happening on the street that doesn't usually happen this time of year (Pervasive arguing and fighting) that indicated a strong market trend of some kind, and this would probably be why. JOBLESS CLAIMS UP THE HIGHEST SINCE JAN 2018 - think that means LAYOFFS. I.e., recession.

Someone posted a link to https://www.washingtonpost.com/business/2019/02/12/record-million-americans-are-months-behind-their-car-payments-red-flag-economy/?utm_term=.af86cf563f67 .

A record 7 million Americans are 3 months behind on their car payments, a red flag for the economy

Yep, happened to Amanda. Presumably gigs dried up, and spent all her money and now living with parents. I wonder, does she have a car payment? Is she making it? Presumably daddy is paying for it, or something, but imagine so many people who don't have parents like hers yet have the same job and income problems she does.

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By george, I think I got it. I'll install my own septic and won't apply for the permit. I know it's a bad move because I'll probably be paying some fine down the road, so I'll be cautious and get a site design first, so that if it's in error, it won't be "too far off from what it should be".

But if it's nearly what it should be, what's the problem with applying?

It might get disapproved and you're now on their radar. Get caught living in it, fined big time, and getting caught is high since you're now on their radar.

Don't apply... no risk of show-stopping disapproval... not on their radar right away...

But if I felt confident it was designed exactly to the site plan and without a doubt, pass inspection, then I'd consider applying. Essentially, permit is optional.

The Health Board imposed a $300 penalty earlier this month on Wallace for his failure to get the septic permit.

Hope the fines I might be at risk for are more like that... lol... keep hearing $5000 this, $10000 that, lol.

Well, maybe I should apply for the permit first.

I'm thinking thru the rationale for "$5000 if you're caught living there", and I'm willing to bet that's if they're inspecting a system in use, because I can imagine that might make inspection more difficult. Probably more unpleasant.

So that's a guaranteed fine if they're inspecting a system that's in use, I bet.

But, I will assess the risk of disapproval and try for permitting and I hope if it fails inspection, they'll tell me EXACTLY what's wrong so I can fix it so it'll pass next time. I guess that's the essential hope, anyway. I guess I might be risking a small delay, at least I hope it's small, lol.

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Refusing to look at her page, but I can see she changed her main image. "I Love You So Much" it reads.

Thought it was interesting, the extreme happiness and followup tearful sadness this morning. Totally didn't realize it was valentines days until 10 p.m., and suspected maybe that's why, oddly enough. My subconscious seems to keep track of days and time better than my conscious does, lol.

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Haha, not strange at all. Melancholy is the prevailing emotion of hoes, and isn't that interesting, star wars. I shouldn't assume every person who loves star wars is horny or a hoe or... right... because she loves star wars, that's why. LOL (I definitely believe she horny, though.)
What's the concern? You haven't done anything to code or as it should be done, in the modern world. You supposedly are building a second house while the shack you call a house isn't finished at all. It sure won't pass any inspection at any point. I still cannot believe that you have anything or are who you claim to be. All we read is all talk and still no action.

Your gonna dig a septic system and install it correctly? LOL Is it for the old shack or the new one?

So how was Valentine's Day? Did you get laid on Facebook? All you talk about is, so called girlfriends. from the HEB to now Amanda. Talk is cheap. You better go out and find a real GIRL not one of those blow up ones. With your health condition you better find one before the old ticker times out.

I have dreams, but they are nothing like yours. I don't need to dream up a lover or how great I am. Dreams are dreams and that's it. good ones or bad ones. The wet ones are the ones I do remember. LOL

Still do not believe anyone like you exists on this planet. So far all we have read is BS just like area 51 was for years, and until you really show up we won't ever. I still believe you should change you SW to BSbluto.

Dan
 
DAND214 said:
Your gonna dig a septic system and install it correctly? LOL Is it for the old shack or the new one?

The new one. And yes, I'm going to install it because I believe this won't be the only one, so I might as well take the time to get good at it. Not only just the cost difference with the SKY HIGH providers.

And with it having 2 bedrooms, I wouldn't call it a shack anymore.

So how was Valentine's Day? Did you get laid on Facebook? All you talk about is, so called girlfriends. from the HEB to now Amanda. Talk is cheap. You better go out and find a real GIRL not one of those blow up ones.With your health condition you better find one before the old ticker times out.

The popular most beautiful local girl on Facebook just told me "I love you so much". So, I guess it's going good. [Actually, who am I kidding... that actually stressed me out a bit.]

Stressed out not unlike this guy.

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When it comes to topics like this, I like to be pretty indirect about it. She wasn't.

I can imagine a scene where the recipient starts crying and runs away. Yeah, that's what it feels like.

Then there was the ecstasy happening that morning vis-a-vis "true love", followed up by her telling me that later that night. So, wasn't just "Fake emotions".

But you're right, it's all fakery at this point and I'm skeptical, in particular, do I even match what she might be imagining? I like to think I'm "honest", but I suspect maybe my narcissism has a way of making me think things are better than what others may view them as. In other words, I'm not BSing... I just have a different point of view.

Actually... if I were to surmise the real reason...

it's because I'm BPD and I wonder "How could someone love someone like me? IT HAS TO BE A LIE."

Yeah, the heb chick had that look in her, she shrugged like "You really love ME? REALLY???", and I really did.

The unloved untrusting of others' love and commitment and so on. Sounds like classical BPD.

Remember how you were able to make her say, "Yes," when you asked her to be your girlfriend?

I don't understand this "asking thing". I just let them know I want them and I don't desist. Or seduce them first, depends on the situation. But asking? No, I never do that.

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Dogs, just found out the septic permit requires a survey of the property. Fresh out of those. Guess I'll have to call this guy.

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"If your partner does or says something that hurts you deeply and is unable to apologize, this is a sign that they are uncomfortable admitting any wrongdoing," relationship expert and psychic Davida Rappaport tells Bustle. This is also a sign of emotional immaturity. Saying "I'm sorry" is so simple and shows that you can take responsibility for your actions. If you're with someone who can't do that, you might have fallen in love with someone who's possibly immature and most likely not right for you long-term.

Meh, don't see any real problems with those with equal levels of "emotional maturity", even if it means they're both never wrong, lol.

You should be with a partner, not someone who's just going to wait and take orders from you. That is not the person you may want to be in a relationship with.

Bah, maybe some people don't mind being an all powerful dictator. Power tripping with females can be highly gratifying, especially in certain contexts.

"​If you find yourself imaging who the person could be rather than who they actually are, this is a huge red flag," Matlin says. ​In other words, you're creating a fantasy scenario in your head while ignoring the realities of the situation. "Sometimes we love potential more than reality because we are actually scared of true vulnerability and commitment," she says. "But this is self-sabotage in the making." So if you find that your fantasy about your relationship doesn't quite match up to reality, you may be in love with the wrong person.

Yup, this is my concern. If my tendency for maniacal fantasy might tend to lead to unrealistic fantasy expectations from others. Regardless, I'll do what my dream told me, and take pictures of both houses and send them off. That way, there should be no surprises.

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Half finished with the house framing. Think if I put my mind into it, I could get the rest done tomorrow but... I'll have to see. I already work pretty quickly.
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Looks like sales went anemic Feb 11th, coincidentally the first of the sales week. This is why I'm not noticing anything in my account, which seems somewhat odd compared to the multi-hundred last week. Doesn't look like view count is the culprit. So the question is... Economy? Competition?

It does look like Feb 11th is roughly when I noticed everyone in the local area arguing (neighbors,post office girls), presumably because of money or foodstamps OR SOMETHING.

I did post that observation on Feb 12th on Facebook...

And then Feb14th is when I found the "economy red flag articles" in an above post.

It does look like "The economy" is a plausible explanation, I guess I'll find out how persistent this trend is soon enough. 3 weeks of it would be significant.

The competition wouldn't be a satisfying conclusion given my view counts haven't changed.

Maybe everyone's dollars was being spent on valentines (feb14). Yeah, that's why I say give it 3 weeks before getting really concerned.

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So this is what "I love you so much" REALLY means...

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Wait...wait...

The background is actually jo's coffee of Austin,TX and the building literally has that already written on the wall. So, not her words, in other words.

OKAY... ohhh dude... that seemed way too dramatically out of proportion... lol.

But did she always have that image? I wonder...

Fudge, do I wanna check the timestamp, lol.

It does look like a popular place for couples to get their picture taken judging from google images.

And some guy proposed there.

And just saw a second proposal.

Maybe it's a more popular place for proposals then couples, lol.

Could see this happening.

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https://www.thetalko.com/15-pyschological-tricks-to-make-him-propose/

If all else fails, it may be time to pull out the big guns. If you don’t see your relationship headed in the right direction, you need to initiate a big change in your life to shake things up a bit. Casually bring up your desire to move to another city to pursue a new job opportunity, or throw out the idea of relocating to a new state that has awesome weather. But bringing up these ideas in passing isn’t enough, you have to make him believe you already have the plans in motion. Start researching new apartment complexes and let him know about all the awesome amenities, or let him know exactly how this new job opportunity in a new state will really further your career. Even if you don’t have any plans on actually moving, just he thought of you packing up and leaving him behind should be more than enough to get him to propose.

Maybe this is what she was trying to do with the tacoma guy, LOL. And she's sensing an opportunity to press for marriage, uh huh. Jeez. :roll:

By putting a hint of fear in his mind that someone else may come in and sweep you off your feet, he will be clamoring to find the perfect ring to make sure you’re his and only his from now until forever!

Tricks of the trade, I see! lol.

You could be completely overwhelming and stressing the poor guy out with your incessant wedding chatter. Instead, just play it cool.

Overwhelming and stressing the guy out, exactly. I was looking specifically for a "stressing out" emoji, but didn't find a satisfying one this morning, lol.

She really pushing for marriage this quickly? That seems ridiculous.

But she is ultimately seeking it, though, that does answer my question. I wasn't so sure she wasn't just "flinging around" like a hoe.
 
DAND214 said:
So how was Valentine's Day? Did you get laid on Facebook? All you talk about is, so called girlfriends. from the HEB to now Amanda. Talk is cheap. You better go out and find a real GIRL not one of those blow up ones. With your health condition you better find one before the old ticker times out.

Dan

Well, there's these two he's trying to choose between. One is so boringly perfect he's embarrassed that he's blase over her because the second one is, well, don't tell mumsy or anything. . . .

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You're being unfair. You say you don't dream up women because you don't have to. Well, he DOES have to. I mean, don't you feel bad thinking about that?

Haven't you figured out that THIS THREAD is his septic system?
 
Woo, could see I was stressing out over nothing. She was declaring love for the pizza slice, and then followed up with a "we've broken up" and I wasn't impacted by that at all, it seemed.

Had that feeling when the first cheating trauma happened, she wasn't mine anymore and could never become mine again, regardless of how hard I tried. Seemed like it since the cheating trauma did not happen this time, not even a flinch.

Stressing out because it seemed "too disproportionate".

And, I do see my anticipations were right, it could only get worse and ignorance is bliss. And she attempted it not too longer after, little sadist, lol.

So, yeah, wanna think thru this septic thing. Think I'll keep pursuing it, and simply be more relaxed about the time pressures. Seems like I'll need it because permitting doesn't seem fast in this county. I'm awaiting an answer from the site eval ppl, in terms of what I need.

Her love of pizza, she has psychopathy written all over her.

I'll keep pursuing septic while using the facilities as they become available for business. That's if septic isn't granted by the time I finish it due to delays on the septic side.

And finishing it is still high priority over business use. But, I'll be able to use it for business at night, as soon as the drywall is on and "mosquito proofed". Or when it gets too hot to continue working on it during the middle of the day...

The priority for....

-expansion (esp. during rainy days)
-finishing the house in its entirety
-acquiring septic

has not changed.

I thought I was doing it for "her", but think I'm just doing it in general. But for who exactly... I'm not sure... I think maybe the all day working on the house is just encouraging maximum effective use of my time, at all times, since it's all part of the same general category, "making money". "an object in motion tends to remain in motion" in other words.

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I guess I must've piqued her interest from the "what were you doing, suggesting I should propose" speculation with the Jo's coffee imagery. Because, she's apparently inviting me to the park after having just "broken up"... lol...

Those girls change their minds fast, don't they.

Not planning on meeting her right now.

Just finished up a third sleep (from 10:30-12 p.m., a bit unusual being that late), and took my blood sugar at 12:15 p.m., because breathing felt a little weird walking around.

102 mg/dl

Maybe I need to eat more.

Didn't eat much yesterday, wasn't hungry. Think maybe the work was impacting my hunger.
 
This web cam girl you're obsessing over---Does she at least live nearby? I mean is the fantasy that you'd meet at least workable?

Yeah, pizza lovers I guess are all psychopaths just as you say. I mean I'd be eating it a lot if I wouldn't be 250 pounds from doing it. So my ability to prevent my own self destruction obviously comes from my not being a psychopath.

But even if all pizza lovers are psychopaths, not all psychopaths are pizza lovers. I wonder what might replace that in others. . . .
 
Dauntless said:
This web cam girl you're obsessing over---Does she at least live nearby? I mean is the fantasy that you'd meet at least workable?

Yeah, pizza lovers I guess are all psychopaths just as you say. I mean I'd be eating it a lot if I wouldn't be 250 pounds from doing it. So my ability to prevent my own self destruction obviously comes from my not being a psychopath.

But even if all pizza lovers are psychopaths, not all psychopaths are pizza lovers. I wonder what might replace that in others. . . .

Well, it isn't just the pizza. The food, sexual allure, and money focus in her posts. Yeah...

I was suggesting that it was "true love" because of that personality because... she's just like me. LOL

She lives nearby, she just invited me to a downtown park this morning. I countered a suggestion of a closer alternative, lol.
 
I think you're right, actually. She only seems to know lust and "having needs met". :roll:

Extrapolating from the insight 3 guys in less than 2 months, that's a lot of partners going back 14 years. She doesn't usually post her relationships to Facebook and never updates her relationship status, but she's made an exception on my behalf, and that implied history is looking prolific! LOL

Reminds me of the exes and hoes song.

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Cause I'm the best baby that they never gotta keep

That's right, the singer found a lover in the UK, this gal is eyeing Tacoma.

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Got done with another bedroom frame, and almost finished with the backdoor frame. After I finished this frame, the rest of it's pretty easy peasy since I just have one more window to frame.

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When exactly were we in a "relationship". When she deleted her comment to that guy with me being "I'm on the fence now, I don't know if she's falling some other guy as I'm typing", I think that was it actually. BUT... that's definitely no "we're definitely bf/gf" now is it... lol...

So why she thought we were together so that I could "become an ex", I'm not sure.
 
https://www.cnn.com/2019/02/18/media/reliable-sources-02-17-19/index.html

Yeah, I'm sure you and Jussie Smollett can really feel for one another right now. Nobody believes they're out to get you, no girlfriend. If you two could get together right now you could take your minds off all of that, eh?

I'll bet he'd even like your theory on "Implied History." He'd probably like ANYTHING right about now.

Do you know Hollywood has even taken down their 'Justice for Jussie' tweets. Dang, they don't even want justice for him anymore?

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Dauntless said:
https://www.cnn.com/2019/02/18/media/reliable-sources-02-17-19/index.html

Yeah, I'm sure you and Jussie Smollett can really feel for one another right now. Nobody believes they're out to get you, no girlfriend. If you two could get together right now you could take your minds off all of that, eh?

Mmmmm... now that the mexicans have moved away, I don't believe anyone is out to get me. Sound fair?

I do realize that the 40-something guy has a bit of jealousy, and that the older guy across the street is putting up his "aggressive front" with his dogs since I'm becoming "the top dog" in the neighborhood and I'm wearing it on my chest, but so far... no ones out to get me.

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HAHAHA....

"rushes to marry". Should remember that one. The emotional side of me was like "Yeah, let's get married!", whereas the side that was thinking thru the practicality of things, which felt like it was in some palpable conflict, was like .... "that's really not a wise idea right now...".

Right now, about 5 days after that so-called "true love", a barely palpable glimmer of feeling seeing her page. But... there IS a feeling, nonetheless.

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Two things.
1) If you cant afford healthcare don’t have kids.
2) You want to create yet another tax?

I wonder how much people in the 1500s wondered... "Can we afford healthcare? Maybe we shouldn't have kids..."

Yeah, modern AMERICAN baloney. (Gotta specify the america part, insurance and hospitals pitting together against the common man.)

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You can't beat the price, or the taste and convenience, of those store-cooked Kirkland Signature rotisserie whole chickens, selling for a fixed price of just $4.99. And Costco stores churn out a lot of them -- 60 million rotisserie chickens are sold annually -- spinning in the giant ovens all day long.

Oh man, if there was a costco here locally and I had a membership, I'd probably get groceries there AT least for the rotisserie chicken. That's easily 7.99 at the local grocery.

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Need to figure out what I need for the trusses.

28 feet / 12 = 14x +1 = 15x trusses.

So, 15x 24ft 2x6s...

And for the rafters...

The width of the truss is 26 feet. Radius of 13 feet. Implies I'll need at least 14 feet, think probably 16 feet would do it.

Let's do a better calculation.

x = 13 feet
angle = 18.4 degrees

length = (x^2+y^2)^(1/2) = (13^2+[13*sin(18.4 degrees)]^2)^(1/2) = 13.63 feet. That value seems sensible.

So, 1 foot overhang needs a 14 foot 2x4.
So, 2 feet overhang as recommended would need 16 feet.

2*sin(18.4 degrees) = .6 foot drop. That's not too bad.

So 30x 2x4x16 and 15x 2x6x24

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Falling in love. Yep, think that's probably what's been happening tonight and... since a couple days ago. This is no infatuation, don't get these sentiments at the 4 month mark with infatuation, oh heck no.

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Think I recently figured out what exactly she was responding so well leading to her invitation, despite her "breaking up" and running off with another bloke.

In essence, I was pretending it was no big deal she was leaving, then I immediately condemned it and told her to get back here RIGHT NOW!

It's funny how I sometimes don't even know what I'm saying until a couple days later, lol.

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There are two great days in a person's life - the day we are born and the day we discover why

True, the why. Falling in love. The meaning of life, universe and everything. And ones true calling. I'm sure they're inextricably linked.
 
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